Almost all of my courage in the face of difficulties comes from Sinan. It's not just because he's strong enough, but because I've relied on him all these years. I thought that one day I would leave him and go to the mountains and forests, that we would turn against each other because of the heavenly realm, and even that I would die at his hands one day, but I never thought that one day, this man who was omnipotent in my eyes, so powerful that he could protect me casually, would also be in danger. The last time he brought Ah Shu back, I was still lucky, thinking that there was no problem in this world that he couldn't solve, but today, they came to tell me that this man I have always admired and trusted, and now because of me, I have fallen into a disaster that even he can't solve, and his whereabouts are still unknown, and his life and death are unknown.

What about me?

I, the epiphany that has been clinging to him to grow, what else can I do without him?

I suddenly felt a suffocating despair that overwhelmingly trapped me in a cage. I was out of breath and desperately trying to get out of here, only to feel a hot sensation coming from the left side of my face.

"Su Qingfu, have you made enough trouble? Go crazy when you encounter a problem, this is what Sinan taught you? He is in danger now, and he is waiting for you to save him, are you going to save him like this?"

Xiuhe yelled at me as he shook the hand he had just slapped me. He looked at me the way he looked at his enemies during the Battle of the Three Realms. Normally, I would not hesitate to ask him to pay ten times and a hundred times for this slap, but at this moment, I just want to snuggle up in my chair and don't want to react.

Seeing that I was completely unresponsive to this like a dead corpse, Xiuhe's anger continued to soar, and he pulled his collar irritably, and continued to curse mercilessly and loudly:

"Co-author Si Nan has spent so many years teaching you such a waste? Where is the momentum that you swore to take revenge just now? Si Nan has an accident, and you follow it, so who will save him? Pointing to the heavenly realm? Why should he save the heavenly realm because of the injury suffered by a monster, are you ready to watch him die? I really didn't expect that Si Nan tried his best to teach you such a coward who is greedy for life and afraid of death, and allows others to slaughter, it is really a shame to die. ”

"Otherwise, what else do you think I can do? ”

I hung my head, my tone was flat, there was no emotional fluctuation at all, not even a sob, like a lifeless puppet. Xiu He listened, raised his hand and wanted to give me another slap, but he didn't expect to be stopped by the Jade Soul Gui on the side when he was falling.

"What are you doing?"

Xiu He angrily withdrew his hand from Jade Soul Gui's hand and glared at him incidentally. Jade Soul Gui didn't care about this, but just signaled Xiu He to go to the side to extinguish the anger first. Then he walked up to me, looked at me in a condescending manner, and asked:

"Su Qingfu, you just promised me that you won't let history repeat itself. ”

"At that time, I didn't know that something happened to Sinan. ”

"But the one who promised me was you, not him. ”

"Then what can I do? What do you think I can do if I can't even do Sinan? Yes, that's right, I'm Sinan's apprentice, so what? What has he done to me all these years, and what I'm like? Do you think I don't want to save him? Don't I want to? I finally confirmed my heart and thought that I got him, but it turned out to be like this. All the people are hurt because of me, but I have no power to protect them. It's better that I commit suicide, as long as I destroy my essence, those people can't recover the stone, and everyone will be fine. ”

The louder I spoke, the more angry I became, and at the end I smiled self-deprecatingly, and then curled myself up in my chair without looking up again. I thought that in this way, I could escape their persuasion or accusations against me, and let me quietly digest this fact that destroyed me, but I didn't expect Xiuhe to tear me directly from the chair after listening to me, pull me by the collar, pull me to the window, push open the window, and said to me through gritted teeth:

"Okay, you want to die, right, come, I'll show you first. ”

"You see, now this is the third floor, if an ordinary person jumps down, there must be no danger to his life, at most he is paralyzed in bed, unable to move for life. You must have seen this kind of pain after living for so long, and you don't need to say it, you know it in your own heart. I once told you that you are an existence that has transcended the Three Realms but does not belong to the Western Heavenly Holy Land, and that you are already dead in the Book of Life and Death, but you are still alive, do you know what this means? This means that you cannot die at all. Even if you destroy the essence, you will not die, you will continue to live in the form of a spirit, and then give birth to a second essence. If you want to die, you'll be like the people who jumped off a building here and were paralyzed in bed. The only difference between you is that their suffering is gone when they die, while you, for the rest of your life, will continue to suffer forever and ever. ”

"Su Qingfu, do you really think that death is such an easy thing for you? If it's really that simple, then I don't mind killing you with my own hands right now. ”

Xiuhe's fierce voice was mercilessly poured into my body with the biting cold wind of the night, as if another layer of hot oil had been poured on my already tormented heart. But I didn't feel any pain, I didn't feel pain, I just felt a twitch in my stomach. I wanted to cry and yell at someone like Xiuhe, but when he let go of my hand, I didn't do anything but crouch on the ground and started retching.

Xiu He knew that he had said a lot of things that he shouldn't have said on the spur of the moment, and after saying that, he frowned and regretted it a little. Seeing me like this, he couldn't do anything to me anymore. After a slight sigh of disappointment, his attitude softened. At last he squatted down in front of me, patted me gently on the back, and comforted me in the tone of his usual love words:

"Little Twelve, I know that Sinan is your God, something has happened to him now, you feel unbearable. But you also have to know that feelings are mutual, even if you don't have any ability, if he loves you, then you are his everything. Therefore, you are also Sinan's heaven, he has done countless things in order to do what should not be done, as long as you need it, he has done it for you. You think you can't do anything on your own, but we all know that he only needs you now, and even a look from you can give him strength. Believe me, you are the boss lady of the past life, you have been through so many stories, you have the ability to face it all. Running away won't solve the problem, cheer up, and all of us will help you. ”

"You are Sinan's hope, even if you die, you should do your best, so as not to live up to his feelings for you. ”