Somehow, after listening to Xiuhe's words, I suddenly remembered the scene where Sinan kissed me for the first time. I couldn't understand why I felt such a deep despair in that first kiss until I finally found the answer.

I used to think that he would mind that I always had a stone in my heart and couldn't love him wholeheartedly. But in fact, in the words of reconciliation, I suddenly understood that what was between us was not my identity or status at all, but my silence and cowardice.

It's that I never showed my heart for Sinan, I resisted him, ignored him, and refused to give him any response. I forcibly attached my own fears and worries to him to comfort myself, but I didn't think about what he had paid for this love. I blindly took greedy demands, escaped reality, and took all his good things into my arms like a vampire, never refused, and even put them in the shackles of "master and apprentice". I'm so selfish that I can't help it, that's why he's desperate, and that's why he thinks I'm so hard-hearted.

But I know that my feelings for him are not what he thinks, I love him, even if I never express a word, even if I always think that he will leave me, I still love him. I've always had the courage to give everything for him, just like I didn't even blink an eye when he pierced my chest with a sword many years ago. It's just that we all live in our own imagination to get to where we are today.

I don't want to hide anymore, I can't hide anymore, this time, I want to be his hero.

Suppressing that disgusting feeling, I slowly stood up and asked Xiu Hedao:

"You say I'm being watched, what evidence do you have?"

Seeing that I was finally willing to face the reality and wanted to solve the problem, Xiuhe immediately swept away the sadness on his face, and analyzed with me very seriously:

"The remaining spells in Chenbei's wound are the same as some of the breath in this room. I had already inspected the entire teahouse before you came, and there were sure to be traces of outsiders upstairs and downstairs, and the room you were in just now had the strongest smell. ”

"In this way, we can now roughly conclude that the person who placed the curse on Gui Yuan has done something to me. In other words, the initiator is indeed someone I am familiar with. ”

I tried to calm myself so that my voice sounded normal. But the feeling of betrayal was so acute that in the end, I almost clenched my fists, gritted my teeth, and spoke word by word. Seeing this, the Jade Soul took my hand, forcibly made me release my fist, and then said to me:

"Anger will only make you lose your judgment, calm down, let's ask anyone who has been there in your absence for the past few days, and has gone up to the second floor. ”

"Soul Gui is right, calm down, let's take it one step at a time, go downstairs first and ask what they are talking about. ”

Xiuhe said as he pushed the two of us out of the room. I was thinking about who that person would be, and I was in a trance, and the sound of repairing behind me suddenly sounded, and I was so frightened that I almost fell from the upstairs.

"Little Twelve, have you ever wondered who that person is?"

"I was thinking, I forgot about it when I was so scared by you. ”

"Oh, your attitude has become faster, just now you had no love to find a living soul out of your body, and now you are alive and kicking your teeth and sharp mouth. I knew I should have thrown you out the window just now, so that you could feel what it was like to be paralyzed. ”

As soon as Xiuhe regained his previous image, he began to be arrogant and talkative again. I just rolled my eyes at this, not wanting to talk to him at all. And the jade soul, who had the same idea as me, glanced at him and asked me in a voice that Xiuhe couldn't hear:

"Do you know how he became such a mother-in-law?"

I swear I really wanted to keep my sad mood alive, but when I heard the words of Jade Soul Return, I really couldn't hold back a burst of laughter. Xiuhe was also taken aback by my laughter, and couldn't help but complain:

"What's so ridiculous about discussing such a serious matter with you, hmph, sure enough, women are fickle. ”

Of course, I wouldn't betray the Jade Soul Return, so when I heard Xiuhe's complaints, I just laughed louder. Ah Shu probably recognized me from this laughter, and before I could get downstairs, he said to us:

"Sister, Ah Pu made some supper, just made it, come down and eat. ”

As soon as he heard that there was a supper, Xiuhe walked in front of the two of us. I looked at his back and still smiled faintly, but I heard Jade Soul Gui speak again:

'He's really changed a lot when I'm not around. ”

"He's for the ink ...... Well, he did make a lot of changes for you. ”

"But he still hasn't forgiven Jingrong, I know. ”

There was a hint of amazement in Jade Soul Gui's voice, and I turned my head to look at him and asked in surprise:

"Don't you have any resentment towards the Heavenly Emperor?"

Yes, but I knew that in that case, there was no personal affection for children. We have different identities and statuses, so we must look at problems from different perspectives and deal with them in different ways. I don't have any grudges to talk about, but I reconcile because of my relationship......"

"He has indeed suffered a lot of grievances in order to protect you, so for the sake of him and for yourself, as well as for me and Sinan, please treat yourself as Mo Bai for the time being. ”

Jade Soul was stunned, as if he didn't expect me to talk to him about this. I was very worried that he would not agree to my request, and I was even ready to continue lobbying, but I didn't expect luck to be on my side this time.

"I understand. ”

The Jade Soul returned to these three words and continued to walk downstairs. I looked at his back, glad, but also felt a sour feeling in my heart.

It is often said that death is not painful, but that it is those who have lost their loved ones and friends but are still alive in the world. I suddenly felt that this sentence was applied to Xiuhe, which was simply appropriate. In that big war, he not only lost many subordinates who had fought side by side with him, but also lost two of his most important friends. For so many years, he has to pretend to be the king of Hades and continue to be his Hades King and work with Jingrong, and on the other hand, he has to find ways to protect Mo Bai's identity and prevent him from committing suicide. All kinds of things were on his shoulders alone, and if it were me, he might not have been able to survive at all, but he never complained to anyone. He still lives as if nothing had happened.

But I now know that his life is not so glamorous at all, and his heart has long been full of cracks. If this matter can be resolved smoothly, I hope that I can have a strong enough heart to help him bear some of it.

Even if it's for him to forget.