I still love you so deeply, I can't help but come here, I hope to meet you around that corner, I will stand outside the coffee glass window for a long time, I believe I just saw you when I look up.

On that day of that year, you were in front of me like a fragile porcelain doll, I stood behind you, I didn't dare to approach you, I was afraid that as soon as I approached, your tight strings would break, every time I dreamed back at midnight, I didn't dare to meet you in my dreams, I was afraid to meet you, and you lost the courage to live.

I know that one day, you will find that I am behind you, and I will resent me, hate me, and be annoyed why I am not bold, and embrace you in my arms, no matter how much you push me, you can't push me away.

But I just stood in that dark corner, bearing the same pain as you alone, and I didn't want to lift you up.

Because I understand you, I'm willing to abandon you like the world, I believe in you, like believing in my brother, your world, I didn't want to integrate, but in the end, due to my forcible intervention, you are in a dilemma.

Xiao Zi, I can't let go, I can't do it, I can't rob it, I just have to wait, after leaving you, I realized that sometimes waiting is a very terrible thing, so terrible that only an empty echo is left in my heart.

My panicked heart, my restless daily life, the sunrise and sunset every day, I am like a child waiting for the verdict, every day I want it to stop, I can't help but look forward to tomorrow, I am afraid of tomorrow, because every day a new arrival, you get along with him for one less day, every day comes, the day I see you is close to another day, I live my day so paradoxically, do you know, I toss and turn every night.

The day I was able to sleep peacefully, it was I who changed my face, slipped out, and sneaked into our secret garden, but unfortunately I got lost, very funny, and lost my way in my own garden.

Before, I only knew how to follow my brother's piano to find him, and when he saw me, he took me home, but now, it is empty, there is no brother's piano, there is no laughter, there, like my dying heart, lonely echoes, no echo can be heard.

Obviously it's spring there, and there's still a slight chill, why, why is it only you, now you're not by my side, you let me go on alone, go down alone, how can I go on.

Little by little, the weather darkened, and I don't know when it started, and the light rain was like my tears that I didn't know when.

When I was a child, my brother always said that I was God's most favored child, and he always said, Xiao Yan, don't cry, if Xiao Yan cries, God cries, then the raindrops must be proof that God loves Xiao Yan, so, okay, Xiao Zi, you see, God is coming, he still loves me like this, I let the tears gently brush my face, let it fade, circle after circle of sadness......

Li Yan, you fool, I saw it, your lonely expression, I heard it, the empty echo of loneliness in your heart, what a fool, you can get lost in your own garden, obviously you bypass the flower shed in front of you, and then go straight for 200 meters, you will come to the tree where I am, as soon as you look up, you can see me hiding in the shade, but you don't, you don't look up.

Stupid, I went back and forth stupidly by myself, hey, I went to the wrong place, hey, you just walked through that place, hey, that flowergarden is going to turn right, hey! Are you a pig? I really want to pick a fruit and kill you, but I can't, my Li Yan, I can't, I'm afraid to see you, I can't go.

I held back my tears and looked at you quietly, I want to see you, I miss you, I want to hug you, but I am afraid that as soon as I approach you, I will be reluctant to let go.

Who carved such a deep scar on your face, who is it? Who is it? Is it Lin Yidie who is willing to be so cruel to you? Is she crazy? I am going crazy, how can she do this to you, but if it is you, what can I do? How can you be so stupid.

Yan, I shouldn't have left you alone, and I shouldn't have been your brother's bride in front of you.

I know, I'm too willful, did I hurt you? I'm sorry, let you watch me become someone else's bride, and the groom is not you, without your consent, I'm sorry, but, he is Li Heng, I owe him, I want to pay him back, I know you will care, but I still do this, you are always kind, if I don't do it, maybe you blame yourself for your own life, instead of making you blame yourself, it is better for you to hate me, I just want Li Yan to live his life happily.

I know that there is you behind me, and I know that there will be warmth when I turn back, why am I waiting for you to come over so stubbornly.

I'm really too much, it's obviously my fault, I still want to get your forgiveness, I want you to get close to me, but you don't, it's good, you didn't get closer, the two of us know each other best, how can you approach me, I know it's a fantasy, but I still think about it.

You are right, I was originally hated by you, after all, in this life, I chose to betray you, so you have a reason to abandon me.

I looked back and forth for my brother's piano, no, I tried to find your laughter, I couldn't find it, the world was silent, why, I couldn't see anything, I couldn't find it, I couldn't find it, don't you all want Xiaoyan?

I was pampered by all people, a lot, a lot of love, but I didn't feel anything, God, my heart, nowhere to put it, so cold in the heights, so cold......

My little Yan, poor brother, why, your back looks so lonely, you are very cold, right? I watched the news on TV, you are very dazzling on the stage, I am thinking about what kind of color your eyes are behind your mask, why, in your eyes, I can't see any actual emotion, you can't do this, music is a pleasant existence, how can you use it to become your money-making weapon.

Li Yan, in the world, I only love you, people in this world, what kind of eyes do you look at, what kind of mood you use, I don't care, from beginning to end, Li Yan, I never lie, even in front of Xiaozi, I have never lied, I love you, because you are my unique brother.

Perhaps, in the past, for us, we were too young, now, Xiaozi her, is not able to give up the fact that she loves you, even in front of me, she never hides her missing, the first thing she wakes up every day, playing the day after day, year after year to miss you can't stop, so, I decided to leave, if the three of them, if you have to be so entangled, I will fulfill you, just like you did, I quit, I am not a person of this world, I came back, just to write a beautiful ending to Xiaozi's fairy tale, to give myself a complete life。

The fairy tale ends: "The prince and the princess put on gorgeous costumes, received the blessings of the people, and lived happily ever after."

I am not the prince who belongs to her, so I can't be happy with her, so, the prince who belongs to her, Li Yan, do you put on your armor, cut down the thorns all over the mountain, walk in front of the princess, stretch out your hand, and lead the princess out of the darkness and sorrow, to the other end of the light, you can't be like the lonely moon, she can only look up from afar.

Xiao Yan, don't run away anymore, no matter what you decide, I will not be the line between you that cannot be crossed, I want to see your happy smiles, I want to see your bright future, so, please live happily in your kingdom, I will sincerely bless and pray.

That day, I wandered under the tree for a long time, I know that you are in the tree, I hide the curvature of the corners of my lips, stupid, smart as you, in the face of love, you have also become an idiot, you don't know, there is a phenomenon in the world, so that your shadow is projected from the tree through the light, and it happens to fall on my heart, you are the bright light of my life in my mottled time.

The shadow of the extinction, that is the time we have walked together, and the annual rings are the time when we are staggered on the road called sadness.

I sit awkwardly under your shadow, and I want to touch the real you through the shadow. I want to guard you on the tree, Xiao Zi, we are all tired, I look at our shadows in the moonlight, overlapping, I know, we are all angels in the world who are favored by God, but why are we obviously on the same track, living in the same world, walking on the same frequency, just like the shadows that are now intertwined with each other, but they are blending in different spaces, obviously seeing each other, we have to stagger each other's eyes, obviously in the same space, we have to stagger our route to the future called happy country together.

Time is so long, we can't catch the tail of time, not because we can't catch it, but because we can't catch it.

Many times, we are stupid, and in the cage of time, love can only be a luxury.

I want to ask you, do you still miss me? Yes, right?

Yan, in the days without you, I wandered, wandered for a long time, and when I woke up, the glass was white, and I was already unconsciously writing your name.

I'm in our fleeting youth, I'm walking on the road, I reject those who love me, it doesn't mean that their feelings are painful, my coldness to them doesn't mean that my heart doesn't have ups and downs. My sadness doesn't mean they're heavy, it's just that I don't want to hurt anyone anymore.

The two of us have sympathized with each other again and again, know and love each other again and again, even if we don't say, the original seed of love, germinated and grown, every goodbye is like a glass of spirits, burning up all our love and entanglement time, every time the love is broken, our injuries are born in vain, so, I automatically cut off all the love threads, who knows that it is reborn, love you, it has become a habit, it melts into my blood and bones, and thinking of you has become a natural instinct.

After so much time, here we are now, and we are two hundred meters apart, and the distance of two hundred meters has forcibly cut off the boundary between us and each other.

I still stand under the cherry blossom tree that hides your shadow, and I look up at the smiling shape reflected in the corners of your lips in my eyes.

Xiao Zi, my youth and you, in the ring of time, fleeting, as if from the age of fourteen, that person, that season of flowers bloomed, gorgeous, this season's flowers bloomed, became a flower failure, if you ask me, hey, Li Yan, can we go back to the past? I think I said no, that period of time that can't be returned, we want to forget but can't forget, want to abandon but can't give up, so what should we do?