Chapter 38 - From now on, I am the end of the world, and you are the cape
"Xiao Zi, I'll discuss something with you, okay?"
"Hmm"
"Let's go to the beach in the evening, shall we?"
"Why? Here, isn't it good? We've been living in the tea plantations, isn't it?"
"Very good, I want to accompany you to see the sea, didn't I say that I like to be on the beach, blowing Xiao, watching you dance? I suddenly remembered, I haven't seen your dance for a long time, just for me to dance, is it okay?"
"Well, I'll go with you tomorrow. β
"It's an appointment. β
"Well, it's an appointment. β
Li Heng, maybe I'm a fool a lot of the time, I think I don't listen, I don't watch, I don't want to, time can stop, I only love you, love like a fool, it's good.
Every day you are by my side, I am like living in a fairy tale, I want to give you the best, even if you don't allow it, even if you feel distressed, even if you are reluctant, I still want to give you, I always want to give you happiness, you used to be like a person who doesn't eat fireworks, sometimes I just lean on your side, and I also feel that you are far away from me, far away, now that you are back, I am not like before, I don't bother you, I don't stick to you, just stand quietly next to you like that, every time, I have something on my mind, I never tell you, I never let you know, just let you guess like that, this time, I want to approach you myself, and I won't let you get closer to my heart againγ
If you believe in love, that's stupid, I'm the fool, because I've always believed in love, just like I've always believed that you will come back, those years, we fell into the river of love, can't distinguish between dream and reality, so, in the end, we will go to a dead end, now, just want to love so simply, all along, I have always thought so, this change, I also did not expect
Looking at you, I find myself constantly changing, every day, every day growing, I can feel my heartbeat, I can feel your feelings, but I pretend not to find out those years that we have missed.
I've been, always, I haven't found out, that's love, it's love, I'm really like a fool, I love you, and you love me like a madman, I really hate this kind of ending, that's why I hate it, so I want to rewrite our love story.
I don't have any other expectations! In my mind, in my heart I only think of you, I fool Now, I want to give you all I have, I want to be with you, this is my true love.
That day, if I lost you, I had nothing, and it was because of you that I had Yan, Jeongkook for you, I had love, and it was because you came back that I had the courage to make today's decision.
It was because I came back here, back to this place where we met, this garden that recorded everything we loved, I thought I would burst into tears, but I didn't expect it to be full of vicissitudes.
This love, you and I are already full of exhaustion.
When you weren't with me, I followed the road you walked, all the way forward, I just wanted to walk the road you walked, I wanted to know what kind of mood you had, but when I went to walk, I realized that I was stupid, maybe the world has already changed, what I insisted on? It's you, and it can only be you.
I thought that I had walked the way you were going, maybe I found a reason to stop falling in love with you, then I could find the motivation to live, it turned out that I was really wrong, when I wanted to die instead of you, when I saw Li Yan disregarding my life for me, I lost the qualification to love you, and I also lost the qualification to love him, but I still want to love, love hard.
When the scenery of meeting you flashed in front of my eyes, I was a little stunned, I didn't know if I loved you or loved him, what was it for? The three of us were so entangled, I wanted to leave at that time, maybe it would be better, but when Li Yan said that: "I just want to leave my place in your heart, I just want you to be able to look back when you are tired, I have always been there." β
I have lost the reason to leave, such a person, I hurt him, what is the use of my life, in exchange for your life and his life, just that sentence, with the life of the person I love, what qualification do I have to waste my life again, so, I stand in front of you, with all my strength to stand in front of you, knowing that what awaits us is another parting, and it is a parting that will never see each other, I still choose, you said, leaving is to come back, what about now? Come back because of leaving? Maybe.
My heart still aches, and now that you've come back, things have changed.
I never regret it, I don't know, I don't want to, I don't even know myself, I only know that I will accompany you through this last road, and I have no regrets.
I thought that a long time ago, I would have accepted your death, and I would have walked gently into the crowd, with that indifferent smile, and a trace of casual sadness flashing in my eyes, through the crowd, never looking back.
Maybe I think of myself too strongly, Li Heng, I have that inconsequential smile, and I have never faded that smile, but I don't want to fall that faint shadow into your eyes, seeing my sadness, I have long learned to be cruel to myself.
It's a little hot, the weather is finally hot, is summer coming? You have always liked the summer beach, watching your smile gradually melt into the sparkling sea, your mood is not a piece of flickering, is it incomparably warm. Now, I don't want to see your moment of desolation, like the despair in your heart, as if there is no end, waiting for us to come beyond imagination.
All the warmth was over, like the boundless darkness, the crowd passed by me, their faces were tired, or satisfied, or lonely, or expectant, or a little excited, or hesitant, or ignorant, but no one was as looking forward to the night as I was.
My figure, slowly blended into the vast crowd, I didn't look back, just as I decided to leave, obviously wanted to cry, but held back the tears, obviously wanted to stay, but silent, obviously reluctant, but pretended to be chic, in my bones I flowed desperate breathing, the face showed a smile that has nothing to do with Fengyue, Heng, I just want to remember the most beautiful me before you leave.
The purple dress was lightly wrapped on her, the white tassels were flying in the sea breeze, her long hair was tangled in the wind, and her wrists were transparent glass, which reflected colorful light in the moonlight, and her eyes flashed with crystalline light.
The dream is no longer a dream, in the dream I smiled happily, the slightly cold tears in my eyes, quietly swallowed, finally, I watched you approach me, step by step, what flowed from your body, the slightly cool breath, the lingering cold, the sunset when it sank, I saw the bottom of your eyes, a large area of shade, do not ask you to be with you forever in this life, because I know that you do not belong to this world, it is I who left him in this world, so in the end, I can no longer find the figure in my heart that is approaching me, I think of today, I am also the same as you, whether there is also that cold breath on the bodyDo I have one?
The moment you approached me, I didn't shed tears, because you said that you like to smile at me, I endure, with that indifference, I just want you to remember, I am also so quietly waiting for your return, has been quiet, even if I feel sad, I will not let you know, because I said, I want to make myself strong all the time, always strong, whether happy or sad.
Maybe that world is no longer suitable for me, three years ago, three years later, I thought about it for a long time, a long time, a long time, and I couldn't think of a reason, and in the end, you and I missed, like that dead flower, will be thanked after all, there is no result, and there is no process.
Cherish the people in front of you, what a funny language, without sorrow and joy, then what is the meaning of living?
Heaven is so merciful after all, I don't believe that this cherishing will have a good result, what should be far away, still have to go away, so I don't want to see your pain again at this moment when I am waiting for you to approach.
I asked for it, so I won't regret it, it's like I don't regret it, maybe that's it, so I'm cutting my heart again and again, watching the blood of that heart drift to the sea, the red in the eyes, what a ridiculous world.
I have always believed that the world is beautiful, love is also beautiful, it is dark, you are not there, what am I still nostalgic for?
I'm still on the road of no return, maybe you can still protect me now, but what about in the future?
One day, you will leave after all, knowing that you want to stay, but we are powerless, not that I gave up my dream, but that my dream abandoned us.
Ordinary and ordinary things are blessings, we all have to know how to cherish blessings, I understand, if we give up Li Yan, there will be so much pain, so much pain.
Will there be sunshine again? I used to believe in miracles, but now I don't, right?
Every day is different, but I don't know when it started, every day, there is always some cold breath on my body, and the road is still very long, so how long does the time we have? One day, what we cherish, will abandon us, and in the end, we will also come naked, *go naked, so what are we waiting for? Maybe tomorrow is the end, so why can't we be brave, at this moment, in our time, in the dream of only you and me.
Xiao Sheng drifted away with the sea breeze, Situ Zi danced with the notes, smart and elegant, the long tassels were entangled in the wind, and the bright eyes were full of endless love, Heng, did you see it? My most beautiful appearance, dancing only for you......
Li Heng, from now on, I will accompany you through the end of the world and the cape......