She pulled him up and crossed the crowd, she couldn't control the eyes of the crowd around her, Li Yan was hers, she was very unhappy now, really unhappy, what was the result, she couldn't control it, and it had nothing to do with her.

What she wants is nothing more than the person in front of her, and what this person in front of her wants is nothing more than to accompany him by herself, if so, as you wish, you can guard him like this, this small happiness, na, Li Yan, I owe you, I can't pay it back, so I promise it by myself, how about it, in the final analysis, I earned it, people all over the world want you, and you can only choose me, because your heart is like this, give it to me, is it really good?

In the dreary afternoon, there was an unknown heat, she looked at the familiar but unfamiliar Li Yan in front of her at a loss, she hated her cowardice a little.

Yan, where is that gentle you, why do I feel that you in front of me are very strange at this time! Maybe it's because I haven't seen you for too long? Or is it because Heng is gone, does her coercion make you have to be strong?

Li Yan bent down and picked off the elegant wild chrysanthemum, the faint fragrance of flowers seeped into his heart, he put the chrysanthemum into her palm, the fragrance of flowers filled her heart, her eyes were slightly red, began to moisten, and her heart flowed with indescribable sadness, she laughed silently, she thought if she could just do it, swallowed her tears back, obviously he was still the same him, isn't it, now he is like this, once upon a time, he held himself stupidly, silently, stupidly stuffed what he had in his hand, what he didn't, and stuffed it into her palm like a brain, and didn't speak, he just looked at him like that, at a loss。

Even if his brother is still alive, he is like this, staring at himself in a daze unscrupulously, inexplicably sad, always being horribly frank, and writing everything on his face.

That, obviously not even hurt in front of the person he loves, and he doesn't bother to hide it, is such a transparent him, but not who I am, I am in front of you, inexplicably a little humble, the self who doesn't even know how to distribute love, simply thinks that giving Heng double love will make the guilt feel less, only to find that there is nothing to be done......

Ah, ah, he smiled, faintly, just like the fragile and delicate glass boy in his memory, she hooked her fingers and gently tapped the young man's forehead, na, Yan, it's time to come back to her senses, the girl's chuckle woke up the distracted teenager in the afternoon, and at the same time woke up the whole summer, dizzy and drowsy afternoon......

The blue sorrow of the glass boy turned into a trace of mist, and there was an unknown emotion in his long eyelashes, which he was reluctant to fall, like a white cloud drifting in the sky, which obviously looked bright as ever, and the blue sky behind him had already been surging, and the wind and clouds had changed color.

"Xiaozi, I'm sorry, I thought that I withdrew from your world and would make you slowly forget your brother, but later I found out that you couldn't forget him, so you found a stand-in, right? I'm angry, if you really want a stand-in, why don't you look for me, obviously I'm more like him, how can you choose him instead of me, I'd rather take it than see you pretend to smile sweetly in someone else's arms, if I come back, turn your peaceful life into a mess, I didn't mean to, I really miss you, I miss my brother, I just want to come back and see, two years ago, I thought I was hiding, time would heal your wounds, my scars, I tried to hide from those hurts, I told me that I would forget everything about you and my brother, but Xiaozi, I'm sorry, I think about it once, my heart hurts once, I hate myself for not having enough ability to save him, Xiao Zi, I want him to live, I really want him to live, I want us to go back to the past together. ”

The chrysanthemums on the trail bloomed white and a little desolate, just like Li Yan's heart that day, it was obviously very painful, he endured it, didn't say anything, and let the wound collapse and become inflamed......

In this world, there is no medicine to suppress his pain, it is an unspeakable heartache, he endures, it hurts, he wants to cry, and the reality wants him to laugh, he wants to shout, and the reality wants him to be silent, he wants to show weakness, and the reality wants him to be strong, he doesn't know how much his heart can endure, he thought that his heart hurts, hurts, he will get used to it, he will be numb, and now he finds that her smile, a look back, a hug, he wants to give his life, he wants to get, it's fate, she is the only antidote he wants.

"Yan, I'm very happy that you can come back, and at the same time I also understand that we don't have a reason to forget each other, we can't forget him, when you leave, I thought you would be happy, okay, you see, you are a natural star, no matter where you go, there will be people who will willingly give everything for you, and she loves you very much, you are very worthy, aren't you?" Situ Zi looked at Li Yan with a smile, and there was a trace of pain in her eyes that was slowly hidden under her eyelashes......

He sighed softly in his heart, smiled wordlessly and bitterly, he pretended to be calm and said, "Do you think I can accept that woman? She is a murderer, and I will live in a world of resentment for the rest of my life, Xiao Zi, do you know what is the most painful thing that makes people suffer?" I don't know, I'm telling you, I just want her to fall in love with me, and then I abandoned her fiercely, no reason, no reason, I thought I could do it, but now I find that I can't do it, in my world, like is like, hate is hate, the reason why I came back, simply I miss you, so I came back. Li Yan chuckled and looked at her, silent joy permeating......

"Yan, you hate her, I hate her, but in fact, it's not her fault, she just loves the wrong person, in the end, I'm still an indirect murderer, all these years, you tortured her, it's enough, the one you should hate is me, if I never appeared in your world, he might live longer, why do you attach my hatred to her, isn't it?"

She didn't know how to open her mouth to clarify what happened back then, after all, the truth was in front of them, and many words were pale and powerless to refute.

They were silent, only the wind blew through the treetops, the sound of "rustling", in the air, the subtle breath was flowing, under the fault of the iceberg, something cracked, none of them broke the paper, just like that, let the wind of the air blow, blow through the heart one after another unspeakable wounds, in pain, in self-healing......

He comes back, he leaves, he comes back, will he still leave? None of this can return to the original daily life, and it cannot return to the past daily life.

Time, an executioner, drew one blood-red cut after another on their hearts, for unknown reasons, regardless of the result, this is called growth.

There are some things that do not follow the originally set path, deviate, detour, fork, the next step, how it will go, no one knows, they don't want to know, the only thing she remembers, his departure, has long emptied her heart, the source of her remaining courage to survive is to miss him, if one day, she loses even these things, then she has no point in living.

"Yan, I'm not as good as you think, and I'm not as important as my place in your heart, in the years you didn't know, I slowly changed in the long river of time. Her low tone broke the silence, she knew that Li Yan minded her and Li Heng's past, after all, in the years of the year, the three of them came together, without any secrets and no concealment.

From the past to the present, she has never denied that Li Heng has stayed in her heart, very deeply and profoundly, he is not unaware, nor is he pretending not to see, her heart has never lied, never, she doesn't want to be unfair to him, and she doesn't want to be unfair to Shangguan Yang, she knows very well what she is doing now, and she also knows very well what she wants?

Li Yan is dangerous, Li Heng once said so, he once told her to stay away from him, in the past, she didn't understand, obviously they were brothers, why did he tell himself to stay away from him, and later understood that no one could escape from a realm called Li Yan.

When she found out that it was all too late, the shadow had dwelt in her heart for some time, and had taken root in her heart unconsciously, and she wanted to uproot it before it had yet to grow and take shape, and when she thought about pulling it out, the pain was incomparable.

He has a kind of magic, a kind of magic called having to fall in love, and there is a transparent heart hidden under the beautiful smile, and a lot of unconsciously, you enter the play with him, enter the painting, and have love, he will kill your only remaining reason.

If she didn't have Heng similar to Yan by her side at that time, if she didn't meet Heng first, she loved him, would be crazy for him, obsessed with him, and have no hesitation for him, he is such a person, so good that you can't refuse his approach, his overtures, and his sincerity.

With the death of Li Heng, time passed day by day, in her heart, the memory of Yan was blurred, the memory of Heng became clearer and clearer, and missing Li Heng became an indispensable time for her to do homework every day.

It wasn't until the day he came back that the memory of Li Yan in her heart surfaced little by little, and she was shocked that the memory of Yan in her heart was not blurred, but that there were too many memories about him, so much that she had nowhere to put it, so much that it exceeded her load, she lost her constant, and at the same time lost Yan, she thought that Li Yan hated her, and hated her as a matter of course, after all, she robbed the person he loved the most, so she could only choose to be dusty, chose to escape, and chose not to remember, she has never understood a truth, how can memory be forgotten if she wants toIt's not that she doesn't want to remember, it's not that she doesn't want to remember, it's just that she recalls too much, and when she remembers that he has left, her heart hurts so much that she can't get it anymore, and she is afraid of the pain, so she seals the wound.

If once she told herself the fact that he had left, she didn't know how to face the days without him, just like when Li Heng was three meters behind her, she could see his smile when she looked back, his smile was the source of her peace of mind, if the source could not be found, what kind of despair it was, because she couldn't see the edge, so she sat down on the edge of the cliff, listened to the wind and rain, and didn't want to remember even if time passed.

It's like when she looks back one day, when she can't find him, her heartache makes her breathless, only to realize that he is long gone, but she can't accept the fact that he is gone......