After receiving a snack from the singer, I sat cross-legged in my rocking chair and unceremoniously began to nibble on potato chips. Lige couldn't help but laugh as he watched me get along with potato chips like a rabbit nibbling on a carrot.

"Look at you, how do you look like an old woman who is more than 10,000 years old, isn't this just a child?"

"Have you ever seen an old woman over 10,000 years old, and you just say that I don't look like it? ”

"What's wrong? Did my student make you angry?"

I know I can't avoid mentioning Ah Ye to Lige, but I really haven't been mentally prepared yet. So when I heard Lige mention Ah Ye, I still wanted to cry for a moment.

I can whitewash the peace in front of outsiders, when nothing happens, but in the face of people related to this matter, I can't hold back the self-blame and guilt that swells in my heart.

If I could have woken up Shu earlier, Ye might have been able to hold out until we found a container for her.

If I had realized Ah Ye's intentions earlier, Ah Ye would not have used his essence to awaken Ah Shu.

I have always understood the principle that heaven is orderly and life and death are fateful, but after I began to understand the emotions of the world over the years, I became more and more unwilling to accept such a reality, so I have been sticking to my errand, hoping to make up for more people's regrets. However, these recent events have made me feel more and more that many times, in fact, the person who is most powerless is me.

I always thought I could give them hope, bring them fulfillment, but what was the result? It turned out that I was going to watch them fall into samsara again with regret and compromise.

Death put an end to all of them, but at the same time it left an indelible mark on my heart, tormenting my mind from time to time. As a result, I learned how to hide my feelings, lie to myself that nothing happened, and how to pretend to be stupid, how to be willful, and then carefully hide my old heart in a corner where no one can find it.

I always thought that the human heart is like age, it gets older little by little, and only now did I realize that I was wrong.

In fact, sometimes it only takes a moment for it to grow old.

And my demon heart is the same.

I never imagined that one day I would find that after a great experience of joy and sorrow, I could effortlessly control these emotions in an instant, but today, I know that I can do it.

Should I be glad? Or should I still act as if nothing happened?

It's a really hard choice.

My heart was full of thoughts, and when Lige saw that I hadn't answered for so long, he had already guessed a little bit of the reason in his heart, and he didn't continue to ask anything, but just walked over and sat down next to me face to face, looking at me sincerely:

"So please I'm just an excuse, I found out that you really have a constitution that is easy to cause disasters, and I have a lot of bad luck. ”

"She did come for me, but ......"

"You don't need me to tell you the truth that everyone has a life, you know better than me. I haven't had any bad luck today, so I don't have anything to share with you, but if you want to tell a story, I can hear it. ”

It's rare for Lige to be so serious, and I know he's helping me with stress in his own way. I don't know why, but looking into his eyes, I suddenly felt as if I had found a kind of leaning on.

A kind of real, touchable reliance.