When I walked on the street in despair, all the good memories with An Bing during the day had been shattered by Zhang Xiaoyao's punch.

I still remember what Zhang said to me when he left, if I dared to find An Bing, he would tear the family apart.

Thinking of this, my eyes were eclipsed, and I thought of her fair side face and long hair, she was really beautiful......

But in the same way, the wad of banknotes she took out of her wallet in the afternoon was also inseparable from Zhang Xiaoyao and his father, right?

Why didn't An Bing tell me what she had been through in the past few years, and her family? Maybe she was afraid that I would have a burden? She didn't tell me that she had a stepfather who was very good to her, nor did she say anything about her biological mother, and the only time she said anything about Zhang Xiaoyao was because she wanted to protect me......

The best An Bing, but I'm really not the best Chen An, maybe since three years ago, we have been people from two worlds, no matter how hard I try, we are no longer in the same dimension, right?

I promised Zhang Xiaoyao that I would not take the initiative to find An Bing again, I would keep my distance from her, but in the same way, he would be very good to An Bing's mother and daughter, they are the real family in law, and I, nothing, even if An Bing's mother saw me, she would shake her head.

After all, Zhang Xiaoyao and them are only one family now......

Thinking of this, I smiled helplessly, at this time, I realized that I was so ridiculous, Chen An, how old are you!

When I walked at the intersection, looking at the dim street lights, and looking at the traffic lights in confusion, I was a little confused, but who is not confused about their youth?

Seeing that there was a small shop that was not closed, I walked in: "Boss, buy a pack of cigarettes".

At this time, there was no one on the street, squatting on the side of the road, I lit the first cigarette of burning youth, when the smoke gradually rose, I only felt choked, coughing to tears, but I still smoked a cigarette, this bitterness, only I can know, right?

At this time, my phone rang, and I saw that it was a text message from An Bing, and she went home and asked me if I had gone back to school.

After seeing it, I was a little moved, and I sent a text message with a wry smile: An Bing, when are you going to tell me about your past three years.

There was silence for a long time, and finally she replied to me that next month, on her birthday, she would tell me everything.

In fact, Zhang Xiaoyao didn't tell me much, maybe because of that sentence, he promised An Bing some things not to say.

may be because of this sentence, how did An Bing get sick, and on that rainy day with majestic rain, how did she find her mother who she hadn't seen for many years, and what did she go through to become what she is now......

Perhaps, I am not qualified to know.

.......

The next day, I came very early, of course not for An Bing, I want to be admitted to a university that is a little farther away, I hope to be able to stay away from Zhang Xiaoyao and An Bing, because I like it, so I don't plan to tell An Bing everything, I don't want her to be too embarrassed.

"Brother, it's early." An Bing comes early every day, and she is always followed by Junzi, who doesn't like her much, it's equivalent to a little follower, always following behind.

And I didn't have any expression, just staring at the desk, with an expressionless face, maybe I was a little numb, right?

An Bing looked at me strangely, looking puzzled, but didn't say anything, but sat back in his place.

I took a deep breath, I just felt a lot of pressure, I didn't know how to comfort myself, it is no exaggeration to say that An Bing is my motivation and goal to live in the past few years, when a person loses his direction, you don't know where to go.....

"Chen An, for you". At this moment, another girl sat down next to me and placed a box of yogurt on my desk.

Seeing the yogurt on the desk, I frowned: "Tangning, this is what you gave me?"

"Well, didn't you say before that you didn't eat breakfast, Miss Ben was afraid that you would be hungry and not come to class, and I wouldn't be bored if I didn't have the same table at that time?" Tang Ning was still smiling, wearing a black and white school uniform jacket, looking indescribably innocent.

"Well, thank you." I gave her a grateful look.

"It's okay, we're at the same table." Downing said, looking for today's class book in his drawer.

Looking at the yogurt on the table, I was very moved, really very moved, when you are brilliant, maybe you will disdain even the best things, when you are down, a piece of bread may be the greatest comfort.

I am very empty now, and I am especially grateful to Downing, in fact, this is the real meaning of Downing that left a pivotal mark in my heart.

I didn't help me avoid being expelled because her dad was from the Education Bureau, or I didn't see her differently because of the warmth of staying at her house for one night.

Sometimes, I like it, maybe it's because of a box of yogurt when you're in the cold, it's as simple as that.

In the past, at noon, Tang Ning would eat with friends, and in addition to me with my roommate, An Bing would also be with us, and then Junzi would always be a sycophant in the back, and when I liked this kind of life, I had to give up.

"Tang Ning, can I go to dinner with you at noon?" I thought about it and said.

After listening, she was a little surprised: "Ah, me, aren't you ...... with An Bing."

"No, it's not necessary." I said with a frown.

"Ahh Looking at me, Tang Ning looked a little surprised, and she glanced in An Bing's direction again.

When it was noon, I quickly left the classroom and did not wait for An Bing.

"Chen An, you go slowly!" Tang Ning was a little annoyed by my urging, and strode over.

Looking at me, Tang Ning thought for a while and asked, "Chen An, are you quarreling with An Bing?" Anyway, I don't think you're in the right state today."

"Didn't quarrel, didn't say anything". I said with a blank face.

"Huh, that doesn't suit your style?" said Downing as he walked.

"Okay, she's not my own sister, what does it have to do with me? she has a brother!" I said with a frown, impatiently.

......

Tang Ning saw that my face was not good, but he was helplessly flattened and didn't speak.

When I got back to my dormitory at noon, I lay on the bed with my pillow in my arms.

After a while, Junzi came back, and I could hear his scolding voice from afar, and as soon as I entered the dormitory, I dragged my pillow away: "What do you mean Chen An, why do you run so fast at noon today?"

"What's the matter with you, does it have anything to do with you?" I said, grabbing back the pillow and glaring at him.

"Grass, are you a cow now, my goddess didn't eat at noon because of this, so I'll have to take care of it!" Junko said to me standing upright.

I was irritated: "That's not hungry!"

Shunzi was a little speechless when he was angry: "I'm grass! Chen An, I really didn't expect you to be such a person, some time ago, I kept saying that An Bing is your sister, and your life is about to be taken out, now it's good, turn your face and don't recognize people, right?"

"Is it because you like Downing? Tell me, I see you're walking pretty fast at noon." Junko sat down and had to reason with me, as if she would not give up.

"Grass!Junko!Can't you tell me to be quiet?If I don't have a reason, will I ignore An Bing?If you want her to be nice, then shut your mouth!" I glared at him viciously.

Seeing my fierce eyes, Junko gradually became a little stunned: "What are you?"

I really didn't want to straighten out someone with an IQ like Zi, so I put the pillow over my face again, not knowing what to say.

As soon as I close my eyes now, Zhang Xiaoyao's words echo in front of my mind repeatedly, the gap between us, and An Bing's illness, whether they are doing well or not, Zhang Xiaoyao is up to him, I want to be honest!

Thinking of this, I couldn't stand it anymore, and I threw away the pillow hard, grass!

I don't know what to do, for the next year, I haven't said anything to An Bing?

I was a little confused, I suddenly slapped myself hard, I was really useless! I couldn't even protect my own sister, compared to his Zhang Yaoyao, I was indeed inferior to him, except for painful memories, I didn't bring An Bing anything.

Thinking of this, I was lying on the bed, and a tear stain crossed the corner of my eye.

In the past few days, I have tried my best to avoid An Bing, not to talk to her, to come to class late, to leave the earliest after class, this is my day, a muddy day.

That night, An Bing sent me a text message: What exactly did I do wrong, why did you do this?

I didn't reply to her, just silence.

On the afternoon before the Mid-Autumn Festival holiday, An Bing finally couldn't help it, and she stopped me as soon as she got out of class: "Chen An, what do you mean?"

This time she wasn't calling me brother, she was angry, and there was resentment and confusion in her eyes.

I glanced around, I wanted Downing to be my reason to be by my side, but she didn't know when she had quietly left.

Everything is destined, since you can't hide, why not face it.

Whenever I want to say something very heartless, but I can't say it, I really don't have the courage, I can't bear to hurt her.

"Are you talking?" An Bing was a little anxious.

At this time, the people in the class had already left, I looked at the desk, suddenly stretched out my hand, hugged An Bing tightly, and felt her body temperature, I was really reluctant to her.

"Brother, are you particularly reluctant to me, but you are embarrassed to say it, so did someone tell you what it was?" An Bing was hugged by me, and gradually became a lot gentler.

My eyes flashed with a hint of complexity, and I suddenly let go of her: "No, you go, I don't have a good impression of you at all, otherwise I wouldn't have been so ruthless three years ago, I'm just playing with your feelings!"

Saying that, I didn't dare to look at her eyes, I lowered my head and walked out quickly, I only felt tears in my eyes, I don't know, is this the same back as three years, very desperate?