Mo Bai's words had a great impact on me, and I suddenly turned my head to look at him, my eyes full of doubt and incredulity. However, he paid no attention to me, but turned his head to look out the window, and whispered as if talking to himself:

"Since the day I woke up, I have been told that I am the impermanence of the underworld, and every day I repeat the simple work of extraditing the souls of the great evil people across the Lethe River, and it is in this underworld that I watch those souls live and die, die and be reborn. Even though Harmony was so good to me, so good that in human terms, it was already half of his country and me, I still felt that my existence had no meaning. My life is long and hopeless, and if I can't find the past, I'd rather die than go on like this. ”

"So? I don't think what you're saying has anything to do with my question. ”

The Mo Bai in my impression is even more indifferent and resolute than Sinan. No matter what happens, he is so calm that it makes people feel a little scary. Since the day I knew him, I had never seen him so emotional as he is today, and I didn't know that there were hidden past under his cold exterior. I couldn't face his confused and painful appearance at all, and I almost blurted out that I was going to agree to his request, but when I thought that Ah Shu had already been hurt so badly because of me, I could only suppress all the impulses in my heart and pretend not to understand what he said.

Mo Bai was not disappointed or annoyed that I deliberately diverted the topic so unkindly, he looked at me, then smiled bitterly, and began to answer my questions:

"The first time I knew that my blood could feed these flowers was when I wanted to kill myself in the Lethe River. I couldn't accept that I was a soul at the time, so I tried to die, trying to use death to re-enter reincarnation and leave here in the open. The result, of course, was that I failed, and I was scarred and disgraced. Later, Xiuhe even gave up the idea of healing me, and after the last time he salvaged me from the Lechuan River, he held me a small flower that had just sprouted, and told me that it was watered with my blood, and that if I wanted to, he wanted to plant it outside the window of my study where I could see it every day, and wanted me to watch it grow. ”

"I really can't look at Xiuhe's careful and painstaking appearance to please me, he is the lord of a realm, he is the king of the high, he shouldn't lose his identity and majesty for me. So I compromised, I gave up, and I went back to living the life I had tried to escape from so that I wouldn't be a burden to reconciliation anymore. I began to have a lot of rest, so I transplanted the flower and watered it with my blood every day to see if it grew here as Xiuhe said, like it bloomed next to the Lethe River. ”

"So you have succeeded. ”

"No, I didn't, I still failed. ”

At this point, although Mo Bai didn't say anything, I can guess that his "failure" is a response to my unwillingness to help. I also had a lot of reluctance and reluctance in my heart, so I decided to tell him all the doubts in my heart, at least to show that I was not willing to help unless I was prejudiced against him.

After all, there are several monsters of all sizes that want me to keep them, and if I have a problem, no one can afford to take this responsibility.

But just as I was about to open my mouth to reject Mo Bai again, Mo Bai's door was suddenly opened, and then a particularly pleasant male voice sounded in my ears:

"Mo Bai and I never owe each other anything, just when I'm in a good mood today, send an employee benefit, twelve, you can help him." ”