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I don't have the backing of Sinan anymore, which means that if anything happens, I need to bear the consequences. However, now I obviously don't have any ability to deal with these unpredictable situations, and if something goes wrong, I'm not worried about myself, but I'm afraid that I will be implicated by those who are guarding the afterlife in my place.
I have laughed at Bonghyo countless times for always looking ahead and backward after meeting Ah Pu, and a little less of the chic and arrogant bearing when I first met him, until today I found that once people realize their responsibilities, they will become cautious and difficult. And I have been living in the world that Sinan painted for me for many years, and he took all the responsibilities that should have been borne by me, and protected me too thoroughly, so that I didn't understand this truth until today.
It's just clear that when I need to face this, I still can't accept it for a while, and I instinctively want to escape.
This sense of uneasiness at all, completely incapable of dealing with an ignorant future, wrapped my whole body so tightly that no matter how much Mo Bai insisted, I chose to refuse.
You went back and forth like this, and Mo Bai seemed to understand my concern, and after I rejected his request again, he did not continue the topic. And with his silence, the atmosphere between the two of us fell into an awkward stalemate, and I had no intention of easing the atmosphere, and moved my eyes to the pool outside the window.
I've always felt that the word lifeless must have been coined by people from the underworld, because it's really the right word to describe the underworld. There are no fairyland-like scenery with four distinct seasons in the human world, nor is there a majestic momentum like a dreamlike sky surrounded by clouds and mist, it only has an endless gray and a mist that lingers all year round. There is almost no scenery to speak of here, because this is a place where the dead gather, and the dead ash they possess will only decay all things, so no living thing can live in this kind of place, so naturally there is no beauty to speak of.
But the other side of the flower was an accident.
It is the only living creature in the underworld that can survive, and it is on both sides of the Lethe River that connects the underworld and the human world. It is also the only color in the underworld other than gray, and the bright red color is like the blood of mortals, with a shocking, desperate, and extreme beauty.
I like the flowers so much that I once tried to raise them in a teahouse. But unfortunately, every time I take them back to the human world, these beautiful flowers will immediately turn into powder and drift away in the wind. Xiuhe explained to me that this is a flower that can only bloom in the underworld, and only the water of the Lethe River can nourish it, so it can't leave the Lethe River. But now that I look at it, these flowers I see are all flowers on the other side, and they are still blooming well after leaving the Lethe River, why is that?
Could it be that Xiuhe is lying to me? No, no, he has no reason to lie to me on this matter, because it will not do him any good to do it. If what Xiuhe said is true, the problem should be Mo Bai.
Could it be that his presence will make the flowers bloom? What will be the things that will involve him with the flowers of the other side? Will this matter have anything to do with him asking me for help......
In an instant, countless questions flashed in my mind. Just when I was hesitating whether to use these questions to break the deadlock, Mo Bai spoke first:
"Don't guess, those flowers in the yard are all raised with my blood. ”