Sifeng Mountain is on the edge of the city, it is a park, the altitude is not high, only two or three hundred meters, but in this area is a relatively high point, I kept urging the taxi driver to make him faster, but it still took nearly fifteen minutes to reach the foot of the mountain.

I gave the driver 30 yuan, and I didn't have time to take the five yuan I was looking for, and while running up the mountain, you took out your mobile phone and called Tang Wan, and when I was in the car, I called Tang Wan and sent a message, but there was no news.

"I'm at the bottom of the mountain, where are you?" I messaged her when the phone went unanswered.

There was no response, I could only run up the mountain, I didn't dare to stop, I looked at the time while running, it was already two twenty, I was so anxious that I felt a little like peeing, and I was very panicked, but I didn't dare to lose Tang Wan to take the exam, in case something happened to Tang Wan, I would feel guilty for the rest of my life.

When I was halfway up the mountain, I saw Tang Wan, she was sitting in the pavilion built on the mountainside, I breathed a sigh of relief, and subconsciously looked at the time again, I ran over: "Are you okay?"

"It's fine. Tang Wan sat on a wooden chair in the gazebo and looked at me, "Why did you come here, aren't you going to take the college entrance examination today, haven't you registered, or are you not going to take the college entrance examination?"

"You didn't send the text message?" I was a little confused.

"I sent it. Tang Wan said.

"You sent me a text message like that, I thought something had happened to you, you're fine, I still have an English test to take in the afternoon, I'm going to rush back right now. I told Tang Wan that I was relieved to see that she was fine, "You go back quickly, and I'll look for you when I finish the exam." ”

I turned around and prepared to leave, and it should be too late to rush back now.

"If you leave now, you won't see me again. Tang Wan stood up and stared at me.

I stopped and turned to look at her, "What do you mean by that?"

"Take me for a walk in the mountains. Tang Wan said.

"I can't try it when I'm done with the exam. "I was a little anxious, Tang Wan offered to let me accompany her for a walk and climb the mountain, I was very happy, I felt that this was a sign that my relationship with her was easing, and she seemed to forgive me.

But I am now one exam away, and as long as I finish the English test, I am very sure that I will be able to enter Tsinghua University and Peking University and fulfill my long-cherished wish.

"How did you do in the first few exams?" Tang Wan asked me.

"If you do well in the exam, you should be able to get good results after the exam, and there should be no big problem in going to Tsinghua University or Peking University. I said, I also want to share this with Tang Wan.

"Oh, the exam starts at three o'clock in the afternoon, and it's already half past two, is it too late for you to go back?" Tang Wan looked at me, as if she had finally noticed the problem.

"Almost. I said.

"It's too late, I entered the exam room half an hour early for the English test, and now there is only half an hour left, and you can't go back. Tang Wan said, and after a while, she seemed to remember something again, "By the way, I forgot, I was mistaken, it's right to enter the exam room half an hour early, but the time to enter the exam room is 15 minutes before the start of the exam, and you still have a quarter of an hour to rush back." ”

"Yes. I nodded, "You're right, if you have anything to say later, I'll leave first, and I'll call you after the exam." ”

"As I said, if you go, I'll climb to the top of the mountain and jump off the mountain. Tang Wan said, "You will never see me in the future." ”

I was stunned for a moment, I didn't expect Tang Wan to say this, she seemed to be threatening me: "Why, why do you want to commit suicide if you can't think of anything?"

"If you don't leave, I won't kill myself. Tang Wan stared at me.

I wonder if Tang Wan is testing me, using the exam to test me, to see if I will stay for her, whether I will abandon her for the exam.

I looked at Tang Wan and said after a while: "Do you really want to do this, you really don't want me to take the exam?" You should know that this is my wish all along, I did well in the first three subjects, as long as I played a normal level of English, I can get good results in this college entrance examination, and I can enter Tsinghua University and Peking University." ”

"You can go and take the exam, and I didn't stop you, but I can also continue to climb the mountain, or jump off the mountain, you won't care about me anyway, you have already abandoned me once, and it doesn't seem to be a difficult thing to abandon again. Tang Wan's words pierced my heart one by one, "I can understand, you go to the exam, don't worry about me." ”

I stared at Tang Wan, glanced back at the city not far away, and finally sighed: "Okay, I'll accompany you." ”

"You're not going to the test?" she asked me.

I think Tang Wan asked knowingly, looked up at her, and felt that Tang Wan was full of anger: "Don't go, you're like this, how can I go." ”

Tang Wan smiled, but her smile didn't make me feel gentle, but it made people palpitate, and she walked up the mountain.

I followed behind Tang Wan: "I have already promised you to accompany you, what are you still doing in the mountains?"

"I want to see the scenery, can't I?" Tang Wan asked me rhetorically.

Walking silently with her, I really thought that Tang Wan would be able to regret it, I really thought that she would suddenly say that I would hurry up the mountain, I thought that she would suddenly say that what she just said was just a test for me, but there was some resentment in my heart, and now it has disappeared, let me hurry up and take the exam.

But no, Tang Wan didn't say anything, the time passed little by little, I secretly took out my mobile phone and looked at the time, it was 2:45, there was no drama at all, even if I arrived at school, I couldn't enter the examination room.

Zero in English.

My heart suddenly became heavy.

What has been lost is not only a few months of hard work, but also a long-cherished wish that has been hidden in my heart, a thought, and that persistence.

It's gone, it's all gone.

I was like a walking corpse, silently following behind Tang Wan, my heart hurt a lot, all of this was caused by Tang Wan, but I was helpless against her, and I couldn't give birth to the idea of beating and scolding her, so I could only bear it myself.

"It's already three o'clock, and the English test should begin, won't it be a pity that you didn't go?" said Tang Wan when she reached the top of the mountain.

"What can I do about it. I sighed, trying to find a cigarette to smoke, and felt in my pocket to find out that I didn't have a cigarette or a lighter for the past two days because of the exam.

"Do you blame me, you must hate me to death at this time. Tang Wan said.

I shook my head: "What do you hate, I don't hate you." ”

"Don't hate? How is it possible, don't lie, you want to go to college so much, you always feel that you are inferior to others who did not go to college, you are almost 30 years old, but you still want to take the college entrance examination, think about entering Tsinghua University and Peking University, work hard for so long but finally fall short, and all this is caused by me, you don't hate me?" Tang Wan didn't believe it.

"I really don't hate it, if you do this, you have less resentment towards me in your heart, and you can feel more comfortable, and it's worth it. "I'm telling the truth, I don't have any hatred for Tang Wan in my heart, I just hope that she can dissipate her anger.

If you want to say hate, you also hate myself, it is I who is ashamed of Tang Wan, so that she wants to use this way to take revenge on me.

"Can't you see it, I did it on purpose, I texted you, I tricked you an hour before your exam, but I didn't want you to take the test, I didn't want you to get good grades, I didn't want you to go to college, I wanted to fill you with regrets. Tang Wan's voice was intense, "You don't hate me?"

I looked up at her and said slowly, "I've guessed it, you did it on purpose." But I really don't hate you, although it is very painful and regrettable that I can't take the English test, but as long as you can dissipate your anger, what does it matter if I suffer this regret?"

Tang Wan looked at me, I thought she would be moved and discouraged, but she didn't: "Hypocrisy." ”

Her look, as she said, felt that what I said was hypocritical and that I was lying to her.

"I really didn't lie to you, I told the truth, as long as I can make you angry, I am willing to do anything, even if you stab me twice, as long as it can make you feel comfortable, I am willing. I stared at Tang Wan.

"It's a pity that I don't have a knife in my hand, you are willing to say anything, so are you willing to jump?" Tang Wan sneered at me and looked at the cliff in front of her, "In order to save Tong Xiangjun, you did not hesitate to fall off the cliff with her, regardless of your own life, so can you also jump off the cliff in order to let me lose my anger?"