I looked at Tang Wan: "This joke is not funny. ”

"Why, don't you dare, or won't?" Tang Wan smiled, "Since you don't dare to jump, then don't say those beautiful words." ”

I was silent, looked at Tang Wan, and stared at her: "You really want me to die, you want me to jump down so that you can lose your anger?"

Tang Wan didn't speak.

I slowly walked to the cliff, the mountain is not high, the altitude is only a few hundred meters, and the relative height is less than 100 meters, but jumping from this height will definitely kill people.

I gathered a ball of qi in my heart, looked at the rocks below, and thought a lot, thinking of my parents, thinking of Tong Xiangjun, thinking of Su Ran, thinking of Chen Ke, thinking of Chen Le, and even thinking of Shao Siqi.

I exhaled, glanced back at Tang Wan, and slowly closed my eyes.

"You don't have to jump, I don't want to get myself into trouble, this is not acting in a Korean drama, you don't have to die Mingzhi, I won't eat you, you can't make up for the damage you do to me even if you really jump. Tang Wan said.

I turned around, Tang Wan had already walked down the mountain, walking very fast, I kept looking at her, and she didn't look back at me again.

The car accident seemed to really make Tang Wan die for me, not only resentful, but even hated me.

I don't know if she stopped me jumping because she didn't want me to die, or if she was afraid of getting herself in trouble, or both, but she wouldn't forgive me.

Tang Wan's attitude towards me has changed one hundred and eighty degrees.

Even if she destroyed the longing wish in my heart, she didn't lose her temper.

She hated because of love.

I didn't go down the mountain, I sat on a rock, looking at the city not far away, looking at the buildings, looking at the cars shuttling in between, looking at a busy figure, I didn't want to go back, I just wanted to sit here alone.

The sky slowly darkened, the sun hung on the west side of the city, obscured by the clouds, only some halos could be seen, I looked at the admission ticket in my hand, 2B pencil, black gel pen, as if there was a stone in my heart that had been pressing, dull and terrible.

I took the admission ticket in my hand and looked at it again and again, looked at the admission ticket number on it, and looked at the photos on it, as if I had lost the direction of my life and became at a loss.

The phone in my pocket rang a few times, and I didn't take it out, I wanted to isolate myself from the outside world.

It was getting darker, the city was lit up, and I still didn't want to move.

The phone rang again, someone called me, the ringtone made me a little annoyed, I took out my phone, it was Liu Yuan who called me, I thought about it, I didn't hang up, and I connected.

"Chen Jin, how did I hear Teacher Li say that you seem to have missed the English test in the afternoon, is there such a thing, is it true?" Liu Yuan asked me.

I am not surprised that Li Zhengjun can know that I am absent from the exam, after all, the college entrance examination is very important, no matter who is absent from the exam, it is a surprising thing, and it may even be in the news newspaper.

Missing exams is a big deal.

In a classroom, even if it is the entire examination room, there will not be many candidates who will miss the exam, and there will definitely be statistics afterwards, Li Zhengjun called Liu Yuan after knowing about it, which is normal.

"I had some things to deal with immediately during the English test in the afternoon, so I missed the test. "I tried my best to say it lightly, I didn't want people to know that I was absent from the exam because of Tang Wan.

"What the hell is it that makes you not even have time to take the college entrance examination, there are four exams in total, you don't get a score of 150 in English, even if you get a full score in the first three courses, you only have a score of 600 points, can you get a full score?" Liu Yuan seemed to be very angry and felt sorry for me.

"No, you can't. I shook my head.

"What the hell is the reason why you didn't take the English test, I learned from Li Zhengjun that your test results before the college entrance examination were very good, according to this trend, the college entrance examination is normal, and it is still very promising to enter Tsinghua University and Peking University, but now that something like this has happened, you say you ......" Liu Yuan was so angry that he couldn't speak.

"I'm sorry Mr. Liu, I really can't take the English test because I have something to do, I'm sorry. "I don't know what else to do but apologize.

"Hey, forget it. Liu Yuan sighed, "I know that you will definitely not take the English test for no reason, but it's really a pity, although the college entrance examination is held every year, and you can still take it next year, but who can say for sure what will happen in the future." Don't think about it too much, if you miss it, you've missed it, there's nothing to think about, you've worked hard for months, so take a good rest in the rest of the time. You have a business now, you can make money, you can support yourself, and you don't have to be on the platform of the college entrance examination, but you can enter the university, systematically learn knowledge, and see the life of the university, in fact, it is still good for you, if you still want to take the college entrance examination next year, I will help you talk to the school at that time. ”

"Well, thank you, Mr. Liu. I nodded.

Do you still have to take the high school entrance exam tomorrow?

I don't know, and I don't want to think about it.

After hanging up the phone, I flipped through the text messages on my mobile phone again, Tong Xiangjun sent me a message, asking me how I did in the exam, I replied to her with the words "okay", and Su Ran also sent me a message, saying that she was hurrying to do the work in her hands, and asked me not to wait for her, and to go to dinner by myself.

I messaged her back: "Do it slowly, don't rush. ”

There was also an unfamiliar text message, no contact name, just a string of mobile phone numbers, asking me how I did in the exam, whether I could enter Tsinghua University and Peking University, and whether I got a full score of 750 points.

I have saved the contact information of the people I know, I haven't seen the phone number of this person, and it feels like he is ridiculing me, I don't care, I just put the phone in my pocket.

Tang Wan didn't send me a message, she didn't call me, she didn't worry that I would be depressed and would jump off the cliff.

She's really hating me, I'm sure.

The night was already a little cold, and slowly raindrops were falling, and there was a dull thunder in the sky, and occasionally a thunder snake or two rolled under the clouds, and I headed down the mountain.

Before I came down the mountain, the raindrops became heavier.

This place is more partial, there are some tourists during the day, there are basically no people at night, and there are not many rentals, I waited for about ten minutes and did not meet a taxi.

I took out my mobile phone, I wanted to use Didi to take a taxi, the rain fell on it, my fingers slid, and the program without a point jumped out by itself, and after a while, the interface of Didi taxi did not enter, which made me upset, and I almost threw the mobile phone in my hand on the ground, and finally simply stopped calling a taxi, and slowly walked home.

The rain fell, crackling, stirring up dust on the ground, and the air was filled with a smell of soot that was very uncomfortable, and by the time I arrived at the community, I was already soaked.

After buying a pack of cigarettes, I went upstairs and locked myself in my room, didn't even bother to change my clothes, moved a small bench and sat in the bathroom, smoking slowly.

There was a knock on the door, and I walked over with a cigarette in my mouth and opened it.

"What a heavy smell of smoke, how many cigarettes did you smoke?" Su Ran took something in his hand and stepped back, "I bought you something to eat, supper." ”

"Why did you come here, is the work done? It's raining so hard, you don't have to come. I threw the cigarette butt in my hand on the ground, stepped on it, and got out of the way, "Come in and sit down." ”

"The smell in your house is too strong, so let's go and sit in my room." Su Ran said in disgust, "Come out quickly." ”

Su Ran pulled my clothes: "Why are you wet, what's going on, did you fail the exam? It doesn't matter, you didn't do well in the exam this time, just take the exam again next time." As for your change of clothes, forget it, you go to my house and take a shower first, and I'll help you get a change of clothes. ”

Su Ran pushed me and asked me to go to her house, and she came into my room by herself to help me find a change of clothes.

I stood in the doorway and looked inside, and Su Ran bent down and took my change of clothes out of the closet.

"What are you still doing standing there, hurry up and take a shower, your body is already wet like this, and if you don't wash it, you'll catch a cold. Su Ran turned around and saw that I hadn't moved, a little dissatisfied, "Didn't you just fail the exam, you were so depressed, what are you trying to do?"