(11-2)
With Ah Ye's company, all the process of inquiry seems to be easy and interesting. In the cold of winter, he would make a pot of hot tea in front of the campfire and watch her watch the snow fall, and in early spring, when the tea farmers were busy picking tea leaves, she would roll up her sleeves and join him in the process of tea picking and tea making.
In this way, they walked through many mountains and plains together, and also tasted countless clear springs and rivers. Every tea-producing region has their footprints of learning, and every body of water used to make tea has the results of their tasting.
The hard work paid off, although the court was turbulent, but he still found the meaning of his life's pursuit in this chaotic era, accompanied by Ah Ye.
At the same time, he also found the person who had worried him for half his life.
He thought that after parting many years ago, they would not have the possibility of seeing each other again in this life, but he didn't expect that when he finally decided to marry Ah Ye, she would appear in front of him again.
Sister Ji Lan, who always coaxed her with stories when she was a child, turned out to be back.
She had changed, tall and bright, but she hadn't changed, as smart and gentle as she had been. She still stood there like when she was a child when he came to her, doing nothing, only laughing and calling him "Little Ji Xuan". At that moment, he only felt that all the things in this world were gathered in her bright eyes, including himself.
In the end, he still broke his promise, although Ah Ye pleaded hard, and even forced him to die, he still gave up his marriage contract with her and decided to stay by Ji Lan's side. He no longer brews tea with Ah Ye, nor does he care about her food and clothing, he puts all his thoughts on Li Jilan, and he can't leave any vacant position for others.
Eventually, Ah Ye was gone, and the day after he resolutely decided to give up on her, she left the place where they had lived together for a long time. She walked quietly, just as she had been when she came. When he couldn't find her in the empty room, he felt as if his body had turned into an empty shell in an instant. He wanted to regret it, but he didn't know what to regret.
What do you want to regret, this path was originally his own choice after careful consideration. He should have thought that this would be the result when he gave up Ah Ye, how could he regret it?
But why did Ah Ye never feel that Ah Ye was such an important existence in every minute of his life?
He always thought that the person he loved was Li Jilan, and he wanted to marry Ah Ye just to make up for the youth she had delayed for him over the years, so when Li Jilan came back, he chose his love without hesitation. He should be happy, but why is his heart so sad now......
He left Ah Ye and chose Li Jilan, he fulfilled his dependence when he was young, and gave up the company she has never left over the years, is this really, right?
No one knows the answer.
It took him a long time to try to calm his mind, but the calmer he was, the more empty he felt. He frantically buried himself in his work, almost day and night, and later even refused the official position appointed by the emperor and Li Jilan's invitation, only locked himself in his room, and concentrated on compiling the "Book of Tea" alone.
It took him twenty years to write all the results of his research with her into the book, and finally completed this tea encyclopedia that caused a sensation throughout the era and was still regarded as a classic even for centuries. And because of this work, he is respected as the "Tea Saint".
All the dreams of his youth have now been completed, and he has received honors and recognition. Everything surrounded by achievements seems so complete, but he knows that there are regrets in his life.
Ah Ye is his regret.