"It's such a cute little guy, it's fluffy, can I hug it?" Zhang Yan said.

"Yes, you can hug it, and when you're sad, you can find something warm to hug. The man said:

Zhang Yan was stunned, and the male owner smiled at Zhang Yan: "Like a cat." ”

This year, Zhang Yan couldn't stop Mu Yao's departure, but met a caring and sincere good friend.

The owner of the little golden retriever is very mysterious, he doesn't seem to talk much, but he can give people a very cordial friendship, even more than the kind of care of the family, he takes the little golden retriever, sits on the bench for a long time, every time he sees Zhang Yan, he nods instinctively, and people have a very warm feeling. And this is exactly what Zhang Yan needs.

Zhang Yan regards Zhongshan Park as a place to heal his wounds, and sometimes he will go to Zhongshan Park in frustration when his family gives him a bad attitude and feeling.

The owner of the little golden retriever looked at Zhang Yan's lonely back sitting on the empty bench in a daze, his eyebrows were furrowed tightly, he didn't say anything to comfort Zhang Yan, nor did he ask Zhang Yan curiously about the reason, but just lent the little golden retriever to Zhang Yan and let it accompany Zhang Yan quietly.

Sometimes Zhang Yan also spoke to the owner of the little golden retriever to complain, he said: "Brother, I am such a wretch, I am a waste, I was scolded like a dog by my family." "Compared to Maomao, I am not as caring and loving as you give Maomao. It's tiring to be a man, brother.

He said: "I also envy you people who have families, since I was a child, I have never seen my father from the mother's womb to the sensible. When I just went back to walking, my mother left someone else and abandoned me, "Remarry." ”

Zhang Yan said: "I am very much of them, I am very unfair to them, and the same is why my son always gets little care and love." "Every day I live at home like someone else's house, all the laughter is on their side, and the most on my side is cold eyes and disgust.

"They shouldn't have given birth to me in the first place, and they did me unfairly after giving birth to me. Zhang Yan said:

The owner of the little golden retriever said, "Yes, but you are better, like me, who has no father or mother, and who goes wherever he goes, I spend the holidays with my aunt and uncle every time I celebrate the holidays." "But fortunately, from the moment my mother abandoned me and chose to remarry with someone else, my aunt and uncle adopted me, and I have been sensible since I was a child, and I also called the second elder as my own parents.

"The two of them talk about their own things, and it has nothing to do with it," but Zhang Yan can always find comfort from it.

No matter what Zhang Yan said about how bitter he was, the owner of the little golden retriever always had a way to feel that Zhang Yan was not the worst one.

He also said: "Zhang Yan! Heaven and earth are not perfect, and people are not perfect, you have to get used to it, get used to the harm that this society brings you. ”

At that moment, all Zhang Yan's sadness and hesitation seemed to have found the answer, why did this family treat him like this, why he was so worthless in the eyes of others, his parents supported him unconditionally what his brother wanted to do, and he wanted to ask for money when he was sick. Why do you have to suffer all this?

"There's no why, you just have to face this naked reality and get used to what you can't change. ”

It's really a sad thing to grow up, Zhang Yan is helpless, he is a little lucky to meet the owner of the little golden retriever.

He said that my name was "Situ Xuan," and he could also call me Brother Maomao.

Zhang Yan didn't know what he had experienced, as if he had seen through everything, and in his eyes, his own affairs were just sesame mung beans.

After Zhang Yan returned home, it was as if everything had never happened at home, no one asked him where he had gone, and no one cared about the pain on his hands, just as Situ said: "You have to get used to what the world has given you." And this kind of attitude given by the family, Zhang Yan already felt that it didn't matter when he was preparing to become an adult.

Zhang Yan can't forget all the harm that his family has done him.

That year, Zhang Yan was only 18 years old.

His father Zhang Zhongxing is doing business in Nanning City, which is hundreds of kilometers away from Baise, and he is doing well, but he is too busy to see him a few times a year, and Zhang Yan is taking Uncle Huang's car to find his father for Father's Day this time. A big boy has never been far away, looking forward to it every day, counting the days and finally getting through, as soon as the car drove by, he couldn't wait to get in, shouting goodbye to his mother.

Yang Ru'e couldn't cry or laugh, and chased a few steps at the back of the car until the car gradually disappeared in front of her.

The Zhang family and his wife have been separated like this for several years. The couple used to be civil servants, and later Zhang Zhongxing resigned from public service to start a business in Nanning. At the beginning, the business was good and bad, Yang Ru'e's salary had to subsidize the family, her brother was still studying in junior college at that time, and Zhang Yan was in junior high school, and both of them had to spend money.

Now it's okay, Zhang Zhongxing's business is getting bigger and bigger, and he also mentioned that the family will go to Nanning to live, one is for the sake of the future of Zhang Nuo and Zhang Yan, Yang Ru'e is reluctant to work because she has considered it, she is poor, and she is afraid that her husband's business will fail, at least there is a way out.

Zhang Yan still didn't understand the world and thoughts of adults when he was still in adolescence, but he felt that it was not good for the family to be separated, and every day the family of four sat at a table and ate together in harmony, so that "family and everything is prosperous". In the past, my father would often come home to visit us for the holidays.

But in the past three years, the business has become bigger and bigger. I didn't even want to come back for the holidays, and every time I called my father, he said, "Why don't you go home for the holidays?" He always said that he worked more than he slept. ”

He lay in front of the glass in the car, looking at the scenery flashing outside, if he saw his father, he must let him go home, his mother missed him.

After the initial excitement passed, he got on the highway, and Zhang Yan fell asleep unconsciously.

When I woke up again, the car had slowly entered Nanning City, and outside the car was a city that never sleeps, and the world was full of colorful lights. Zhang Yan's heart thumped, it turned out that his father was doing business in a big city full of color, no wonder he rarely went home, he hadn't seen his father for more than a year or two.

I miss my father very much and am afraid that he will change, this feeling is very subtle, I really thought about it, and I saw Zhang Zhongxing standing on the side of the road.

"Dad!" Zhang Yan poked his head out and beckoned to him excitedly, "Dad, Dad!"

"Xiao Yan!" Zhang Zhongxing was also very happy.

Zhang Zhongxing is forty-one this year, he looks only in his early thirties, wearing neat trousers and shirts, he does not look old at all, he looks average, only Zhou Zheng, but he has long passed the examination to attract the attention of his tall and handsome appearance, his career is mature and atmospheric, and his gestures exude the charm of the years.

He walked over quickly and patted Zhang Yan on the shoulder: "Xiao Yan has grown taller, ready to become an adult." ”

After thanking his old friend Uncle Huang, Zhang Zhongxing smiled and took Zhang Yan back.

Although the father and son don't meet often, their relationship is good. Zhang Yan's thoughts and thoughts in the village for more than half a year, at this time, he opened the chatterbox and talked endlessly, most of which was to accuse his father of not coming home. Zhang Zhongxing listened, promised to accompany him well, and said: "I'm tired of running all the way from home today, let's not play today, rest first, and Dad will cook for you." ”

Zhang Zhongxing's cooking skills are not bad, he did not go to Nanning to develop in his early years, and he is also a model good husband who loves his wife.

Giving gifts on Valentine's Day Rose Anniversary, rushing to do housework, he and Yang Ru'e are well-known for their affection.

Zhang Yan curiously walked around the house, the house is very large, and the decoration is also very warm, but he always feels as if his father lives alone, when he changed his slippers just now and saw a pair of lady's slippers. However, he didn't think much of it, and his attention was quickly attracted by the smell of the kitchen.

Zhang Zhongxing was busy in the kitchen with an apron, Zhang Yan felt that he hadn't seen his father like this for a long time, which reminded him of his mother who was alone in his hometown for the holidays, and he was a little sad: "It's a pity that my mother is not here, Dad, we, persuade my mother to quit her job, come to you, let's live together." ”

Besides, Zhang Zhongxing responded absentmindedly. ”

After the meal was ready, Zhang Zhongxing just now Zhang Yan sandwiched a piece of sweet and sour pork ribs, the doorbell rang, and before anyone could open it, the sound of the key came. Zhang Zhongxing's face turned dark and he rushed over, but the door had already been opened by someone outside and came in, a young woman dressed very fashionably.

Zhang Zhongxing lowered his voice and said, "Why are you here, didn't I tell you to go to the hotel for a few days first!" After speaking, he pushed her out, and the woman said coldly: "Why can't I come, this is my home." ”

"What nonsense!" Zhang Zhongyan roared loudly, looking back at Zhang Yan in embarrassment, and pushed her again.

The woman stood still: "Zhang Zhongxing, you can't let me in, but don't you let my belly son come in?"

Her voice wasn't very loud, but it was clear enough for the people in the room to hear it clearly.

Zhang Zhongxing was stunned, and the woman walked in with her waist in her hand and her head held high. She seems to be extremely familiar with this house, with a slender figure and exquisite makeup, walking step by step with her waist pole, seeing Zhang Yan, she even smiled slightly: "You are Xiaoyan, right?"

Her tone was flat and free, as if she were the mistress of the house.

Zhang Yan was already stupid, holding chopsticks in place, as if he was frightened to froze, his eyes were full of incredulity.

From the moment the woman entered the door, Zhang Yan was stupid, and the fear and worry in his heart were all terrible thoughts. He looked at his father with both eyes, as long as his father said a word: "There was a cry for help in his eyes", he still believed his father. But Zhang Zhongxing's approach disappointed him, he pointed to the stomach of the woman just now and said, "Xiaoyan, you will have a sister soon." ”

With a bang, five thunders thundered to the top, and Zhang Yan felt as if his heart was pinched, slowly crushed, and he couldn't speak in pain.

The first time you feel the deception of a lie, it is often the closest person around you. It turns out that all the pain will really make you unable to say a word. His father, who has always been a model and good husband in Zhang Yan's heart, disappointed him, at this moment, Zhang Yan hates him as much as he loves him.

He can still talk freely in front of Zhang Yan: "Come to Xiaoyan and eat first." ”

In fact, there have long been rumors in Baise that his father had an affair in Nanning, but Zhang Yan didn't believe it.

In the past, when he and his mother came to Nanning to find his father, his father would leave Zhang Yan with his friends, take his mother to play around, and say, "Don't let me disturb their two-person world." ”

They love each other, share weal and woe, and are different from those who will be together casually for a lifetime, but now my father pointed to a woman of unknown origin, a woman whom I had never seen before, and said to me: "The sister in her belly is about to become a new member of the family." ”

Two years have passed, Zhang Yan eats with the three of them every day, the baby was carried into the bedroom and coaxed to sleep, and the two people sitting opposite are like an ordinary couple sitting and eating, the woman is very natural to make soup for her father, without a trace of embarrassment, but Zhang Yan, as if breaking into someone else's house, out of place, he was coldly thrown aside, feeling that he was an outsider, they were a family of three.

Zhang Yan was stupid, holding chopsticks, his vision was blurred, and he only felt so cold. This kind of coldness comes from the smug smile on the face of the woman, the men and women who are in tacit understanding on the other side, and the unfamiliar room exudes like invisible seawater, blowing towards his body little by little, so cold that he can't control it, and every part of his body is trembling.

Zhang Zhongxing walked over and patted him on the shoulder to comfort her, "Xiao Yan, Xiao Yan, are you okay?" ”

Zhang Yan slowly raised his head at this time, his face was full of contempt, and said, "I want to go back to Baise, I want to go back to my home." ”

He didn't even want to call him Daddy.