Mu Yao also understands that Zhang Yan is only good to his grandmother, and he can see his relationship with his grandmother in the seven days of the National Day holiday, what he lacks now is love, and what he lacks is warmth.

Mu Yao went up and hugged him tightly: "Xiao Yan....... Don't be sad, it hurts even more to see you sad. Zhang Yan pushed her away very hard and pushed her to the side, "Don't touch me, I knew that I shouldn't have been with you in the first place." He poked his heart every sentence, and every sentence was like an invisible knife, and the knife was inserted in Mu Yao's heart.

He stood up and looked around coldly, Zhang Yan looked at Situ Xuan who was standing aside: "You were also in the box last night, why didn't you help me, why didn't you stop it?"

Situ Xuan's face turned pale when he was asked by Zhang Yan, and he lowered his voice guiltily and said, "I also drank a little too much last night.....

"Drink too much?" Zhang Yan smiled bitterly coldly, and his sharp and angry eyes looked at Mu Yao again: "What about you? You also drank too much, or did you deliberately trick me like this?"

"Xiaoyan, I'..... I ......."

"Don't call me Xiaoyan," only the closest people around me can call me by a nickname, you are not worthy now, Zhang Yan lost his mind a little and said loudly, now that I see you, I will think of your love and ignorance that night, and let me lose my grandma, I start to hate you now.

He took a few steps back and smirked nervously, "You all have excuses for a reason, and I begged to be honest in a low voice, but none of you believed me, why?"

He pounded his chest very hard: "Why should I suffer all these sins alone, and let me lose my grandma, you give my grandma back." ”

He didn't want to, every day he woke up in the future, he saw a photo of Grandma hanging on the altar in the hall, he was afraid that every day he would dream that Grandma was lying on the cold floor and didn't save her, and left the world helplessly and desperately, he could have saved Grandma, and Grandma didn't have to leave him.

The more he thought about it, the tears kept falling from the corners of his eyes, and he gritted his teeth and looked at the two people in front of him with hatred, the two of them were very good the day before, why did they all change in one day, "You never know what I lost, and you can't understand how much pain I have in my heart." ”

His love, his trust in her, he tried to love her, he trusted her, but she .....

Zhang Yan will never forget everything that happened to her that day, she said that she would make him feel the sweetness of being nourished by love, and let him feel the warmth she brought him, but now she doesn't care about him at all, she only cares about her own feelings, and she lets him know what it means to be heartbroken.

Pan Sen was right, she was a bone spirit, what oath? Her oath was just a tragedy in the end.

And Grandma, I will never be able to understand the smile on Grandma's face in the future, and I will never see it again in this life.

He pushed Situ Xuan away, walked between him and Mu Yao, didn't look at Mu Yao, and walked out of the door of the room like a walking corpse.

Mu Yao instinctively wanted to chase him out from behind, but was pulled by Situ Xuan: "Let him be quiet alone!" No one wants to see his current mood, especially you and me, I think we have dealt him a big blow this time." ”

He really didn't see her, he didn't want to see her, no matter how good he was before, he only hated her in his heart now, and he didn't want to see her again in the days to come.

After Zhang Yan changed his clothes and tidied up his appearance, he returned to the hospital, he couldn't go to see his grandmother in such an embarrassment, and his grandmother didn't want to see him like this in the sky.

Along the way, he walked top-heavy like a skeleton without a body, and he almost had a few accidents when crossing the street, but what he didn't notice was that Mu Yao and Situ Xuan had been following him, but he didn't notice it.

They saw Zhang Yan return to the hospital.

Yang Ru'e has been crying by the bedside until she is about to collapse, and her voice is hoarse: "Xiaoyan, take a good look at your grandma, she will leave our mother and son in the future." After speaking, he hugged Zhang Yan tightly.

The hospital had to take the body to the morgue.

"Why?" Zhang Yan asked a little innocently, he was reluctant to grandma, he was also used to seeing grandma's amiable face every day in life, I haven't seen grandma well, I haven't said goodbye to grandma yet.

But the hospital staff didn't give him time, when the white sheets covered the faces of the closest people like dust, Zhang Yan's heart seemed to be struck by lightning, and his heartbeat stopped instantly.

He couldn't stop everything from happening, and he couldn't stop Grandma from being pushed away by them, just like he couldn't change what happened around him again and again, and he lost the closest people around him again.

This time he is an adult, but she still can't change the catastrophe in fate, fate is like a wave in the sea, covering him layer by layer, not letting him have a chance to breathe, until he is drowned.

The mother and son hugged each other like abandoned orphans in an orphanage, Zhang Yan's vision in front of him was a little blurry, his heart hurt, it hurt, it hurt, it seemed like someone reached in and crushed his heart a little bit.

And Mu Yao, who was standing not far away, looked at the scene in front of her, she might be able to feel why he was so angry just now, and her heart was broken when she saw those painful expressions on his face.

She really wanted to walk over, like in school, hug him behind him and listen to his heartbeat, give him warmth, because the little words she knew, looked like nothing was going on on the outside, but in fact she was more bitter than anyone else, but this time I am afraid it will not work, she may be like he said, she is not worthy.

She didn't know what happened last night, only that she had drunk a lot of alcohol last night, and she woke up naked in bed, and when she woke up, he was gone, but when she got up, he came in in a hurry.

Maybe it was because she had been standing for too long, she couldn't help but shake as if she was about to faint, Situ Xuan on the side supported her, she took a few steps back against the wall behind her, and slowly slid down, she buried her head in her knees and covered her mouth with her hands, she just didn't dare to cry, her heart was like a knife.

Situ Xuan looked at Zhang Yan and his crying mother hugging each other, and then looked at Mu Yao who was squatting on the ground next to him, and sighed long: "People! ”

Grandma's funeral was held in Nanning, because Nanning was too far away from Baise, so she could only be cremated in Nanning first, and then bring the ashes back to the soil for peace.

There were very few people who came to the funeral, because there were no relatives here, they were all customers and employees of Yang Ru'e's business who came to worship, Zhang Yan stood aside in linen and filial piety to thank everyone who came to worship, and also supported his mother who was beside him.

Yang Ru'e seemed to be much older overnight, and she didn't close her eyes for a minute that night, no matter how much she put on makeup, she couldn't hide her tired sadness.

Zhang Yan is even more, originally he had already caused a big shadow from the blow given to him by his parents, but this time, coupled with the matter of his grandmother, the whole person exuded a sense of alienation from thousands of miles away, he bowed to everyone very sincerely, thanks, his eyes were empty, and Mu Yao had a trace of brilliance.

Zhang Zhongxing also came to worship his grandmother, which was the first meeting after Zhang Yan did not ask him for child support.

Zhang Yan saw him from afar, and the moment he saw his father, he seemed to have grasped the straw that saved his life, and his eyes fluctuated slightly, and he wanted to go up and tell him, Dad, you are here.

But when he saw the little girl and the woman beside his father, these thoughts in his heart had already been waved to the ground, and he returned to his original calm.

Maybe he also took into account his mother's feelings, didn't let Yangyang and Xu Li in, only let them stand outside, and walked over alone, his father still hasn't changed at all, he doesn't look so old in a black dress, and his red face shows that his whole person is a little rich.

He put on incense, bowed deeply to the grandmother in the mourning hall, and walked over to Yang Ru'e's mother and son.

Zhang Yan held her mother's hand, feeling that her whole person trembled slightly, since the divorce, the two have met for the first time in the past nine years, and they met on this occasion, my mother was wearing filial piety clothes and crying, but one was wearing a black dress, politely as if the person who came never knew her.

Zhang Yan looked at his father in front of him, and still bowed and thanked him like other guests.

This atmosphere is a little embarrassing, Zhang Zhongxing can probably feel it, after all, this is not an occasion to catch up, and he said with some guilt in his tone: "Xiaoyan looks like that, and he is sensible." ”

Zhang Yan raised his head, his eyes looked at him with disdain, and there was no intimacy in his black eyes.

Normal father and son should not be like this, maybe in the eyes of the father only saw this day in a few years, but not the days and nights of the past few years, he will say "Xiaoyan has grown up" As a father, he should not know anything about his son, and the son deliberately stayed away from the gambling father in front of him, and was no longer close.

Instead of greeting each other politely at a funeral, they should say caring and caring words in a spacious and bright place.

Yang Ru'e could also see the exchange of expressions between father and son, and said politely: "I'm glad that you can come to your mother's funeral to incense her." ”

This sentence marks the feelings of the past 20 years very clearly, she used to be afraid that she would not be able to let go of him, but so what, time has washed the past clean, and everything has passed.

Zhang Yan understands that his father can come today because of his respect for the old man, but he has no interest in the past at all, and the same will be true in the future.