"I'm sorry, I didn't know, I thought you just treated me like a regular friend, I thought you didn't like me. I was really guilty, "You're so beautiful, you get love letters almost every day, I'm stressed to face you, I can't believe you're going to like me." ”

In high school, Tang Wan can be said to be the school flower, I can chat with her, go to the cafeteria to eat together, go for a walk, I feel very content, I don't dare to get Tang Wan's love at all, which is why I suddenly took the opportunity to hold her hand, but didn't dare to confess directly.

I wanted to use holding hands to test Tang Wan's attitude, but I didn't expect to be messed up by me.

I am ashamed of myself in the face of Tang Wan, because because of my thoughts, we missed each other.

That mistake was eight years.

"Will I stick to you all the time, will I go out of school with you, eat together, walk together at night, or even stay up all night with you?" Tang Wan asked me rhetorically.

I was silent, I didn't know how to face Tang Wan, and the guilt in my heart deepened a little.

Tang Wan suddenly took off her pajamas, her face was a little red: "Chen Jin, I've already thought about it, I don't want to miss it anymore, I don't want to endure the torment alone, I like you, I gave up the opportunity to study abroad, just to come back and have a look, I'm glad I came back, I waited for eight years, I didn't miss it again, I will give you everything tonight." ”

"No, it won't. I was in pain, "I can't want you, I can't do that to you." ”

"Why? Are you worried that my body is not clean?" Tang Wan asked me, "My body is clean, I am still complete, I didn't talk about a boyfriend in college, I haven't even kissed, I have kept it, and I want to give me to you completely." ”

"No, the more complete your body is, the less I can do anything like that to you. I said, "I can't give you happiness." ”

"I don't want to be rich, as long as you are by my side, it is enough. Tang Wan said that her requirements are not high, "What's more, I believe that you have the ability to make life better, you are very smart." ”

My expression was still very entangled, and I didn't touch Tang Wan.

"You don't have me in your heart anymore?" Tang Wan asked me.

I shook my head, I was sure that I had Tang Wan in my heart.

"Then why don't you want me, you can't let go of Tong Wangjun, or can't let go of Su Ran? Do you feel sorry for them if you do something like that with me?" Tang Wan asked me again.

She guessed it all, Tang Wan is too smart, I don't know if this is a woman's characteristic, or if only Tang Wan is like this. I do have such worries, but not only this, but also that I can't give Tang Wan the responsibility she deserves, and I don't want what happened between me and Tong Wangjun to happen to me and Tang Wan again.

"You and Tong Wangjun have already divorced, you and Su Ran have only known each other for a few months, I met you first, why is Su Ran's position in your heart more important than mine?" Tang Wan was unconvinced.

"Put your clothes on. I told her that I didn't know how to answer Tang Wan.

Some things are really hard to say, and I don't know how to explain them, all I can do is try to live up to everyone and try to reduce some of my sins.

Some of the past regrets between me and Tang Wan can't be made up, but now I can control myself and stop doing things that hurt her.

But soon, I realized that I was wrong.

I thought that Tang Wan would put on her clothes and go to another bed, but she didn't, Tang Wan was silent for a while, and suddenly leaned over and hugged me.

"I don't want to miss it anymore, I met you first, and I can't wait that long. Tang Wan's movements were very jerky, groping indiscriminately.

I immediately had a reaction, and when I was thinking about what to do next, whether to push Tang Wan away, Tang Wan suddenly sat down, she snorted softly, and I felt unprecedented tightness.

What is done cannot be undone.

I can't hold back anymore, because that is meaningless, Tang Wan's initiative to make a choice for me, or the mentality of breaking the jar and breaking it, I got what I wanted, and I thought about it countless times in high school, and things became a reality.

I exerted every strength in my body, and Tang Wan was also venting the pain and grievances that had been suppressed in my heart over the years, and when we stopped, the bed was already in a mess, and there were traces everywhere.

Sweat stains covered my and Tang Wan's bodies.

"Is it possible to get pregnant during ovulation?" Tang Wan blushed, hugged me, and panted with a simple word.

"Possibly. I nodded, putting my hand on Tang Wan's back, "When was the last time you had your period?"

"Fifteen days ago. Tang Wan remembers very clearly, "I should be in the ovulation period now." ”

I was a little flustered, and my hands were a little stiff.

"What, are you afraid?" Tang Wan felt the change in me and asked me.

I was indeed a little worried, worried that Tang Wan would get pregnant: "Why don't you wait for me to buy birth control pills?"

"Don't you want children?" Tang Wan looked at me expressionlessly, and my words stimulated her.

"We're not married yet, so it's not good if we have kids. I said that this reason, I myself feel a bit far-fetched.

"Then we'll go get the permit, and we can go tomorrow. Tang Wan said to me, looking up at me.

Her eyes were full of anticipation and tenderness for me.

I don't doubt her words at all, if I promise to come down, Tang Wan will definitely go with me to get the certificate.

But I don't know why, I just can't agree.

Looking at Tang Wan, my lips squirmed several times, but in the end I couldn't speak.

I've been thinking in my head, if I promise Tang Wan, what should Tong Wangjun do, what should Su Ran do, after Tang Wan and I get the certificate, can I really let go of Tong Wangjun, let go of Su Ran, and then live a two-person world with Tang Wan with peace of mind?

It seems that it can't be done, and my heart is repulsing.

Tong Wangjun and Su Ran also took root in my heart.

I hesitated, I was confused, I felt guilty, and I seemed to have several women left in my heart.

I know it's not right, but I can't control myself, my heart is mine, and I don't control what it thinks.

"You don't want to get a license with me, don't want to marry me?" My hesitation attracted Tang Wan's question.

"I'll go buy you some medicine. "When I said this, my heart was not good, I felt like a liar, defrauding Tang Wan of the most precious things, deceiving her of the things she had kept for eight years.

Her heart must have been broken.

I was such a scumbag, I scolded myself in my heart, and I didn't dare to look at Tang Wan's eyes.

"Do you love me?" Tang Wan suddenly asked me.

"Love. I nodded in the affirmative.

"Then do you also love Tong Wangjun and Su Ran?" Tang Wan asked.

I nodded: "I'm sorry, I know it's wrong, but I can't control myself, I hate myself like this, I admit it, I'm just a scumbag, I'm sorry, Tang Wan, I don't want to do this either, but ......." ”

Before I could say the rest of the words, Tang Wan directly interrupted me.

"I'm going to give birth to this baby. Tong Wangjun said, she was very determined, her eyes looked at me resolutely, I saw her determination, she would indeed do what she said.

"Why? When the child is born, how do you take it, and what will others think of you? You are unmarried and pregnant, can a person withstand the accusations of others?" I asked Tang Wan, really worried about her, and at the same time the guilt deepened a little.

I won't let this happen, if Tang Wan really gives birth to a child, I definitely can't watch from the sidelines.

"I don't care what others think of me, as long as the child in my belly is yours, you are willing to admit him. Tang Wan's words were very naïve.

"It's really not good for you. "I'm still trying to persuade her.

I suddenly felt the pressure, the pressure from Tang Wan, I regretted a little, I shouldn't have let Tang Wan into the house before, now that such a thing has happened with a moment of indulgence, the dry wood is burning so strongly, and Tang Wan is in the ovulation period, she should have a great chance of winning the bid.

I suddenly had a thought, Tang Wan suddenly became so active, could it be that she just wanted to cook the raw rice into rice, and then force me to make a decision?

"Even if you go and buy birth control pills now, it's useless. Tang Wan suddenly told me that there was a hint of cunning in her eyes.

"Why?" I was puzzled, Tang Wan's eyes made me a little uncomfortable, and I felt as if I had become Tang Wan's prey.