Xin Si year, August 27, southwest city, sunny.

It's not that I don't like the city in the southwest, although the ancestral home of our Cheng family is here, but this city is really too hot, there are four major furnace cities in the empire on the Internet, and the versions are not the same, but no matter which version, the southwest city is on the list, this is really not good news, when I think that I am about to spend four years of college here, I have a very collapsed feeling, tomorrow is the admission of new students, and then there will be a month-long military training, God, it will rain more, otherwise Miss Ben, who is naturally beautiful, will be tanned, how beautiful women in Southwest City, if Miss Ben is tanned, how to compete with those local girls for countless handsome guy resourcesFarewell, my love

September 29, Southwest City, Yin.

The military training is finally over.,Damn instructor.,Lustful.,Every time I standardize girls' actions, I take the opportunity to take advantage.,But I still pretend to be a strict teacher.,It's disgusting.,This military training experience is simply terrible.,The instructor and the students were incompatible at the beginning.,In the end, I cherished other episodes.,It's really a story in a novel TV series.,Disappointing.。

Miss Ben was also tanned a lot, wahaha, but Miss Ben is still the first beauty in the dormitory, maybe it is because of this that the relationship with Qiu Yan is so tense, right?

Qiu Yan is the eldest sister of the dormitory, the family conditions seem to be good, but too arrogant, hehe, rich, is it a reason to be superior? We don't like her, of course, except for Sun Yu, this is a very vain girl, but there is no vanity capital, once when the dormitory lights out and everyone chatted, she actually sighed very abruptly: "Compared with LV, my sister still likes Louis Vuitton more." ”

I didn't speak, and neither did everyone.

Girl, vanity is not a mistake, but is it really good to be ignorant to this extent?

March 17, Southwest City, breeze.

It's been more than a month since the start of school, time flies really fast, enrolled at the end of August last year, until now, it's been half a year in a blink of an eye, I think I've gradually liked this city, aside from the original reluctance to leave Kyushu City's emotions, objectively, this city, is really beautiful, it may not be as royal as Kyushu City, and it is not as flowery as Huating, but the youngest municipality in the empire, but there is a very attractive mountain city distinction, under the surface of prosperity, charm and delicacy are everywhere, full of vitality, I have a pair of eyes to find beauty, but unfortunately, but I have not found my love for the time being。

Why are today's boys so impetuous?

College is the season of love, where is my Prince Charming?

October 5, Southwest City, moderate rain.

I like this city more and more, I like the wind here, the rain here, the scorching sunshine here, and if I love someone, I will ignore all his shortcomings, and I think the same is true when I fall in love with a city, right? This kind of acceptance is unconsciously integrated into the blood and bone marrow, in a trance, it seems that even the scorching sunshine in the sky has become lovely.

Father came.

He has been here for nearly half a month, but we have only met once, I know, my father is very busy with work, yesterday when I was watching TV, I saw my father on the news, he was with Vice Mayor Liu, and his father on TV seemed to be more handsome

On November 3, Southwest City, light rain.

Fortunately, my father's level is not too high, and I really can't imagine how busy those deputy ministers and even ministerial-level feudal officials will be, and will they be so busy that they have forgotten what their families look like?

Today I received a call from my father, he is leaving tomorrow, and he wants me to visit his old leader with him tonight.

My father is a cadre who went out from Southwest City, and now he is the deputy director of the Development Planning Department of the Imperial Development Commission, and I have seen a lot of high-ranking officials and giants in Kyushu City, I don't think my father is such a great official, but I heard my friends in Kyushu City say that my father's position is very important, and the real power is also very large, and there are big people who appreciate my father very much, and now it seems that this is indeed the case.

Because my father visited tonight, it was Xu Dongping, a member of the Imperial Decision-making Bureau and secretary of the Municipal Party Committee.

This is a vice-national leader, does my father really have a relationship with the sky?

It is said that Secretary Xu is the right-hand man of the Standing Committee of the Imperial Decision-making Bureau, Deputy Head of the Giant Lin Qingtian, if this is the case, then is his father also going to be promoted?

When will I be able to upgrade to a carefree child?

On November 10, Southwest City, strong winds.

I think I'm in love, but sadly, it's just unrequited love.

I found my Prince Charming, but I'm not his princess.

I met him at Secretary Xu's house, and when I followed my father to visit Secretary Xu, the moment I saw him, I didn't believe in love at first sight, but I was directly immersed in the tenderness in his eyes, his eyes were so bright, persistent and tenacious, but without the slightest edge that could sting people, warm and elegant.

At that moment, it seemed that even the awe of Secretary Xu was slowly fading.

His name is Qin Shi'an.

Deputy Secretary of Peibei District, Southwest City.

It's really unbelievable, he is not yet thirty years old, but he is a figure on the same level as his father, if you want to talk about relationships, he is the one who really has a relationship with heaven, right?

The project that my father came to Southwest City to finalize this time is to settle in Peibei District, is it all to take care of him?

What a very attractive man, those boys in the school who think they are handsome and talented, in front of him, are like children who don't grow up, really naïve.

He had a very nice attitude towards me, it was a very warm feeling, like a big brother.

But I don't want him to be my big brother.

But he's married

On February 22, southwest city, sunny to light rain.

I quarreled with Qiu Yan again, since my sophomore year, the relationship between the six people in the dormitory has changed more and more obviously, and even the phenomenon of disagreement between the surface and the heart is difficult to maintain, and the six people in the dormitory are divided into three small circles, which are clearly distinguished, which is really ridiculous.

The dormitory sisters are like a family advancing and retreating together, after all, it's just a fairy tale, and it's all a lie.

It's raining.

I stood in front of the window, watching Qiu Yan take the roses from my boyfriend's hand with a sweet smile downstairs, and get into the BMW with a high spirit.

yes, naïve.

There is a man who is not naïve, but he has become someone else's husband.

I feel so uncomfortable

Aoi year, August 6, Kyushu City, heavy rain.

I met Qin Shi'an again.

It was nothing short of a bonus.

I deliberately dressed up to appear in front of him, and the first time he saw me, I saw a hint of surprise in his eyes.

I made tea and watched him play chess with my father, and only I knew how excited I was in my heart, which was as calm as water on the surface.

In the conversation with my father, I knew that he had been promoted again, the thirty-year-old head of Beibei District, at the level of the main department and bureau, even one level higher than his father's.

My father once inadvertently mentioned that he was a star figure in the southwest faction, and I was silent, and the gap between us seemed to be getting bigger and bigger.

Qin Shi'an came to the capital to run the project, I don't know how many people he had visited before our house, but his father was extremely enthusiastic about him, patting his chest and promising that he would go all out, such enthusiasm is not pretended.

Before leaving, Qin Shi'an handed me a small box with beautiful packaging and said to me, "Cheng Shuang, happy birthday." You went to school in Southwest City, and you often contacted you in the future. ”

August 6th, my birthday.

I looked at the small and delicate necklace in the box, and my heart was sweet, but it was sour

Aoi Weinian, October 10, southwest city, strong wind.

I called Qin Shi'an for the first time, but he didn't feel the slightest rustiness, called out my name, and asked me with a smile: "Cheng Shuang, what's wrong?"

I didn't know how to take the initiative to ask a man out, and I even forgot to speak nervously, and I struggled for a while before I could barely make up a reason.

Qin Shi'an didn't know if he heard it, but less than twenty minutes after hanging up the phone, he appeared in front of me.

The wind blew the hem of his trench coat, chic and strong, and the moment I saw him, my sanity almost collapsed.

But I restrained myself.

Will this man who is like poison be a demonic obstacle for my life?

Jiashen year, July 7, southwest city, sunny.

I'm about to be a junior.

This summer, I stayed in Southwest City, a city that I love more and more, with the air I am familiar with, the food I know, the streets I love, and the men I love.

Qin Shi'an and I are already very familiar with each other, and we basically meet every week.

I call him brother, I can hold his arm, I can play with him, I can even hug him occasionally.

He looked at me dotingly every time, like he looked at his own sister.

But I know that our relationship has begun to deteriorate, and beneath the happy exterior, the ambiguous atmosphere is getting stronger and stronger, and it is about to break out of the cocoon.

I know it's wrong, but I can't control myself, every word and action of this man makes me unable to refuse, I am so infatuated with him, this feeling has gone beyond the boundaries of admiration, it is worship, and it is also pathological

Jiashen year, November 3, southwest city, overcast and cloudy.

My contact with Qin Shi'an became more and more frequent, almost every day I would call, text, and even many times, he would appear in front of me while making a phone call.

I began to appear in his circle gradually, and we tentatively started watching movies, going to the playground, having candlelit dinners, strolling arm in arm in the night, hugging in the rain.

We're doing more and more things that only couples do, naturally.

He would even unconsciously put his arms around my waist and pat my buttocks casually when I was coquettish.

The layer of window paper between us is getting thinner and thinner, and it seems that a spark has ignited in the middle, and it is about to burn that layer of paper, and even us, to ashes.

I collected countless speeches about Qin Shi'an and Qin District Governor, trying to understand the politics he was most interested in.

He knows what I like, I know what he likes.

I never asked him and his wife about it, because every time I wanted to, there was a fear in my heart that kept my mouth shut.

He never said anything about him and his wife, but I don't know why, is it also because of fear?

I love him so much.

So, I'm going to confess.

Desperate!

In the year of Yi You, on May 3, Southwest City, on the day of confession, heavy rain poured.

Qin Shi'an is leaving.

At the ice cream parlor in Häagen-Dazs, just as we were eating ice cream, and just when I felt filled with a sense of accomplishment in making mature men do childish things, he personally told me that he was leaving.

Job transfer, went to Dengzhou, served as secretary of the Dengzhou Municipal Party Committee.

Dengzhou.

I know that place, the coastal city of Dongshan Province, is the most economically developed city except for the capital of Dongshan Province and the sub-provincial city of Qindao, Dongshan Province is the base camp of the southwest faction, from the perspective of Qin Shi'an's political future, going to Dengzhou can be said to be a vast sky.

But I was reluctant, but I didn't know how to keep it.

So, on this night, after countless days and nights of hesitation, I confessed.

Direct and naked.

I don't know my state of mind, but I do know that my body language borders on seduction and teasing.

I'm a beauty.

Qin Shi'an couldn't refuse.

I became his woman, or rather, his mistress.

I'm not sure if I'll regret it in the future, but at the time, it was my most vehement.

A natural rush of madness and release

On June 20, southwest city, sunny to moderate rain.

Qin Shi'an received a letter of appointment from the Ministry of Officials and went to Dengzhou City, Dongshan Province.

His wife and son remained in the southwest for the time being.

With Qin Shi'an, it's me.

Yes, I feel like I'm going crazy, after becoming his woman, I'm crazy obsessed with everything about him, for more than a month, we used all the time we could to be together, but not enough.

Not enough at all!

So, this summer, I'm not in Southwest City, not in Kyushu City, but in Dengzhou

On June 29, Dengzhou, moderate rain turned cloudy.

After graduating from university and completing the defense, I didn't return to Kyushu City, and I didn't even participate in the final graduation carnival, so I couldn't wait to come to Dengzhou.

In my senior year, we only met a few times, and the strong lovesickness was like fire, burning in my body from the inside out, and I couldn't wait to rush to Dengzhou, I wanted to fall into his arms and be melted by his tenderness.

He seemed to have become a bit of a stranger.

He was still as gentle and considerate as I had in my impression, but when I was with me, the luxury of food, clothing, housing and transportation, which was completely different from before, made me feel uneasy.

His eyes are still bright, but they don't seem to be the perseverance and perseverance they had at the beginning, but a kind of fanaticism.

As I learned about the political situation in the Empire, I understood that it was a frenzy for power.

What about wealth?

What is his attitude?

I didn't dare to think about it, I didn't even dare to ask.

So when I left Dengzhou, I was worried

In the year of Bingxu, on August 6, Kyushu City, sunny to cloudy.

He came to the capital and came to the Imperial Center Party School for a six-month refresher course.

He came to visit my father, and he still remembered my birthday and prepared a birthday present for me.

And I also gave him the news that I had endured for more than ten days and thought it was the best gift.

I'm pregnant.

His behavior was very strange, he didn't say anything, just said lightly: "This problem, we'll talk about it another day." ”

I could clearly hear irritation and coldness in his tone.

He's gone.

I took the birthday present he gave me, and my heart was like an ice cave.

Just like the weather outside the window, sunny to cloudy

August 7th, Kyushu City, night, breeze.

I'm pregnant.

In any case, I am going to give birth to the baby too!!