November 12, Kyushu City, sleet.

Our relationship has reached an impasse, and the invisible and intangible estrangement has grown, and this is not a cold war after a quarrel between lovers, but behind the tenderness that I have become accustomed to, our relationship seems to be gradually drifting apart.

It's been more than three months since I was pregnant, and during this time, we still talk on the phone, we see each other, his gentleness is as good as ever, but I never see the pity in his eyes again.

I know he wants me to kill our baby, but I don't know why.

Are you afraid that my child and I will affect his career?

I love him, I'd rather be with him than be infamous as a mistress, I don't want to fight for anything, I just want to have a child between us.

The child is the sustenance of my life, and I must protect him

Ding Hai year, January 16, Kyushu City, light snow.

Five months pregnant, the characteristics of a pregnant woman have gradually become apparent, but the relationship between me and Shi An seems to be getting colder, there are fewer and fewer topics between us, I tell him over and over again that I love him, but it is difficult to get a response, and in the last two months, we haven't even seen each other much.

His further studies at the Central Party School are coming to an end, and his father has also said that he is likely to take up a more important leadership position this year.

I don't know, I'm even scared to think about it.

The passion and love that had once cooled at a rate that I couldn't believe turned into endless fear and panic, and I even began to regret it and began to wonder if it was the right choice to keep this child.

My emotions are starting to spiral out of control.

It is said that children are the crystallization of love, we have our own children, why are the feelings getting colder and colder?

I began to face up to a problem that had terrified me so much that I had never even thought about before.

Is there love between us?

Ding Hai year, February 12, Kyushu City, sunny.

My father was promoted.

Director of the Development Planning Department of the Imperial Development Commission.

This seems to be an extremely important department, the level of the department and bureau level is not high, but every move is related to the national policy, my father has changed from deputy to regular, and has become one of the most powerful directors after several directors and deputy directors.

But he was not happy at all, the news of my pregnancy was still not able to continue to hide after all, and my bulging belly ruined all the good mood of my father's promotion.

He asked me who the father of the child was.

I dare not say.

Even I don't know when it started, and my heart was already full of fear for Shi'an.

The more you understand the political situation of the empire, the more you can feel the status of the name Qin Shi'an within the southwest faction, one of the successors within the big faction.

If he can take a crucial step in his early Chinese New Year's Eve, then one or two words should be removed.

Such a person is no longer something that a small family like us can offend.

I was scared.

But I also want to keep my baby.

I didn't know how to tell my father the truth.

So I can only keep silent

Ding Hai year, March 1, Kyushu City, cloudy.

He's coming.

What I couldn't believe the most was that he came to me.

When I didn't know how to tell my father the truth about her pregnancy and chose to resist the pressure, Qin Shi'an personally came to my house to plead guilty.

He confessed what was going on between us and swore to my father that he would take good care of me and the children in the future.

I didn't expect such a turnaround when our relationship was at a freezing point.

He was so gentle with me, he told my parents that he really loved me.

Really?

I don't know when it started, I've learned to be skeptical.

I subconsciously thought about my father's promotion.

How much does my father's promotion have to do with the change in his attitude?

I don't dare to think about it, and I don't want to believe that the man I really love can be such a man.

There seemed to be a mask on his gentle face, which was crumbling in front of my eyes.

shocking

Ding Hai year, July 28, Kyushu City, sunny.

The child was born, but Shi An did not come.

Three months ago, Shi An finished his studies at the Imperial Center Party School and returned to Dengzhou.

A month ago, the letter of appointment of the Central Organization Department of the Empire reached Dengzhou, and the dust settled on Shi An's new position.

The capital city of Tianfu Province, the mayor of Rongcheng City, and the deputy ministerial level.

This seems to be a little far from the goal that Shi An was working hard for, his father said that Shi An has encountered pressure from several other outstanding young people within the faction, otherwise his new position will be more prominent, this time the adjustment did not meet expectations, Shi An is still one of the successors within the big faction, and several other young and handsome people are still a strong threat to him.

He's in Rongcheng, so he should be under a lot of pressure, right?

So he didn't come this time, I don't blame him, I decided, when my health is better, I will go to Rongcheng to find him.

My father agreed

Wuzi year, April 3, Rongcheng, breeze.

I finally came to Rongcheng, with my son, I thought that the happiness that had abandoned me came back to me, Shi'an seemed to spend more and more time with me, the child was named Qincheng, nicknamed Maomao, it can be seen that Shi'an likes him very much, this is the happiest thing for me.

I felt like we were just a normal family of three, and my suspicions and disappointment with him had faded.

This man, I still love him after all.

I think I've forgiven him.

No, I never blamed him for anything

In the year of Yichou, July 28, Rongcheng City, moderate rain.

Maomao is on her second birthday.

But Shi An didn't come, I know that this year is another extremely critical year for him, the mayor of Rongcheng for two years, he has been praised by many leaders of the faction, and even the supreme head Lin Qingtian has an excellent impression of him, Shi An is ready to go further, and is currently trying his best to deal with the competitors within the big faction.

It turns out that there is also competition within the big factions.

He gave me a bank card from a Swiss bank, saying it was a birthday present for his son.

Holding this card, my heart was filled with fear and worry that I had never experienced before.

Ten million!

Dollar!

This is definitely not an asset that an official at the level of an imperial vice-governor can take out.

Where did the money come from?

For the first time, I felt that the string of zeros was so glaring.

Shi'an, confused

Gengyin year, January 21, Rongcheng, sleet.

Shi'an succeeded, and seven days ago, the letter of appointment from the Imperial Ministry arrived in Tianfu Province, Rongcheng City.

Qin Shi'an was appointed as a member of the Standing Committee of the Provincial Party Committee of Tianfu Province and Secretary of the Rongcheng Municipal Party Committee.

Although he is also a deputy governor-level position, I know very well what the significance of this progress is to Shi An, and now he can be regarded as the successor within the big faction, and there is no one more.

Shi An was undoubtedly very excited, and in his excitement, he gave our mother and son a set of hanging garden villas.

In this city, such a villa is worth at least twenty million.

In my trepidation, I watched my man's position rise and see, as well as the depravity of his heart

In the year of Xinmao, April 10, Rongcheng City, overcast and cloudy.

I have gradually determined that Shi'an has an extremely large private property, I don't know how much, but at least it has exceeded 200 million.

His life is becoming more and more extravagant, and his style is becoming more and more domineering, I don't know how big a mistake he has made, but the reputation of the Emperor of Rongcheng has reached my ears.

Could it be that the leaders of Tianfu Province would not know?

They are all the strongholds of the southwest faction, is this the so-called protection of officials and officials?

In the year of Renchen, August 8, in Rongcheng, the light rain turned cloudy.

I rarely write a diary now, and I don't know what to write, the fear in my heart has become more and more intense, and I know that writing out many things may have a very serious impact on Shi'an, so many things, I can only suppress in my heart.

I have known Shi'an for nearly nine years, Maomao is six years old, and our lives are happy and fulfilling.

Power, status, wealth, we don't lack anything.

But I know that it's all built on a volcano that can erupt at any moment.

I watched as Shi An sat on the crater, but I couldn't stop it.

I met Liu Dong, who is a well-known entrepreneur in Tianfu Province, a representative of the imperial people, and his industries are all over Tianfu Province, Southwest City, Dongshan Province, Northern City and other provinces, and he is a well-known big man in Tianfu.

Shi An has an unusually close economic relationship with him, and even a lot of money is taken over through me, gold bars, jade pendants, antiques, real estate, luxury cars, yachts, a series of things that ordinary people can't think of are rapidly increasing at home.

Shi An smiled and never refused, I don't know how much dirt and gore is behind these transactions, and I don't want to know, I am getting deeper and deeper, and I have even begun to become numb.

Shi'an can't turn back.

I will accompany him.

Even if you go to hell, so what?

In the year of the Emperor, on February 3, southwest city, sunny to heavy rain.

What I feared never happened.

Ten days ago, the appointment letter of the Imperial Ministry of Officials was issued to Rongcheng, appointing Shi'an as a member of the Southwest Municipal Party Committee, a standing member, a deputy secretary, a deputy mayor of the Municipal People's Government, and an acting mayor, and was nominated as a candidate for the mayor of the Southwest Municipal People's Government at the People's Congress a month later.

Shi'an's successor is becoming more and more secure, but only I know how dangerous he is.

After 10 years, I returned to Southwest City with my seven-year-old son again, and my heart finally began to relax a little.

This is the base camp of the big faction, Shi'an, it should be safe for the time being, right?

On August 26, Southwest City, it was sunny.

Maomao is eight years old.

However, the forty-one-year-old Shi An seems to have a trace of gray hair on his sideburns.

After the initial high spirits, his days in the southwest do not seem to be very happy, I don't know the specific reason, I heard my father, who is now the second-ranked deputy director of the Development Committee, say that since the beginning of this year, the development of the southwest faction has not been smooth, and the dispute between the officials has almost triggered a full-scale confrontation between the Wang family and the southwest faction, and the father, who was originally likely to serve as the director of the Development Committee this year, was suppressed by Lin Congzheng, the governor of Wuyue Province, and the side by side king who has been in Kyushu City for more than ten years has been replaced by the now aggressive God of War King, the Imperial Security Department is in turmoil, and the military circles are making waves again, The God of War Palace's Mansion secretly kept attacking the prestige of the supreme leader, and after more than half a year, the southwest faction was already a little tired of coping.

Now the entire big faction is in a posture of total defense.

And when it comes to Shi An, that is his main rival, the royal family's Huangfu Jun Governor's upward momentum is extremely obvious, Shi An is now more and more irritable, and his smile has become less.

I wanted to tell him that we already have too much to fight for.

But I know that the consequences of indisputable may be even more tragic

On September 9, Southwest City, it was sunny.

Shi An was so angry.

But this time, I saw fear and panic in Shi An's eyes.

I received news from my father that a new round of inspections of the Imperial Supervision Department and the Ministry of Officials is about to begin, and Dongshan Province, Tianfu Province, and Southwest City, all of which are within the scope of this round of inspections.

This shows that the game between the southwest faction and the royal faction is once again at a disadvantage.

The political arena is stormy, and my heart is also fluctuating.

Will you be able to get through the danger this time?

Jiawu year, September 29, southwest city, cloudy.

Sun Yi was arrested.

This news is no less than a bombshell for Shi'an and me.

Sun Yi is a heavyweight entrepreneur in Southwest City, no less status than Liu Dong in Tianfu Province, and he is also one of the people who have close contacts with Sun Yi.

Sun Yi bribed Shi'an with at least more than 20 million yuan through me, and his arrest was a disaster for Shi'an.

Shi'an has called for help.

So, Lin Fengxue came.

The catastrophe has begun.

Lin Fengxue, will it be a turning point for disaster? I don't know, but I'm looking forward to it

On October 3, Southwest City, heavy rain.

I don't know what else I can say!

I shouldn't have eavesdropped on Lin Fengxue and Qin Shi'an's conversation, but I'm glad I heard the conversation.

Lin Fengxue is a bastard.

Qin Shi'an, this man I have loved for so many years, I didn't expect that he would also be a scumbag.

It turned out that a month ago, Qin Shi'an, who felt that something was wrong, had already begun to act, and he had secretly transferred all the huge sums of money, real estate, luxury cars and other things that had been embezzled for many years to my name, and I knew that he was planning to take me to blame.

Lin Fengxue told him that as long as I die, there is no proof of death, and in order to cut the grass and eradicate the roots, Lin Fengxue even suggested that he kill Mao Mao and kill his own son.

Qin Shi'an, he agreed.

Hehe, is this the true face of the man I have loved for many years?

A villain with an abominable face.

Back then, was I really blind?

I suddenly felt sick, I had to run away, I was going to leave this hypocritical and disgusting man

On October 7, Kyushu City, light rain.

I returned to Kyushu Castle, but I was homeless.

They convinced my father to make a deal with him with the position of mayor of Southwest City.

I was placed under house arrest in my home.

If it weren't for Uncle Sun, the old housekeeper who has loved me since I was a child, to help me escape, maybe Maomao and my mother and son would have died, right?

This is my real father.

A husband and father who wants to kill his own wife and son.

A father and grandfather who wants to kill his own daughter and grandson.

These two men are a perfect match.

So what am I?!

What am I!!!!!!

I hate them.

Hate their betrayal.

Life has no meaning for me, and I feel like a wild dog abandoned by the whole world.

I'm ready to die, but, what about Maomao?

Jiawu year, October 9, Kyushu City, the end of the day.

A lifetime of greedy pleasure, if there is an afterlife, I am willing to be an emotionless cow and horse

This is the end of Cheng Shuang's diary.

In the palace of the God of War King, in the ward, Lin Xuanyuan looked down at the notebook silently, and then looked at the electronic wall calendar on the wall.

On October 9, Kyushu City.

It's today.

I am willing to be an emotionless cow and horse.

Lin Xuanyuan's fingers trembled slightly, took out a cigarette and lit it, raised his head, and looked at Mao Mao, who was sitting on the hospital bed curled up with his little body.

Lin Shuimo, who was still standing in the ward, found that at this moment, Lin Xuanyuan's expression was unprecedentedly complex and sad.

Many, many years ago, that winter, a young man surnamed Qin inadvertently saved a child surnamed Lin.

Many, many years later, this autumn, a young man surnamed Lin inadvertently saved a child surnamed Qin as well.

"Maomao, would you like to worship me as a teacher?"

Lin Xuanyuan looked at the child curled up on the hospital bed, and said softly: "All my life, I will do everything I can to teach you everything, I will, I will teach you, I won't, I will find someone to teach you!"

Lin Shuimo's body was shocked, and he looked at Lin Xuanyuan incredulously.

Mao Mao raised his head in a daze, and was silent for a long time before he said firmly: "I am willing." ”

"Good. ”

Lin Xuanyuan took a big puff of cigarette, looked at the child, and said, "Are you still willing to be surnamed Qin?"

Mao Mao shook his head without hesitation, his eyes were obscure.

Lin Xuanyuan extinguished the ashes, picked up Mao Mao from the hospital bed, and said softly: "Okay, from today on, your surname is Xuanyuan, Xuanyuan is reincarnated!"

The child lay in Lin Xuanyuan's arms, pursed his lips and clenched his fists.

Lin Xuanyuan didn't say anything more, and walked to the door with the child in his arms.

"Lord Wang"

It wasn't until Lin Xuanyuan's figure was about to disappear that Lin Shuimo reacted suddenly and subconsciously shouted.

Lin Xuanyuan hugged Xuanyuan's reincarnated body and paused slightly, and said without replying: "You go back, I don't agree to your business." ”

"Why?!"

Lin Shuimo suddenly became excited, she rushed forward two steps, and then her body suddenly stopped, her tone was hurried, almost a little incoherent: "Why?!Lord, I don't accept it! Why are you so good to the Lin family in the northeast, but you don't look at the Lin family in Kyushu City?! Twenty years ago, we were one family, Lord Wang, you treat our two families like this, this is unfair, unfair!"

Why is it so good to the Northeast Lin family, but not to the Kyushu City Lin family?

I'm afraid this is what countless people in Kyushu City want to ask.

But the first one to ask was Lin Shuimo.

"Why, you ask?"

Lin Xuanyuan turned his head, looked into Lin Shuimo's eyes for the first time, and said softly, "You asked me why?"

"Why?!"

Lin Shuimo was unmoved, and looked at Lin Xuanyuan's eyes deadly.

Lin Xuanyuan was silent for a long time before putting down Xuanyuan Reincarnation, looked at Lin Shuimo, and said indifferently: "Miss Lin, let me tell you a story." ”