The big bull couldn't resist me, so the next day he could only drive his caravan and drive me straight to Shangang Town.

As soon as the car got on the road, the big cow began to complain: "Are the two big men sick?" Saying that this way to find someone is only what I Hanzhe can do! The artist's thinking likes to be imaginative, even jumping thinking, and sometimes he really can't keep up with my rhythm.

After I waited for the big cow to finish complaining, I smiled and said to him:

"Da Niu, I have to thank you no matter how I say it, I always trouble you during this time, I really don't want to go, but these few of our old classmates, you and I can talk to you the most, if you don't help me, who will help me? Besides, I have been away from here for more than 20 years, and I am not familiar with this place, so I can only rely on you. Thanks, big cow!"

"Thank you? You and I still need to say these two words? I'm afraid that you won't be able to see you if you go? If Xue'er knows, my accomplice won't be able to wash it away by jumping into the Yellow River! If Xue'er gets angry with me at that time, I won't be able to explain it when I see Xue'er in the future. You are a fan of the authorities, and I am a bystander! You may not be right to do this. If Xiaoyan knows, she may not approve of it, and it may backfire if you do so. ”

"Da Niu, if you were me, maybe I would do the same! Emotions come from the depths of the soul, and people's reason may not be able to control it? Otherwise, there would not have been so many vigorous and poignant love tragedies left since ancient times. Perhaps, I'm a stubborn perfectionist? Perhaps, I'm still too emotional? Perhaps, I'm a person who is not good at dealing with emotions! But when they are colleagues, she is still Cher's cousin, and Cher will eventually understand. Even if I had a good impression of Ah Zhen in my heart back then, and I may even love Ah Zhen in my heart, I always treat her as a sister. Today, it's more of a family affection, and I want to take a look at her. ”

"Can't people simply live?" Da Niu suddenly said this, did he say this to himself or to me?

"Well, Da Niu, this sentence is a golden sentence! This sentence is great! However, it may not be easy for people to be able to live simply! ”

"Yes, it's really not easy! Just like me, a person's family can live simply, but deep down, the spiritual world, and the emotional soul, can it really be simple? I asked myself, maybe I can't do it? Isn't it necessary to pretend to be in front of others. Fortunately, I am used to being looked down upon by others, and I can still stand up to some blows, and it doesn't hurt when I get used to it. The big cow seems to have a feeling.

"Yes, it's not easy for you! It's not easy for you to be able to let go like this!"

Da Niu stopped talking, and drove the car intently, the conversation between the two people just now may have touched the sore spot in his heart, he smoked hard, and pressed the horn for a long time.

The car went all the way west along the road of the water conservancy ditch of the Korean project, the car drove for about half an hour, and after passing a school, we arrived at the market in Shangang Town.

When I arrived at the market, it was already past nine o'clock in the morning, and the Roulai market in the rural town, unlike the market in the big city, was open all day, but the morning market was lively for one or two hours. When we drove to the Shangang Town Market, the vegetable market no longer looked like a market, and after the morning market, only piles of laiye and garbage were left, like a garbage dump that no one cared for. There are still some scattered vegetable stalls in the market, and a few stalls sell pork and fish, and there are some surplus goods that have not been closed. A fat-headed and big-eared butcher was singing the scalp of a pig, and he smoked most of the cigarette in his mouth. There are not many leftovers on his meat case, and of course, there are a lot of flies gathered on the meat case. The boss, who was oozing with sweat on his head, kept scolding his mother with a cigarette in his mouth, as if he was driving flies, and scolding foul words in his mouth.

Da Niu's car and I didn't stop at the meat and vegetable market, but drove along a long street, without a goal, and on both sides were a number of shops, each of which was desperately piling up its goods at the door, eager to occupy more land on the street. It seems that the more you put it and the more you go out on the street, it proves that your business is a little better than others. Several shops selling mobile phones have turned on the music loudly, and the sound decibel is at least two or three hundred, which is deafening. At the entrance of the clothing store, some fashionable little girls who are still standing with their upper bodies and wearing extremely revealing tops, or hot pants that are only about 30 centimeters, deliberately exposing their little long legs, keep clapping and shouting.

Above the door of each shop, there are all kinds of tents to shade the sun, earned by long bamboo poles, uneven, uneven, all kinds of colors, there are red, blue and white three-color cloth, there are also pure black, blue and gray sun nets of various colors. What's even more unbearable is that some shops still have cold clothes, and even women's underwear is hung in a crowded place! In short, it gives people the feeling of being dirty and messy.

Originally, the road was only six or seven meters wide, but everything was desperately placed in front of the store. Even more so, the breakfast shop has put folding tables and small bamboo stools on the road, plus customers who buy things, bicycles and motorcycles are also parked indiscriminately, half of the road has been blocked, and the big cow's car can only snake forward.

This is also to my liking, and I can slowly keep an eye on the various fruit shops or fruit stalls to see if there are any familiar figures. Da Niu struggled to turn his steering wheel back and forth, without hydraulic steering, let him do his best, and after a while, his face was desperately covered with beads of sweat the size of beans, and he scolded his mother in his mouth, saying that he would accompany me to find a woman here, it was simply a foolish boy who would come up with it and do it.

I ignored the bull and just stared intently at the shops or stalls selling fruits, but after walking the whole street, I didn't find the familiar figure in my eyes.

I asked Da Niu to turn back again, but Da Niu refused, scolded me and said that I could figure it out, how could anyone find an old lover like this, even if he saw it, he would dare to recognize him face to face without preparation? It's really funny. What's more, after so many years, people's physiognomy and body shape must become unrecognizable, and they may not be recognizable. Da Niu refused to live or die, there was no way, I could only get out of the car alone and walk on foot to see.

As soon as I saw a shop or stall selling fruit, I would look across the door and look into this shop, paying careful attention to the people in the shop, especially the hostess. Dandan said that Ah Zhen may be out of shape now because of taking medicine, and she has gained a lot of weight, so I focused on looking at the hostess who was a little fat in the fruit store. However, I turned around the entire market and street shops, a dozen fruit stalls in total, and even the temporary fruit stalls in the Lai Market, and the second time, I had already boldly entered the various shops and watched closely, but I never saw a person like Ah Zhen. Because, there are only four shops with hostesses in them.

I was so disappointed that I walked slowly back to the big cow's car, and when I got into it, I was listless, like a deflated ball.

The big cow was smoking a cigarette slowly, looking gloating.

After turning around the market twice, I was more tired than going up to Huangshan to sketch and climb the mountain, and I felt an inexplicable sense of loss in my heart. Da Niu saw that I didn't speak for most of the day, just sat dumbfounded, and laughed, and he even looked a little happy. He said in a mocking tone:

"Great Love Saint, disappointed, right?"

I didn't pay attention to Da Niu, I just thought in my head: It's not easy for me to come all the way, why doesn't Dandan, a ghost elf, understand my heart? Ah Zhen's phone refuses to tell me, and he doesn't understand me at all, is he also afraid that Xue'er will blame him? I think Xue'er is not such a stingy person, after so many years, those who can bear it have long been endured, those who can forgive have long been forgiven, and those who can be let go have long been let go. Xue'er can bear to raise Hanxin alone like this, clean and self-loving, and fulfill her promise with her own actions - except that I will never marry! I know Cher's heart, she's waiting...... Therefore, she will support me in doing this, and she will not blame Dandan, let alone Da Niu. Thinking of this, I looked at my watch, and then said to Da Niu:

"Da Niu, it's school end time, let's go to the school gate to turn around, try our luck, on the way we came just now, isn't there a school called Shangang Central Primary School, go over there, the school gate is the place where parents pick up students home, maybe we can meet?"

"Great painter, you can figure it out! There are many people at the school gate, and it is even more difficult to find the target. Also, the schools in the countryside are not as good as those in the big cities, and parents almost don't pick them up, and the big painters, this is the countryside, it's the countryside, you know? It seems that it is really a person who has come back from abroad. In addition, after so many years, are you sure that you can recognize people? The current Lao Ziniang is not the innocent little girl of the past, and she may not really know you when she sees you? Alas! I, Cui Da Niu, am really a failure! I actually let you fool around, accompany you to come here to find an old lover, and it will make people laugh out of their big teeth when they say it! It's ugly!"

"Go ahead, they're here anyway, and I don't care about being disappointed again, isn't there an idiom that says, don't you die if you don't reach the Yellow River? I didn't care at all about Da Niu's sarcasm, but laughed at him and said with a self-deprecating smile.

"Well, for the sake of the way you are about to cry, don't cry with a sad face, can't you go? Da Niu said and started the car, turned around and drove back to the road where we came.

After a while, the car arrived at the gate of the school in the center of Shangang Town, and when I arrived at the school gate, I was really dumbfounded, as Da Niu said, there were no parents of students at the school gate to pick up the students, and the students walked or pedaled bicycles, and walked out of the school gate one after another to go home by themselves.

I was finally utterly disappointed.

Da Niu sat in the car, touching his bald head while smoking, laughing so much that people couldn't see his eyes, and he began to say cool words to me again:

"Today's events are ridiculously ridiculous! At this age, he is so sensible and educated, and he still looks like a scholar and an artist. How could you suddenly lose your mind and do such a ridiculous and funny thing? I really can't imagine it! Hahaha! Old Zhong, it seems that you can't compare to me, and you really can't let go!?"

"Is it funny?"

"It's funny, it's the brains of old men and the like that that would think of doing this, and it's so funny that you, a great painter, actually do the same. After Da Niu finished speaking, he laughed loudly, laughing so hard that he couldn't stop laughing, and kept touching his general's belly with both hands.

I looked at Da Niu and laughed with him, and the two big men looked at each other and laughed for a while in Da Niu's bulky caravan. After a while, Da Niu suddenly suppressed his laughter and said, "It's really inexplicable!"

Suddenly, my phone rang, and it was Dandan calling. Dandan said on the phone that last night, after I left, she and Ah Zhen talked on the phone about the old things in Sha Po Tou at that time, and also knocked on the ground, mentioning the person Han Zhe. and tentatively asked Ah Zhen, but Ah Zhen seemed reluctant to mention the past. Ah Zhen said to Dandan, she doesn't want to see me anymore, the past is gone, the person is not the person before, the little girl no longer exists...... The demolition and relocation required for the construction of the airport have been arranged to move back into the Anju Building, which has also made the family basically have a house to live in and food, and there is no need to worry that they have forgotten everything in the past. However, she has always treasured the painting and the letter, and sometimes she will secretly take them out to look at them......

When I answered the phone, I felt even more melancholy. Da Niu comforted me and said that people don't want to mention the past at all, see the old people, or don't want you to see her now, but don't want you to see her now, so that you will always leave the beauty of the year!

I stopped talking, so I had to let Da Niu drive back to the Sanjiang Town Cultural Center, and along the way I looked back, and the wheels walked by, leaving only two lines mixed with infinite melancholy and helpless, invisible traces. Deep! Deep! Deep......