The words of the five brothers in the afternoon made me feel extremely depressed. This night, I came to the dock under the kapok tree again, and not long after I sat down, I was reminiscing about the little bits and pieces of the date with Cher here, and the big cow appeared.

"Okay, you guy, I can't find you all the time, I came here to enjoy the river scenery, the feelings of the great painter are different from others, and I really enjoy it!

Da Niu said in a somewhat cynical and half-joking tone. Then he sat down next to me, and he mischievously picked up a small tile and threw it into the river, and the water appeared in a beautiful circle under the moonlight.

The sudden appearance of the big bull was a bit of a disappointment, and I was going to let myself be quiet.

"Hanzhe, is it a thousand miles to revisit his hometown? A little emotional? People at this age will bring back a lot of memories. Doesn't it? Looks like we're all getting old. These words are also the truth, and I am deeply touched.

"Yes, they're all old, and the people around me aren't childhood hair, nor are they cardamom classmates, all of them are getting old. How I miss the time when we studied together, that innocent feeling! But twenty or thirty years have passed in a flash. The changes in the whole social form have also made too many changes in the lives of our classmates, maybe this is life. The only thing that remains unchanged is the wharf of the Hanjiang River, the kapok tree, the small bamboo forest by the river, the kapok tree has grown into a towering tree, and what about the people under the kapok tree by the wharf back then? I wonder what happened now? Alas!

My feelings Da Niu didn't necessarily understand, among my classmates, they only knew that Xue'er didn't go to college because of me at that time, as for what reason, why didn't Xue'er and I get together in the end? No one in my classmates, including Xiaoyan, knew, let alone knew everything that happened to us after Xue'er and I went to Shenzhen, so what I said to Da Niu was also like saying it to myself.

Da Niu's words are not unreasonable! I was just pulled out by Da Niu in my own memories, and there is a kind of helpless experience that the years are silent and gradually go away.

I suddenly remembered that Da Niu was still single, and I also knew that his family and Xiao Yan's family were world friends, and he seemed to have a story with Xiao Yan?

"Da Niu, are you really not married? It's already this age, you should put down everything you should give up, right?"

"Yes, even at this age, I don't want anything. Do a good job of the cultural station, and as soon as you retire in a few years, you will learn from you, write, and draw dots, and your life will basically be over. I don't think much about what kind of love and love, I just want to live simply, and I'm not like you, I have the conditions to become a professional painter, in fact, I don't have big ambitions! Xiao Yan hated me back then, and in the end it was like this. ”

Da Niu said as he smoked violently.

I still remember that when you were studying, you were not like this, saying that when you finished college, you would return to your hometown and make your hometown a model of culture and art, and popularize traditional culture in the countryside. ”

I stared intently at Cui Da Niu, who was smoking a cigarette one by one, and felt that he had already washed away his lead and laughed at the vulgarity and helplessness of life! But people have their own complicated side, and Da Niu can go to the fifth brother every once in a while, trim his face, shave his hair, and shave his beard, and dress himself up as if he was looking like one.

"Because I couldn't get into college, I didn't end up going to a secondary school. Originally, I said that I would go to the same university with Xiaoyan, but I don't want to be angry! Alas! People! That's it, fate sometimes plays a joke on you. ”

Da Niu said a little self-deprecatingly. He habitually touched his shiny bald head and continued:

"Hanzhe, I really envy your current state of life, how comfortable it is to be able to walk around the country and do what you like. I'm different, alas! This grassroots work is too difficult to do, the achievements belong to the leadership, and the responsibility belongs to us. We are not bad here, but in other backward towns, we don't have a decent office space, how can we engage in culture?" Da Niu said with a sigh.

"Let's not talk about work, let's talk about Xiaoyan, I heard that Xiaoyan's mother has always been taking care of you? It's not easy! Cui Daniu, you can do 20 or 30 years of perseverance, this heart, this persistence, is no less than the fifth brother's spirit of sticking to the shaving shop! I really said to Da Niu with a touching tone.

"It's nothing, Xiaoyan is an only daughter, her father left early, and her mother has been in poor health. As soon as Xiaoyan went to college, there was no one to take care of her mother. As for me, I only go to a secondary school in the city's ceramic school, and I can go home almost every day without leaving, so I will help Xiaoyan, classmates, so that she can go to college with peace of mind. I am willing to help Xiaoyan do something! I don't ask her to repay me or anything, as long as she is doing well. Do you say yes? Great painter. ”

Da Niu said very calmly, and I could hear that he had a deep affection for Xiao Yan! Da Niu's words deeply touched me, and I couldn't help but look at Da Niu who looked at Jiang Xin in the distance and thoughtfully. I thought in my heart: When I go to Guangzhou to see Xiaoyan, I must have a good chat with her.

"Her mother has always regarded me as a son, and she also hopes that Xiaoyan will come back after completing her studies, and we will live together, but... Alas, everyone has their own aspirations, the outside world is more exciting, and Xiaoyan also has a yearning and a pursuit. What am I? An ugly duckling, I can't make a big deal, I just want to live in peace. She didn't want to come back, and finally this ended up. But I never blame Xiaoyan myself, I believe in fate, I can only say, I have a fate with her! If she is doing well, I congratulate her from the bottom of my heart and be happy for her. Da Niu's words are not the same as what I think about Xue'er and Ah Zhen in my heart. I looked at the big cow who was smoking and said:

"Yes, we're all at the age of knowing our destiny, as long as everyone is doing well. But Da Niu, Xiao Yan seems to be divorced? Do you have any plans? Can you have a chance to walk together again? If you have this meaning, but it is not easy to speak, wait for me to go to Guangzhou next and help you talk about it when I see Xiao Yan. "I said to the big cow.

Da Niu habitually touched his bald head again, as if he was a little embarrassed to speak. I went on to say to her:

"Da Niu, you have to fight for what you should fight, didn't you say that Xiaoyan came back to see her mother last month?

"How can I mention it? It's been so long, everyone's living environment and living conditions are different, she has gone from a trainee reporter to a senior reporter, she is so busy every day that she is dizzy, because she can't take care of her family, she got married when she was almost not confused, and she has never had children, which eventually led to divorce. Is it worth it? I said women, it's not necessarily a good thing to be too ambitious. It's a pity!"

Da Niu's words also come from the heart, but everyone has their own pursuits, and Xiao Yan's approach is not wrong. But it's really hard to say that the two are really going to go together. I sympathize with Da Niu, he is really not easy! A person can give the love of his life to another person, but he will not get any results. This kind of person has long been extinct in today's society! I really have a deep respect for Da Niu in my heart! If I love a woman to do this, what more could this woman ask for! I said to Da Niu:

"When I'm done sketching this time, I'll go to Guangzhou to meet Xiaoyan, and I'll talk to her. Okay, no?"

But her mother's body is getting more and more in need of care, and she may come back. After the big bull finished speaking, there was a small movement on the corner of his mouth that seemed to be smiling, obviously a little self-deprecating. Perhaps, he personally told Xiao Yan, Xiao Yan didn't agree immediately, it doesn't necessarily?

"Xiaoyan has a habit of cleanliness, and I, who are five short and three coarse, stand in front of her, and I am always ashamed of myself. I usually like to drink a little wine, I eat meat, she is a vegetarian, the two people's lifestyles are very different, it's difficult! I'm both this age, how can I change it? But she is also right, if I don't change my lifestyle, my body will get worse and worse. Unlike you, Hanzhe, you still look like a person in your thirties and forties, and you are still so handsome, is there still a little girl chasing after you? ”

After saying this, Da Niu touched his bald head again, and laughed happily. His loud voice floated far away on the quiet riverside, startling a few small birds flying in the small bamboo forest by the river. A small couple from the boat on the dock also came out of the cabin and looked at us. I looked at it and smiled happily. Then he said to the bull,

"If you have a chance, she cares about you too! You two, it's up to you to see who breaks this layer of window paper first, Da Niu, you should take the initiative. Don't worry, I'll mention this to her when I see her. ”

"Then I thank you in advance! I really hope that she will come back, because it is not very convenient for men to take care of her mother, so Xiaoyan is really responsible, otherwise running back twice in three days will also affect her work. ”

Da Niu still said what was in his heart, in fact, he had been waiting for Xiao Yan all along. He's willing to wait! This heart is not something anyone can do!

etc., it is also a kind of skill!

etc., it is also a kind of attachment!

etc., is also a kind of Tao!

"Yes, it's not easy for her, she has a strong sense of dedication, how well you understand her, maybe she wants to come back for a long time? After I said that, I also touched the bald head of the big cow. Then he continued: "Da Niu, you book two tickets tomorrow to fly directly back to BJ from our airport the day after tomorrow, and I have to arrange for Lao Zhao and Ah Guang to return to BJ first, and then I can go to Guangzhou." ”

"Okay, I'll arrange it. ”

Da Niu said very happily.

"However, there is another thing, I met the chandelier brother after dinner, and I heard the chandelier brother say that I went to Xue'er Township to buy bullfrog seedlings two days ago, and I seem to have seen Xue'er, I don't know if it is true or not? Why did Xue'er suddenly run back to the township? She hasn't been back since she went to Shenzhen, and I think there's still a story in between; is it because of you? Hanzhe, do I know that you and Xue'er are not in an ordinary relationship? Are you abandoning the chaos from the beginning? I asked Xiaoyan, and she couldn't say very clearly, she and Xue'er have very little contact, and they have only recently been in touch. You got to know Xiaoyan in Guangzhou. Da Niu said to me with a questioning tone.

"Big bull, you old blow, stupid cow, why didn't you say it earlier?" As soon as I heard Xue'er, the whole person immediately became nervous, and I was in a hurry to speak.

"Look, you see, when you hear Xue'er like this, it seems that Xue'er's life has a lot to do with you?" Da Niu lit a cigarette and continued: "I heard that Xue'er has a daughter, is it yours?" Da Niu squinted at me after saying this, as if looking for an answer on my face.

"Don't talk nonsense, I haven't seen her in twenty years, and I didn't know she had a daughter, how do you know?" I said, pretending to be nothing. Actually, I was very nervous! I asked Da Niu again with doubts:

"Cher really has a daughter? ”

"Look at you nervous, Xiao Yan said, Xiao Yan said that Xue'er took the initiative to contact her, saying that her daughter went to Guangzhou to study at university, and asked Xiao Yan to be an aunt, and she should care more about her little niece in the future. Oh, I still seem to be reading painting, Guangzhou Academy of Fine Arts. This is absolutely true, what Xue'er said to Xiao Yan in person, is it still false?" Da Niu looked at me and said proudly.

"I see, I understand, then we have to bless Cher and be happy for her. I controlled my mood and continued to say to Da Niu: "That's it, Da Niu, tomorrow you will accompany me to Xue'er Township for a walk to see if Xue'er is really back?"

"Okay, I'll take you. After Da Niu finished speaking, he stood up, and I also stood up, and we went back to Da Niu's base camp cultural station.