As soon as she returned to Dandan's office, after sitting down, Dandan prepared to make gongfu tea, and told me that it was her habit to drink tea after dinner. But I couldn't wait to say to Dandan:

"Dandan, I came to Chengcheng this time, of course, to see you, and the other is to learn about Azhen's situation. You also know that everyone is so old, and they are almost at the age of knowing the destiny of heaven, so it is impossible to have any ideas. I heard Han Xin say that she doesn't seem to be in good health now, is she?"

Dandan was making tea, she didn't answer immediately, she just put tea leaves in the purple clay pot, she was obviously thinking about my words while putting tea leaves.

After Dandan finished making the tea, the water was just boiling, and she made tea. Brewing gongfu tea is more particular, as soon as the boiling water is washed down, the tea must be brewed out immediately, and the water cannot be soaked in the tea, and the tea will be broken when it is brewed. The first time the tea is brewed out is not drunk, the miscellaneous taste when making tea must be removed, and the second time you can drink it, but the tea has not been completely brewed, and the third time, it is the best, and the color and flavor are complete.

Dandan was washed out twice, and the third was drunk, she took a cup and put it in front of me, and then smiled and said:

"Brother, this is the best tea on Phoenix Mountain, Phoenix Wugu is the highest and highest, Tianchi Song Seed, not ordinary people can drink it. This was given by a parent of a student at Lao Kim School. This student's parents have wrapped a mountain in the Tianchi of Phoenix Wugu Mountain, and grow their own tea, you can taste it, first-class tea. ”

I looked at Dandan with a pleading eye, and said to her with a sincere and pleading tone:

"Dandan, I really hope to get from you about Ah Zhen's situation, how is her mental state now? Does she still need to take medicine? Is the family financially okay? How many children? If possible, I want to meet her, or, can do something for her. ”

Dandan saw the look in my eyes and tone, almost begging her, actually looked at me and laughed, and motioned for me to drink tea. When she smiled, my face turned red and I looked embarrassed. I calmed my heart, drank the tea that Dandan had given me, and stared at Dandan with bright eyes, Dandan said:

"Oh, my eldest brother, brother-in-law, what do you want me to say about you?" Dandan looked at me and continued: "Now it's just the two of us, I call you brother-in-law, it's always okay, right?" ”

I said, "It's been more than 20 years since we both started in Sha Po Tou, and we still need to talk about our feelings? Don't call in front of outsiders. ”

"Although it is, Han Xin is your daughter, this is an indisputable fact! I've been waiting for so many years. Isn't Sister Xue'er waiting for this day?"

"It's hard to say, it's a question of whether she's willing to see me. I laughed bitterly at myself.

Dandan also said with a serious face:

"So, why do you still remember Sister Zhen? You are not tired! What about Sister Xue'er? Alas, people are so greedy, eating from the bowl and looking at the outside of the bowl. My brother Han Zhe, you are really an amorous seed! 100% love seed! Up to now, you still can't change it? You still can't let go? Why is this called Sister Xue'er's love? Isn't it waiting for you in vain?"

Dandan's words made me dare not look at her, and it also made me feel a little uncomfortable, and I felt a faint pain.

I rubbed my chest with one hand and thought to myself: Am I really such a person? After living at this age, have I really not lived to understand? Is it because I really haven't let go? Dandan saw that I was thoughtful and said:

"It's been so many years, and you have to let go of what you should put down, brother, it's good that you care about Sister Zhen. But sometimes Hou is kind to do bad things, thankless, I think this thing, let's not do it, it's not easy to do, do you say? brother-in-law. ”

After listening to Dandan's words, I also felt that what Dandan said was reasonable, and I also understood. However, after thinking about it, I still said to Dandan:

"Dandan, what I think in my heart is not to say what I am going to see Ah Zhen, for what? Or what is the purpose? It's just that Ah Zhen's illness is partly due to me, and it is very likely that it is because of me, and for more than 20 years, I have been unable to forgive myself in my heart, and this is exactly the demon that I can never get rid of, and I almost have a sense of guilt in my heart! I usually think of Ah Zhen, even more often than I think of Xue'er. I know that Ah Zhen only has me in his heart, and I am irreplaceable in his mind! Every time I reflect Ah Zhen's melancholy and helpless eyes in my mind, every time I think of the scene when I saw her washing her hair, the first time I went on a date with her in Lychee Park, and I remember that I was also in Lychee Park at the end, lingering parting...... Every time I replay the empty square where Jialing and I went to Café de Coral, Ah Zhen squatted on the ground alone, hugging her head and crying...... It was a scene where my heart was almost broken, and she saw me and Jialing singing and hugging on stage. Every time I think of this kind of shot, I can't help but call Ah Zhen's name! I feel as if I see Ah Zhen standing in front of me, as if the last time I saw her at the SH Hotel, she suddenly appeared in front of my eyes like a ghost. That look was so melancholy that I couldn't forget it! She seemed to say to me: Brother Han Zhe, it's been more than 20 years, why are you so ruthless! Don't come to look at me! Dandan, I haven't been looking for Xue'er, and there are also reasons for this, I can't convince myself! I can't forgive myself! Dandan, help me. ”

After hearing this, Dandan's body trembled slightly, as if it made people pinch it? Or was her body pricked by something? Or my words touched her! She looked at me again, looking at me in front of her, as if she had only known me today, and the strangeness made her terrible? She said:

"Big brother, let me ask you, is your favorite not my Sister Xue'er but Sister Zhen? That Sister Xue'er is so bad! You are really amorous and mistaken yourself! What I can't understand is that after so many years, you still remember Sister Zhen. But then again, if Sister Zhen heard your words with her own ears, she would know that it was worth it! There are no regrets! She loves her so much that it is worth it! But what can you give Sister Zhen? In the end, it is not nothing? In addition, what about Sister Xue'er? What about Hanxin? If they know that you still can't let go of Sister Zhen in your heart, then how sad Sister Xue'er should be!? Have you considered their feelings? Fortunately, there are only you and me here, and there are no others, otherwise, it would be strange that Sister Xue'er would not be angry when she heard your heartfelt words. It turns out that she has been waiting for such a person, a man who still hides other women in his heart! Although she is Sister Zhen, she can be regarded as another woman, right? How can this make Sister Xue'er embarrassed! She is not the only one in your heart! What are you doing here? The so-called deeper love of you cultural people? What is the deep soul? I really can't figure it out? Big brother. ”

"Dandan, it's not what you think, alas! Love is a thing, no one can understand, Xue'er is absolutely irreplaceable for me! But Ah Zhen, I'm more out of family affection. You also know that your aunt introduced me to your uncle, and when I arrived in Sha Po Tau, I didn't know anyone, and I had no relatives or friends. And you and Ah Zhen didn't treat me as an outsider, I am grateful! To Ah Zhen, to you, I treat you as my own sister in my heart, because you two are Xue'er's sister, that is, my Hanzhe's sister. It was, it is, and it always will be. For example, Shangyi, I also treat her the same as Hanxin, treat her as my daughter, Ah Zhen's children too, I will also treat her as my own children, as long as I can, I will do my best. Jiaxin, my son and Jialing, also hope that you, Ah Zhen, and Xue'er will treat him as a son. Don't leave regrets on the grievances and hatreds of the previous generation! Dandan, my affection for Ah Zhen is more out of concern, out of the love of brothers and sisters, this is family affection! At that time, in Sha Po Tou, if Ah Zhen was replaced by you, I would do the same. Of course, because of my youth, I have to admit that I was also confused with Ah Zhen at that time, and I was deeply impressed by her directness, her love, and her melancholy and maverick personality! If it was you, maybe it would be the same, but you were too young to understand. Isn't it? ”

Dandan lowered her head in contemplation as she listened attentively, washing the teacup in her hand and repeating an action, she was reminiscing about my words.

"Where did you make all the tea?" Dandan, you seem to be absent-minded?" I saw that Dandan was not making tea in front of the teacup, but flushed the tea outside the small teacup, so I reminded her.

Dandan looked up and smiled, and said embarrassedly:

"What my big brother said is really heart-wrenching! No wonder several of them love you deeply! This may be one of the reasons why you deserve their love, and I also think that you are right, it can only be said that you are making people. But fate arranged it like this, and it can only be endured, or a misunderstanding at that time can also cause a lifetime of regrets! It's a pity that Sister Jialing is also famous...... It's also hard for our Jiaxin, this kid, he's our Hanxin's own brother! Where is he now?"

I heard Dandan call Jialing sister, mentioning Jiaxin, knowing that Dandan had no guilt in her heart at all, my heart was hot, and gratitude arose, so I interrupted her and said:

"Dandan, I am especially grateful for your recognition of Lingling! She can also feel at ease in the spirit of heaven, she is a good girl, a good wife, before she died, she asked the nurse sister to leave me a message, is to let me go to Xue'er, saying that Xue'er is my only one! In the past 20 years, whenever I think of Lingling's words, I will recall those years, and I know that Jialing has always understood that my heart has always been with Xue'er. Of course I love Lingling very much, but Lingling must know that I love Xue'er more than Xue'er, and Xue'er is the only one for me. She understands, but she won't say it, she won't let me know her heart, she just silently supports me, loves me, and endures that her husband still remembers other women in his heart. Dandan, every time I think of her dying words, I will unconsciously shed my eyes, and the most regrettable thing is that I am not by her side, I can't listen to her words before she dies, not by her side! I... As for Jiaxin, when he was two years old, he followed his aunt to Hong Kong, and I haven't seen this son for many years. ”

My words made Dandan's eyes red, and tears quietly flowed down, and I myself burst into tears. Dandan handed me a tissue, and after wiping her own tears, she said:

"Brother, I understand your heart, but let me tell you the truth, although Sister Zhen is married on the other side of the hill, it is not very far from here. But we have very little contact, and since my second aunt left, we have been in contact even less, and I don't know much about the situation now. ”

"How many children does Ah Zhen have?What kind of work does her husband do now?Does she have the ability to work???," I asked Dandan sincerely.

Dandan didn't pay attention for a while, I was deliberately leading her to say, and replied casually:

"Sister Zhen has three children, the eldest is one year older than Shangyi, eighteen years old, and a girl. The youngest two are ten years old, two girls, and twins. Big brother, you look at the genes of our family, that is, there are genes of twins, haha. ”

Dandan talked about Ah Zhen's twins, and his face was quite proud. I took the opportunity to ask again:

"What did her husband do to her?"

Dandan said: "It's okay, I heard that it is in the town of my hometown, doing a business of selling fruits, I don't know the specifics." Sister Zhen's husband was several years older than her, and it seemed that he was also selling fruit in Zhuhai at that time, and he was honest. As you know, honest people in today's society are not very capable people. There are no relatives here in Shangang, I heard that it turned out to be an orphan, poor! Because Sister Zhen's health is not very good, the second aunt thinks that this person is honest and reliable, although he is poor and older, but he is still more reliable, so the second aunt is in charge and marries Sister Zhen to him. After my second aunt passed away a few years ago, the whole family moved back to Shangang Village and set up a small stall in the town to sell fruits. In the past, in Zhuhai, there was a second aunt watching, and sometimes Sister Ying occasionally came over in Hong Kong to give some help, and it was better. It's not clear now, Sister Zhen is stubborn and doesn't want others to help. Fortunately, they built a new airport over there, and after the demolition, they lived upstairs, solved the housing, and started a small business, so they could barely get by, right?"

After hearing this, I kept thinking: It seems that Ah Zhen's family is not doing very well, but with Ah Zhen's personality, she may not be willing to let people help? I don't necessarily want me to know her situation, or people who know her, to see her current situation. I then said to Dandan:

"Dandan, can you arrange a meeting? Does she have a phone at home?"

Dandan said: "I said big brother, the phone is just a fixed line, family, she doesn't have a mobile phone, and I rarely call her home." Don't meet now, so let's wait for me to contact her, and then try it. You can't go to see her directly, or call her directly, in what capacity are you going to meet people? It's been so many years, right? In this case, what will the husband think? Why does such a friend or relative suddenly come out? It's not good to disrupt people's lives. ”

As soon as Dandan said this, I thought it made sense, so I didn't say anything more, looking at Dandan, I had to put down my slightly melancholy mood, and I could only wait patiently for Dandan's news. I say:

"Alright then, I'll wait for your news. ”

At this time, my mobile phone just rang, it was Da Niu who called in, Da Niu said that he was waiting for me at the gate of Ningtian Industrial Park, Dandan called Brother Goose to drive over and send me to the gate of the Industrial Park, I said goodbye to Dandan, and followed Da Niu back.