It's also a tangle of how to start the story, and it's been a year and 7 days since I last wrote something. All the things that have happened in this period are now finally the time to sit in front of the computer and enjoy it as before. Everything is so familiar and just right. Hehe... After 21 years of confusion, I have seen love, witnessed parting, and felt happiness. It was all so close, so close, as if it had just happened. Finally realized that what remains by my side is to have, even if some things will still go one day, even if I don't see them for the rest of my life, it can be regarded as passing by. Whether it's a person or a thing, if you leave, no matter why you go, even if you have torn your face, even if it hurts your heart, please don't hold a grudge, it's just passing by!

A person's night, can always have a lot of feelings, the mood is really difficult to calm, take a walk, stop, find all the things to resist time, in the end are all defeated, the popularity is really turned around and dispersed? Do you believe it or not? The unbelievers believe it in the days that followed, but I am still as stubborn as ever, as always persistent, in fact, I don't know why I am insisting! I hope that after a few years, you and I will see you again, and I can still say with the original mentality, long time no see! Even if you are a wife and a father, I hope you still remember the youth that once belonged to us, even if it is not worth mentioning in the eyes of others, but those pasts, even if they are in the past, have passed for a long time, and they are the most difficult and beautiful memories of my life!

It's been more than 4 years since I left school last time and went out into society, and then I went back to school, and since the first day I entered school, I have calmed down because I can study in a bad school because he always has that atmosphere. So, please don't always evaluate which school is good and which school is bad, have you studied? Because what is the future of a person who is always complaining about his teammates?

At 17:40 p.m. on March 24, 2015, I stepped on the train to Wuxi, to be honest, I was very confused, I didn't know what life was like after getting off the train, I didn't know if I could adapt, I didn't know if I could do my best, but it was these unknown fears that made me extra resolute. I'm very extreme, too extreme! It's not good, but it's too hard to change, I always think that there are only two ways to go in my life, life or death, and I always resolutely cut off my back road, so that I can go forward without any scruples! I always feel that the chosen path, even if it is wrong, should go down and see how it turns out, maybe it may not be so bad. When I entered Jianding, which is said to be the second largest company in China, I had a feeling of confusion about where to go in the future, because I knew that this was not the way I wanted to go. Until one day we walked into the post, began my second social life 4 years apart, as soon as I stepped into the clean room, a murderous aura came to me, I fought a cold war, I looked up, only the master who could see the eyes told me, follow me in the future, teach you, I can go out. My legs were weak, what did this mean? When I came back to my senses, he was gone! The night shift was busy from eight o'clock to 12 o'clock, and he suddenly asked me, "You won't go, will you?" What do I mean? He smiled and said that I had taken four people, one for three days, one for four days, and one for a week. I said, isn't there another one? He said another, four hours! I was speechless. I can finally sit down and smoke a cigarette and drink water. I sat there and thought about it a lot. I was thinking about how long I could last the fifth, and smiled, this doesn't seem to be my own style, I have been in the rivers and lakes for decades, I am afraid of something, and now let a job scare me away, I am afraid that I will laugh at myself for not being productive! Walking into the workshop, I told him, I must be the one you have taken the longest. And so it turned out, and I stayed fine, and he was fired. What was left to me was endless torture, a one-person position, worrying about others all day long, and some people would say that you didn't do well all day long, team leader, deputy team leader, deputy manager, section chief, this and that, a lot of messy bastards, but no one did practical things, and I knew all day long that the first level pressed the first level to do things, which is the biggest problem in the enterprise. To be bold and simple, people always think about their own problems and do not consider others, so people are selfish. Every time the team leader sees me, he yells at me, saying that I like to be a good person, really, I just have a good temperament. An old lady inside said this and that behind her back all day long, she told me that you are the best temper I have ever seen, I smiled and didn't speak! Those days I think it's really a big training for my character, every time someone scolds me through the passing box, scolds me in front of me, I laugh and say good things to others, sometimes I laugh at when I become so unproductive, and gradually I get used to it, because I don't want to be a person with a temper bigger than my ability, even if I don't have much ability.

The world is so noisy, we are busy every day, we are busy every day, and we finally have time to stop, why not? When we calm down, it is when our footsteps stop, because our eyes can only see ahead, so we need to take time to look back and see if the path we have walked is correct and satisfactory! Until the day I left on July 24th, when I stood at the gate, I was very happy, if I gave up halfway, it would be my biggest regret for more than 20 years, people who can persevere, no matter how much we have suffered, no matter how many tears have been shed, I Xu Shuang admires you from the bottom of my heart, respects you, no matter how worthless it is in the eyes of others, at least in my eyes, you are all this (thumbs up), now look back, hehe.... I can be killed, I can be beaten to death, even if I am covered in scales and wounded and there is no corpse, even if it is not worth it, I don't want to be scared to death, I am afraid of being embarrassed. That year, there was a very popular sentence for everyone, which is also my motto, I have lost, I have lost, I have never been afraid! As for those who have left halfway, I will not make an evaluation, because everyone has their own thoughts, and they also have their own way to go, and no one can stop them, I just want to say, no matter what, when you give up halfway, no matter how good your reasons are, touching, and even impeccable. Don't think about it, you've already lost, and you've lost to yourself. It may also be that people have their own aspirations, so they still don't make many evaluations. Sometimes that's it, if you are willing to fight, you always have a chance to win, if you don't fight, you won't lose, you won't have your share!

It's been a long time since I've been back, and I still can't slow down, I'm very lazy, I eat, sleep, sleep, eat, and always think about when to find time to write, but I don't have a chance! Actually, laziness is a good excuse, as if you can do something big if you are diligent, and being young is a good excuse, as if you can make a lot of money when you grow up! We are always making all kinds of excuses for ourselves, today to delay tomorrow, tomorrow to the day after tomorrow, another day to delay,,,, what should the child name? It's late! If you want me to say, being young is not capital, working hard while you are young is capital, so who didn't say it, young man, holding his mobile phone all day long and chatting on WeChat, reading stickers, brushing this and that, doing what an eighty-year-old lady can do, what is the meaning of your youth? Taking advantage of my youth to study, travel, and see more things I haven't seen is what we have to do, not that my heart is too old, not that I want to be different from others, I just want to mention my youth in the later days, I can smile and say, I don't regret it! As for who is right and who is wrong, there is time to judge!

I thought this was the end of it, but after thinking about it, I'd better add a paragraph. In my rarest time, the wounds on my body and the tiredness in my heart. The soles of my feet are all rotten, and it hurts to walk a step, and I am still going to work hard, because the lion roars and says that I will not give any leave, hehe.... Every day is the last to get off work, out of the door for a second, the breeze blows, I feel that I am alive again, at the gate of the living area there is a stall to buy noodles in the Northeast's big brother, pure Northeast gentlemen, after a long time to be familiar, sometimes sit down and chat, talk about where, one day he said a few words to me, untied a knot in my heart for a few years, he said, don't always feel wronged, feel how capable you are, really have the ability to do things to let others say you are great. Everything else is nonsense, and it is difficult to be embarrassed in a few ordinary sentences, but in fact, it is, don't always think too highly of yourself, what ability do you have? People can only feel good about themselves if they have made a difference, otherwise, why? If you have a good wind, you feel invincible, you can do anything, you are just lucky, you are really very good, and you are a good general if you can fight against the wind.

Time is always fleeting, don't always dwell on the past, people and things in the past, that's passing by, you can turn your head and take a look, but don't leave your heart there, either take something to face the better unknown, don't look forward to the unknown, do what you should do today, love the person you should love, is the right solution. Don't talk about useless things. The feeling of thousands of flowers passing through it is really not as comfortable as the fragrance of a flower. What I want to say is, don't be so busy, think about why you're busy, don't say what you're preparing for, how to go, where to go, what you know? When you make some major decisions, don't be so anxious, win, win for a while, and if you lose, you will lose for a lifetime! Your parents are filial to your heart, your own women are distressed, and your brothers are in exchange for their lives. Success is not necessarily a perfect result, it can also be a process of hard work without regrets, depending on how you understand it!

There are many passes in a lifetime, many kinds of passing, no matter how beautiful the scenery along the way, the next stop is to move forward, don't stay in one person, don't dwell on one thing, that's too stupid. Go forward with what you need, no matter whether the result is good or bad, don't leave regrets, do your best to face everyone and everything in our lives, and do what is equivalent to it in the best years! Nothing is absolutely perfect! Passing by is just passing by, please don't be entangled, don't wander, let go, you can go further!

Wish: Long live friendship and friendship forever