329. Obey the Destiny of Heaven (12)
Gao Ran looked at Amu with a smile, although she had guessed his possible intentions at the moment, she still deliberately asked him: "You mean, if I can tell you the truth, tell you the new information that I just learned but you don't know, and it is still unfavorable to you, you will honestly tell me your true identity and the real intention of why you chose to 'support' Ji Muqing in the first place?"
Amu didn't expect Gao Ran to use "choice support" to describe the relationship between him and Ji Muqing, which made him believe that she might really be asking knowingly. And her vague temptation, which seemed to know something, finally provoked him, and made him finally make up his mind: to tell her the truth.
He said, "I also do what I am told. But as for the intentions you are referring to...... That's not something I should know, I have nothing to say. ”
"No comment?heh, based on your relationship with Gao Liwen, would you not know his intentions?"
"You ......"
Although Amu was a little suspicious of Gao Ran before, when she asked him like this, he was immediately convinced that she did know the truth.
For a while, he had to try to hide the shock and surprise in his heart, and asked her in a relatively calm tone as much as possible: "Since you already know the truth, why do you have to do anything more?"
"How could I have done it too much, no, how could I have done it too much, and how would I have confirmed my suspicions without it?"
"What? ...... you"
Although she had been very careful to guard against and avoid falling into Gao Ran's trap, in the end, Amu still fell in her way. But he didn't have time to regret and blame himself, so he couldn't help but think of Gao Ran, who clearly broke the real relationship between him and Ji Muqing, and also broke the relationship between him and Gao Liwen - at least, she knew that there was a relationship between them. - If she really didn't know anything about it, and was just bluffing to test him, then how did she get the basis for those speculations?
"No, even if it's just your guess, how can you think of that? You must have known something to make such a guess. And you must be so sure that you will test me like this. Otherwise, once your intentions are revealed, you will no longer have the opportunity to obtain any information from me that you want to know. Isn't it?"
Amu is not stupid, he has been with Gao Ran for so long, and he has already seen her usual style of acting and remembered it in his heart. Although he didn't dare to say that he knew her for what she really was, at least he was sure that she never did anything unconsidered.
"Heh, it seems that this year, you really haven't followed me in vain. In this case, you should also think: Will I waste this year by your side?—— even if you follow me, but in this way, I can always be by your side. If you know my way of doing things so well, why can't I find out your way of doing things the other way around?"
"What do you mean by that?" For a moment, Amu suddenly had an ominous premonition.
"It's not interesting, but I just want to tell you that when you think you have basically mastered my whereabouts, I have a firm grasp of your whereabouts. So, just when you thought you could take advantage of the fact that you were almost inseparable from me and were able to know all the dealings between me and the Heavenly Pavilion, I had actually basically figured out what was really going on every time you left for a short time.
"Those intelligence letters that you thought you had secretly seen were actually peeked at after I deliberately left them for you, and the real information was only after I thoroughly figured out the true purpose of your monthly fixed brief departure, and only once on the occasion of your departure, I promptly notified the Heavenly Pavilion guards lurking around me all the way, and asked them to send the true information only at the time when you were leaving, but when you were in front of you, they had to cooperate with me to play a scene—also a fixed 'that' day every month," That's the hour. In this way, after you have completely convinced that this is my usual way of dealing with Tiange, you will take the initiative to 'cooperate' with our performance......
"What you don't know is that I've always read and destroyed real information. What I should know, what I should remember, I will keep in my heart, and I will not be foolish enough to keep those letters.
"You say, who is acting and who is watching between us in the past year?"
Speaking of this, Gao Ran glanced at Amu meaningfully. Seeing that his face was solemn, it seemed that he had already understood what he was wrong with, and she then confirmed in person that he might be introspective at this moment.
She continued with a pretense of "relief":
"But this can't be blamed on you, during the days of Ji Muqing's courtyard, you didn't dare to enter my courtyard without permission, so naturally I don't know how I would deal with the intelligence letters;
"In front of you, I've always deliberately kept that false information after that, and it's normal for you to mistakenly think that this is the last mistake I should have made but didn't realize it. - Especially with the little luck you still have, which has helped me a lot.
"Well, it's funny when you think about it: when you think it's a fatal mistake that I'm not aware of, you're also completely ignoring your own luck, which is your biggest mistake.
"It's really hard to say, whether I deliberately misled you, or if you jumped into this trap yourself, don't you think?
Therefore, it is better not to easily generate any unrighteous thoughts, otherwise, if there is a trace of unrighteous greed and delusion, it will breed a bit of luck at the same time. And this kind of luck is not given to you by me, but by your own heart. So, no matter how much you try to take precautions, as long as your bad intentions are still on the move, then your luck will always be on the move. As long as you relax a little, it will quietly, quietly, spread into all your thoughts, attach to all your desires, and grow and grow with it...... And the consequences of this, you know now.
But you don't have to blame yourself too much, after all, we are all prone to the mistake of being cautious of others rather than being cautious of ourselves. - You have put almost all of your attention on me, so it will be difficult for you to detect your own mistakes. What's more, it's still such a mistake that is not easy to detect. - In addition, I deliberately lure you to pay too much attention to my 'mistakes', and continue to attract more attention from you, so you will naturally not be easily aware of your own mistakes.
"Hehe, although you may not like to hear this...... But I still think that I still have a 'tacit understanding' with the luck in your heart, and we really cooperate ...... - although you are the owner of it......"
At this moment, Amu's face was already pale, and he couldn't tell whether his anger at the moment was angry with himself or her, or both?
He took a deep breath, and only after controlling his emotions a little did he open his mouth and asked, "You said that I had this luck because of my own desires, but what about you, could it be that you don't have luck?"
When he asked this, Amu had basically understood the general meaning of Gao Ran, and wanted to try to treat him in the same way: since they are all human, if he is the person she said she is, then why is she not? And if she is also like that, then why can't he test her in the same way? If he said that he was completely unaware of his mistake before, he fell behind, but now that he has realized it and admitted it, then he has a chance to counter her.
Unfortunately, unlike you, my desire is never to do to others or how to use them, but to get what I want, even if everything else is not my liking, it still won't prevent me from finally getting what I want. So, if there is really a trace of luck in my heart, then this luck is not about others, but just pure self-choice, which can be freely achieved - wherever I can go, I can go wherever I want, I can go wherever I want, I can continue, I can stop at any time - these choices, for me, there is never an essential difference.
"You might think that the real difference between us is that you are more concerned about my whereabouts than I am about my own actions than yours, which allows me to benefit from your luck and save me from being dragged down by my own luck. But I want to tell you that the real difference between us is not that, but what we really want, which is fundamentally different.
"What you want is not completely under your own control, and it is greatly influenced by the outside world, so you have to pay more attention to every move and all kinds of subtle changes on the outside, but what I want, except for one thing that I can't control, the rest is something I can control, so I don't need to pay too much attention to the many changes in the outside, and I can pay more attention to my own changes.
"At the end of the day, if you want something similar to me, or if I want something similar to you, then the key influences that we will pay more attention to will gradually become very similar, and the things that we will pay more attention to and care about will become more and more similar. But unfortunately, this is not the case......"
"So, do you know what I'm trying to do? Heh, even if you do, I don't believe that what you want is really what you say it is, and it's almost under your control. If that is the case, how can you explain what you have done along the way? How can you explain what you have just done to meet the butler? How can you explain what you are doing with me now?"
"If you think like that, it just means that you still don't understand what I mean. As I said, the real difference between us is not in the means we take, but in what we want to be different from the beginning, the difference in nature. ”
Seeing that Gao Ran was still able to deal with his attacks calmly and with ease, Amu began to feel that maybe his way of treating others was not applicable to her. As for the reason, it is likely that he does not really know her......
Although he has been by Gao Ran's side for many days, even though Amu has seen and accustomed to some of her strange words and strange deeds, he has never regarded them as inconsequential quirks, but he has never thought that if he wants to understand her, he really has to understand her quirks.
If you don't understand her weirdness, you can't understand the true meaning of what she said at the moment that made him incomprehensible. - At least one thing, Amu knew: the difference in their respective purposes that Gao Ran had repeated to him just now was the real crux of why he couldn't counter her. - She was seriously admonishing him, not trying to tease him.
But even so, he did not understand: what was the difference in the nature of their purposes, wasn't it—it was just the difference in what they wanted—was there some deeper difference?
Amu frowned slightly, closed his eyes, and secretly struggled and thought for a while, in that moment, he quickly reviewed all the various aspects of Gao Ran that he had seen and felt in the past year, and then opened his eyes. Without waiting for Gao Ran to ask him if he had made up his mind, he took the initiative to express his curiosity about Gao Ran for the first time.
He said, "If you want me to confess, you can." Just answer me a question and I'll tell you everything you want to know. ”
"Oh, so cooperative, don't you regret your promise?"
"Hmph, it's up to you to believe it or not. ”
"Oh, it's kind of interesting, they're all starting to learn from me. I'm used to saying this to others, but it's the first time I've been provoked by someone else. Okay, if you dare to provoke me, I will believe it. You ask. I promise to tell the truth. ”
As he spoke, Gao Ran smiled slyly.
"What do you want?"
didn't think about it, but Amu asked her such a seemingly innocuous question with a serious face. provoked Gao Ran couldn't help but put away the little provocation just now, and asked back with the same seriousness: "Why are you asking this?"
"Now I'm asking you, and you just have to answer. After that, whatever you want to ask me, I will answer truthfully. Don't you want that too?"
Hearing Amu deal with it like this, Gao Ran couldn't help but laugh dumbly: "Heh, it seems that you have been pretending to be this year." Isn't that what you learn from me? It's the first time I've been provoked like this...... Otherwise, if you provoke me like this, I will definitely pay you back tenfold, so that you can't survive or die!"
Although Gao Ran said it as if she was smiling, Amu knew that her anger at the moment was actually on the verge of exploding......