In fact, my first love ended in just a few months from December of '11 to the eighth day of the Lunar New Year of '12.

Li Biyue broke up with me with QQ in Gansu, and I was suddenly very lost and lost. At that time, I didn't use my mobile phone, I sat in front of the computer in the Internet café and lost my soul, and the moment I walked out of the Internet café with my friends, I felt that the whole world was getting farther and farther away from me. It's like, like someone is hollowing out your heart, leaving a shell, and you don't dare to move hard, just afraid that if you make a big move, your heart will collapse. I know that a person's suffering will always be only your own suffering, no one can replace you, and there will never be such a thing as empathy.

After returning home, I suddenly got a strange disease, and sores began to grow all over my body, and my whole body was covered with holes the size of mung beans, including some very embarrassing places. Later, after examination, I learned that it was called scabies, and it took half a month of medicine to get a slight improvement. I have been taking leave for more than half a month since the start of school, holding a new mobile phone that comforts me at home, a new straight mobile phone bought by more than 300 people, and a phone card with 80 trillion traffic a month and returning to school with satisfaction, plus my classmates' QQ, the happiest thing every day is to chat with my classmates and read e-books, and occasionally go down from the Internet Zhang Zhen's ghost story. Until one day, after listening to it, the whole dormitory didn't dare to sleep, and I didn't dare to turn it off when I put my phone on the table. Now that I think about it, when we were students, we were the happiest time, carefree, able to take the living expenses given by the family, without any burden, without so many worries. It's a pity that we just want to grow up wholeheartedly, until we grow up and want to go back to when we were children, people are often so entangled, endlessly entangled.

At that time, I gradually came out of the shadow of broken love, but I always had a very strange feeling in my heart, and now I think about it, I should be unwilling. One day, when the weekend was on vacation, it was about the end of March 12, and I was called by my classmates to help fight together, a group of four people, plus a mountain knife, a steel knife more than two feet long, and I didn't know what it meant to be afraid. We rushed to someone else's school, after finding the target, just about to start, suddenly a Chery QQ drove straight at us, and I already had a very bad premonition, we ran away, and we were chased by people all the time. It's a pity that I don't know the place well, I ran for ten minutes, I really couldn't run, I threw things under the wall on the side of the road, and simply stopped running. At this time, several middle-aged men in their forties got off the car, one of them was holding a kitchen knife in his hand, not to mention slashing at my head, stepping on the horse, under the death hand, I wanted Lao Tzu's life This is, I subconsciously twisted my head, the knife cut straight down from my right shoulder, I didn't care about the pain, took two steps back, tripped and fell to the ground, he stabbed again, I quickly raised my left arm to block, only to feel a cold, followed by a feeling of pain swept through the body. Then there were two more stabs in the calf, and I completely lost the ability to resist.

I was dragged into the car and taken to someone's house, when the man came over with a kitchen knife and walked up to me.

He asked aloud: Is it the knife you handed to the eagle?

I said, "No."

He pinched the hilt of his knife with his backhand and smashed the handle of the knife against my head. Dizzy, I shook my head and looked at him, and he stared at me too.

He asked again: Is it you?

I'll say no. Be.

He raised his hand again. I didn't move, I stared at him, he seemed to be angry, and he was on top of my head again, and I was numb and couldn't feel the pain. I remember how many beatings I was given, but I knew that I couldn't sleep on my pillow that night, and my clothes were chopped to shreds. In the end, the four of us were captured and three were brought back, me, my brother Jiang, and the eagle. And the one who called us to help with the fight, ran away. That's right, it ran away. At that time, I didn't feel scared at all, I was all angry and cold. I don't blame anyone, including the middle-aged man who stabbed me four times, I have fallen to this point, I admit it, I deserve it, there is nothing to say, because if he hadn't come, his son wouldn't have had a good time in my hands. I only blame myself, I saw the wrong person, I believed the wrong person, and I was superstitious about the so-called buddy righteousness. I took this kind of righteousness too seriously, regarded it as the most important thing in my life, and then was pushed to the forefront by it and endured everything. In the end, Brother Jiang's father brought someone to pick us all up, and I slept at his house at night, and he asked me if it hurt, and I said, it's okay, it's not a big problem. When I went to sleep, my head was full of beaten bags, I couldn't lie down to sleep, so I leaned against the head of the bed, I smoked one cigarette after another, and I didn't close my eyes all night, maybe it was because the strength was over, and the wounds on my body began to hurt. I gritted my teeth and didn't utter a word, because these wounds were insignificant compared to the wounds in my heart.

The next day, I rushed to the county seat and called a friend: Hey, what are you doing?

"It's okay, what about the school, what's wrong!"

"Well, I was cut, come and accompany me to the hospital to get a stab. ”

"Cut, how can you be so deceitful on April Fool's Day, and hung up the phone after speaking. ”

Only then did I realize that today was April Fool's Day, smiled bitterly, and made several phone calls in a row but no one believed me, a sense of loss from the heart. So I took a taxi to a friend's house.

Xu Zhikang, my friend who has played since childhood.

to his house.

He asked: Why are you here, aren't you in the blackpool?

I didn't speak, I took off my clothes, revealing the wound, and he was instantly surprised.

"Damn, what's going on?

After saying that, he took out his clean clothes for me to change into and took me directly to the hospital. After arriving at the hospital, the nurse began to treat my wound, but because the wound on my calf was deep and not treated in time, it began to suppurate and infect. My whole body was sweating, and my legs were shaking all the time, so he held my legs and looked at me with a distressed face. And so, from that time on, I had a very clear definition of my circle, and I would never trust anything anyone said at the wine table again. I won't refute you anything, and I won't say whether what you say is true or false, but I have a shadow. I didn't want to fight for someone else again, but he left me and ran away. In fact, it's nothing to be beaten, Brother Qian told me, a good young man, who doesn't get beaten twice, it's nothing, it's not ashamed. However, being pulled by my so-called "brother" to block him with a knife sounds like a joke.

Later, back to school. I don't know where Li Biyue heard the news that I was beaten, so she sat next to me during self-study at night, lowered her head, and didn't speak, just silently shed tears.

I looked at her and didn't know what to say because since we broke up, it was like a stranger in the class and never communicated. And what's worse is that I can't see girls crying, and when I see girls crying in front of me, I feel like I'm in a state of turmoil, and the whole person will run wild, and I don't know why. We just sat there, neither of us talking.

In the end, she spoke first: Can you stop fighting in the future? Seeing you hurt like this, I really feel distressed.

I suddenly felt happy in my heart, it turned out that she still felt sorry for me. I couldn't help but laugh, and she cried even more fiercely when she saw it. I hurriedly coaxed her and began to say good things, but my mouth was sour when I said it, and I couldn't wait to open the composition paper and find a review example to memorize and continue.

Suddenly, she looked back at me. Stared straight at me. It makes my heart tingle.

I asked in a weak heart, "Why are you looking at me like that?"

She wiped her tears: Let's make peace, okay.

I didn't even think about it, so I hurriedly said: Okay, okay, I dreamed about it.

She said, "But you have to dissociate yourself from your guys, and you are not allowed to fight in the future."

I said, "I've lost faith in what he's done." I will definitely not be in contact with each other in the future.

She looked at me very seriously and said: Don't worry, as long as I am here, even if the whole world betrays you one day, I will stand behind you and betray the whole world with you.

That was the most innocent person I met at the most ignorant age, experiencing the purest feelings, and listening to the most sincere and beautiful love words. I know that I will never have that feeling again, because only a pure heart at that age can say those words without hesitation and firmly. It's a pity that all of this happened at the wrong time. This is youth, the youth of you and me, and the immortal youth.