245. Self-comfort
Xu is Gaoxi himself also saw that his wishful thinking was not enough to convince him to make up his mind completely. And if he still has the slightest hesitation, then he will definitely fall into repeated hesitation and wandering from time to time in the future, and these must not be hidden from Gao Ran! And he doesn't want to toss himself so repeatedly.
If that's the case, it's not good for others or for yourself!
Therefore, if he wants to stay, the first thing he must do is to convince himself thoroughly that he will not waver in his decision in the slightest!
With this in mind, Gao Xi began to find all kinds of seemingly "reasonable" reasons for himself to persuade him to stay......
"Although in addition to me, Ran Er seems to have the support of the Pavilion Master, An Jia, Zhao seniors, and the Fourth Prince Yunjie - but in fact, who else can she really rely on at the moment besides me?!
"Pavilion Master...... He is now far away...... Not to mention that it is unlikely that he will come here in person just to protect Ran Er, even if he can really come here specifically for Ran Er, he will never be like me who can always be by her side and protect her, but abandon the entire Heavenly Pavilion and ignore it! Not to mention that he can't do this, even if he can...... But as the Heavenly Pavilion Master, he can't do it!
"And the other guards around the pavilion master, I am also not at ease!
"Again, it's the An family and the fourth prince Yunjie...... They are even more unreliable—— once Ran Er loses power, they are not completely impossible to turn against her—— especially that Yun Jie!
"Although I don't know the details of his marriage contract with Ran'er, I am clear about Ran'er's personality! It is not difficult to imagine that their marriage contract is mostly just a transaction! But now it is not the same as in the past! Especially once Ran'er loses everything she once had, then this transaction between them is afraid that it will be difficult to continue!
"What's more, Yun Jie at the beginning probably didn't understand the stakes between the Gao family and their royal family, but if he could really live up to Ran Er's expectations and do everything that Ran Er asked him to do, then at that time, he would definitely not be as naïve as before! Will he still be loyal to Ran Er at that time? Could he really not unilaterally break the contract for his own better future, or disobey her, but when she really needs his help, he will turn against her and betray her completely?!—— How can I believe he wouldn't?!
"Now, by Ran'er's side, apart from me and Zhao's seniors, who can she really trust and rely on?!—— that little uncle?
At least, in the eyes of Gao Xi, who didn't know what was going on between Gao Ran and that little uncle, the little uncle he had only met once, he couldn't immediately give him the same trust as he did with Zhao Yi no matter what!
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I have to say that after Gao Xi's analysis with such an obvious tendency towards self-comfort, he really convinced himself completely as he wished, and made himself completely convinced: even if Gao Ran didn't believe him, he could understand it as - she was a fascination with the authorities, and he couldn't see who was really worthy of her trust! And he was determined to sacrifice himself for her, and he would stick to her no matter what, until she was really out of danger—— at least, for now, he thought so- Until she's truly out of harm's way......
As for whether he can get Gao Ran's understanding by doing this, or whether he will be slowed down by her because he will no longer be as he used to be, just blindly following her wishes, he will firmly adhere to his decision for the sake of this "bitterness" in his heart—— unless he dies, he will never leave halfway—— whether she is willing to accept his heart or not.
After finally making a clear decision in his heart, Gao Xi immediately wanted to put it into action. And the first step he has to do is to go to Gao Ran to show his mind at the moment—— whether she wants to listen to it or not, he will force her to listen to everything he wants to say to her!
So, he rolled over and jumped off the tree, and went straight back to the room in the front yard where he had spoken to Gao Ran,—— he knew that she must still be there—— but rather that she should have been there most of the daytime on weekdays - because it was the most convenient place for her to wait and detect the arrival of the person she wanted to wait for.
Knock knock.
Although he was anxious, Gao Xi temporarily suppressed the excitement in his heart, and still knocked on the door first, and waited for Gao Ran's permission before opening the door and entering.
However, this time Gao Ran did not answer the door. And when he was hesitating to knock a few more times because he had been waiting for a long time, she came to open the door herself.
And when she opened the door and saw that it was Gao Xi, Gao Xi saw that there was no surprise in her eyes when she looked at him! It seems that she had expected that he would come back to her again soon......
"Come in. ”
After speaking, Gao Ran sat down in the room by himself. This time, however, instead of sitting at the table as before, she went to the back of the house, and sat down on a straw mat laid directly on the floor, which was only large enough for one person to sit upright, but was very evenly woven, and made a gesture as if she wanted to meditate quietly.
After Gao Xi followed her into the inner room, when he saw her like this, he knew that she was just meditating and pranayama, and had no intention of meditating on internal strength, so he was not afraid that talking to her would make her distracted and cause her to go mad. But it can also be seen that she does not intend to gossip with him anymore, but does not refuse to listen to him.
In his heart, Gao Xi didn't have any burden, but he deliberately whispered his decision to Gao Ran: "Ran'er, I want to stay! I have thought about it, with your current situation, it is not suitable to talk about children's private affairs at this time...... Naturally, it is not appropriate to say clearly and clearly what is going on between us......
"Besides, no matter what you think, I think that the only people you can really trust and rely on now are the Pavilion Master, Senior Zhao and me, the three of them! And the Pavilion Master and Senior Zhao are not by your side now, and even if they come, they can't be by your side at all times like me...... So, no matter what, I can't choose to leave you in a time like this!
"I don't know what kind of deal you made with that 'little uncle', but I know that since he is willing to save you, then there must be conditions! And I have only met him once, I can't trust him as much as I trust Zhao's seniors! Therefore, I can't leave you alone and stay by his side!
"Ran'er, I've already thought about it! Whether you agree or not, I won't leave you at this time! Even if he wants to leave in the end, I want to see you finally safe and sound, and then I can leave! This time, you don't want to force me to listen to you no matter what! As you said, I am now free, so I want to stay by your side, whether you want to or not, you can't force me to leave!
"If you really don't want to see me, if you really have that ability, then you might as well try to escape!
"Heh!" Hearing this, Gao Ran couldn't help but laugh at all! She had to admit that Gao Xi's words had indeed fully convinced her.
Gao Xi's words have made her fully understand: he not only knows her current general situation, but also knows that he is the only person who can really be trusted by her right now...... Moreover, in order to continue to stay by her side, he did not hesitate to threaten her with his killer background, so that she knew that with her ability, unless there was Qiu Yueze's intentional protection, otherwise, at the end of the world, no matter how she escaped, she would be found by him soon—— her escape would only be in vain after all!
In fact, Gao Ran never doubted Gao Xi's tracking ability, as Tiange's former fourth-ranked killer. And since he didn't hesitate to tear his face to talk about this, it was naturally not difficult for her to believe that his determination to stay this time was by no means something she could easily shake. - She believes that the Gao Xi standing in front of her at this moment is really no longer the Gao Xi of the past!