"Hey, there are some things that I want to take this opportunity to make clear to you once and for all! And I'll only say it this once! If you only listen to half of it and leave on your own, then in the future, no matter how you try to redeem it, I won't give you a second chance! Therefore, whether or not to leave halfway, you'd better think clearly about the consequences before taking action. At least in this regard, you should know me, I said there will not be a second time, and there will never be!"

In order to prevent Gao Xi from leaving halfway, Gao Ran specially gave him a clear warning before starting to say what she really wanted to say!

And after she deliberately paused for a while, even if Gao Xi still didn't give her any response, she knew that the moment she paused should be enough time for him to weigh out how to choose!

So, she was relieved to start telling him what she really wanted to say......

"Well, I don't know if you can see it? Actually, if I have a choice, I would prefer to be alone than with others!

"So, as far as my own sincerity is concerned, the marriage contract with you is only the most basic concession I have to make to reality in order to obtain the greatest freedom within my means.

"I know very well that if I don't follow, I am afraid that in the future, I will only encounter external interference and all kinds of obstacles, which will only increase, not decrease! Even in the end, it is very likely that even my whole life will no longer be able to be self-reliant, but will eventually fall into an extremely passive and completely involuntary situation!

"Since I know the consequences of disobeying the 'rules' that I should not disobey the most, then why should I ask for my own suffering? After all, such a 'rule' has not really touched my bottom line, otherwise, I would rather die than compromise!

"I want you to know that my survival is only done without touching my bottom line, out of my respect for life! But I am not afraid of death! Rather, if something inevitable happens that makes me have to die, it will be a relief for me! It is a kind of relief that allows me to leave without guilt and peace of mind. Because I would think that death like that was providential.

"But I don't want to die, and I don't want to give up my life meaninglessly. Otherwise, I am not respecting life, but I am ignoring the preciousness of life! It will make me despise myself! And this contempt for myself will make me worse than death!

So now, you can try to imagine: Imagine how you think I would see my own life and the possible value or significance of others to me, including you!

"Well, if you really have some glimpse of myself as I see it, what I see of you, what I see of other people, and my whole life as I see it, then it is not difficult for you to think of the contradiction between how I think of you, how I treat you, and how I balance the 'future' I really want and the 'future' that changes with you in mind.

"Let me tell you, if I must have a 'partner', then, in my eyes, the most suitable 'partner' for me must be someone like me! He must have his own life he wants, the life he wants, and the path he wants to take, and he will not change his original intention for anyone else!

"In my opinion, the so-called 'companionship' should be, if after we meet, there is indeed a long or short intersection on our respective life paths, then we will walk together for a while, share the scenery we have on the road together, our feelings, no matter the joys and sorrows, we will support each other, share together, and move forward together.

"We just have to enjoy the real happiness that can be brought to us by the positive influence that makes us all better, that we can enjoy and benefit from this happiness when it is time to enjoy it!

"And if one day, there is a serious deviation in our respective life paths, so that this road we have walked together finally comes to a real fork in the road, it is time for us to break up! And the gratitude for each other for the various benefits they have received from each other in the past, and they can no longer be nostalgic, but they can re-embark on their future life paths with gratitude.

"Only those who can do this can become the most suitable 'partner' for me in my eyes. But in any case, with or without such a 'partner', even if it is just one person, I will live well!

"Anyway, in my eyes, from the beginning to the end of life, the only thing I really am walking is myself! Whether there is a partner or friend, but when I am on the road, whether I have met someone who happens to be on the same road as me, and when we are on the road, we happen to be able to appreciate each other, complement each other, and promote each other.

"But no matter whether you meet such a person or not, you still have to take the road you should take, and you can only go by yourself. The only difference is that when you walk alone and in the company of like-minded people, the scenery you can see on the road, and the experiences and feelings you can get from it, ......will be different! Only, I'm still me.

"Of course, even if I go to the best kind of encounter and reverie, even if I decide that you are the one I want to be with for the rest of my life, as you hope, can we really be with each other for the rest of our lives? Can you guarantee that we will both die together?!

"Or is it that in order to ensure that we can really be with each other for 'life', then we must die together?! Even if God does not obey people's wishes, the one who goes after us will have to commit suicide for the one who goes first, so as to fulfill our wish to be with each other for a 'lifetime'?!

"Hey, will you? You should know that things are impermanent...... Even if it were you, there was no guarantee that I would go before you in the future! Then, I would like to ask you, if you go before me in the future, do you really want me to commit suicide for you in order to fulfill your wish to be with me for the rest of your life?

When Gao Xi heard this, his face had become extremely pale, and even a little cold sweat appeared faintly on his forehead. He didn't know why he had suddenly become so frightened, and he didn't know why he was so afraid of Gao Ran's questioning? But he was afraid! He didn't know if he was afraid that such a "future" would really happen, or if he was afraid that if he really asked himself like this, would his sincerity give him the answer he didn't want to admit the most?

But Gao Ran didn't continue to ask him. Originally, she asked him this way just to guide him to try to think like this, but even if he didn't want to think about it, she could understand him......

Therefore, after seeing Gao Xi's reaction, she no longer embarrassed him, but just continued to finish what she wanted to say.

"Xi, I'm telling you this just to let you understand that if you really want to be by my side for the rest of your life, then the first thing you have to do is to truly understand yourself! Don't let me be the center of your heart, and don't let everything in your life revolve around me and exist for me!

"Otherwise, one day, even if you don't leave because you have exhausted your own mental strength and still can't get the comparatively equal return you want, sooner or later I will choose to leave you because I can't bear the burden that you have accumulated in my heart because you have paid too much to me!

"It's because I know you're genuine to me that I can't really ignore your feelings. But even so, I know that I will never give you what you really want!

"It's true! Of course, even if you can't forgive me, I still can't do what you want me to do......

"I know very well that I am such a person, and I don't want to change myself for the sake of anyone! So, the real question now is, have you figured out how you are going to get along with me like this in the future? Or do you realize that you are now free, you can think about what you really want in the future, and then let yourself be the center of your life in the future, instead of becoming a supporting role in the life of someone else like me?

"Besides, even if you don't care who will be the center of your life, then you have to be clear: if you really want me to be inseparable from you, the key is not how much you can help me, nor whether you can revolve around me all the time, but to make yourself the 'ideal partner' I want as I described to you before! Otherwise, you will never really attract me! And if you can't really attract me, then I can leave you at any time, and I won't try to approach you, let alone enjoy every moment with you!

"And I must tell you very clearly that the only truly irreplaceable person in this world for me is myself, because if I exist, then I am, and if I don't exist, then I never exist." This is what I think is truly special about the so-called 'irreplaceable'!

"So, unless you are me, you will never be able to have such a specialness, and since you cannot have such a specialness, then you will never be the 'irreplaceable person' in my heart!

"So, you don't have to have too many unrealistic illusions about your value to me! You don't have to be careful, in the future there may be other people who become a threatening 'rival in love' to you, and become irreplaceable in my heart. This will never happen!

"What do I mean, do you understand?!"

After Gao Xi listened to everything Gao Ran wanted to say, for a while, there was only one thought in his mind: he felt that Gao Ran just wanted to ask him, can he become a person like her, think and live like her? If not, then he will never be able to understand her heart, and he will never be able to truly enter her heart. Naturally, it is impossible to be truly with her for a "lifetime". So, can he become like her? 2k reading web