Xia Tian has always been a person with no goals.

When you study, you study, and when you spend money, you spend money. When you don't have any financial resources, you go to work. If you owe money to a loan shark, you can make extra money to pay it back.

Since he was a child, he has never pursued anything in his career.

The computer he learned in college is just a skill of his own, what kind of person he wants to be in the future, what kind of life he wants to live, Xia Tian of Bensan has never thought about it well.

But he wanted a home of his own.

There is him and his lover at home.

Every day, we discuss what to eat, what to wear, what movies to watch, and what kind of body soap to use......

There are people who can accompany them, there are people who really care about themselves, and there are people who can care about them......

Well, the more you want something, the more you get it.

What you don't care about, you can always get at your fingertips.

Xia Tian's return to Teng Sheng, everything in the unit is the same, the programmers in the information technology department are not gossipy people, everyone is busy with their own work, a meeting was held to inform everyone that the boss has changed, the work is assigned as usual, and the day of the book is not handed over on time and everyone still deducts 500 wages. The days still passed like that, and Xia Tian's salary was still paid at the end of the month.

According to the past two years, the money transferred on time every month for the past two years, and after a few minutes, I received a text message and the money I just made was returned.

Then someone called him, and the voice was gentle and kind. Tell him that the previous loan shark had been paid off in full.

Xia Tian was also confused about the money, but he still had some concept in the end, if he remembered correctly, according to the current rate of repayment, it would take another year and a half to pay it back.

How did you pay it off?

"You're really a noble person, how forgetful. Didn't Brother Long greet you before, as long as you pay back the money on time, we don't care so much about the small amount in the future. You're a little embarrassed to make a good payment several times a month. "The warm breeze of spring on the other side of the phone is not at all like the arrogance that threatened him two years ago.

Xia Tian looked at his mobile phone number, and it was always the little brother who contacted him.

"Anyway, congratulations, pay off your debts. In the future, if there is a place where you need money, you can just make a phone call, and the interest is negotiable!"

Hung up the phone over there, Xia Tian was stunned for a long time, he didn't remember that there was ever a saying that he could erase the fraction, and the erased six digits were not fractions at all.

But pictures of the destruction of the contract soon arrived.

It seems to be true.

Even the luck of repaying the loan shark is so smooth?

Xia Tian rubbed his eyes, facing a large group of outsourcing programs on the screen that had not yet been debugged, and suddenly lost the direction of his life.

The money is paid back.

After that, what are you going to do after that?

Outside the company, it was already dark, and there were programmers in the office fighting. Everyone is working hard, and Xia Tian doesn't have to say hello to anyone.

He'd been staring at the text messages on his phone for a long time, still thinking about that question. After walking a few streets to eat a bowl of noodles, when he came out again, it was raining lightly, and a car stopped in front of him.

Zheng Yang drove a black Porsche, sitting in the driver's seat in a handsome and upright posture, and his voice was still good.

"Where to go. ”

"Go home. ”

"I'll send you. ”

"Good. ”

Xia Tian has never been a twister.

He will hang up when he hears something he doesn't like. When he was full and didn't want to walk, he got into Zheng Yang's car.

Summer in this city has passed, autumn has arrived, and the air is cold, probably a little cold, so Xia Tian only feels warm when he sits in the car.

Zheng Yang's car has a baby seat in the back seat, and the sporadic toys are colorful, which is a little out of tune with the sports car.

There was also a smell of milk in the car.

Before that, Xia Tian never thought that Zheng Yang would get married and already have children.

But also, they are already adults with their own lives.

Neither of them spoke, and the car blended into the traffic, not slow, but definitely not fast.

But the two of them were at ease, one was driving, and the other was looking through his mobile phone.

"You're driving in the wrong direction. After three or four traffic lights, Xia Tian raised his head and opened his mouth.

"......" Zheng Yang frowned slightly.

Xia Tian remembered the expression that this person's answer would only have when it was no.

This expression is too familiar to him, and after so many years, he will still be a little unwilling in his heart.

When they were together, Xia Tian asked Zheng Yang countless times: Do you love me?

Then Zheng Yang will have such an expression, and there will be no expression.

At first, Xia Tian would be unwilling, but later he didn't seem to ask anymore.

Nowadays, the people around him have long since faded from their student spirit, meticulous attire and calm atmosphere, but this expression is still so honest.

Xia Tian looked down at the T-shirt he was wearing casually and shook his head.

"Turn left at the next intersection"

"Good. ”

Then the car hit the left turn signal, and Zheng Yang drove in the wrong lane again......

It was already 40 minutes later for Xia Tian to arrive at the door, and it didn't take him half an hour to walk home from the unit.

However, along the way, Xia Tian finished swiping his mobile phone, read the WeChat circle of friends and Weibo, and chatted with Zheng Yang casually with nothing to do.

Zheng Yang got married two years ago, and his son was born last year, named Zheng Zheng.

Zheng Yang, who graduated from university, went abroad and did everything according to his family's wishes, taking care of his children and working.

Zheng Yang said, Xia Tian listened, and after listening to it, he said a rare greeting: I haven't seen it yet, it should be very cute.

Zheng Yang said yes.

When passing by the last intersection, Zheng Yang asked him: Is everything okay now?

Xia Tian looked at the neon outside the car and nodded: It's good, there is no shortage of money, there is no lack of love, and it feels no different from when I was studying.

In the end, it's still a bit false. These details don't matter, though.

It wasn't until very late that night that Xia Tian remembered that the loan that was suddenly paid off was a little strange.

It's just that Xia Tian, who has always slept and everything has passed, quickly entered the dream.

The city is asleep, summer is really over, and autumn, with the faint fragrance of osmanthus, slowly comes.

……

Xia Tian didn't expect to meet the little guy named Zheng Zheng so soon.

He came home from work on time that day and saw that Xuan Xuan was not reading English, but was staying on the edge of a stroller.

Lu Li was hurriedly brewing a milk powder, and then made a table of powder.

Then the child in the stroller suddenly burst into tears.

As soon as Lu Li saw Xia Tian, he was like seeing a Bodhisattva, he looked for a cloth to wipe the table everywhere in a panic, and pointed to the stroller: "Do me a favor, Mr. Zheng's son, I really can't do it alone, Xuan Xuan, don't give baby towels." ”

Where did Xia Tian take care of the baby. went and pulled out the tissue from the child's mouth, and Zheng Zheng really didn't cry.

The noise in the room stopped.

Xia Tian looked at the little baby.

Xia Tian looked at Zheng Zheng very seriously, and Zheng Zheng also looked at him seriously.

"He likes you very much, he used to cry all the time, and you stopped crying when you came. Wow, his eyelashes are so long. Xuan Xuan half-knelt in front of the stroller, looked at the child cautiously, and then looked at Xia Tian. "Uncle Xia's eyelashes are also very long. Longer than mine. ”

Xia Tian was unconsciously amused by the big eyes of the little baby in front of him. I grinned and didn't even notice it.

Zheng Zheng is not a small one, kicking his feet in the big stroller, shaking his hands, wearing a royal blue striped shirt that makes his face flush, and: "He is so fragrant." ”

Xia Tian muttered.

Later, Qi Ji, who went to buy wet wipes, came back, and Lu Li finally ended his panic, sitting on the sofa panting, and it was rare to see him complain a few words: "Zheng Yang didn't know what to think, he made an appointment with Teng Cheng for a business meal, and threw his son to me, and even my aunt didn't lend me one."

Xia Tian obviously saw that Lu Li's eyes were red in a hurry just now.

"Such a small child, crying all the way. Lu Li rubbed his eyes.

Qi Ji came over and handed him the brewed bottle.

was picked up by Xia Tian.

"I'll try. Xia Tian was eager to try.

Xuan Xuan stared at the little baby and looked at Xia Tian suspiciously: "Uncle Xia, you won't throw him on the ground, right?"

"How could I?"

"You broke a spoon the day before yesterday, and yesterday you dropped your clothes on a tree branch upstairs. Xuan Xuan was particularly skeptical.

Xia Tiancai didn't care so much, and used the image of others holding the child in his memory to take Zheng Zheng out of the stroller.

At that moment, the little guy just stretched out his hand and looked at him directly.

It's like inviting him.

"He's so heavy...... What a little ...... Good...... Soft. When he held the child in his arms, Xia Tian suddenly felt that his heart was all soft, especially the soft smiling face rubbing against his chest, and the soft breath blowing on his skin. For a moment, he was so desperate that he almost couldn't save a child.

"You hold it with one hand, and this hand feeds him. Qi Ji, the only decathlon in the family, came over to help guide the movements: "You can sit down, he will eat for a long time." ”

"That...... He ......, "It's okay, you sit down, he'll sleep when he's full."

Then, only the baby was left in the living room humming and snorting, Xia Tian was holding the child, and Xuan Xuan was staring at the bottle.

"I was like that when I was a kid. Xuan Xuan asked.

"It should be. ”

"But he was so pretty, my dad said I was like a monkey when I was a kid. Xuan Xuan reached out and poked Zheng Zheng's round little face pocket.

Of course, it was uncomfortable for the little ghost to be poked while drinking milk, so he glared at Xuan Xuan with a frowning face. Xuan Xuan didn't know what was amused, and kept laughing.

That evening, Xia Tian always thought it was amazing.

The little guy burped a few times when he was full of milk, but he didn't mean to sleep at all, but he slashed his fists with Xuan Xuan in various spirits, kicked his feet, and was stupid for a long time.

Zheng Zheng had reached the month of crawling, and Qi Ji spread a thick blanket on the ground. Zheng Zheng stretched out his pink short legs to play around.

Later, Zheng Zheng hit the foot of the sofa, and then Xia Tian, who was crying, couldn't remember the details.

Many, many years later, he still remembers clearly that autumn season, the air was full of osmanthus fragrance in the evening, when he picked up the soft child, the chubby little face suddenly burst into laughter.

The eyes were still wet, the eyelashes were dyed into a small fan, and the small ball of meat was full of milk, and then the familiar little face suddenly hugged Xia Tian's neck, and then shouted hard: Bang...... pi…… Syllable...... ba…… Father.

Xia Tian remembered the soft voice and the heart that was crushed under this title.

Father.

Xia Tian has a "father", which is a □□.

Xia Tian will never be able to be a father, it is a dream he has never thought about.

But this title is so gentle and magical.

It turns out that I am so soft and fond of a small life.

It turns out that what I want from childhood to adulthood is not the card that can't be swiped, but a living person, a father, and a father who can dream of being a father......

Because at that moment, Xia Tian found that his eyes were swollen with pain, and his cheeks were hot, as if they had been burned.

……

Very late, Lu Li sent Zheng Zheng, who was asleep in Xia Tian's arms, back.

When he came back, Xia Tian was taking a shower and regretted washing away the milky smell that had just rubbed on his body.

After taking a look at Lu Li, Xia Tian didn't open his mouth to ask if the child was okay to go back.

Lu Li suddenly said: "Zheng Yang was divorced before returning to China." 166 Reading Network