Chapter 015: The Pain of Losing a Favorite
Xu Fu remembered that Yuko had told him, she said that if she left, she should remember that she loved him, but Xu Fu always thought that she would be fine, why did she say such a thing? Pen Fun Pavilion wWw. biquge。 info Yuzi she left, Xu Fu was really sad, he became uninterested in anything.
Xu Fu suddenly found that this world seemed to have nothing to do with him, and he could no longer feel the existence of the knot in this world, what kind of helplessness this was, Xu Fu thought about why this happened, but he thought that he just wanted to hit the wall. Xu Fu thought that he wanted to live well for Yuko, who looked at him from the sky. Xu Fu immediately scolded another voice in his heart, this is all bullshit, the knot is gone, there is no her in this world, she can't feel what Xu Fu does, she wants to live a good fart?
Who can understand Xu Fu's helplessness, that feeling of exhaustion. Hiding in the quilt and crying every night, I woke up in the morning dreaming of the knot crying, I'm sorry, I'm really vulnerable. Xu Fu looked at the portrait of Yuko every day, fantasized about her voice, thinking about how she felt next to her, the memory was like a knife cut, so I really don't know how to live it?
People don't love themselves more than love, it's just that people have too much helplessness in life, and they must know that they can't be immersed in grief forever. Always let yourself do something, it's really easy to think too much when you're free, although you know that the pain in your heart will never get better, but at least it will be a little better.
Xu Fu cried so badly, he kept blaming himself: "I'm a bad man, I've been running away from her death, I can't accept the facts." The helplessness and heartache when saying this is known only to those who have experienced it.
Yuko died, she was a cheerful, gentle and kind girl, with ponytail bangs, Xu Fu would often see her in a trance, and the days with her were cautious and sweet and happy, and she would be childish and jealous and quarrelsome, but in the end she would always reconcile, because the feelings at that time were straightforward and simple, and anything that loved someone could be forgiven and anything could be accepted.
Xu Fu was waiting for her on the side of the road, he saw the figure of Yuzi coming in the sun, their hearts were very excited, excited and sweet, she was getting closer and closer to Xu Fu, the sun was just right, shining brightly and beautifully on them.
Thinking of Yuzi, Xu Fu was crying, even though the weather was windy and sunny, it made him feel depressed and unable to breathe. Originally, Xu Fu thought that he had the whole world, but suddenly his world collapsed in front of his eyes under circumstances that he did not expect, and he felt a lot of pain.
No matter how hard life is, it has to go on, many things are predestined, Xu Fu can't do anything, he knows how painful it is to lose such an important person. Because of Yuko's departure, Xu Fu's memory and feelings about her are more profound, and he doesn't dare to forget or recall. Xu Fu will put her in the bottom of his heart, Yuzi is his favorite, it is an incomplete dream in his life, Yuzi makes Xu Fu learn love, understand love, and believe in love.
"My dear, I'm so sad that you left this world early, I hate that I can't replace you, I know that you have the purest, clean and beautiful soul, you will be happy in that world, no pain, no sadness. ”
"If everyone is a small planet, the dark matter around the deceased, I would like to see you again, I know I will never see you again, but your gravity is always there, I am grateful that our cones of light have overlapped each other, and you have changed my star track forever. Even if we never see each other again, you are still the reason why my galaxy has never fallen apart, and you are the eternal composition of my cosmic web. ”
Xu Fu found Yuko's clothes, sniffed it, smelled her, and did his best to remember the smell, as long as he kept that smell in his mind, Yuko didn't go away.
He slept every day with his clothes in his arms, and he used to be thousands of miles apart. At this time, Xu Fu was holding Yuzi's clothes, he had to believe that it was not Yuzi's clothes, it was Yuzi, she was gently hugged by himself and accompanied Xu Fu to sleep.
Xu Fu tried his best to collect all the things that Yuko used before her death, and put them in her own house, she didn't leave Yuko, she would be attached to the things she used in her life. So she would always be together, she would be at home, and when Xu Fu came back, she was happy for Xu Fu's return.
When Xu Fu needed to talk to Yuko, he hugged her clothes and said that she was by Xu Fu's side. If you are unhappy, drink some wine and talk about it, Yuko is listening, and she also loves Xu Fu.
It is the body of Yuzi who dies, and Yuzi will always live in Xu Fu's heart, and Yuzi is really staying in Xu Fu's heart. As long as Xu Fu thinks of her, her soul is by Xu Fu's side, and Yuko doesn't leave at all, because of Xu Fu's love and attachment to her, she can't leave at all.
When Xu Fu finally let go, Yuko will leave with confidence, otherwise she will always guard Xu Fu's heart, watching Xu Fu miss her and love her for decades.
When a person dies, he is dead, people and ghosts have different paths, the longest long place, Yuko will never let go, Xu Fu thought about it, and felt that this answer was still too cruel.
Memories are always the best in people's hearts, but the most terrible thing is that Xu Fu dreams of Yuzi every day, I don't know if Yuzi is afraid that Xu Fu will forget her, or Xu Fu is afraid that he will forget her. Every time Xu Fu woke up from a dream, he would cry bitterly, he was already mentally ill.
Thinking of Yuko, Xu Fu's tears flowed, he understood that his body's reaction was what he knew, Xu Fu was about to go crazy, he was afraid of forgetting and remembering, he was afraid of failure and success, there was never such a person in this world who trusted him unconditionally and encouraged him, no matter where Xu Fu stood in the future, Yuko would not be by his side to share these with him.
It's a very ...... feeling Lonely......
Xu Fu still hasn't come out, he is carrying the knot and living in his real life.
The universe will not be created out of thin air, nor will it be destroyed, thousands of beautiful creatures, maybe a heavy snowfall in winter, a stream from the Jurassic, a blue whale in the ocean, maybe a mammoth. Every energy of all people has to be part of something else, maybe it's a cumulonimbus cloud, maybe it's a koala.
It is not unfounded to say that if they are given a new life, all the people in this world will not disappear and will become stars when they leave. Once a part of something else, you will also become a part of something else, and disappearing is the source of another life.
No one can be with you for a lifetime, no one is essential.
This world is very beautiful, the trees and flowers bloom on a sunny day, the ripples all the way on a rainy day, the sun sweeps the city, the breeze passes through the fingertips, the love songs sung at night, and the shadows spread out along every mountain road along the way, are inadvertently left word by word, year after year of reading, this world is your will, and you are your only relic.
Xu Fu spent the coldest summer of his life, but he pretended that everything was normal and no one knew what was going on. It's just that Xu Fu cries until midnight every night, and suddenly thinks of Yuko's tears, and he can think of Yuko when he listens to a song.
Xu Fu spent almost all of his time drunk, he was really sad in his heart, that day Xu Fu was walking on the road when he met an old man, and the two of them talked a lot. He said, Isn't it God's test for Xu Fu to encounter this kind of thing? If Xu Fu can bear it, then it will be God's reward for him, and if not, it will be his punishment.
Helplessness and pain accompanied Xu Fu, Xu Fu he felt scared, he didn't dare to turn off the lights at night, he felt that Yuko would suddenly appear in front of him, and she would look at him in front of him.