Chapter 38: A Conversation with Aunt Li

My name is Wang Wanling, and I am a disgusting guy who has inexplicably changed from a normal boy to a girl. Maybe it seems normal to others, but I don't like it, I really don't like it! I hate being manipulated and tampered with, because it makes me lose myself very quickly.

My memory is starting to get foggy now, because I can't seem to remember some things about being a boy, even my old name...... What else have I done before, other than fighting, brawling, smoking, drinking, and most importantly, what was my previous name?......

I don't know how long my clarity and sanity can last, I don't know if I am really suitable to exist now, I only know that no one will remember who I used to be, I only know that no one will look for traces of who I used to be, although I used to be missing or dead I will not be cared about, even the slightest mercy is a luxury!

All I know is that if I really forget my former self at some point, then I will really die at that time, because no one will remember that bad student anymore, and no one will ever think of that bad student who is tired of seducing the school flower and being a toad and eating swan meat. Is it seductive? Maybe that's really the case in the eyes of others?

When forgotten by everyone, isn't it equivalent to death in a sense? Death may still be a very happy thing, at least evidence of its existence recognized by the world. And I, not even qualified to die, I know that my existence has been erased. When I forgot about myself, then I really didn't exist at that time, not even as a disgusting worm.

To be honest, at this time I envy those worms, at least they are disgusting in the eyes of others, and I! I don't even have that qualification......

Sleep, sleep, don't want to wake up again, don't want to wake up again.

……………… (Split)..................

The next morning, Wang Wanling opened her beautiful eyes faintly, looking at the angel white wall in the ward, she didn't know what was wrong with her at the moment, in short, she was very uncomfortable, uncomfortable and wanted to cry, and the eyelashes at the corners of her eyes were still a little crystalline. But she held back her tears very aggressively

She only remembered that she was too tired and sleepy yesterday, and before Liu Han Da Xianhua's answer, she leaned on Meixin's shoulder and fell asleep in a daze, and then had some messy dreams, the content of the dream seemed to be very resentful and painful, and there was a faint urge to kill people in her heart, but why it made her feel resentful and painful, she couldn't remember, and she didn't even know who dreamed of it, but she knew that because of this dream, her heart was extremely uneasy now.

Maybe something will happen soon, something that makes her angry and want to kill. It was her instinct, the first time she had ever been a daughter. Because I woke up to the present, my body is still trembling slightly.

Wang Wanling looked at her slightly trembling hands and frowned, feeling angry in her heart, but why was there still a trace of fear in the depths?

By the way, I seem to have seen a few angry figures in my dream. Wang Wanling's blank brain slowly thought about it, but it was over soon. Then I dreamed about something unpleasant.

It seems like...... That's all!

Wang Wanling sat up slowly, and after a night's rest, her physical strength recovered a lot, at least it didn't take much effort for her to sit up! She moved her petite body wrapped in a hospital gown to the side of the bed, and slowly put her small and tender white feet into the wide slippers next to the hospital bed.

The shoes are too big and it seems inappropriate, Wang Wanling shook her head and smiled after calming down, and the hospital gown was loose on her body, but she didn't mind the mess.

On the other hand, this kind of appearance that does not need to be deliberately matched shows her petite beauty

What bullshit future, what anger that can't help but mess up, what unknown pain all roll away! Anyway, I won't live long, and it's true to be happy now. Let's die in the future, anyway, the so-called future has nothing to do with her!

Wang Wanling smiled, and dragged Tata into the bathroom with her depressed back.

……

"This aunt in the clinic, are you awake?" came out of the toilet, Wang Wanling did not go directly back to her hospital bed, but sat beside the middle-aged woman.

"Well, woke up when you got up to go to the bathroom. The woman opened her eyes and looked at Wang Wanling beside her and smiled lightly, she didn't feel any surprise at Wang Wanling's initiative, as if she had known that Wang Wanling would come over, "Child, your name is Wanling, right, your personality is really special!"

It's really peculiar, she didn't get him down the stairs from the doctor, and she looked at her classmates and friends who came to see her. Can someone with this personality not be special?

But this child's life is not simple, judging from her friend's caring attitude towards her, maybe the things she carries on her shoulders are different from others!

"My character ......" Wang Wanling pursed her lips and paused for a while, looking at the woman on the hospital bed, "Maybe what I said is really not very friendly! My life is cheap, I don't live long, God will soon accept me, I just don't want to hurt the people who care about me." ”

Speaking of this, Wang Wanling showed a hint of self-deprecation, and quickly restrained her smile again, "Heh, my words are also quite ridiculous, obviously hurting everyone with the invisible blade of language, but still saying it as if it is very sacred." ”

Wang Wanling smiled sarcastically, "Forget it, you won't understand these words!"

"Language is a double-edged thing, and there's nothing you don't understand. The middle-aged woman sighed softly. Why didn't she understand? How could she not understand. Because distrust made her lose the opportunity to see the last side of the love of her life, how could she not understand.

The woman on the hospital bed was silent for a while after listening to Wang Wanling's words, and showed a somewhat desolate smile: "Wanling, can Auntie call you that?"

Wang Wanling didn't speak, just nodded.

"Maybe Auntie is just one of your passers-by, but Auntie just wants to tell you one word, I don't know if you like to listen to it or not. The middle-aged woman looked at Wang Wanling and said softly, "Actually, some words may be better to confess to relatives and friends, Auntie is a person who has come over, and it can be seen that your friends care about you from the heart, as long as you say it, there may be a better solution." ”

Say it? Wang Wanling shook her head helplessly. Tell Mei Xin that they're actually a man, or tell them they're going to die at any moment?

The matter of the man's body must not be said, it is his own secret, and the latter is too painful for Mei Xin, she will be injured or even collapse when she knows it, so she will not say the same

"There's no way to fix it, and I'm not going to let them notice my problem. ”

The middle-aged woman shook her head and smiled, "I only saw you awake yesterday, so it should be less than a day, if I can detect that something is wrong with you if I only know you for a short time, then do you think that friends who have been with you for a long time will not find out at all?"

Wang Wanling paused slightly and fell silent. After being reminded by the middle-aged woman, she also realized. It's just that she doesn't want to do too much communication about this matter!

There's nothing she can do to change anything, but she knows that as long as she does her best and manages her emotions, she won't show too many of her feet!

He sighed slightly and said, "Auntie! Since you can't hide it, it's better to ignore it, and no matter how much you do, it's better to do nothing. ”

"I think you have an unknown past, if you don't mind...... I mean, if you don't mind, can you tell me about your past? Don't worry, I'll be a listener and won't talk nonsense outside! And I think it's not good to keep some things in your heart and not good for your health, and opening up to strangers isn't necessarily a bad thing, if you can......"

Stuffy in my heart, Wang Wanling is still less bored? This is the most inappropriate thing for you to say.

The middle-aged woman looked at her, the corners of her mouth twitched slightly, and her eyes were slightly moist!

The middle-aged woman looked at her deeply, "Actually, I don't mind, I don't mind, I can say if you want to listen." This may be ...... to you It's also good for the young couple who were said by you in a mean tone yesterday, and if you think it will help them, maybe you can tell them what happened to me. Don't worry, Auntie doesn't mind......"

The middle-aged woman began to tell a story about a past that outsiders did not know, about a sad and vicissitudes of the past!

(End of chapter)