Volume 1 - Shannan Chapter 55 I don't know the clouds
The three of them chatted for a while, and Pichuma came out of it, and went to the store to buy something to eat according to his own rules, so that he could spend the rest of the week.
If you want to talk about the origin of these three people, it is a long story, I will not say it for the time being, you will watch it first, this news also talks about the succession and transformation, this story, also leave a careful thought.
At that time, it was June.
Every year in June, there are several major events, the first thing is the high temperature record broken by all places, and the other thing is the college entrance examination that the whole people pay attention to.
The college entrance examination can be regarded as the first place in the national attention, and education has always been an important matter that has always been talked about.
If a country is separated from education, it is not far from extinction.
Education should not only be said, but also done, the college entrance examination is one of the links, and the college entrance examination can be built well, so that the pillars of the country can follow one after another.
Although the college entrance examination is not the fairest, in today's society, the college entrance examination is indeed the only way out.
In this life, all I want is to do a few things, study, work, and start a family.
The college entrance examination can be regarded as the foundation of all life visions.
If you can't read, not to mention what kind of height this person can reach, just if he progresses in life, there will be many fewer detours to take.
If you read well, on the one hand, you will increase your knowledge, even if you can't get any diplomas or stepping stones, but you can really learn to be a person, which is also a kung fu.
You look at the old people of the previous generation, they read few books, and they relied on a little bit of traditional thinking all their lives to destroy their lives with their own eyes, how sad and helpless.
Obviously, you can rely on your own life, but you have to be bound by tradition, you can't do anything, and you can't do anything.
If a woman feels that she has to rely on her husband, her family, and her children, and a man who thinks she has to have intelligence, then in the end, everything will be tied up, and she will not be able to do anything.
For example, my mother.
She's alone now.
Her thinking is old-fashioned.
I pity her, but sometimes I think she's really hateful.
I have been very envious of other families since I was a child, in my cognition, I am a person who does not even have a family relationship, my father died of lung cancer when I was 18 years old, I have never felt fatherly love before, but at the age of 18, I felt a heavy father's love, this father's love is not born of love, but of hate.
I have never received love from my family in my life, so why should I protect them when they are about to perish?
You could say humanitarian.
You can also use ethics to govern my statement, but you can't deny the grievances of a child in a family relationship.
I had never had any intimate moments with my father before, I didn't even know anything about the character, I didn't feel the love from my family, but I felt the evil from my family, and I felt it deeply.
I have dreamed countless times of my youth, and those memories have washed my soul over and over again, making me a wicked person, and I have not become a real evil person when I wake up to this day, all by my own will.
Besides, my mother, she blamed all her life's hardships and hardships on her lack of study, on her lack of knowledge, but she never blamed her own weakness, and when she picked up a rattan and whipped her children, it was only because she was unhappy, she was in a bad mood, and her own life was terrible, so she beat and scolded her children at every turn.
The tiger father you said has no dog son, tiger mother and the like, it is not true in her body at all, this is not my denial of her hard work, this is a sorrow that anyone can see, she is using the injustice of fate to her to punish her children.
What's wrong with this group of kids?
What's wrong with you getting pregnant with him and giving birth to him?
This result turned out to be caused by you, so you should bear this result, not use your own strength to repay the fruits that you have.
I never said these words to my mother, and she never admitted her cowardice, and even at this age, she never recognized her mistakes.
Until some time ago, when I was approaching the college entrance examination, my mother suddenly confided in me a grievance.
The source of this incident was very small, and she felt wronged by her mother's frustration, and for the first time she really felt uncomfortable.
She and I had never had such a real conversation before, and I could say that in our usual conversations, I wouldn't even say three words superfluous.
For me, my father and mother are just an ornament in the family relationship, I don't pray for them to do anything for me, I don't think I can do anything for them in the future, I can survive well, I am still a good person, I have not done much, I have not killed people and set fires, I feel very content, very remarkable.
But my mother's words made me cry for the first time.
And it's tearful and complicated......
I even wanted to directly refute his words.
Yes, after so many years, it is the first time that you feel wronged, and for the first time, you feel heartache and sadness when you feel that you will be treated unfairly in this family, but what about me?
I've borne that since I was a child, to whom did I say it?
Who did I talk to?
Who can really understand me?
There is no empathy in the world, you have no idea what I think, and no one has ever cared about how my soul will be traumatized.
I mentally thought of several versions of the rebuttal that I wanted to tell my mother.
It was exactly 3:00 p.m.
I think most of the people in the world have fallen asleep, but I can't sleep, and after half an hour of searching for information, I simply replied to her.
I'll talk to you.
Don't be sad.
Other than that, I didn't say anything.
I didn't say that you did this to me when you were a child, nor did I say that you should have to bear so much on your own, I told her that we are all here, you don't have to feel that way, everything will pass.
How capable am I to learn to comfort others at this age?
I don't know what I think, I don't know what she thinks, I don't know if she can reflect a little bit on whether I had such a predicament back then, whether I will also feel wronged because of a very small thing, the fuse of those grievances has continued to this day, I never seem to have prayed for her to think about it.
In terms of family relationships, she has always been the most selfish existence.