"Kiki, do you miss your mother?"

How many years have passed, and I thought that the day my mother left me forever would be deeply rooted in my mind like a brand.

As far back as I can remember, I rarely saw my mother outside of the hospital, and it seemed that in those days when medical conditions were not perfect, any disease would unfortunately deteriorate into an incurable disease. Sickness, illness is a person's disease, but the pain has to be borne by the family, so when I was very young, I couldn't see the smile of my family, and along with myself, I became less able to smile.

Until one day, my mother, who had been hospitalized for a long time, suddenly returned home with the support of everyone, and the family gathered around the bedside talking and laughing, and my father, who always had a sad face, seemed to suddenly become cheerful. Affected by this sudden atmosphere, my heart suddenly brightened as if I had lit a lamp in a dark room.

"Yo~~ Look, Kiki smiled, come~ let Mom see!"

Mom smiled and pulled me into the ring, hugging me as tightly as she could, with her still thin arms.

"My Kiki, it's so nice to laugh......" Mom helped me smooth the bangs on my forehead, "Remember, no matter what difficulties you have in the future, you must not forget how to laugh, the girl who laughs is the most beautiful, so beautiful that God is reluctant to let you suffer." ”

Mom's jokes drew laughter from everyone in the room, but when the laughter reached my ears, it was as empty and helpless as a cry.

Frightened, I trembled and asked, "Is my mother's illness cured, and that's why she went home to live with us?"

I could feel that the temperature in the room was a lot lower in an instant, so cold that people couldn't help but shiver, but the place where my mother held me with both hands was still warm as spring.

"Yes, my mother's illness is cured......"

It was the warmest and most cruel lie I've ever heard.

A month later, my mother passed away. Knowing that her time was short, she obtained the consent of the hospital and was closely connected with her family in the last moments of her life.

My father once said that human beings are far stronger than you think, and he thought that he would break down when he learned of the ultimatum, but he did not expect that during the long years that his mother was bedridden, his heart was numbed by constant fear. When all uncertainties were clearly told, when any hope was surely obliterated, it was inconceivable that he felt a burst of lightness, and he wanted to laugh easily.

"In that case, let's go home happily as a family, shall we?" said Dad to Mom.

That time is undoubtedly the most shining memory in my mind, but now, more than ten years later, I am not sure if I can remember my mother's appearance after leaving the photo.

Is it the ruthlessness of the years, or is it my ruthlessness?

I just remember that my mother said that I looked good when I smiled. So I smile in the mirror every morning, and I greet every day of my life with that smile. In a way, this may also be a way to honor my mother.

"You look so good when you smile......"

When she first met Zhou Jinyun, she said the same. Dignified appearance, gentle conversation, and even in a wheelchair, he is fighting against illness at any time. For a moment, I felt a burst of dampness and heat, and tears welled up in my eyes.

"Sure enough, it's still a delicate girl......" she sat in a wheelchair, smiled and handed over a handkerchief, "Don't care so much, although it's quite pitiful to sit in this wheelchair, but I'm used to it, so ......"

"No, no...... I didn't mean that......" I hurriedly explained, still remembering the scent on the handkerchief, which was reassuring lavender.

She was really brave, and her dignified and virtuous conversation made it almost forgotten that she was sitting under her in a wheelchair instead of a comfortable soft chair. She is also really beautiful, and her gentle and delicate appearance makes people feel that her fair skin and delicate are naturally beautiful, not burdened by a bad disease. It's no wonder that many people fall for it and are willing to be driven by it.

When she first entered the school, Zhang Luqi heard that there was a senior sister in the second grade who was suffering from a serious illness and had to use a wheelchair to walk, but despite this, she was still tranquil and gentle, beautiful as a fairy, although she had long wanted to meet this senior sister who bravely faced life, but she didn't expect it to be such an embarrassing start. Although he wanted to get out immediately at this moment, the senior sister's smile was like a dream, and she fixed herself in place.

I wondered what I could do for her......

"Zhou Jinyun wants to refuse surgery?"

When she learned the news from Li Ming's mouth, Zhang Luqi couldn't help but feel a burst of excitement in her heart, as if some kind of opportunity suddenly came to her stall full of expectations but completely unprepared.

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, how can you say that she is also a girl, how can you not be afraid of things that will see blood with a knife?" Li Ming snapped his fingers, "Aren't you walking close to her? Just help her as your idol? cheer her up, after all, this is a rare opportunity!"

"Maybe she has her own concerns, I'll ask!"

"Hey~~" Before the words were finished, Zhang Luqi had disappeared out of sight, leaving Li Ming alone and complaining rather resentfully, "Didn't they all say that there is no humanity of the opposite sex, how can this be the opposite?"

As she spoke, Zhang Luqi had already strode to Zhou Jinyun's side.

"Can surgery be cured?"

Zhou Jinyun nodded.

"Then what are you hesitating about?"

Zhou Jinyun's lips moved, but she didn't speak, and sighed at the end.

"Xiaoqi, do you know how long I've been stuck in a wheelchair? almost eight years...... During this long period, I don't know how many methods I tried and how many hardships I suffered, but I didn't see any improvement......"

Zhang Luqi was about to speak, but she pressed her lips with her fingers, and then said: "But I have learned a little, if there is no expectation, I will not be disappointed......

"That's not right!" Zhang Luqi shook off Zhou Jinyun's hand, "There are miracles in this world! There must be! If you are afraid, there will be me behind you! But you can't escape, this is an opportunity! A rare opportunity, I don't allow you to give up just like this, at least ......"

At that moment, Zhou Jinyun's expression was very subtle, first a dark cloud as if she had been wronged, then an unwilling thunder, but in the end it turned into an endless melancholy drizzle.

"Then you can prove it to me, the so-called miracle ......."

"Track and field?!" Li Ming's eyes widened and he held his chin with his hand, "You want to participate in the track and field competition? Sister, don't make trouble, okay? I know that you are a flat foot runner who can't run fast!"

"No! I must go!" Zhang Luqi stubbornly almost unreasonably, "Use the connections of the club to help me catch up with the registration!"

"Open...... What are you kidding......" Li Ming waved his hand and said, "Everyone has what they are good at or not, and it makes no sense for you to do this way!"

"Why is it meaningless? Didn't you also say at the beginning that you wanted me to support Zhou Jinyun and not be afraid of surgery?"

"I'm ......" Li Ming sighed, "That's just out of concern among friends, have you ever thought that Zhou Jinyun just didn't want to have surgery to make an appointment with you for track and field competitions?"

"Then what do you say!" Zhang Luqi's eyes widened, and her tone became tougher, "Then what do you say? How do you let Ah Yun undergo surgery? I just want to tell her! There are miracles in this world!"

"But she also has the right to choose!" Li Ming's voice also unconsciously became louder, "The body is hers, don't forget that any surgery is risky, why do you think it is best for her to undergo surgery?!"

"Because there's a chance!" Zhang Luqi stomped her foot, "Why do you all think that maintaining the status quo is the best? Let me tell you what it will be like to maintain the status quo, that is, day after day, along with the obsession of the people closest to her, everyone will watch her slowly come to the end of her life, just like my mother ......"

Zhang Luqi suddenly stopped speaking, froze in place and took a deep breath: "Whew...... At last...... At last...... In the end, it even disappeared from everyone's memory...... Ah Yun was the first friend I made in college! I won't sit idly by like a passerby!"

The first friend, what about me? Li Ming slashed his emotions, after all, he still cared more about Zhang Luqi's feelings than others, so he coughed his throat and said softly: "It's okay, it's okay, if you can't do it, just try it first...... I'll go to Qin Zhao and them in a while to see if I can catch the line of the student union and help you make up the registration form......"

"Thank you...... Thank you......" Zhang Luqi wiped the tears overflowing from the corners of her eyes and calmed her excitement.

"Thank you...... Li Ming said half-jokingly, "But then again, this time the movement is so big, if it really happens, you have to run some results!"

Zhang Luqi regained her bright smile: "Well, for Zhou Jinyun." ”

"For the sake of the community~~" Li Ming followed.