What do you like to discuss when you're with your friends?

That's right, it's either a woman or a game, and the next thing is a career.

Because of what happened to me with Yan, Ting was very angry, so she didn't talk to me.

At that time, I was so confused that I couldn't describe it, and there was a feeling of depression that I couldn't put myself in my heart.

Later, I reconciled with Ting without warning.

My memory is vague, I just remember that I should have been apologizing to Ting.

Maybe in Ting's heart at that time, boys were inevitably lustful, as long as they were willing to admit their mistakes, they were worth cultivating.

……

I was playing with my friends in the town that day, as always, and that night I was the Lantern Festival.

School was about to start the day after the Lantern Festival, and Ting came to me in a pale yellow sweater that night and sat next to her that night. The distance between each other is so close, to be honest, I have been with her for a few months, I have never held Ting's little hand, but Yan's little hand, I have pulled.

I once said to Yan: "Your hands are very similar to my mother's, slender and beautiful." ”

At that time, I could not find flowery words to describe it, and it was not as good as the amount of words it is today.

I can always smell the faint fragrance of Ting's body at the nose, a bit like the smell of some kind of herb, I am not used to it at first, but if I smell it carefully, there is a very fragrant and fragrant shampoo smell, I swear I have never used that kind of shampoo!

I sat with her in the corner of the park, in the dim light, and no one knew about doing something bad, if she didn't scream.

My heart was about to move, as if there were thousands of ants scratching, and after enduring it for a long time, I finally hugged her and kissed her on the red lips for about ten seconds!

She struggled hard at first, but I can't just break free as a big man, can I?

Fortunately, she has less strength than me.

After I grabbed my hands, I stopped resisting, and just let me ask for it so quietly.

That night, I remember the taste in her mouth.

Sweet, fruity, with the sourness of lemon and the sweetness of apple.

It was the first time in my life that I tasted the taste of a girl's red lips.

I was with her for three months, and when school started, we were together for about two months, and then she left my life completely and quietly.

……

I remember it was a monthly exam, and I risked being found out by my teacher.

She was surprised to run to the class where she was taking the exam and sit behind her, because I had escaped from the original test center and sneaked over to take the exam with her, and it was extremely dangerous to be discovered.

I did it without hesitation.

It seemed that it was an English test that day, and at that time I always thought that Chinese spoke some bird language, which seemed to be an excuse.

So I just didn't do it, told her I was going to sleep on my stomach for a while, and I fell asleep.

Then I woke up and found that my English test paper had three blank papers and one answer sheet with answers.

I knew that Ting secretly helped me do it while the teacher was not paying attention, but I was unconscious at the time.

At the beginning, I was not grateful, but a happy mood was flooding, and it seemed that at this moment, I finally let go of my ex-boyfriend's knot.

When she turned her head, Danfeng's eyes instantly had a green style rippling.

With a shiny drop earring in her left ear, she is a Danfeng eye. At that time, her face was as red as a red apple, and I specially tricked her into touching her cheek when I was looking at things.

When I put my palms at room temperature against her face, I could feel the burning sensation, like a burning flame.

She was visibly stunned, and this time she strangely didn't knock my hand off.

Instead, she looked at me with her danfeng eyes open, and I liked her demeanor at that time, it was really cute.

If it weren't for me, I couldn't stand the four eyes and said casually, "You're as red as a monkey's ass." ”

The delicate atmosphere at that time was ruined by me.

For the rest of the exam, I sat behind her, skipping what I didn't understand, and then sleeping on my stomach when I was almost done.

However, every time I wake up, there are always traces of black ink on the blank test paper.

I began to rely on Youting's life.

……

In the midterm exam after the monthly exam, I suddenly lost contact with her.

Because after the last test, she went downstairs in a panic in front of me, ran to the parking lot, and rode her car.

I put my hand on the railing, I couldn't tell what kind of emotion it was, silently.

Her eyes moved as she moved, and Ting's figure finally disappeared from my sight.

……

In the afternoon, at half past four, I came to my grandfather's house.

Rush into the bathroom, quickly take off your clothes, scoop up scoops of cold water, and pour them down from your head.

I couldn't tell whether it was tears or cold water, so I squatted silently in the bathroom, like an ostrich, burying my head deep between my knees.

After a long, long time......

When I put dry clothes on my wet body, I feel like I'm out of this world.

I finally flipped the screen and dialed Ting's mobile number.

At first, three or four phone calls were not answered, and I was patient with irritable feelings, but then I was connected.

But she was silent, and when I answered the phone, my grievances erupted, shouting, "Why! Why do you do this to me!"

Love, no matter who is right or wrong, who wants to leave, is an unforeseen thing.

When Ting fled in a panic, I felt a sense of death.

She was just crying on the other end of the phone, and I felt the illusion that the whole world was collapsing!

Some people say that waiting for the lamp is a painful cycle, and we always live in the attachment of waiting for others, which is one of my deepest memories.

Because in the days after that incident, I waited for a girl for three whole years, and yet she also lied to me for three years, and I waited like a fool.

I've never met her, and I've mentioned it to her, and I've never been able to get my wish.

I remember that Tianting told me the truth: it was because of Hongpeng, or because of him.

I thought I had let go of the knot in my heart being lifted again.

I wish he was across from me at the moment and I had a chance to punch him.

The frustration I felt at that moment was undoubtedly profound, and I felt that it really took courage to fall in love with a girl.

What she did made me deeply regret that I put aside Yan and chose to believe in such Ting.

So much so that I not only hurt Yan, but also hurt myself in the end!

Perhaps, it's better to separate sooner, right?

……

I'm a person who generally doesn't like to open my mouth on my own, and I will choose to let the other person say something about breaking up.

Maybe I feel that I am worthy of this relationship by doing this, so that I will not be so heartbroken, right?

lost the girl she once loved, and was torn from the heart by her.

At that time, I was living in the water, and in the days when I lost her, I was like a fish out of the water, struggling every day, hoping to break free from the painful feeling of dehydration!

Even when I had this meal, I forgot to pick it up after I dropped the lunch box that I had placed on hand.

Every time I see this in my dormitory, I will pick it up and silently put it aside.

They didn't persuade me because they knew that after this time had passed, I would be fine.

It was a difficult time, and I spent a whole semester forgetting about the girl who had hurt me the most.

After she broke up with me, she dropped out of school and left school.

……

The pain that Ting left me has become dull to this day, but the scars are permanently left in my mind.

I had made up my mind to play with love, but I had that idea, but I didn't have the determination.

It's just that once you have a girlfriend and feel that it is not suitable, you will immediately tell her that it is not suitable.

Maybe this is the so-called sequelae of love, I'm scared.

So far, my love with Ting has ended in vain.

She and I have been friends from two worlds ever since, very strangers.

After I broke up with Ting, I didn't dare to look back to Yan, I had hurt her, and the tears I brought to her had already consumed the affection between me and her.

I couldn't imagine how I could have the face to look her in the face.

Say to her calmly: "I'm sorry, I love the wrong person?"

If you can't have a clear conscience, what you can't get will eventually be lost.

The long-awaited love should not be a burden to her.

She finally has a boyfriend.

Time is the greatest author, it can write an epic love history, and it will also slowly heal my wounds.

When I walked out of the sad past, Xiaofan had a relationship with people.

Actually, I should have found out that after I broke up with Ting, Xiaofan should have known.

However, she had not spoken to me as deeply as I had in the past.

She is finally in love.

……

Time goes back to the second semester of the second year of junior high school.

In the evening, the wind dances wildly.

At that time, I walked out of Ting's shadow.

Leaving her life, I was bohemian.

Smoking and drinking were even worse, and my personality changed dramatically.

The mentality is running towards extremes, and it is easy to think about things to extremes.

This is the school flower of our school, I found out in a chat with her.

Her name is Ping, three years older than me, sexy, mature and charming.

At that time, there was no WeChat, and the penguin chat software was used.

Ping and I met at a supper bar and smiled at each other.

She is very beautiful, more mature than Xiaofan, sexier than Ting, and more sensual than Yan.

That night, she said to me alone, "Your ideas are extreme. ”

That was the only conversation I remember so far.

Today's Ping, when she was in college in a foreign country, met true love, and she also came out of the shadows of the year, from the perverted methods of several hooligans.

I have lost contact with her for a long time.

……

One day in my second year of junior high school, I was chatting and laughing with some friends by the river.

The cigarette case was empty, so I rode the little sheep to the store to buy cigarettes.

But halfway through, I happened to meet Xiao Fan who was going to my aunt's house.

I stopped her and said, "Xiaofan, where are you going?"

She turned around, saw that it was me, smiled, and said, "I was about to go to my aunt's house, and my mother was there." ”

"Are you going to go out for a walk?" I blurted out.

She didn't hesitate, sat straight in the back seat, and said, "Go to Baishihai." ”

I pumped the accelerator, the exhaust hole screamed wildly, and I walked through the streets with extreme arrogance.

Xiaofan was a little scared, so he just told me to drive slowly.

At that time, I was young and frivolous, and I slowed down.

She is the only girl I want to protect except for Ting.

I bought a pack of cigarettes halfway through, and urged the little sheep to go to Baishihai, completely leaving out a few of my friends.

With Xiaofan by my side, I forgot about them, I really forgot.

She was the only girl who could give me a smile back then.

On the way, the sea breeze was very strong, and Xiaofan changed his mind, not going to Baishi Sea, wanting to go to Baishi Primary School to have a look.

I gladly agreed, and changed the direction of the ride.

At night, Shiraishi Elementary School is like a haunted house that devours people, quiet.

The playground is planted with green vegetation, and the full moon hangs high in the sky.

The moonlight casts down, pulling the shadows of the vegetation to the elders.

I stopped the car, Xiao Fan combed his hair that was blown by the wind, his face was delicate, his facial features were exquisite, and he grinned at me.

I sat in the car, lit a cigarette, and looked around the playground as Xiaofan walked around me.

After I left Ting, I just regarded Xiaofan as my best friend of the opposite sex at that time.

I think that if I hadn't said that to Ting, my relationship with Xiaofan would have warmed up.

My selfishness made me forget Xiaofan, who had accompanied me through those difficult years.

Under the moonlight, a few footsteps came out of the shadows on the opposite side, Xiao Fan moved slightly but weakly to my side, and I got out of the car to protect her.

I was very close to her.

The wind was very strong, blowing the black hair of the two of us, blowing away the fragrance on Xiaofan's body.

I thought the comer was hostile, but I didn't want to be a classmate of the same year, Feng!

He was followed by a couple of small children, swaggering towards us.

greeted me face-to-face, but looked at Xiao Fan behind him.

At that time, I loved to make friends, so I led a few people to the side.

Feng asked about my relationship with Xiaofan, but I smiled silently.

chatted with him for more than ten minutes, but put Xiao Fan aside alone.

I think, I'm a scumbag, I snubbed Xiaofan.

Not long after, Xiaofan's call, I hurriedly ran over.

She wanted to go home, so I had to take her back to my aunt's house.

On the way, I was caught by a few of my friends and laughed at my ambition, I have a girlfriend and no friends.

Xiao Fan quickly got out of the car, raised his hand to greet me, and walked into the dark alley.

As far as I could see, her figure was gone.

had no heart or lungs, but he didn't realize that when Xiao Fan left, an uncomfortable expression appeared on Yurong.

I walked and chatted with my friends and went to billiards city.

After many years, it was the last time I met Xiaofan, and since then I have drifted away from her.

One day, when I opened the penguin and looked for the cute one in the notes list.

List display: 0/0

Xiao Fan suddenly disappeared from my life, and that year she had a boyfriend, and it was in the days when I was about to break up with Ting.

I was like crazy at the time, looking for friends everywhere and asking them to help me ask Xiaofan.

Because, I'm afraid, I'm afraid of losing Xiaofan.

My friend Jane's classmate Negro told me, "Forget about her, she's not for you." ”

I am very paranoid, and I have Xiaofan's phone number saved in my mobile phone.

She and I began to drift apart in the second year of junior high school.

It wasn't until later, when I went to Fuzhou to study, that I called her in the dead of night, but I couldn't talk a few words.

Every time I go home, I always ask my friends to ask Xiaofan why he deleted me.

Again and again, I gradually gave up, and the advice of my friends invaded my paranoia.

I was disheartened, facing Xiaofan's phone number in the phone book, staring at the word Xiaofan, and eleven phone numbers.

In despair, he closed his eyes and pressed the delete button.

Since then, until one day three years ago.

On Satoshi's birthday, he called me, and Xiao Fan happened to be there that night.

I mustered up the courage to finally say the question that had been buried in my heart for many years.

She looked evasive, and only said that she didn't know.

I knew I was supposed to leave memories, not her people.

It is such a person, in my life, left a deep regret, she and I can never go back, forever can only be the stranger I once knew the most.

……

The girls I've loved, touched, and hurt.

Today, most of them are married, either as wives or mothers.

Ting got married last month, Yan got married in a few years, and Xiaofan has a man who is very good to her.

Writing this memory, the memories scattered in my mind began to blur.

I know, it's reminding me.

It's time to forget!