After 50 years of life, chasing fame and fortune, and in the end there was nothing, I really don't know what I have done for half my life. He was depressed, and he just borrowed wine to drown his sorrows. Liu Changhai poured another cup and wanted to pay tribute to Lu Zhenyuan, thank Lu Zhenyuan for taking care of his family, and provide him with a place to live. also thanked Lu Zhenyuan for helping him take revenge, he was his protector, and thanked Lu Zhenyuan for chatting with him to relieve his boredom, just like that, he drank cup after cup with Lu Zhenyuan.

When I turned around, I had to drink with Zhao Jing again, saying that when I was in China in the past, I had the best relationship with her father Mei Laosi, and the relationship was the deepest, and the old friend of twenty or thirty years just didn't know her, so I asked Zhao Jing to drink for Mei Laosi. Then he said that Mei Laosi was sorry for him, not righteous, and asked Zhao Jing to make amends to him for Mei Laosi, Zhao Jing hurriedly stood up and served him wine, two were too little, and he gave up after four more.

After three rounds of drinking, Liu Changhai has already drunk seven or eight times, the wine strength has come up, there are more words, and there is no amount of drinking, looking for this to drink, looking for that drink, people don't drink it himself, he has to pour himself down. Seeing that he was not in the right state today, Lu Zhenyuan and Lin Xiao didn't dare to drink with him anymore, and several people stopped their cups to watch him pour himself. Liu Changhai chattered in his mouth, drinking cup after cup, and before he knew that a bottle of wine had bottomed out.

Lin Xiao and Lu Zhenyuan drank two taels, Liu Changhai drank seven or eight taels by himself, his face was flushed, his mouth was full of wine, he began to talk nonsense, picked up his wine glass, and wanted to respect Lin Xiao and Zhao Jing: "Come, I respect you two for being happy and having a noble son early." Hearing this, Zhao Jing was not happy, the eight characters had not been skimmed, the two of them just felt a little in their hearts, and they hadn't confessed yet, what did Liu Changhai say, just glared at him with his eyes, motionless.

Liu Changhai held the cup by himself, and when he saw that no one responded to him, he froze, and he looked at Zhao Jing with drunken eyes: "You kid, why are you unhappy?" I can see that the two of you are in love, isn't this kid not proposing yet?" Zhao Jing was even more embarrassed, Lin Xiao hurriedly picked up the cup: "Come, drink, do it." After saying that, he craned his neck and drank it. Liu Changhai saw that someone was drinking with him, so he didn't ask, and drank it dry.

Lu Zhenyuan saw that Liu Changhai had drunk too much, so he persuaded him: "Changhai, you drank too much, don't drink anymore." Liu Changhai experienced the taste of "getting drunk to relieve a thousand sorrows" this time, alcohol anesthetized his nerves, like becoming a fairy, he wished he would get drunk and never wake up again, he didn't have to face so many troubles, he didn't have to think about so many sad things, where would he listen to Lu Zhenyuan's persuasion.

Liu Changhai picked up the bottle and wanted to pour the wine again, but he kept turning the whole bottle over without pouring out a drop of wine, he shook the wine bottle, listened closely, and made sure that there was no wine, so he shouted: "Boss, bring another bottle of wine." Lu Zhenyuan frowned, he couldn't imagine that Liu Changhai's wine was so bad. Since Liu Changhai came to the United States, Lu Zhenyuan has let him stay at home by himself, and rarely drinks and eats with him, Guo Qingfeng often finds him to drink together.

Guo Qingfeng is a drunkard, Lu Zhenyuan knows, what he doesn't know is that Liu Changhai has to get drunk with Guo Qingfeng every day, close to Zhu Zhechi, Liu Changhai was not like this when he was in China, his self-control is quite strong, otherwise he would not be able to sit in the position of a department-level cadre. But his nature is greedy, a child who has lived in an environment where he lacks food and clothing, and relies on the sky to eat, once he eats and drinks without worry, he will do whatever he wants, and he has no scruples.

When a person is poor and afraid, he will frantically grab money, and when a person is hungry, he will greedily collect food, and this is how Liu Changhai embarked on the road of corruption. The same is true for alcohol, which used to be drunk without drinking, and as a last resort, he tried to drink as little as possible, and he was never drunk. He also longed to indulge, but he knew that alcohol could mess with nature, and human nature knew best, and no one wanted to expose what would happen if he lost the restraint of reason.

Now it's different, he can no longer have scruples, no identity, no future, no hope, no goal, what else is he considering, it's useless to think about it. But he still can't let go of these in his heart, he can't accept the status quo calmly, he is unwilling, his inner desire and the cruelty of reality make him miserable, drinking, getting drunk, it has become the best way for him to relieve his pain and achieve freedom.

The boss walked in, and when he saw Liu Changhai's appearance, he didn't dare to take the wine, so he looked at Lu Zhenyuan, Lu Zhenyuan waved his hand to him, and the boss turned around and walked out. Liu Changhai was stunned for a while, the strength of the wine came up, he was dizzy, and he lay on the table and didn't move.

Looking at Liu Changhai's self-liberating appearance, Lin Xiao has a lot of emotion, Liu Changhai has gone from being a proud parent official in the officialdom in the past to becoming a wanted fugitive today, he is a witness and an insider. When Lin Xiao first came to Daxing, he was to investigate the backer behind Mei Laosi, found Liu Changhai, and knew about his power-for-money transaction with Mei Laosi, until his matter was revealed, he was investigated by the Commission for Discipline Inspection, absconded, and hid in the United States, Lin Xiao knew about it, and he kept following, he followed more closely than the Commission for Discipline Inspection.

But those are all things done by Liu Changhai, everything has its underlying reasons, that is, his inner thoughts, his emotions, and the changes in his understanding, from sitting on the rostrum in the past to talking about it in the past, to today's drunken and unconscious, Lin Xiao feels that Liu Changhai's heart has collapsed, his self-esteem and self-confidence are gone, he has given up self-redemption, and there can only be one result waiting for him - to become a wasted person.

Liu Changhai achieved his goal, he could not think about anything, not ask anything, exile his consciousness to the clouds, indulge in dreams, and enjoy the pleasure brought by the four emptiness. Lu Zhenyuan, Lin Xiao and Zhao Jing didn't care about him, Lu Zhenyuan asked Lin Xiao what his next plan was, after this period of getting along, Lin Xiao felt that it was not accidental that Lu Zhenyuan could get to this point, there were opportunities, and there were more personal struggles.

Compared with Liu Changhai, he seems to be more knowledgeable and discerning, of course, Liu Changhai is not stupid, but he has lived in that environment for a long time, he has no intentions, and his mind has degraded unconsciously. The more you depend on the outside world, the more you lose when the outside world changes, the more you lose, the more serious the loss you suffer, and the more unwilling you are to accept the changes of the outside world. Even a person with sound legs will be inseparable if he has relied on crutches for a long time, although in the beginning, the crutches were once regarded as a burden by him.