Chapter 47: I Never Give Up on Myself

Lin Shu didn't know what to do, the fear of death three years ago struck, and it still made people feel as if they were going to suffocate. When she wrote "Fun" Pavilion www.biquge.info, she was also so helpless, she couldn't save her father, and she hadn't seen him for the last time. And after these three years, she is still so helpless that she has no way to save Gu Xi.

Xu Xinrui, yes, at least he was by his side this time. Lin Shu ran back and called Xu Xinrui's phone. She spoke too quickly, and Xu Xinrui listened for a long time before she understood. While comforting her, he told Shen Yufei to contact the hospital. When he heard it, Lin Shu was very scared. On the phone, she talked about her father and her helplessness that year. She had fallen so many times, she was crying, she was soothing herself, she didn't know what she was talking about. No matter what Xu Xinrui said on the other end of the phone, she couldn't listen to it anymore.

Finally rushed back, Gu Xi was lying on the bed, and his palms were very cold. Knowing that Xu Xinrui would come to pick them up, Yu Zimo picked up Gu Xi and walked towards the road. Lin Shu supported Gu Xi in the back, holding her hand to warm her. Along the way, Lin Shu kept calling Gu Xi's name, and even said Gu Chen over and over again. She was just really afraid, afraid that Gu Xi wouldn't feel her warmth.

When they arrived at the main road, there were two cars parked there, Lin Shu stepped forward to make sure that they were waiting for him, and hurriedly took Gu Xi with Yu Zimo to get into the car. They quickly rushed to the hospital, where there were already doctors waiting, and Gu Xi was sent to the operating room.

Looking at the red lights outside the operating room, Lin Shu lost the strength to sit on the ground. Yu Zimo wanted to step forward to comfort him, but Lin Shu hugged him tightly and couldn't hear what he said.

When Xu Xinrui and Shen Yufei rushed over, the doctor was still performing surgery. Lin Shu sat on the ground with her head buried between her arms, her fingers were already very red because they were clenched too tightly. In the corridor where the lights are not very bright, there is a sadness of the night.

Xu Xinrui squatted in front of her and draped his coat over her. Because of multiple falls, her clothes were torn in several places. "Shu'er, it's okay. You're not alone this time, and I'll be there for you all the time. ”

Xu Xinrui's tone was gentle, and the coldness of the hospital was melted a little by his warmth, which made Lin Shu's fear and anxiety much less. "Rui, Xiaoxi, she seems to have known her physical condition for a long time. Gu Xi must have known, otherwise she wouldn't have said that just now. But when and since when did her body feel uncomfortable? Item fundraising? Or the Literary Society? Or is it longer?" she just said, if one day she leaves me, let me always be bright and warm myself. ”

"No, Xiaoxi is just in poor health, and she will be fine when she goes back to take care of herself. ”

Lin Shu raised her head and looked at Xu Xinrui, "But I didn't promise her, I'm afraid that if I agreed, she would really leave me with peace of mind." ”

"Shu'er, trust me. It's too cold on the ground, can I help you sit on the chair?" Xu Xinrui picked up Lin Shu and let her sit on the chair next to her. Shen Yufei bought a few cups of hot coffee and handed them to Lin Shu, and also gave Yu Zimo a cup.

Lin Shu stopped talking, her eyes kept staring at the red light outside the operating room, and Xu Xinrui kept sitting next to her. Lin Shu's eyes were empty, and Gu Xi's sudden fainting must have reminded her of what happened three years ago. However, could it be that Gu Xi already knew that there was something wrong with his body, otherwise how could he have said those words to Lin Shu. Shen Yufei contacted the hospital when they came, and the doctor meant that Gu Xi's condition looked bad. If something really happened to Gu Xi, would Lin Shu be like he was three years ago?

Shen Yufei kept on the phone, trying to find the best doctor. Yu Zimo is also in contact with everyone he knows, after all, he is Gu Chen's sister, no matter what, they have the responsibility to take care of Gu Xi when he is away.

It wasn't until three o'clock in the morning that the doctors came out, and Lin Shu hurriedly ran up. "Doctor, how is the brook? Did she faint because she was too tired?"

The attending doctor took off his mask and looked at them with a somewhat heavy tone. "The patient is out of danger at the moment, you can come to the office with me and I'll talk about the details. ”

Lin Shu's heart was suddenly pinched very tightly, so is the situation more serious than she thought? Lin Shu didn't understand the professional words he said, but there were four words, and she heard them clearly. "Terminal cancer", these four words are like a boulder smashing Lin Shu's heart into the bottom of the sea.

"Doctor, it's impossible. She's still so young, how can she be terminally ill cancer?"

"I understand your feelings, but please mourn. Although the patient's condition is stable, I recommend that he be transferred to a major hospital, after all, there is too little medical equipment here. ”

Lin Shu stood up and walked outside, how could it be? She didn't believe it, she was going to find Gu Xi. She ran to Gu Xi's ward, Xu Xinrui and the others followed, and no one could accept this result.

In the ward, Gu Xi was lying there, his whole body was restrained by various medical machines, and it was very uncomfortable to watch. Lin Shu sat in front of the hospital bed and divided the broken hair on Gu Xi's forehead to both sides. She must have been very tired, she just stayed with her, sitting quietly beside her.

Shen Yufei walked out, and Yu Zimo also quietly followed. In the hospital corridor, he stood against the wall, his head hanging as if he had an unbearable weight. Yu Zimo has never seen such a Shen Yufei, and in his impression, Shen Yufei has always been the kind of person who is content with common sense and does not like to be out of line or nosy. So I've never seen him obsessed with anything, and of course he won't be as indifferent as Ge Yi. Many times, he has no sense of existence. Since childhood, he and Ge Yi have done all kinds of deviant things, although they are cold and cold, they are not serious. But Shen Yufei has always been just a spectator, not participating but not leaving. He kept what he wanted, at what he thought was the most appropriate distance. Then Gu Xi, it should be what he wants to protect, he should feel it in the cafeteria that time.

But Gu Xi, is she really going to die? At least as a person from a medical family, she also knows that there is no cure for that disease. For the first time, I felt empty in my heart, and life was really as fragile as my father said, so he was reluctant to inherit their mantle from an early age, because he didn't like to be sad.

Yu Zimo left the hospital, and he had to go back to discuss with his father and contact the best hospital and doctor. Although I don't know when Gu Chen will be able to return to China, even if he looks for it from abroad before that, he must invite the best experts in this field. Perhaps this is the only time that Yu Zimo feels that his identity as a descendant of a medical family has meaning. In the past, how much he wished he was born in that kind of British fashion family, in that case, no matter how wanton he dressed himself, his grandfather and father would not always look like they hated iron but not steel.

When it was slightly bright, Gu Xi woke up, Lin Shu touched her forehead with her hand, fortunately, the fever had subsided. Xu Xinrui called the doctor, and the doctor said that he was okay and could be transferred to the general ward, and everyone was relieved.

Because of Yu Zimo's relationship, Gu Xi got an empty ward. She lived in the hospital bed by the window, and Lin Shu opened the curtains, and the sunlight poured in.

"Xiaoxi, are you feeling better?"

Gu Xi put up a reluctant smile, his face was a little pale, "Well, it's okay anymore." ”

"Then I'll go buy you breakfast, what does Xiaoxi want to eat?"

Gu Xi took Lin Shu's hand, she was too calm, which made Gu Xi a little worried. "Shu'er, no matter what kind of illness I have, I have never given up on myself. Don't worry too much, for me, it's nothing. ”

Lin Shu raised a bright smile, "I know, I won't worry, because Xiaoxi is really strong." For breakfast, just eat some porridge for the time being, I'll buy it for you, you wait for me obediently. ”

Lin Shu left, and Xu Xinrui stood in front of the door without speaking. Lin Shu disguised herself too deeply, all her sadness was suppressed, and she didn't even leave a single tear from beginning to end.

Xu Xinrui sat beside Gu Xi, and still remembered her down-to-earth and generous temperament and quiet beauty when she first met. It was the first time he could remember a girl, and the first time he wouldn't ostracize a stranger. She has an irresistible charm and grace, a violin sound full of longing and love, which has always made him miss a little. In so long, he had never performed a duet so in tune with someone.

"Xiaoxi, I've already contacted your brother, but I don't know if he can see my email. If he saw it, he would have come back early. ”

"Thank you, Senior Xinrui. ”

"Hmm. ”

The nurse came in to deliver the medicine, and Xu Xinrui poured a glass of water for Gu Xi. Dozens of medicines were placed on the table, but Gu Xi was still smiling. There was no emotion, and there was not a trace of sadness in sight. Is it like Lin Shu to bury all the sorrow deep in his heart, or can he really deal with it calmly?