But she was still smiling, without any emotion, and there was no trace of sadness in sight. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 Is it like Lin Shu to bury all the sadness deep in his heart, or can he really deal with it calmly?

Gu Xi has been paying attention to Xu Xinrui in the corner of his eyes, and there are many times when he is sick. Because only at this time, some people who care will accompany them, and they don't have to find any reason.

In the past 18 years, she has never thought of keeping her family in this way, whether it is a father who regards music as his life, or a mother who would rather give up her daughter for the sake of the family business. So, when she fainted on the streets of London half a year ago, when the doctor told her that she had a genetic disease in her family, she didn't think to tell her father. Nobody cares, does it? At most, they just send themselves to the hospital and stare at the infusion bottles every day. It's just a change from the big empty room to the small ward of the hospital.

At that time, Gu Xi was not very desperate for his condition, and he didn't even have a trace of sadness except for a small silence. She often doesn't know why she still walks alone in this world, a machine that was given the mission of music from birth, and can only win glory for the family. An outcast who was thrown to England at the age of eight and watched the exotic sky from sunrise to sunset every day. One with a violin can form a world with a sad tune, from loneliness to indifferent orphans. A lonely little girl who was diagnosed with a terminal illness at the age of 17 and left because of work when he finally made up his mind to complain to his father. What is the nostalgia for this world for her?

In the first seventeen years of her life, the only warmth came from a stranger, Miss Catherine, who had been hired by her father to take care of her. She suddenly felt that death was a relief, at least there was hope for the City of Angels.

But one day, she looked at the black grand piano that had been placed in the hall for a long time, and remembered the duet that had been quite tacit, and remembered the silent and reserved man. She said that if she had the opportunity to return to China in the future, she would definitely go to him. That day, Gu Xi gave himself a hope, at least to see him one last time before leaving, even if it was just to say hello, at least someone would remember him after death, proving that he had also been in this world. So she secretly took her luggage and left, just simply leaving a note for her father.

And now, she's so selfish that she just wants to make him pay more attention to herself this way. She felt that she had become too greedy, she wanted to accompany Lin Shu, and she wanted to warm her years. She wanted to be by Xu Xinrui's side, even if it was just to look at him from afar. She wanted to see her brother again, even though her parents wouldn't allow them to see each other.

She remembered that Haizi had said that the process and the ending were already there, and even she would feel greedy if she entangled them. And isn't it the process of loneliness in my life, the end of Shaohua's death, but why do I want more? Is it because I finally have nostalgia for this world?

Gu Xi was called out of his trance by Xu Xinrui, and Lin Shu had already returned. She smelled that Lin Shu bought red bean and lotus seed porridge, which she used to like very much, but now she doesn't want to drink it at all.

Lin Shu saw that Gu Xi had no appetite and didn't force her, "But it's definitely not okay not to eat, so let's do it, I'll play a game with you, and you have to eat obediently after it's over, okay?"

Hearing that Lin Shu was going to play a game with her, Gu Xi still agreed with interest, she hadn't seen what games Lin Shu would play.

Lin Shu accompanied Gu Xi to play games, and Xu Xinrui accompanied them for a while before going out to make a phone call. He has been trying to find a way to contact Gu Chen, but he didn't reply to the email to explain that he shouldn't have seen the email he sent.

Lin Shu walked out of the ward, "Haven't you contacted Gu Chen yet?"

"Hmm", speaking of Gu Chen, Lin Shu didn't seem to be as resistant as before, "Shu'er, since you can face Gu Chen now, can you forget the past?"

"A lot of things won't change in any way because of time, and I want him to come back just for the creek. As long as she can be good, I can give in to anything. "Maybe for Lin Shu, Gu Xi is very important. Because she is the only person who can come into her heart again for so many years, she can share happiness together, she can also vent her sadness together, guard her loneliness, and warm her life. And more of it is her distress for Gu Xi, because Gu Xi may not know that her indifference to anything is actually just because of her abandonment of herself. Gu Xi's life has no nostalgia, this is what she is afraid of, if a person has no nostalgia for the world, then how can she have the courage to live desperately. Therefore, she wants Gu Xi to learn to care, only then will she have the courage to fight against the disease.

"Gu Xi is very brave, she won't fall down easily for a concession like yours. The doctor said that her condition is stable now and she can be transferred to the hospital at any time. I've left a little bit beforehand, and I'll come back to see you later. ”

"Good. ”

Lin Shu walked into the ward, and Gu Xi had already finished drinking the porridge. "Xiaoxi, do you want to sleep for a while?"

"No, I'd like to talk to you a little longer, maybe there will be fewer opportunities like this in the future. ”

Since being hospitalized, Gu Xi has never shown a trace of sadness. Lin Shu knew that she didn't want others to see her too weak side, and maybe she needed to give herself courage. "Okay, what does Creek want to say?"

"Let's talk about Shu'er's past, and Yao Ying, although I don't know if there is a chance to see her, but when you say it, I will treat it as if I already know her. ”

"Okay. My past is very simple, just words and the scenery outside the window, and I don't have much to talk about until I met Yao Ying. As for Yao Ying, she was a fighting king when she was young, and it was common for her to be blocked at the school gate. Every time she came back scarred, she didn't dare to go home, and every time I gave her medicine, I felt very sad to see her wounds, old or new. I know that Yao Ying didn't dare to go home because she was afraid that her mother would punish her, she just couldn't make her mother feel sad for her. Lin Shu sat on the chair next to the hospital bed and said, Gu Xi listened very seriously.

"She must be a very individual, very cheerful girl. ”

"Well, many times I admire Yao Ying, she will never give up what she believes in. No matter how difficult it is, even if it is covered with bruises, it will persevere to the end. ......" Lin Shu said, and Gu Xi slowly fell asleep. Her voice grew quieter and quieter, and her eyes fell wantonly.

Yao Ying is the one who has always warmed herself, but Gu Xi is the one who has long been sealed in her heart again. Speaking of Yao Ying, Lin Shu could show the scene of her encounter with Gu Xi over and over again in her mind. However, she was about to leave like Yao Ying left at that time. However, Yao Ying has a return date, but what about Gu Xi? How can she leave like this, she is still very young and has not seen the most complete world.

Lin Shu couldn't help crying and ran out, she didn't want Gu Xi to see her sad in the slightest. Looking at Lin Shu's figure running away, Shen Yufei returned to the door again. The scene just now made him unbearable. I wanted to go in to see Gu Xi, but when I saw Gu Xi, my heart hurt very much.

On the hospital bed, Gu Xi covered his face and cried, refusing to make a little sound, but he was so sad. She pretended to be asleep just now, in order not to let Lin Shu see her sadness. And Lin Shu also forced a smile, and she couldn't bear the pain until she saw her fall asleep. Shen Yufei suddenly felt that she was very useless, she was lying there, her life was weakening little by little, but she was so powerless.