The sky was snowing, and the street criminals were shouting.

Shanghai at 10 o'clock in 2023 is like any previous Shanghai late night.

Stray dogs scurried from one end of the street to the other, sniffing the girl's heels and barking.

The girl was not annoyed, she spilled the coffee simmering warm in her hand on the ground, saw the dog licking happily, pinched a large piece of the small cake in the bag and threw it in front of the dog, touched the dog's head, and continued to walk deeper into the alleyway with half a meter of deep snow.

The dog raised its head and whined in the direction of the girl's departure.

It's like saying thank you.

Dogs are spiritual creatures, and sometimes, they are more emotional than humans.

Lin Zi looked back at the dog and beckoned.

Hear the dog respond.

Then keep walking.

When I got home, after washing up, I opened the refrigerator and found a few apples left, so I took them out.

If you don't eat it, it will probably spoil.

Apple was brought by the editor-in-chief last weekend when Ah Bing came to save me from this "delivery job".

When I'm busy, I can't care about anything, so no matter how much I like it, I can't bring stray dogs home.

I can't even support myself.

With that in mind, he took a knife and began to peel apples.

In the large room, a small lamp shrinks the entire space, leaving a bright patch to wrap the people who return home at night.

Lin Zi put down the half-cut apple in his hand again, and his head began to empty.

The editor-in-chief's original words were: "Zi again, what about you, just go collect stories about first love, the theme of our next issue is to remember the first love, you know the female designer Susie who is now on fire, you are responsible for publishing a special feature with her story, which will definitely sell well when the time comes, I asked Ah Bing to contact her assistant before, and she can arrange an interview with her as soon as possible." ”

The remaining half of the apple unconsciously rolled to the ground and rolled to his feet, Lin Zi came back to his senses, looked at the business card in the trash can on the side, which was covered by the apple peel, and picked it up helplessly.

How big can you say this world can be, Xu Xiake has traveled for most of his life and has not found his home, and at this moment, someone he doesn't want to see is coming towards you.

Susie, can I not be acquainted?

The two names I remember most in my life, except for Minmin, are Susie.

Return to the table with the sliced apples and remove the remaining small half of the cake.

Plug in the candles.

Ignite.

Blow it out.

Like completing a task, Mu Ne's completion of a birthday ceremony.

It's been ten years.

Ten years can transform an old street into the most modern commercial center.

Ten years can make the body of the deceased be purified into a handful of loess by mountains, rivers, insects and beasts.

Ten years can make all the people you originally knew become strangers.

In ten years, the gorgeous teenagers in the old time gradually withdrew from the memory, and the ordinary men in the new time began to fill life.

I don't know where you are, and if I did, I'd run to you desperately.

I'll look for you, but I won't tell you.

Maybe just wait and see your life.

If it's splendid, I won't bother in any way.

Let those feelings about youth be buried forever.

Thinking about it, the girl gradually became painful, and beat her head vigorously with her hands, trying to withdraw herself from the memories of the past.

But it seems to be useless, and the more excited I get, the more tears seem to have broken the bank of the embankment, constantly gushing out, and I can't wipe them clean.

Blurred vision.

The words of the editor-in-chief, the words of his mother, the words of the boy, the words of everyone began to fill their ears, and the words of the people began to fill their ears, and they chattered non-stop.

"Zi again, you are responsible for interviewing Susie, I asked Ah Bing to arrange a ...... with her," the editor-in-chief said.

"Zi again, let's leave it at that

, I'm with Susie ......," Timdo said.

Mom held Dad's critical illness notice and said haggardly: "This family is scattered, and it is scattered like a plate of loose sand!"

Then he rushed to the roof of the hospital and jumped straight down.

"Don't!"

I woke up from the couch and wiped my sweat from my head.

It's always hard for me to get rid of such dreams.

The book says that the best explanation for dreams is "thinking during the day and dreaming at night." ”

I really don't want to remember everything, but this memory sleeps night and night, and I can't live in peace.

The sun shines in through the window lattice, making it a little hard to open your eyes.

Struggling, you still have to get up, you have to pack yourself, and try to dress appropriately.

I'm going to meet this new designer named Susie.

I've heard from her sporadically.

The rookie designer and her boyfriend are the golden boys and girls in the industry. His reputation is not small.

Star Designer.

......

It was the girl in front of me who took Tim Du away from me and walked to the door, but I still hesitated.

I didn't have the courage to interview her first love.

About these, I used to want to run away.

If God had the option to delete this, I would delete everything in the past and these two people.

I don't know how to get in front of her.

I don't know how to sit down and make an opening statement.

I don't know what the girl across the other side is saying to me.

My heart was pounding, my breath was short, and I was losing consciousness.

In a trance, someone yelled at me, someone kneaded my cheeks, and someone cried on the side.

I'm still dreaming, I thought.

After a long period of darkness, I began to see the light.

The young man was holding an unknown thing stupidly, "Look, I spent several nights designing it myself, I made it myself, for you, it must be unique in this world......"

I laughed, and so did the boy.

Then, there was a long period of darkness again.

If you had foreseen the life you were going to live, would you continue with the choices you made back then?

Or will you continue to compromise with the world in peace, you will be brave enough to change your life and let all your regrets be relieved.

I don't know what kind of person I am, but I know that from the moment I woke up, I secretly decided that I would never let go of you again in my life.

I'm not going to let you go to anyone again, Minmin can't, and Susie can't.

Youth is gone forever, if you are given the chance to meet her again, will you still cherish that girl?

In other words, what about her?

Will you still be the boy who can brighten her life?

I don't know how ordinary people feel youthful, if it were me, I would burst into tears, not because I don't know that regret is irreparable, but even if I know, I will use all my feelings to remember.

Youth, is the coin you lost on the street corner, as the years pass, the mud covers its face, the heavy rain falls, the moss climbs up, it is so silent, you can no longer find it, when you dream back at midnight, you feel so regretful, why did you lose it?

Everyone is looking for it, but everyone will always have regrets when they should cherish it.

Regret is irreparable, regret is a lifetime.

And I, the ghost, got a chance to make amends.

I've crossed the !!

In October 2013, in the third classroom of junior high school, the bell rang for the end of class.

I packed my school bag, put on crutches, and started walking in the direction of home.

As he walked, his thoughts were cut off from the noise around him.

After waking up from a dream that day, I quickly packed up and rushed to do an interview with Sissi.

The two of us sat stiffly in the conference room of the University.

I couldn't hear what Sissi said.

The sound travels far, far away.

When I woke up again, I saw a group of people surrounding me, and a boy in a hoodie seemed to sigh.

"I've seen people jump off a building and break a bone, but I've never seen someone who was smashed by a ball!"

The others on the side also nodded in agreement.

I was taken to the infirmary by the boy who was smashed with a question mark on my face, and after concluding that it was really a fracture, I was taken to the county hospital.

I didn't have time to ask, but the doctor said that I needed to straighten the bones and fill in the steel plate, so I fainted with fright.

When I woke up, I saw the boy who smashed me, and I saw some classmates, but before the numbing energy passed, I still felt a little sleepy, so I fell asleep again in a trance.

I was in the hospital bathroom and probably knew what was going on.

Looking at the immature, collagen-filled face in the mirror, I thought of Yadong and then thought about school.

I'm probably just wearing-over-the-!!

The operation went smoothly and the recovery was very fast, and in less than half a month, I ran back to class on crutches.

Later, I learned that I was in a hurry to go to the errand with a large stack of homework that day, and was pulled by Min Min to watch a basketball game halfway, and just so a ball hit me head-on, and before I could react, I fell down in a very strange posture and broke my bones!

What's even more embarrassing is that the person who threw the ball at that time was Nan Tiandu.

My current boyfriend in 2013 - Nan Tiandu!!

So much so that later, following the story of "A senior sister in the third year of junior high school was smashed by a ball and broke a bone!", there were also various versions of the story of my boyfriend's "killer".

I asked Min Min for a few versions casually, either I cheated, or I didn't clean myself, which caused Tian Du to be unbearable and so on.

I'm also speechless.

Halfway through, I tilted my head up.

Even the sky of ten years ago is nostalgic.

In October, autumn is in progress.

The ginkgo biloba leaves on both sides of the road have been pulled by the wind and spread on the ground, and sometimes the wind blows, and then floats into the air again, spinning, and then calming down again.

When you step on it, it makes a rustling sound, and the air is filled with the smell of grass and trees.

Fresh and refreshing.

So far, the situation has basically been figured out.

It's just that there are still some things that I am not used to.

Tim Du ran over from behind, crossed his waist and panted, "Why don't you wait for me?

......

I don't know?

After all, it's customary to come home alone from work.

Suddenly back to 15 years old, the fright is greater than the surprise.

Just as he was about to reply, Qing Baining rushed over from behind him and put him on Tian Du's shoulder.

"Brother, I saw with my own eyes that you were going to kill your sister-in-law, hey, how can you do this, you have been together for so many years, and it is ...... that business cannot be benevolent."

Qing Baining wanted to continue, so he took a heavy punch.

After finishing it, Tian Du pulled me to the side to watch the play and continued to walk.

Leaving Qing Baining alone to wail in the back.

Qingbai Ning people are really not bad, but they owe it.

"That, is that Bai Ning really okay? Do you want to go back and take him ......away?"

I said to Tian Du and was about to turn around to help, but I saw that Qing Baining was already behind me and was about to speak with a hippie smile, so I turned my head helplessly.

It seems that the punch was still light.

I looked up at Tim Du and said, "Looks like you're going to have to practice again." ”

Tian Du had an expression that he should practice again.

"Yes!"

This Qingbai Ning, is a typical rich second generation, the carefree life has successfully created a clever mouth, all day long hippie smiling face and half hanging, used to be my male best friend, and then because of the threat of Tian Du gradually did not hit the title of my best friend, self-proclaimed "a prodigal son in troubled times", in the midst of thousands of flowers, not a leaf sticks.

But he is not a real wave, he is more sincere and kinder than anyone else. But it was such a boy with a pure smile, but after a few years, he said to me with a solemn face, "Ziyou, I found a Taoist monk, and I don't know how to say goodbye, I know everything, and I don't know anything." I'm miserable, I don't know how to live......"

I said, "Go ahead, I know you'll be back one day, and everyone will be waiting for you." ”

At that time, I had no idea that when he left, he would really leave forever, along with Minmin.

I thought about what happened to everyone in the future, and suddenly I cried uncontrollably.

Even if I had a chance to turn the end around, I was afraid.

When Tim Du saw me suddenly kneeling on the ground and crying bitterly, he thought that he had accidentally injured the fractured place, so he hurriedly squatted down and asked, trying to see the broken leg.

I looked at Qing Baining, who was also anxious on the side.

I was just......

I just, it suddenly occurred to me that in the end, the only person Qing Baining could talk to was me, how helpless he should be!

He wanted to protect something, and everything came and everything left him.

Minmin, family, youth, who can you talk to?

Late that night, how did he walk up the cliff alone, and what kind of thinking did he have, before he jumped down and gave up hope of life.

I don't dare to think about it.

I wiped my tears and stood up again, holding Timdo's hand tightly.

That's it, looking at his face, this is clearly the face that always falls asleep, and I inevitably remember this face, these eyes, every late night after losing Tiandu.

I counted the days carefully.

Ten years ago at this time, all the nightmares had not yet come.

At this time, Susie has not yet inserted between me and Tiandu, Min Min and I are still good girlfriends, Qingbai Ning has not yet become a monk, Xiao Yangsen and his sister Xiao Xiao are still living an ordinary but happy life, P7 and Xiao Wei have not been pushed to the forefront by everyone......

Everything is because of the unexplained crossing, back to the original beautiful appearance.

You know, even on a quiet day, it's too good to be true.

I don't know what I can do.

If I could, I would like to change the trajectory of their lives.

I looked at Yadong.

If I could, this time, I wouldn't let other girls snatch you again.

I approached Timdo, and the nice mint smell on his body made me feel at ease.

As if he understood something, Tim Du hugged me as if to comfort me.

The wind began to blow.

The fallen leaves on the road are carried and flying.

One or two slice quietly, back into the treetops.

As if it hadn't fallen, it was firmly stuck on the branch.

If I live with my 15-year-old self, what about the 15-year-old forest?

Will it be in your 25-year-old self?

If this assumption really existed, and I didn't know Susie at that time, what would have become of us?

Lin Zi lay down again, and the smaller bed made his body a little unable to stretch freely, and he tossed for a while before falling asleep.

Another time and space, Shanghai People's Hospital ten years later.

"Did you call, did you contact Shangziyou's family?" the editor-in-chief looked at Ah Bing and asked anxiously.

Ah Bing fiddled for a while, scratched his head and said: "The emergency contact on the data shows that it is an empty number, Miss Lin's mobile phone is not locked, but there is no other contact except for the company's people, what should I do about the editor-in-chief?"

The editor-in-chief looked back at Ziyou, who was lying down, a little distressed.

"Forget it, I'm her family, I don't need to find anyone else, I'll accompany her, you go back and finish the matter of designer Susie, don't let this issue open the skylight, go back to rest first, go back!"

Ah Bing wanted to say something, but looked at the editor-in-chief's face and held back.

"Okay, then I'll go first, I'll come back when I'm done, you ...... Also pay attention to rest. ”

As he spoke, he walked to the door, still looking at it uneasily, and then closed the door carefully.

The child on the bed was still unconscious, He Can held her hand, put it in front of him, and kissed it hard, like a mother who finally saw her child who had been missing for many years, and as if she was afraid of losing something most precious, she couldn't help crying.

Six years ago, He Can had just been promoted in Taili and served as the main planner of the aid plan to Tibet at that time.

Seeing that the avalanche was coming, an old woman led a young girl from a distance to run to the Tibetan aid team, shouting as she ran: "Run, avalanche, damn it!"

The team was not familiar with avalanches, but Grandma, who had lived in Tibet all her life, knew that she heard the familiar sound of the wind and saw one or two pieces of ice slag slipping from the cliff above the team, and Grandma concluded that the avalanche would immediately destroy where the team was now.

The old woman was still running towards us, screaming hoarsely as she ran, and the girl who followed her tripped over a snowdrift and fell behind.

The team I led reacted immediately, but at that moment, the snow swallowed the road, the old woman, and the Tibetan aid team behind me.

In just a few seconds, I felt for the first time the insignificance of human beings, a natural disaster, so many lives can be consumed, and the living people are gone!

Not far away, the girl who had escaped the avalanche by stumbling by accident jumped up and ran towards the place where the old woman was buried, and just like that, began to plow the snow with her hands.

While struggling to plan, I tried to restrain my crying, and I was afraid that crying a little more would waste my strength in shaving snow.

The snow continued to fall, and the little girl and I tried to save the people under the thick snow with all our might.

However, the white snowflakes gradually turned red, and we still found nothing.

When I noticed that there was another movement above the cliff, I had no choice but to give up, and I dragged this little girl who was pulling the snow and refused to let go and rushed to the periphery.

In the next moment, another avalanche covered the place where Grandma and the team members were buried, I was shocked, and the girl also knelt down, knowing that no matter how much strength she had, she couldn't dig out the people under the snow, so she dared to cry bitterly, and I couldn't help it anymore, and howled together.

That day, the girl knelt like that, and when she was tired of crying, she didn't say anything, and stared at her deadly, and for the first time I read it in the eyes of a young girl.

I don't dare to comfort me, and I can't comfort me.

My life was bought by the child's grandmother, and I endured great grief and swore that from now on, I He Can will definitely protect this child.

Later, I waited for several hours with my fainted son in my arms, and finally, the rescue troops ran towards us, and I was able to close my eyes in peace.

I woke up again, went to claim the body, helped the grandmother bury my grandmother again, sent the urns of the Tibetan aid team members to their homes one by one, and saw one family after another breaking down and crying in front of me, and I also suffered insomnia for more than half a year in a burst of crying, so that even now, I don't have the courage to set foot in Tibet again, that experience is too frightening.

It is only when people experience death that they have such a great reverence, or rather, fear.

Zi is also afraid to return to that place, even if it snows in Shanghai in winter, it will make her uneasy.

Although Grandma and her are not related, at the beginning, it was Grandma who took in the wandering Ziyou, gave her a mouthful of lamb's milk, rescued her from the brink of death, changed her clothes, and took her from one end of the mountain to the other.

It can be said that the happiest period of her life was accompanied by her grandmother.

Grandma is the most beloved person in the world, even if the son accepts the family's apology again after leaving Tibet, it is not as good as Grandma.

In the most difficult time, it was the grandmother who accompanied her, and the grandmother said: "Little baby, you are handsome, you marry a good guy, and grandma embroiders a bride's clothes for you, don't dislike it!"

Zi thought at that time that she would never marry for the rest of her life, and she would always accompany her grandmother, but she still comforted her grandmother, "Okay, good, how can you dislike it!"

I understand Ziyou's stubbornness, and why she can't find information about her family in her profile.

She experienced despair, despair, and it was Grandma who gave her hope, and when she fled her hometown and boarded the train, her family just deceived themselves and comforted themselves "I gave her a lot of money, she can live well!"

But apart from the ticket money, I didn't spend any other money.

Her family, how can they understand this stubborn girl!

At that time, she was just an adult!

That sentence is very good, when I was in the most difficult time, it was not you who accompanied me, I crossed over, then no compensation in the future can make up for it, money can't make up for it, material things can't make up for it, and emotions can't make up for it either!

So later, Ah Bing didn't dig out the family's information from Ziyou's information and mobile phone, because, in Ziyou's heart, the only grandmother will never come back.

The empty number that can never be dialed is left by Ziyou forever for Grandma, she is Ziyou's "emergency contact", and she is Ziyou's eternal reliance in his heart.

Back then, He Can took his 19-year-old son from the snowstorm in Tibet to Shanghai for six years.

In the past six years, He Can has become the principal of the stage, and Ziyou has always been protected by his side, and everyone will say behind his back that the boss is like his own daughter.

But few people have the opportunity to know that the "mother and daughter" escaped from the avalanche together, and cried together in the snow for the loss of their loved ones until they fainted.

This is the stalk in He Can's heart, a stalk that will never be relieved.

He Can cherishes this child more than others.

Therefore, when the next day, Zi, who woke up with a scream, pushed He Can's hand away again, and looked at the strange woman in front of him as if he didn't know him, He Can ran out like crazy and begged the attending physician to save "his child".

That's right, the forest from 10 years ago has really come to 10 years later.

The son here turned his head and thought about it again, he was injured by the ball, maybe he was sent to the hospital by the school teacher, and now it seems that he is fine, is this teacher not scared or ......

Thinking like this in his heart, he also ran out and patted He Can, who was crying to the doctor: "That, that teacher, I have nothing to do, I can be discharged from the hospital and go back to school, what are you crying teacher for?"

When He Can heard this, his heart sank a lot, and he turned his head and asked anxiously: "Doctor, can the short-term amnesia you just said be recoverable, and how long will it take?"

"What amnesia, what amnesia? Do I have amnesia? Teacher, are you mistaken, how can I have amnesia? I remember, I was injured by a ball......

He Can's eyes were full of worry, but he still followed Ziyou's words.

"Okay, you don't have amnesia, let's go home. ”

When he was dragged home by the editor-in-chief, Lin Zi had 10,000 question marks floating in his mind.

I almost suspected that I was abducted by some high-end gang.

So, under the pretense of going to the bathroom, he took this "teacher" in the hospital and handed him his mobile phone, ready to hide in and call the police.

But in the next moment, seeing himself in the mirror, Lin Zi seemed to understand something.

Cut, sister reads so many novels, just wait for this day.

But how can other people travel to ancient times to marry the prince and rule the world, so I have to add years to myself?

Lin Zi sorted out his thoughts again, crept back to the sofa, and cautiously tested.

"So...... What year is it? What am I doing? Who are you?"

After speaking, I didn't forget to add a clever sentence, "That, maybe I really have amnesia, so I still want to know what's wrong with me, ahhahahaha......"

Then he smiled wryly twice.

He Can didn't think much about it, at this time, she felt that everything was going smoothly, and perhaps, it would help her illness.

In the next two hours, someone listened to the general idea of the past six years in "wow" sentence after sentence.

But between the ages of 15 and 19, the son himself did not know, and the editor-in-chief did not know.

I'm afraid the only thing I know is to travel back to the forest 10 years ago.

In short, it was probably when I was interviewing a model in the industry that I suddenly fainted.

The doctor's examination was a heart attack, and the electrocardiogram collapsed into a straight line, but I didn't expect that in just one night, I, a dying person, suddenly jumped up from the bed, and there were no signs of heart disease at all, so frightened that the doctor put the Bodhisattva on the table the next day to ward off evil spirits.

To be honest, I still believed in science before this, but the fact of crossing is in front of me, and I also want to put a living Bodhisattva, maybe there will really be ghosts in this world?

Thinking like this, I couldn't help but shudder.

25 years old, I'm "shy", 10 years of youth is gone, and then it's so miserable, but fortunately it's not bad now, there is such a big guy covering, wait, what about Timdu?

I begged the editor-in-chief to start work as soon as possible, because I was really curious about what I was going to do in 10 years, and the editor-in-chief reluctantly agreed when he saw that I couldn't remember some things but was more lively than before.

So, when I sat across from Susie again, I didn't really know who she was.

I swear, if I knew she had snatched Timdo, I wouldn't have just scolded her.

The ghost designer said that his first love was Timdu.

Hell.

So what am I?

What is the vigorous first love story, and it is still complete?

You're perfect, I'll drink the northwest wind!

What else do you have to write about this, how do you want me to write it, and do you want to bless them!

When you think of what just happened, do you want to embarrass me to death!

When Susie deliberately brought Timdo to me, I was full of joy and ready to pounce, but the man opposite took a step back.

What the?

My face was full of question marks.

Tim Du took the lead in opening his mouth: "Lin Ziyou, the matter between us has been made very clear at the beginning, and now that I am with Susie, I think we don't want to have more unhappiness with each other, let Susie go, don't trouble her." ”

I took a deep breath: "What?"

Susie took Tiandu's arm: "Honey, don't be angry, I heard that Miss Lin had a heart attack, and now she has amnesia, it seems to be true, and she may have forgotten what she promised at the beginning." ”

Susie turned her head, looked directly into my eyes, and said word by word: "Then I'll help you sort it out, between you and me, Tim Du chose me!"

"He gave up on you, he doesn't want you!"

I swore that if I could break the law, I would want to cut off the arms that held Timdo.

Forget it, let's kill Nan Tiandu's too!

What do you say to give up on me, don't want me yet, if my sister can go back now, I will immediately break off with you.

But that's my boy, how I don't fit in.

"Well, ahem, you're okay, right?"

Timdo suddenly interjected in the impasse between me and Susie.

I could see Susie's face black from head to end, and I looked at Coke, "Thank you, okay, it's not a problem to live a long life." ”

Susie lost her momentum and turned away, and Timdo seemed to want to say something to me, but in the end he didn't say anything and left.

Actually, I really wanted to ask something.

The arrogant and domineering Susie in front of me, and why Tiandu abandoned me later, I am all question marks.

What happened in the four years after the age of 15?

I think that maybe only Yadong can give me the most reasonable explanation.

Lin Ziyou, who stayed in Shanghai ten years later, will never know how Lin Ziyou, who returned to the past, endured great grief, but still had to get along with the people around him, including Min Min.

Min Min is the child of my relative's family, the same generation as my mother, younger than me, but we are in the same grade.

I can't imagine that the so-called sister who has been following me and Tim Du will one day ask what she can give Tim Du in front of me.

When I was about to graduate from junior high school, I needed to fill in the volunteer in advance for the high school entrance examination, and Tiandu asked me where I would fill in, and I said that it would be in the county middle school, and I had to give it a try, and if I couldn't go, I would go to the town.

Tim Du said yes, but later, I didn't fill in the county middle school, and directly filled in a high school closest to the county hospital, but I didn't tell Tim Du.

Tian Du filled in the volunteer, happily ran to the door of my classroom and said to me: "Ziyou, I also filled in the county and the town, if you don't record the county middle school by then, I will push the first choice to the town, you also fill in, right?"

I didn't know how to speak, so I stammered a little nervously: "Hmm...... Fill in, fill it out. ”

When I was about to graduate from junior high school, my father was suddenly diagnosed with terminal lung cancer, and my family sent my father back to the county hospital from other places, and it became a kind of countdown to be alive.

Mom finally couldn't bear the double pressure of economy and spirit, and told me about my father's condition, "Ziyou, my father and I didn't come back to see you, your father is sick, he can't be cured, it's advanced lung cancer, the doctor said it's only this month, you come on vacation to take a look, it's ...... in the county hospital."

The mother on the other end of the phone wiped her tears, choked up and continued: "Don't be too sad when you come, your father doesn't know what his situation is, let's say it's ordinary pneumonia, just take medicine and transfusion water, don't cry, be strong......"

Mom was still talking on the other end of the phone, and I was already drowning in my own crying.

I'm only 16 years old, why?

Why?

I was in a terrible mood, and I poured my anger on Tim Du, I avoided his meeting, didn't reply to messages, and I didn't say a word about my father.

I ran up to the roof of the school and cried loudly, at that moment I hoped that someone would find me and comfort me, but I didn't want anyone to interfere with my quietness, I was afraid that I would go crazy and scold anyone who caught me.

I don't know how I got through, I don't even remember how I persuaded myself to hold the pen tightly in the middle school entrance examination room, all the students on the return bus sang "goodbye, youth" together, I rolled down a tear, and Min Min next to me comforted: "Zi again, don't be sad, there is no banquet in the world, there will be opportunities in the future......"

I didn't say anything, at that moment, Min Min comforted me, a "love rival", with a strong heart, and at that moment, how I smiled and said it was okay under the double blow of graduation and my father's illness.

Yes, what is this, you always think that life has hit you a lot more, but God always feels that you need to bear more.

What did I get when I rushed out of the bus despite the shouts of all my classmates behind me and rushed to the hospital overnight?

It was Mom who threw away a large sum of money and escaped from the city where Dad's life died overnight.

The man who took her away could have escaped her mother from that pain, but what about me?

A 16-year-old girl can still be coquettish in the arms of her parents.

At that age, I endured my grief and told my father, "Mom just went out to raise money, and she will be back in a week or two, and I will always be with you." ”

A man in his forties was tormented by cancer every night and moaned, lymphatic swollen, a lot of hair fell out, and it was torture no matter how he lay down.

The doctor said that my father's cancer was found to be at an advanced stage for several years.

It is said on the Internet that people with cancer are all killed alive in the end, and I don't know whether to believe it or not.

My father didn't know that he had cancer until he died, and he was afraid that he would lose his faith in life in the first place, and until the end, I didn't say anything.

Without waiting for "Mom to raise money and come back", Dad passed away forever on a sunny morning, his eyes closed, as if he was asleep, and he no longer moaned in pain.

On the way back to send Dad's ashes, the dust was flying, the sun was completing its rising, the river under the bridge was completing its rushing, and people were completing their tiny resistance to the great sorrow of this world.

I don't know if I'm alive or dead.

On the day of the burial, the weather was unbearable, the yellow paper was flying, the firecrackers rang out several times in the deep mountains, the salute rushed to the sky, and it was no longer visible in the daytime, like my father's life.

A few days later, the school notified me to pick up the admission letter, and I saw Tiandu at the school again.

Holding the envelope with my name in his hand and the county notice in the other hand, Min Min stood behind him, the so-called sister trying to move closer to him.

"Yes, I didn't fill in the county middle school, and I didn't fill in the town middle school. "I confess directly.

I wasn't in the mood to say much, so I took my notice from Timdo's hand and turned to leave.

"What did you give him, Lin Ziyou!"

Min Min suddenly shouted behind me, I paused, Min Min continued: "I like him, I liked him a long time ago, I don't want Qing Bai Ning, I want Nan Tiandu, he is so good to you, why do you treat him like this, how good do you think you are." ”

I was stunned, but I didn't know what to do, and I ran away like a gopher that I didn't see.

So I don't know how Tim Du will develop with this sister at that time, and I don't dare to think about it.

Later, Qing Baining and I went to the same high school, but it was really not like Tian Du misunderstood, "I made an appointment with Qing Baining to go to the same high school", but at that time, I would never have thought that my father would lose his life in such a short time, I thought that I applied to the school here, and I could accompany my father more, I thought it would be okay.

Moreover, Qing Baining doesn't like me, it's Minmin.

One day, I rushed to the errand with a large stack of homework, and was pulled by Min Min to watch Tim Du's ball game, and was smashed by Tim Du with a ball and fractured, and a boy in a hoodie next to him saw it, and couldn't help but tease a few words, and Min Min glared at him fiercely.

That boy is Qing Baining, and he fell in love with Min Min because he received such a white eye that day.

At that time, I didn't know why Min Min wanted to run to a basketball game and insisted on pulling me.

But I know that Qing Baining has been sticking to me since then, because he wants to get closer to Minmin.

And I, stupidly, wanted to make them a couple.

Minmin's liking is forbearing, and she has been waiting for the day when I leave, when she will jump out and announce it to the world.

Minmin's story doesn't end there.

I don't want to jump out and accuse her of her liking for Timdu, more often than not, I feel sorry for this girl.

Tim Du didn't have any thoughts of going beyond love for Min Min, this was what Tim Du told me personally, she was her sister.

Although I was absent from Timdo's side due to family changes, this "sister" did not take my place offside because of this.

On the contrary, Tim Du and I cherish this sister as much.

It's been half a month after graduation, I finally replied to Timdu's message, we made an appointment to meet in "Wangtianqiu", Minmin, Qingbai Ning also came, Tim Du said that he must take care of the things between us.

"Wangtian Autumn" is a small mountain forest in the suburbs, planted with ginkgo, when autumn comes, the mountains are golden.

A few years ago, a famous writer visited here and wrote a great article, praising the wonderful place between heaven and earth, and was invited to personally inscribe the plaque of "Looking at the Sky and Autumn" and hang it at the entrance of the mountain forest.

The fame in the world is there, where to look at the sky and autumn.