In the next period of time, I had nothing to do every day, and the exam was about to begin, many classes were suspended, and I had a lot of free time every day, so I squatted in the dormitory and played games when I had nothing to do. ，

In a small room of about 30 square meters, seven people were squeezed in before, and now it is me and the Navy senior. I suddenly felt empty, with a lot of things missing, and there was still a lot of clutter on the bottom bed, and the sheep's head was still there, telling me that they had all existed.

A few people in the dormitory opposite also went to the library for the first time, saying that they wanted to review, I was still indifferent, should I play games or play games, anyway, I haven't been so in the habit of desperately reviewing before the exam, and I don't particularly care, I feel that I shouldn't be able to fail the course, so what else is there to review? 60 points to get, what do you want a high score, anyway, I can't get a scholarship like this.

At noon, I was playing a game, and suddenly I saw my brother's call, and when the situation was fine, he wouldn't send me a message, and every time he sent me a message, he either asked me to pay him the phone bill, or asked me to borrow (ask) money, as if I didn't take the initiative to call me after I went to college, and I didn't pay much attention to him.

Impatiently connected the phone, go, I usually don't do anything else when I play games, I have to concentrate on playing games, and I can't pit my teammates if I say anything.

"Hey, why did you call me today?"

"Nothing. ”

"No money again?"

"No, it seems to be my mother's birthday today, so I have time to call him!"

"Hmm!"

"Then it'll be fine. ”

"It's okay to go out at home, pay more attention to safety, have time to read some books, and don't play games all day. ”

"That's hanging"

"Hang it"

It's my mother's birthday today? I don't have any impressions! After the game was finished first, when the whole game interface was stuck in two big words of failure, I flipped through the sheets and took out the file bag pressed under the pillow. I took out the copy of the household registration book inside, looked at the ID numbers of my father and mother, and today was indeed my mother's birthday, and I really didn't have much impression.

For a long time, my family didn't have birthdays, this is a family tradition, after all, my great-grandfathers and grandfathers are so old, they haven't said a birthday or anything, what birthdays do we juniors have? I haven't had any birthdays since I was so old, and I don't go to other people's birthday parties much, but my brother loves it, and every time it's his birthday, he always goes to buy a cake or go out for drinks with his friends.

Whether it's my mother's birthday or not, I should call her, she has always called me once a week on average, and I rarely take the initiative to call her, every time because I have no money, I want to ask them for living expenses. I usually don't want to go back to home, I just want to stay outside, and it's really wolf-hearted to think about it, and I feel like I'm no different from a white-eyed wolf who can't be raised.

I looked at the time, it's only about 1 o'clock, they should have finished eating, and now they are resting, they shouldn't have taken a nap, they don't eat so early every day, and they lie in bed and sleep when they have nothing to do.

I flipped through the address book, found my mother's number, dialed it, and the call was quickly connected.

"Hey, Xia'er, how do you remember to call your mother at noon, what's the matter?"

"It's nothing! I just think I haven't called you for a long time, so I'll call you when I happen to be free today." ”

"Oh, have you eaten? The weather over there should have been hot recently! Guangxi is so hot all year round, and it has been raining for the past two days, has it rained over there recently?"

"It's been a long time since it's rained, and it's a little hot at noon. ”

"Pay more attention to your body, if you are alone over there, there is no one to take care of you, exercise more, play less games, learn more while you are young, and don't be too lazy. ”

"Mom, Lianhai told me that today is your birthday, Mom, do you want to buy something to celebrate, or go shopping, anyway, you won't go to work when it's raining." ”

"Is it my birthday?

The phone stood up for a moment before I heard my mother's voice again.

"It's really today, I haven't had a birthday for so many years, and I don't usually care, but I've been busy these days, and I've forgotten it, and I can't remember it if you don't say it, so that's it! I'll wash my clothes this afternoon, and I'll not go out for a walk, and I'm still caring about these things when I'm old, and I'm not like you young people. ”

"You also pay more attention to your body! Rest more, don't be so tired, you are not young now, others have begun to enjoy happiness at this age, but you are still grinding so hard outside, you don't have to think too much about us, you have done enough for us, you see that other children have nothing, and they don't live well. ”

"We don't think it's too hard, we can continue to work for a few years, I'm afraid we won't do enough, as long as you two brothers are promising, no matter how hard we are tired, it's nothing, you have a promising, and we have a light on our faces."

Now I just hope that you can be sensible sooner, you are okay, but I am worried about your brother, now he is still young, not sensible, I am afraid that he will not study well, usually you have time to call him more, teach him well, your father and I have been running outside for the past few years, and I didn't teach you anything when you were young. You and your brother are now such a character because we didn't stay with you when we were young, so you are usually silent and don't speak, your brother is too wild, he has no heart to study, he runs around all day and is not at home, he is really worried about him, you must teach him more as a big brother. ”

"Well, I'll pay more attention in the future! Anyway, he won't listen to what I say, he won't listen to what you say, will he listen to me? He is still young, he has never experienced anything, and he has not suffered anything, and when he really suffers a little one day, he will know that he is wrong, and you don't have to worry too much. You don't usually have to get used to him, a lot of problems are used to it. ”

"We just want you to study hard now and have a good future in the future, although your dad doesn't usually talk much, you should know that he really cares about you, and you should know now how much he wants his son to become a Chan, so he used to always beat and scold you, all for your good. ”

"I know you guys haven't done anything wrong, there's so much you can do for me compared to other parents, and there's no need to be so tired. Now that you are also old, pay more attention to rest, don't think too much about me, didn't you say, and Sun has his own children and grandchildren, if it is really not successful, it is useless for you to do more. ”

"I just hope you are sensible, so many years, every time we say something, you don't listen, unlike your brother, as soon as we say he leaves, I also know, every time I tell you these things, you will hate us nagging, annoying! We parents all hope that our children will be promising, I hope you study hard, play less games, don't be like the college students on TV, every day is sleeping, classes are not attended, I play games all day long, and I have not learned anything after graduation. ”

"Yes, I know."

"Now you have the conditions, unlike us when we couldn't study if we wanted to, we couldn't do anything we wanted, if I could continue to study in junior high school and high school, I wouldn't be a migrant worker now. Your grandfather died early, and the three sisters in our family and your uncle all relied on your grandmother's hard work to bring us up, and at that time ............"

My mother began to reminisce about the past, reminiscing about the difficult times when I was a child, and she told me this more than once, and I knew her intention, that is, she hoped that we could cherish the conditions I have now, study hard, and not get lost in this colorful society.

When my mother talked about how she married my father, I began to think about my mother's situation and the choices she faced:

In the early winter of some southern day, the wind was blowing so hard that the last dead leaves on the branches could not stand the cold, and fell to the ground, and the birds of the forest let out a heavy wail. The fog is getting thicker, and the whole world is about to be shrouded in darkness. On the country road, a vague figure appeared in the distance, closer, closer.

It was a young woman in a red tweed coat who had stepped on dead leaves all over the ground. With discontinuous footsteps. She looked melancholy, and looked particularly delicate against the background of twilight. The howl of the cold wind mingled with the sound of her footsteps into a strange music, which also added to the anguish in her heart—she had finally made a choice, and the thought of that choice made her coat tighter.

She had just returned from Guangzhou, because she received a message from her family that she was engaged to a strange man whom she had not met several times and did not like. At first, she was resolutely opposed, she was still very young, she still had a long way to go in life, she hadn't started her love yet, she didn't want to waste her youth in the vicious circle of her parents' lives and matchmakers' words.

She longs for life in the city, likes the freshness, freedom and openness, and she wants to put down roots in the city through her own efforts, so as to stay away from that backward hometown. But the reality did not allow her to do this, and her mother, who had been struggling to support the whole family for many years and became a little irritable and resolute, extinguished the flame of her hope:

"Since ancient times, the parents have the final say in the marriage of children, so how can you make your own decisions? I look at that family well, and it has a good reputation in the local area, and besides, I have agreed to it, so how can I go back on my word! It is a good family, and they have asked someone to send all the dowry, and you will not suffer in the past. ”

She is the eldest daughter in the family, and her three younger siblings still have to pay for schooling, and the family has to make ends meet. How can a woman who works in the city bear the burden of her family? Under the pressure of reality, she has not yet made a choice.

Tonight is the day of the engagement. Her heart became more and more tangled as the days approached, and the pain spread through her nerves. Yes, she is still hesitating. She was wondering if her choice was really as right as her parents thought, and whether her choice at the moment was really worth it for her to give up the free life in the city and return to her backward hometown to redevote herself to the life she once hated.

She was struggling, and suddenly, she heard the long whistle of a passenger car from a distance, and at the end of the road was the parking spot of the passenger car, and now as long as she ran over, she could catch the car and leave the cold and windy countryside.

She made a choice, she didn't care, she was going to flee and run in the direction of the park. The bus stopped in front of it, with a fluttering heart and an indescribable excitement.

But the moment she stepped on the car door with one foot, she suddenly chuckled, and scenes appeared in front of her. : Mother hears the news that she has escaped. The tired body, which was already struggling to support, was so angry that he couldn't afford to get sick, and in the face of the family's persecution and begging, he was struggling and begging, and the little dowry money was clutched behind his back, and the whole family received the white eyes and fingers of the villagers............

At some point, the picture was wet with tears and became blurry, as if she saw the consequences of her choice, she gradually lowered her head and closed her eyes.

She thought she was brave enough to flee and might want to get closer, but she was timid. There are also more worries, and she does not dare to move forward, her reason, her ideals, have been conquered by the fetters of feelings and family. For the sake of her family, she was willing to sacrifice and make the final choice.

"Can't you go?"

The driver asked her. She retracted the foot she had gotten into the car, shook her head, took a few steps back, turned around, and stepped onto the forest path again, walking into the black hole in front of her without looking back. The figure was gradually swallowed up by the night............

The dead tree behind it dropped its last dead leaf and let out a slight sigh.

This is the scene I imagined in my head, this is the choice my mother faced at the time, and I don't know if she regretted it. I can't comment on anything, because it was her choice that made me who I am today. I think no matter what she chose in the first place, she wasn't wrong, but she chose to sacrifice herself. This is her story, her choice, my great mother.

On the other end of the phone, she was still tirelessly talking to me about the past, hoping that I could understand and understand something. At this moment, my tears were raining down, and I didn't even dare to speak, for fear that she would hear my choked voice.

Over the years, she has silently paid so much for me, but she has not complained, she has always thought that these are what she should do as a mother and as a child. Fortunately, he has a father, and he has lived in harmony for so many years, whether there have been any contradictions, I don't know if the life she once wanted is now, maybe life has made her compromise, but fortunately it is not so dark.

And now that I'm at the age where she had made the choice, I looked around the dorm room to give me a clear idea of what I'm doing.

#: I would like to dedicate this article to those great mothers, great people.

And I would like to pay tribute to the female classmate who gave me my impression. Thank you!