Talking about my family, my great-grandfather is still alive, although he is over 90 years old, his body is still very strong, he can eat several bowls of a meal, he often walks around, and he usually can't be idle. When someone in the neighborhood has a happy event, they usually come to him to write couplets and see the day or something (to choose a good day for a happy event). He rarely speaks and is always serious.

I remember when I was a kid he wasn't like that, he was a little kinder. I often boil eggs, baked potatoes or something. Maybe it's because my great-grandmother was bedridden for three years, and he worked day and night, but he couldn't do anything, and he was always in pain. My great-grandfather could only take care of him every day, and until the old man died, he was never happy during that time. Later, the old people of his generation died one after another, and there were fewer and fewer people who could talk to him, so he slowly became withdrawn.

Time has made him lose too many things, I know that every day he is fighting against time, I don't know how long he can hold on, every time I look at the lonely back of his old man, he is so helpless. Over the years, everything he has experienced seems to make him look down on everything, so that he is not shocked by anything.

And I'm leaving home now, and he didn't say anything to me, just told me to be safe and go home more often (he knew I was a homeless person). I can't do anything for him, I just want him to continue his healthy life.

My grandfather is almost seventy years old, he is the eldest son, and he has several sisters, he still looks very young, still tall and majestic, 180 height (the average height of my family is above 170), which is rare in the south, especially until now there is still no rickets, every day with his head held high, heroic, at home my brothers and sisters may not be afraid of their parents, but they are absolutely afraid of my grandfather, and my brother is the same. Because of being a teacher for dozens of reasons, my grandfather likes to preach very much, because he suffers from rheumatoid arthritis all the year round, and his temper is not very good. That's why he didn't have a good relationship with his family, even when he was with his father (my great-grandfather). None of the people in the neighborhood didn't know Mr. Liu's temper, as if they all believed that educating children was to beat them when they should be beaten, and they would never be soft.

I remember a joke circulating nearby: "Teacher Liu, my child has bad grades in school, is not obedient at home, and does not study well all day long, what can I do?"

"What can I do, my children are like this, I can't teach them myself, what can I do. ”

It's true that my father wasn't his pride, neither were we, and perhaps it seemed to him a shame, and he had been trying to change the situation, but it didn't seem to have much effect.

Grandmother's temper is also very hot, and she always quarrels with her grandfather at home because of some trivial things, and no one will let anyone (it's hard to imagine how to live for decades), so there has never been peace in the family, and the conflicts between grandparents and grandmothers, and between them and their parents, are always staged at home. That's why my parents didn't want to stay at home, and we didn't want to, so my great-grandfather seemed to be used to it for many years, and he never cared about it, just treated it as if he couldn't see it, couldn't hear it. I understand his frustration, but I can't learn.

Sometimes the conflict escalates, and when there is a big fight, my great-grandfather will come out to calm the scene, prevent both sides from losing their minds, and prevent the conflict from worsening. I also injured my grandmother, but I went and called my uncle and aunt to deal with it (fortunately, my uncle was a doctor). I also called my uncles and aunts, and in front of my children, I would make them think that they were old and that they should set an example for their children, instead of messing around with children and not being able to afford to lose people.

In the end, we talked about three chapters of the law all night before ending this farce. Grandparents and grandmothers are old, and when they are old, they also make the younger generations see jokes, especially grandfathers, who lose face in front of us. After this incident, family conflicts have been somewhat alleviated.

My parents were not at home when this happened, and when I called my father for advice, my father said to me, "We can't meddle in the affairs of the older generation, and I can't deal with their problems," and my father's evasion and fear to face it made me helpless and disappointed for a while. No wonder my grandfather always looked down on my father and thought he was too cowardly.

There are too many things in the family, I can't describe them all in a few words, as a junior, I can't evaluate anything, and I don't have the ability to change anything, it seems that all I can do is escape, escape all this.

The strange thing is that in the eyes of other people, my family has always been very harmonious, perhaps because these disputes and conflicts are only at home, and never show them outside, or maybe this is because the ugliness of the family is not publicized, and who does not have a difficult scripture to read.

My parents are not at home all the year round, and I only celebrate the New Year at home during the Spring Festival, and my younger brother and I live with my great-grandfather and grandparents, which also makes me withdrawn, unkind, and does not attach importance to family affection. Although I didn't want to do this, I knew I needed to change, but I was very confused, and there was no opportunity for change until .......

When I arrived in the village, I saw that my grandfather was already sitting in the yard of my uncle's house on the side of the road, looking at the road and waiting for a long time, I thought he must be very anxious and wanted to see my admission letter and understand the specific situation, after all, it was not clear in a few words on the phone.

I was relieved to see that his face, which had been serious all day, smiled a little. Although my cousin took the university exam a few years ago, he was not so excited and nervous, probably because I was different from my cousin, I was the eldest son in the family, and the patriarchal thinking was still very common in this remote mountainous area.

I was admitted to university, and after that, he also had a light on his face when chatting with relatives, friends, and neighbors, after all, there are few people who go to high school in this place, unlike those economically developed areas.

Back home, my grandmother was weeding in the vegetable garden at the door, my great-grandfather was reading with glasses, looking drowsy, he didn't like to watch TV dramas, especially disgusted with all kinds of dramas now, he looked at the weather forecast every day, news broadcasts, focus interviews or something, after all, he was an old party member, and he had to pay attention to national events at all times, although these didn't seem to have anything to do with him.

I remember that seven or eight years ago, the veteran cadres bureau organized them to visit Beijing, when they received the news, their great-grandfather was excited, and he has never seen him again, he did not have this condition when he worked, and later retired and returned to his hometown to farm, living a life like Tao Yuanming, and when he was eighty years old, he still had the opportunity to go to Beijing to have a look, which is a dream that has come true for many years.

The family was very happy, and my great-grandfather didn't say much, just told me to study hard and be mature and calm in my work, because I was already an adult, and he had already started a family at that age.