Later, when I was five years old, I started going to school, because my grandfather's school was several kilometers away from home, and my sister and I were too young to walk that far every day, so we went directly to this primary school next to the village. I went straight to first grade, and all the kids my age went to preschool.

Grandpa thinks that going to preschool is sleeping, and the teacher doesn't know how many children there are in the class, so he can go if he wants, and the teacher won't care, it's just a waste of time, so he just let me go to the first grade, even if I only learn a little.

In the first year, I slept in class all the time, I didn't learn anything, I took the Chinese test in my fifties, and my math was only in my twenties, and my sister was in the second grade at that time, and I didn't pass both subjects. At that time, it didn't seem to be difficult to pass the exam, many people also took a little red flower, when my grandfather sent us to school, he also told the teachers, we should be punished, don't be polite, we must educate well.

I did get slapped and punished for standing in class and sleeping, and the teacher was very strict with me, but I still slept all the time, and I failed every exam.

At home, my mother always spent a lot of time teaching me to write homework, let me go to bed at eight o'clock every night, take a nap in Chinese, I couldn't have so much time to watch cartoons like before, my grades were still very poor, I still slept in class, my uncle said that I might be malnourished or something, let me eat more, but I was really thin at that time.

I couldn't help it, my family asked me to study the first grade for another year, and I was still sleeping in class, but I finally passed the exam.

In the second grade, my cousin and I transferred to my grandfather's school, and my grandfather was in charge of us. Since then, my sister's academic performance has improved a little, but it is barely on the result line.

After we arrived at that school, we had no freedom, we were in school all day, only going home on Fridays, we usually lived in the school, there was no TV, no toys, and even playing marbles with my classmates was careful, because my grandfather didn't let me play this, and every teacher in the school saw me playing with them, maybe the next day my grandfather would know.

This life away from home and school has been going on since then. Only the cold and summer family will be at home, and they usually don't go out much, and they don't talk much, so that I don't know many of the young people who are younger than me in the village around now. Unlike his younger brother, there are so-called buddies (brothers) in every village in the town.

When I was in elementary school, I always liked to explore, but I didn't dare to ask questions to my teachers because I was so afraid of every teacher because of my grandfather's relationship. I also did a lot of stupid things.

One afternoon when I was in second grade, I was standing alone on the edge of a small pond on the playground and looking at the splash, and I wondered if it was the splash that came out when my feet were pressed into the water, or was it the splash that flew out of the water before my feet got into the water?

So I kept stretching out my right foot and stepping on the pond repeatedly, not realizing that my pants were wet.

I don't know how long it was, but I was stopped by a passing teacher who asked me what I was doing, and replied:

"I looked at how water flew, and I couldn't figure it out. ”

When the teacher told me to go home and change my pants, she didn't tell me why the water flew or why I was stupid to do that. Even now, I don't know if I touched the water first, or if the water touched me first? I've always believed that it's not that simple.

Back in the dormitory building, I was slapped by my grandfather, just like the last time I kept throwing rocks into the sky and accidentally swollen my head, he was also a slap in the face.

I asked the teacher if the stone was thrown up or dropped quickly, and the teacher said I didn't know, and my classmates said they didn't know, and I didn't know, so I went and tried it. Still no result, no then. Later, my brother asked me a similar question, and I also said, I don't know!

Later, when I had any doubts, I didn't try to try it much, because they all said I was doing something stupid, as if I was doing something stupid. Until later, even if I have an idea, I don't want to do it anymore, even if I know that this thing may be right and should be done.

My family prefers me to read books, and I can only read books at school, and it is impossible to read textbooks. Maybe it's because I haven't taken it seriously that my grades are so bad.

Later, I found a treasure lot, which was the library, which had a lot of comic books, especially the comic book version of "One Hundred Thousand Whys?". I always stay in the library after class, even if the library is not open, as long as there are teachers inside, I can go in.

The time spent playing marbles and paper corners turned into reading extracurricular books, and my grandfather finally didn't say anything, of course, provided that I completed the homework assigned by the teacher.

Once, Mr. Lu saw me reading Hans Christian Andersen's fairy tales and handed me a novel (children's book) by Mr. Li Ziyu, and he said that I was in the fourth grade and should not read fairy tales.

He was my Chinese teacher and lived upstairs from us, and sometimes we would go to his place to watch TV. Later, he was transferred and went to middle school, where he was my homeroom teacher and always treated me well.

When I was in sixth grade, I read all the books in the library and began to think that the library with so many books was so small. Usually I will help the teacher sort out the books, and every time I enter the library, I am the first to read a new book, and my classmates will ask me what books are good.

In the past few years, I have been used to staying in the library again, and I don't know what to do for a while, and I have read some books that interest me over and over again.

At that time, I never understood why the four famous books were so famous, and the teachers recommended us to read them, but these books were far less attractive than fairy tales in elementary school. Later, I borrowed them out in the junior high school library and looked at them again in high school. I still don't understand much, especially Dream of Red Mansions, the teacher's explanation in the high school text is different from what I thought of many things.

In junior high school, I was still in the library, reading all kinds of novels and some science books all day long, and I didn't get along with the group, because I was reading Amosif's science fiction while my dorm classmates were discussing Crash Boy and basketball.

Because I have time to read extracurricular books, my grades have always been bad or bad, and my bias is particularly serious, and I have been at the forefront of history and biogeography, but English and mathematics are a mess, and I barely pass mathematics because I can barely understand it.

My family started not letting me read extracurricular books, but they couldn't control me at all, and I only spent time at home several times a year?

I was always a regular visitor to the library in high school, but many times I used my phone to read e-books, and after I bought my first smartphone, I rarely went to the library and read e-books in bed. Now that I'm at university, a year later, I don't even know how many reading rooms there are in the school library.

Because I grew up and spent most of my free time devoting extracurricular books, I didn't know how to play basketball, I didn't have any friends, and I didn't even know where there were several towns in my county.

Although I lost a lot of extracurricular books, they also taught me a lot of things that my peers would not know and should not know. And now I'm starting to learn, to find what I've lost.

That's my childhood, my upbringing, probably like a lot of people, but it's different in some places. It gave me a different life from a lot of my friends in the mountains.