Chapter 47: Answer
When I was very young, when I still watched fairy tales like Snow White or Cinderella and felt relish, I thought about the question: what can make the so-called prince do anything for a beautiful girl?
The final answer is love, here we don't need to discuss whether the feelings that arise simply because of the beauty of the appearance are real love, in fairy tales, love only needs a medium that is easy to accept, so, in fact, the beauty of the appearance and the tenderness of the character in the fairy tale, or other factors that produce love are actually the same. I'm not going to be like a radical feminist to discuss whether outward love is a way of objectifying women, it's just an equivalent symbolic device.
The problem is that after the creation of love, the practice. The prince and princess lived happily ever after – there was no ending after that, and if we assume they were happy, it would mean that the prince solved all the princess's problems. The evil queen and the disgusting stepmother both become "victims" of the prince when solving the problem. But is it really that simple? What if the queen provokes a war between the two countries because she is dissatisfied with Snow White? What if Cinderella's stepmother's family is so powerful that the prince can't solve it? There is no such thing in fairy tales, but if this happens, will the prince still save the princess?
If we believe in love, then of course the answer is yes - it is the greatness of love, for the sake of a person, at any cost. But this is also the stupidity of love, at any cost, which in itself violates the principles of rationalism. No matter what kind of affection is in agreement, as long as it is mixed with the elements of love, it means that it is irrational.
Of course, for the vast majority of people, there is nothing wrong with briefly forgetting reason – but the question is whether one will indulge in the pleasure of such feelings. Man will, because man has never been the kind of animal that can always be aware of his own rationality, indulging in the joy of happiness, indulging forever, until the final demise, this is the normal choice of many people.
The rationalist becomes the leader of the people by virtue of his rational ability, and once he indulges in feelings, his decisions must be made with romantic feelings, which in itself is dangerous. A romantic man can be a great leader, however, he can never be a right leader.
Between greatness and rightness, I choose the right. There is no shortage of great people in this world or who think they are great, but people who always follow the right path.
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The gym was quiet, so quiet that if I left at this time, it would definitely attract the attention of other people. After singing the song, Kogi Senpai-senpai just held the microphone in his hand tightly, put it on his chest, and closed his eyes, as if he was just enjoying the tranquility of the moment. Just like the look on my face when I saw her backstage before, at the time, she was comfortable with the tremendous pressure brought by Rina Ogata, and now, after creating another big topic of the school festival performance by herself, she didn't look forward to it too much.
I know that with what she knows about me, she can even anticipate my reaction now.
Yes, how can I react? Stand up, respond like a fool to this obvious emotion, and put myself on the cusp? Of course not, I am not qualified to think about response, rationalist, when he becomes a rationalist, he can only choose right, not passion.
The audience was also silent, they had no way to applaud, because everyone could feel that the applause at this time seemed a little too cheap, and the applause was not what Yukina Kogi expected, nor was it something they could give. Of course, the noise is an option, but after the end of the song just now, it seems that even the courage to complain in words has disappeared in the face of the awe-inspiring and inviolable Koki Senpai who stands in the middle of the stage like a goddess. So, all one can do is silence – silence indefinitely.
I don't know how long it took, but there seemed to be a little commotion in the audience, and in front of everyone, a girl who had watched the show from start to finish stood up, and in this embarrassing silence, fled the room—swept by only the back of her trademark single ponytail.
It seems that she was stimulated by this situation, and the light that had been projected on her while Xiao Mu Yu's senior was singing also dimmed without warning. In a silent reminder, the end of the show is announced.
At this time, under the stimulation of the darkness, the chains that had just imprisoned people disappeared, and people began to discuss, and began to slowly express their opinions and express their emotions about the dramatic ending of the cultural festival.
People will have their own explanations for whether the cultural festival is a success or a failure, but from the perspective of topics and accidents, this year's cultural festival is absolutely unprecedented.
Of course, this is not the kind of unprecedented that the current chairman of the executive committee prefers.
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In the midst of the commotion in the darkness where everyone seemed to be back to normal, I quietly left the gymnasium. I didn't go back to the backstage because I was worried that I would meet Kogi Senpai there.
As a result, I was a deserter and did not dare to respond positively to the deserters of my predecessors.
Unacceptable, however, can't refuse.
I can't accept it because I'm the biggest and most hopeless fool in the world. I can't refuse because I always hope that when I am dying, I look forward to the last chance to retreat.
[I'm always worried about you who feel lonely easily]
[In fact, I am far more lonely than you]
There is only this lyric, I want to deny it, I have been reckless, I don't know how long I will be strong, but now, on the way to pursue my goal, I can and must continue to be strong.
Now, it's too cunning to say these words, but it's too late, senior Xiao Muxi.
Outside the gymnasium, the staff of the festival distributed leaflets, and the election of Miss Taketaka was about to enter the final moment to reveal the victory, and the publicity of the event was further overwhelmed. In this atmosphere that is a little too noisy, Sugiura Koharu, who is standing alone under a tree and wiping her tears, looks a little abrupt.
"Did my predecessors have a bad habit of laughing at people crying, noticing me running out and laughing at me?"
"Well, no, I just happened to see it. ”
- It's true that I noticed that it was Koharu who was leaving, but I didn't have the idea of meeting her until I saw her standing alone.
"If you came to laugh at me, I might be happier!" Koharu's eyes darkened.
"Hmm. ”
I know what Koharu meant, so I can't say that.
"If you don't go back, is it really okay?" brushed the sideburns around his ears and wiped the tears from the corners of his eyes in a very hidden way, Koharu said softly.
"I went back, and there was no way to respond. ”
"What about the deserters?"
"That's right, a deserter!"
"Same as when you faced me?"
"It's not the same – but in terms of results, it should be the same. ”
"It's not the same as I was at the time," Koharu asked, looking me straight in the eye, "Is it possible for the deserters to go back this time?"
"It's possible to go back, but it's also possible that you can't. ”
"Senior Xiao Mu Yu, is it possible for you to go back?"
"I think that's how it should be. ”
"Slightly, some envy her, some envy her who believes in Heye so much, and some envy her who knows so much about He, so I will hate myself more and more at that time. Koharu shuddered and turned around, but she replied to me in a surprisingly calm tone.
"—It was my fault at the time. ”
"Yes, but now, senior, isn't it your fault too?"
I can't answer, this girl, at such a time, can always be unexpectedly sharp.
"So, in terms of the conclusion, Yuhihama-senpai deceived me, right?"
"Well, when did it happen?"
"When I first mentioned the matter of Xiao Mu Cao's seniors, my seniors told me that the relationship between you and Xiao Mu Cao's seniors is just the relationship between the seniors and juniors who have a better relationship, and that's it. ”
"Well, that's right. "I remembered that conversation we had a long time ago, in the office of the student council at Kiyosen Middle School, and it seems like a century ago.
"Before, when I was confused because of the questions of the seniors under the snow, I also knew about the conversation with the seniors of Xiao Mu Shu?"
"I don't know. ”
"I don't know—is that my own problem? I'm the one who hesitates at the critical moment?" Koharu shook his head self-deprecatingly and said, "Sure enough, I'm always like this." I wanted to take on the challenge on my own, but I was never ready, and in the end I didn't get anything, just like the first time I met my seniors, the first time I wanted to make a small gesture to my seniors' football club, and at the end of the day, I still, nothing changed?"
"The difference is that the first failure, the seniors helped me bear it, and I also got some updated things because of the failure, but, the last two times, I didn't have any chance from the beginning!"
I looked at Koharu quietly, and if there was one girl whose emotions I could see most clearly, it was undoubtedly Sugiura Koharu. All the clumsy, feeble efforts she made, I knew and understood them completely. I can also vividly recall her mistakes that did not stop her because of stupid non-interventionism, and her persistence after helping her.
So I only know what the real correct answer is when I face her.
Just gaze, just gaze, however, there is no need for any sympathetic comfort.
"As for girls, whenever they feel cold, they always want someone to warm them - at least I think girls are like that. No matter how cold a girl is, no matter how much she looks like a girl who can protect you from the wind and rain. ”
"Therefore, if once you lose what you can rely on before, girls will be very confused to pursue and look for it. If this person is stupid and always feels that the person she relied on before is the warmest, then she will be very stupid to chase the person she relied on before, not hesitating to imitate, not hesitating to play, and not hesitating to change herself. ”
"Actually, when I was told by my predecessor that I should be myself and show my own feelings, I should have understood. I didn't do it because I didn't trust Kazuya, and I didn't trust myself, right? So, from the moment I began to declare war on my own initiative, I was doomed to defeat, right?"
At a distance of about a meter, Koharu and I just looked at each other. The tears that she had just carefully wiped away were now covered with her still immature face. The blinding gazes of passers-by hit me.
"Really, aren't you going back?" she asked again, pleadingly.
"There's no going back. ”
- No matter what the meaning is, the answer is the same.
"Well, I'm going back. Koharu turned around and said goodbye gently, "It's not very clear, but I think it's time to say goodbye." ”
"Actually, I don't want to cry, because it will be humiliating, but will I be impressed if I leave like this?"
"I guess, probably?"
"Well, that's good, if I can make the rationalist predecessors become irrational once, shouldn't I be satisfied?"
"Don't think of me as a cold-blooded animal!"
"I know, it's because my predecessors aren't cold-blooded animals, that's why I did it on purpose, so, Yubihama-senpai," Koharu blinked and whispered softly, "For the rest of your life, don't forget the appearance of the girl you made crying!"
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Everyone knows the BGM of the third part... By the way, I'm wondering how many people are scared by this title