If the days were always long, then I don't know why time has changed so quickly. With the arrival of December, the streets already have a lively atmosphere in preparation for the following Christmas and New Year.

Of course, this atmosphere has nothing to do with me.

I'm just alone, slowly pushing towards an unknown destination. I don't think I'm a person who is afraid of loneliness, but when I'm really alone, I find that my life has stopped and there is no trace of memorability.

It's been a long time since I've been working, and my place has probably been replaced by someone else, so it's impossible to get back to my old job, and whether the activities of the ministry continue or not, it has nothing to do with me, but with the president hit and there are few members left, this club should be on the verge of disbanding. After returning home, he maintained a superficial harmonious relationship with his sister at the dinner table, and after eating, they went back to their respective rooms and never communicated again.

Occasionally, I would go to the soccer stadium to take a look, and one day, I also saw the members of the club and the soccer club say goodbye to Isshiki - after being elected president of the student council without any suspense, she also resigned as the manager of the soccer club, and I wonder if she asked Hayama to help her. In my distant vague impression, I seem to think that Isshiki likes Hayama, but now everything is unrecognizable. I would occasionally agree to Hayama's idea of letting me play some training matches with everyone on the soccer team, but the funny thing is that I, who had steadfastly refused this request, now choose to compromise with such principles out of loneliness.

In the final analysis, some of the principles that have been adhered to for a long time are just this kind of rags that can be thrown away.

Occasionally, I think of Hikiya Hachiman, the man I've forgotten for a long time - according to the predetermined plan, I'll talk to that guy after the student council president's election, maybe with my own conceited tone and tell him: "You're so wrong." But now, when I know I'm so wrong, I'm not qualified to do anything like that.

There is no such thing as a world where no one will be hurt, so there will always be someone who has to take responsibility, and some people will choose to take responsibility alone, and I will be inclined to share the pain with everyone, the pain is very big, the wound will be very painful and painful, but that is for one person, if such pain is shared with everyone, and everyone only accepts a very limited pain, then a satisfactory ending can be achieved within the scope of everyone's acceptance.

I used to think like this – it's not about sacrificing the few to save the many, it's about letting everyone save themselves. In my vision, the biggest problem is that some people are not willing to sacrifice, but now I see that when everyone is willing to sacrifice, splitting up the pain will not make the pain smaller, but will make each pain expand to the original state, so everyone bears a huge pain, and in the end everyone is seriously injured.

I could almost see Hikiya saying this with rotten eyes.

So, am I really doing something wrong?

I would come to the classroom very early every day and think about it, just a "yes" or "no" question, I had been thinking about it for a long time.

"Good morning, Kazuya. The voice of the girl next to me reached my ears.

I don't remember when Isshiki started greeting me again, maybe after the student council election, maybe before that, I just remember that for a long time, she said hello to me, and then I nodded slightly to hear it. Then the two began their respective work.

She's busy juggling all sorts of relationships – lately she's been putting together all sorts of paperwork – while I continue to think about life.

"Now, Kazuya, do you have a proposal you want to hear?" the girl's voice came again.

After saying hello, it's a little abnormal.

To be honest, when I am desperate to change places next semester, I will be embarrassed that the girl next to me is the girl who has been hurt so badly by me.

"I don't want to. ”

"Hey, don't veto it without hearing about it!"

"If you remember what happened after we last got back on good terms, I think you'll understand what I'm thinking. "It's a bit cruel – not even the second rejection, but for the sake of something unnecessary, I'm going to do it.

I have so much trust in the snow and in the garden, and it turns out that my trust is never reliable.

Issei took a heavy breath of cold air, and his face became a little darker. As if pricked with a needle, she didn't speak again.

So I turned my head and continued to think about the question to which I still couldn't get an answer.

"Now, I said, do you really think I'm the kind of girl who doesn't want to give up?" but after a while, she asked anyway.

"To be honest, it has nothing to do with my judgment, which has been wrong lately, so it's better to try to eliminate all possibilities as much as possible. ”

"Looks like you've been having a really hard time lately - your bad face isn't a show. ”

"Do you think I need to deliberately feign pity to win your sympathy?"

"Uh-" Ichishiki paused in some embarrassment.

This is the second time she has been interrupted by me.

However, for some reason, she doesn't seem to have given up yet.

"Anyway, I can get the position of student council president, shouldn't I thank you?"

"Don't thank me, I didn't do it for you, I was going to take action under the snow, and helping you was just an objective result. ”

"What a blunt answer!"

"It's just stating the facts. ”

"So, what about the snow senpai, why did you do this, and now you have her forgiveness?"

I didn't answer immediately, and when Isshiki asked this question, I had a feeling that all of her questions were in preparation for this question, and whether it was a "yes" or "no" answer, I would be in a very awkward position.

However, it seems that the result of not answering is the same.

"Hey, Kazuya, I'll just say the next words," Ichiseki whispered with his back to me, "First of all, you really don't have to worry about what I'm going to do to you, even if I like you as you feared, I won't do that stupid thing again." I don't need to go through this experience a second time - don't forget, I'm a proud girl, much prouder than you think. So, I'm not going to help you. ”

- Is this what Isshiki thinks? However, it does fit her personality very well.

"Secondly, no matter what you do, no matter how much you hide it, everyone can feel your current state of depression - even Hayama seniors asked me what happened to you before, there are more people who care about you than you think, and the people who care about you don't want you to continue this picture. ”

- So, is this a consolation? But it's actually a greater burden, isn't it? The more people who care about me, the more I can feel how much fault I have, and this comfort is not at all as stiff as your dexterous style!

"Third, I can probably guess what you did to the seniors under the snow, and I can probably think of why you blame yourself so much for the seniors under the snow, and of course there may be other people involved, other things, such as the elementary school girl from Qingquan Middle School who got into a lot of trouble with you, you will feel that you hurt them - but, it's funny, Kazuya, haven't you always hurt other people in order to achieve your goals? Didn't you always feel that you were helping us to make the best choice for us for the sake of the higher, for the common good, and for the common good, and if you were still the one who was so confident in yourself, what you were thinking about now would be how to reverse this bad enough outcome, right?"

I've tried everything I can, not to mention that I have been trying to reverse the bad ending? As a result, I can only fill the gap of the previous problem with a worse ending, which is why the problem has become out of control now.

"In the end, if you find that you can't solve it yourself, there is actually a way - in fact, I mainly want to say this sentence, and also. I could repeat the other words, but there was only one sentence, really I will only say it once," even when I looked at her from behind, I could feel Issei's tone become serious, which was rare for her to be really serious, "I can't help you anymore, maybe the vast majority of people can't help you anymore - but, there is one person who can." ”

"Only that person will stand by your side again and again when you are betrayed, only that person will always think about you when you are left out, and only that person will not abandon you even when you are abandoned. ”

I know who Isshiki was talking about, but-

But if you refuse that person's help because of your damn nature, your boredom, your pathetic self-esteem, if you only treat that person as someone you can only protect, no one else can hurt, an inviolable person, then what you are doing is the greatest offense to her. You're self-righteously trampling on her mind. Isshiki's voice was soft, but his words were powerful.

I don't know why she said such a thing, but I can't argue with her words.

Have I been trampling on Sister Yui's heart?

"Why can you say that?"

"Why can you say that," the girl turned around, her expression complicated, "because, only when you want to help, but you find that you can't do anything, can you see the most suitable person who can help you!"

Detached from the environment of the parties, we can see the truth of the problem more clearly, right?

Sure enough, Ichishiki is also a gentle enough girl!

"Hmm-"

As I was about to speak, Isshiki reached out a finger and pressed it against my lips.

"You just have to tell me, do you accept my words or not?"

I nodded.

"Then needless to say more. She smiled a satisfied, somewhat fragile smile, "I'll be shaken if I say more." ”

"This is to repay you for your help in the election of the president - whether you did it on purpose or not, I will treat it as if you helped me, and I don't want to owe you this favor, so now, I think we have settled the two, Kazuya!"

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It's said that the sick Jiaojiao was sealed.,It's really boring.,Too lazy to appeal.,That's it.。。。