Chapter 48.5: Twinkle Snow

She still remembers, nearly a year ago, on that somewhat cold winter night, she watched the man go to a battle that was almost certain to be lost, and then, she saw the indifferent expression of the returning senior.

"It's all over. The senior said this, and then staggered away with some trembling. She didn't know if her seniors were shivering because she was scared or because of the cold, but at that time, for some reason, she didn't dare to catch up with her seniors.

Later, she thought that she probably felt that she was not qualified to evaluate the efforts of her predecessors!

Now, a year later, in the same cold late autumn, she watched the man go to the battle that was almost certain to be lost again, and then, she saw the same indifferent expression of the returning senior.

"It's all over. The senior said this, and then left steadily.

At that time, and at this time, it seems that nothing has changed, but at that time, and at this time, it seems that a lot has changed.

So, she caught up with her seniors, said a gentle "um", and walked side by side with her.

"I'm sorry, Haiwei, I still haven't been able to do anything. Sugiura-senpai, who was walking beside him, suddenly spoke.

"I don't need to apologize, I didn't expect anything to come of it — or I shouldn't have expected anything — or I shouldn't have expected anything to come of it. ”

"However, in this way, we are like-minded people. ”

"Yes, sympathy. ”

Once, she desperately longed to be able to walk side by side with Koharu Sugiura, but in the end, when the two of them could actually do it, it turned out to be through this model, which couldn't help but feel a little ironic.

"Well, Sugiura-senpai—" she said hesitantly.

"Huh?"

"That, I'm sorry. ”

"Oh, nothing. ”

"It's not that I'm sorry for asking my seniors to help me go to Yuhihama-senpai for talking about it, I didn't expect a result in the first place, I'm sorry for something else. ”

She struggled to explain. To be honest, Sonoda Kaiwei felt that her performance yesterday was too bad, and after running away from Yubihama Kazuya in such an incoherent manner, she made a choice that made her self-sufficiency even more angry, she went straight to Sugiura Koharu, and expressed her complex, tangled feelings to her seniors, her kind of bad feelings that she didn't want to like, but she liked it, and wanted to give up after she liked it, but because she had a bad feeling of luck psychology that she didn't want to give up.

But, most importantly, after saying so much, she actually forgot to apologize to Sugiura-senpai. Although the seniors didn't know, she obviously took the risk for the seniors, but as a result, because of her arrogance, she fell in love with someone she shouldn't like, and she did such a betrayal of her seniors, but she forgot to apologize to her seniors.

What kind of mood and heart did Sugiura Koharu take to meet Yubihama Kazuya? What she didn't dare to do, the result she didn't dare to think about, in the end, it was her seniors who took it for her, and this was the real purpose of her apology.

In the end, it was still the seniors who were solving the problem for herself, and she really, she didn't do anything.

"Another apology, I also know!"

"Huh?" she looked up in surprise at Koharu Sugiura, who was smiling gently.

"Hai Wei thinks that he shouldn't like Kazuya, right? probably because he just wants to use him, obviously just wants him to reconcile with me, and finally likes him and he is despicable, right?"

She grew her mouth in surprise - so, is her cover-up really so bad?

"Then I guessed correctly, but it's not that hard to guess, isn't it? Although reasoning according to known conditions is a bit unrealistic, but now that the answer is known, it is not very difficult to combine the previously known conditions, right?"

"Uh-"

But you don't need to apologize for it! Emotional matters are always very selfish. ”

"But!" she retorted with some excitement, "it's not just a matter of selfishness, it's a matter of trampling on the heart of my favorite senior, it's a question of betraying my favorite senior for the sake of a boy, really, it's not that simple." ”

"So, I'm very grateful to you, thank you, Haiwei, thank you for respecting me as a senior, thank you for still liking me as a senior - at least it will make me feel that my three years of life in the country are not as bad as I thought before. ”

Koharu's voice finally showed a little frustration.

"Seniors are great seniors, excellent seniors that I have always admired. ”

"However, the excellent seniors actually achieved nothing - in the past three years, the most important relationship was useless, completely failed, and the study was so-so, even the student union, in fact, I didn't become the president, did I?"

"However, Sugiura-senpai is clearly better than Kimura-chan-"

"Whatever the reason, it's actually quite a failure on the resume, isn't it?"

"But success doesn't depend on your resume!"

"So I think the three years of junior high school life have been more successful than I imagined, because, I met a junior like you," Koharu glanced at Haiwei tenderly and said, "And if you really feel sorry for it, then I can tell you that I also did something sorry for you, so let's settle it, right?"

"Did my predecessor do something sorry for me?"

"yes, you should be able to realize it, why, I still like that guy, I try so hard to support you and help you. ”

She blinked subconsciously.

"Actually, it's still for selfishness!" Sugiura Koharu closed his eyes, turned his head, and whispered, "Because of my own anxiety, I had to stay away from that guy, if I still want to work hard, if I want to fight, then I can only use you who can still get close to him, right?" So, I just regarded you as a bargaining chip for me to compete with Yukina Kogi, I didn't really care about your feelings, at that time, I was just thinking about how to use you to defeat that person. This kind of me is actually much worse than you who betrayed me for irresistible reasons, isn't it?"

At the end, Koharu's voice became trembling, it was the first time she had made such a voice today—even at the beginning, when announcing the outcome of the final judgment to herself, her voice had not changed.

"Even if I went to find Kazuya for you today, part of the reason was for my bad reason, so, seeing me like this, do you still need it, do you feel guilty for betraying me like this?"

"Of course!" replied, however, without hesitation.

She hadn't thought there would be such a reason—but what about such a reason?

"Hey, I'm using you!"

"However, if it's me, it doesn't matter if it's used by seniors. She said resolutely.

"Don't say that so lightly, do you really know what I mean?"

"I know, my predecessors want to eliminate my guilt - but is it really okay to use this way to eliminate my guilt, to discredit myself in this way, to belittle myself in this way?"

"I'm telling the truth!"

"But it's not exactly the truth, is it?"

Koharu was stunned.

"Yes," she smiled softly, "I know, the senior is telling the truth, but it's not exactly the truth, is it? Because, Sugiura-senpai is a very gentle person, very gentle, so even if you do those things, you won't be completely willing, but will, feel guilty, right?"

She suddenly felt that she had never known Sugiura Koharu better than she did now.

"Now, Haiwei," she heard her favorite senior say, "shall I say that you are too stupid, or that you are too smart?"

"No matter how Sugiura-senpai understands it, it's the best. ”

"I still like that guy Kazuya Yuhihama, really, I'm not happy to admit it, but it's honest. ”

"Well, I also like Yubihama's senpai, really, I'm ashamed, but it's the truth. ”

"So, I might think of you as a rival right now, and I might hate you. ”

"But I'm different," she whispered, "I don't hate Senpai, because I like Sugiura-seni the most, just as much as I like Yubihama-sen." ”

"Okay, then Haiwei is really stupid!" Koharu closed his eyes and muttered.

"Na, senior, Sugiura-senpai. She said slowly, "Yesterday, the disc I gave to my seniors, did my seniors listen to that song?"

"I've heard it, it's a good song!"

"I think that if I listen to it again now, my predecessors may have new feelings. ”

"If you can't find it for a while, I actually have an extra recording here, although the sound quality is not so good, but if the seniors are willing-" She took out her phone, plugged in the headphone cable, and then handed the headphones to Koharu.

Sugiura Koharu hesitated, but put on the headphones anyway.

It's a song called "Twinkle Snow," which tells the story of a girl who is unconsciously aware of her favorite tune.

Perhaps, for that child, this is also a kind of love, right?

暗くなるまで話しこんでいたね

『When night fell, we talked and got fascinated』

降りだしそうな冬空の下で

『Under this winter night sky that looks like it's about to snow』

いつのころだろ?別れ際にいつも

When does it start?

もう少し一緒にいたいと

『In order to be together more』

強く思った気持ちの本当の意味を

I began to understand the true meaning of this strong heart.

そっと今夜見つけた恋をする気持ちに

『Quietly on the feeling of love I found tonight』

雪が降り積もる

『Snowflakes are piled up』

きっと明日にはまたいとおしい気持ちを

And the feeling of falling in love tomorrow

見つけられるのかな

I'll find it

Todayよりもっと輝いた私を

『I'm more dazzling than today』

あなたに見せたい

『I really want to show you』

ヒラヒラと降りだす空を見上げると

Looking up at the falling sky.

雪がやさしくキスした

『Snowflakes give me a gentle kiss』

もしもあなたに彼女が出てもね

If you have a lover of your own one day

変わらずに話を聞いてくれる?

Will you listen to me as much as you always do?"

いつか彼女を優先するんだろう

There will be a day when you will think more about your lover.

私から離れてゆくのは

『Keep going away from me』

イヤと思った気持ちの本当の意味を

I began to understand the true meaning of this reluctance.

そっと今夜見つけた恋をする気持ちに

『Quietly on the feeling of love I found tonight』

雪が降り積もる

『Snowflakes are piled up』

きっと明日にはまた泣きそうな気持ちを

And the feeling of tears in the eyes of tomorrow

見つけられるのかな

I'll find it

Todayよりもっと輝いた私をあなたに見せたい

I really want to show you something more dazzling than today.

ヒラヒラと降りだす空を見上げては

Looking up at the falling sky.

雪にやさしくキスしよう

『Snowflakes give me a gentle kiss』

いろんな気持ち見つけては

After finding many different states of mind

大人へと変えてゆくよ

『I will continue to mature』

Bud blowく季節まで雪は守るように

Just like the snow protects it until the day it sprouts.

包み込んでくれる

『This feeling also surrounds me』

輝く今見つけたたくさんの気持ちに

『Shine on the mood I found a lot this year』

雪が降り積もる

『Snowflakes are piled up』

きっと春にはまた新しいわたしが

And in the spring, I will definitely transform.

Bud blows き始めるから

Sprout a new me〗

有限公司よりもっと輝いたわたしを

『I'm more dazzling than today』

見せれますように

『I want to show you』

ヒラヒラと降りだす空を見上げては

Looking up at the falling sky.

雪に願う雪に祈る

Make a wish to the snowflake, pray to the snowflake

雪にやさしくキスしよう

『Give a gentle kiss to the snowflake』

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Actually, this ed of IC is not so suitable for the ed here, but I think the artistic conception of just looking at the lyrics is still about the same, so let's make do with it first, right?

Actually, whether it's Koharu or Haiye, it's not the object that is expected to appear.,Koharu is okay.,I basically thought of Koharu's setting when I wrote the sixth chapter.,After that, the second volume can be regarded as giving a relatively complete plot.。 Hai Ye is really unintentional.,I wanted to write a more serious student vice president.,I wrote Hai Ye by hand.,And then I wrote that I felt I could add more plots.,So it's like this.,So many people probably still think that Hai Ye's plot is more inconsistent.,I actually have this feeling occasionally.,But in the end, it's best to be able to come back.。

What line did this chapter take at the end?,You can think about it casually.,Anyway, I reacted to it.,Hai Ye can be regarded as a confession.,Koharu is ambiguous.,I think this pair is not going to be a lily to see everyone's brain supplement-ah, by the way, I'm a lily brain.,Just treat it as two lilies (laughs),Actually, it's pretty good.。