Chapter 38.5: When the Surplus Disappears

Yukina Kogi is a bold and reserved person who is easy to satisfy and very greedy. The opposite traits are perfectly combined in her.

Because of her boldness, she can express her heart in a public occasion such as a cultural festival, and because of her reserve, she chooses not to make any further actions and statements after that. Because she is easy to satisfy, she can fall in love with a person just because he knows the true side of her heart, and because of greed, she can stop and wait for the other person to take the initiative when she can take the initiative to reach out and fulfill her wish.

This is actually a headache character.,If someone really understands her character.,Kogi Yukina's image as an idol and goddess in the school will completely collapse.,Because,This is actually a character that many people don't like very much-willful.。 Maybe as his younger brother Xiaohong once complained: Sister, you just rely on your capital to act recklessly!

But what's wrong with being reckless? Regardless of the cost, this is of course an excellent quality, but this is not the reality of Yukina Kogi, why should she force herself to do it?

What's more, she is actually a person who is very willing to pay for others, especially for the people she likes - but, on the other hand, she also wants to see the other party's contribution to herself.

If you don't hide it from me, I don't have any secrets from you.

Therefore, in the face of the boy's entanglement for nearly two months, although it was painful, although she had to make a move against her will, she still only watched cautiously and did not take the initiative to attack again.

Although she doesn't ask for much - as long as Kazuya takes the initiative to prove what she likes to prove, what she actively gives up, or what she actively strives for, she is satisfied.

And, isn't she creating opportunities for him?

It's not that she doesn't know the rumors between herself and Kitahara Haruki, it's not that she doesn't see Kitahara Haruki, who she doesn't like, talk to herself as usual, but she doesn't shy away from Kitahara - in fact, as long as Kazuya is clearly jealous of Kitahara for herself, although it is emotional, and she says something like "Please don't get close to Kogi Sao's senior" to Kitahara very childishly, she is satisfied - but, he didn't do it!

It's not that she doesn't know the Christmas plan about her that has been spread throughout the school, although she didn't deliberately release it herself, but she did let the rumors spread, and she even took the initiative to hint at Kazuya, asking him if he knew about it - so, as long as he gave up the Christmas club activities as a responsibility and wanted to go to Europe with him, and even as long as he expressed this will, she was satisfied, and she didn't need Kazuya to put this into action- However, after that obvious hesitation, he was pulled back by Yukino under the snow.

Of course, she didn't get too angry, because she knew Kazuya too well, and because she understood, she knew how difficult it was to get that guy to do something a little reckless, and she would continue to give him a chance - this was her very patient side, and she also believed that Yubihama Kazuya would eventually understand.

- If it weren't for Yui Yukihama.

In the face of Yui's declaration of war, she didn't panic too much at first, she also knew Kazuya's sister, and from the usual communication with Kazuya, she knew that Yui Yui Yui Yui was a gentle person to a little too much - in fact, she didn't have her gentleness. Because of her gentleness, at the moment when she declares war in a dignified manner, Yui will never act to hinder her thoughts, and she will only work hard in her own way, not interfering with Yukina Kogi. Therefore, Yui will not hinder and understand her own thoughts.

However, slowly, what she began to worry about was the change in Kazuya herself.

The identity of sister and brother is an obstacle and a kind of maintenance, although the relationship between sister and brother can make people unimaginable feelings in love for a long time, but, once this kind of relationship is generated, it basically means that it has been set in stone, and Yukina knows this very well. Kazuya certainly won't be able to develop this consciousness anytime soon, but what if he starts to get tired of his actions because of Yui's performance?

Xiaohong is actually right, her willfulness is based on her own capital - because she believes that she is definitely the winner, so she expects a more perfect and grander victory, but looking forward to such a victory will sometimes let the final result slip away from her fingertips.

She slowly began to suffer from gains and losses—what if the rumors between herself and Kitahara brought Kazuya not jealousy of Kitahara, but disappointment in herself? What if the hints she had given him were deliberately hung by him when he had clearly rejected him?

In some ways, these behaviors of hers are really bad, because she is willing to take the risk of this bad behavior in the pursuit of a more perfect victory - but if she does fail, even if she can give up her previous reserve to save, is there still a chance to save?

After completing the New Year's visit with her family, she chose to run over alone to write her New Year's wishes, but she couldn't put pen to paper for a long time - she didn't know whether she should be more cautious or greedy in the New Year.

She saw Yui Yui Hihama in this situation.

She suddenly felt a little envious of Yui. This is a girl who is truly fearless and fighting for her own desires, and does not care too much and desire too much like herself.

Actually, she used to be like this - at least, standing on that stage, when she sang "Dance い Fall ちる雪のように" wholeheartedly, she was also like this, but, after that, she encountered all kinds of unexpected situations, and her mentality changed!

Actually, after that, the distance between her and Kazuya was shortened, but she didn't want to forcibly close this distance, she wanted to get a more perfect result, so it became the current dilemma!

She took the initiative to find Yui, but she didn't know what to say, and pretended to be normal and made up a lie about passing the wishing test - in fact, she didn't write anything in the end, pretending to casually inquire about the Christmas event that had made her uncomfortable for days - and seemed to have a lot of money.

The acting skills that are usually exercised in front of others are once again presented like fire and innocence - in fact, they are all lying, and they are all pretending to be calm.

For a moment, she even suddenly felt that if she could give up, it wasn't impossible - after all, Yui Yui Yuira was really a girl who was too kind.

However, Yukina Koki is still greedy.

"What's on the agenda after the year?" she asked, continuing cautiously.

She knew, and she knew that Yui knew, that she was taking the opportunity to find out about Kazuya's actions.

"I'm going to be on a hot spring trip in two weeks! Yui Yui Hibihama replied calmly, as if she was telling herself that she was really telling herself about her efforts, and even, Yukina had a feeling that Yui was dissatisfied with her own inability to move forward - this was telling Yukina in her own way: senior, you should work harder.

Yukina thinks she can work harder, for example, she wants to give Kazuya another hint that about Fuyuma's concert in two weeks, she knows Kazuya knows Fuyuma, and maybe the relationship is even better than she knows. If she told Kazuya that she and Kitahara were going to a Winter Horse concert together, she thought Kazuya would react.

But, two weeks later, she was stunned.

"When is the hot spring trip, sorry I didn't hear it clearly!"

"Eh, is there too many people? Two weeks from now, the weekend!"

"Oh, I see. ”

Her face was slightly pale, so if she told Kazuya about this, was she forcing him to do a two-choice question again?

I've already done this kind of multiple-choice question once before at Christmas, and if I do it again, won't Kazuya feel like I'm persecuting the other person? Or, just like the worst possibility I just thought of, mentioning Kitahara again will not bring resentment to the other party, but anger at my own overly frivolous behavior?

Yukina suddenly discovers that all her actions are wrong when she feels that she has no room left.

So, what gave her such a strong sense of self-confidence in the first place? Kazuya rejected herself because that guy was sometimes a fool who couldn't turn his brain around, but why did he refuse Kazuya? Why did he indulge in that unrealistic desire for a perfect ending at that time?

"Uh, so, what's going on in two weeks, Senpai?" she heard Yui ask in a whisper.

"No, nothing, nothing. She shook her head in a panic, "Nothing will happen, I'm just a little envious of you going to Nagano together, my family has to prepare for exams this year and can't go out together." ”

"Actually, we only had a chance this year, last year and the year before that, either me, or Xiaohe had to prepare for the exam, and I had to take the exam tomorrow, so it's still rare!" Yui scratched her head and said with an embarrassed smile.

"Then you should cherish this opportunity!" replied softly, pursing her lips.

She didn't really care about what happened to Yui next, because she was making a new determination - Yukina Kogi, and she couldn't continue to take risks calmly.

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Hey, I think everyone will know what I'm going to do in my style as soon as I write this (laughs)