Chapter Ninety-Five: Longing to Be Killed
"There is no miracle happening, I finally killed my kitten with my own hands, I had no sadness and pain at that time, my despair was exhausted, I was not attached to life, I was not afraid of death, after I killed my kitten, the demon came to me, smiled and asked me, you must be in pain, right?
"He's a winner, he knows how I feel, he knows what I'm going to do, he's tormenting me beyond recognition, I'm young, but if I can live, I know how I'm going to go in this life, the seeds of revenge are planted deep in my heart, and there's nothing more important for me to do than to kill this demon. β
"In the face of such a confused hopeless prospect, how should I deal with myself, I don't know, I just want to go all the way, just one direction, if I go wrong, I will go wrong, where I go, I only know that I must kill him, not only kill him, I want to make him feel the worst pain in the world!"
"Of course he saw what I was thinking, I had no secrets in front of him, not only did he not get angry, he also nodded, as if encouraging me to hold on to my hopes, and said with a smile, you want to kill me, you want to make me feel pain, you can't do it now, you have to grow, you have to become stronger than me, you have to hope to kill me, you understand?"
Xi Ming stopped crying, speaking of this, she knew that she shouldn't cry, what a cowardly performance crying is, what a manifestation of incompetence crying, how can she let that demon let her enemies succeed again?!
Di Fan hugged Xi Ming tightly in his arms, stroking her shoulder, his gaze also became resolute, that is a madman, looking for twisted pleasure, he knows that he is strong, but he still believes that he has the hope to meet him for a while, aren't you crazy? Di Fan thinks, if he can, he will also be crazy, and deal with you in a way that is a hundred times crazier than you!
Di Fan didn't say anything, he hugged hard to make it clear what he thought, no matter how much he said, it was in vain.
"He's like a mountain, and I'm just a little worm, he thinks I'm completely under his control, and that's true, he's confident, that's why he dares to laugh conceitedly, he wants to make my revenge more fervent, and even, he gives me hope, he says, people can come back to life after death, of course that kitten of yours can, I think you must want to kill me and trample on my dignity, and you also want to resurrect that kitten of yours, right? Don't be discouraged, things always turn around, if you can be as strong as me, you don't have to beg me, you can resurrect your kitten yourself, if you are stronger than me, you can ravage me, you can hurt me, like I hurt you, come on, always have hope and believe that you can do it. β
"He told me that his name was Zhong Wusheng, and the cultivators called him the Hunter, and he encouraged me to kill him, that kind of look was like Dugu seeking defeat, confident and lonely, and with a strong desire, he actually longed for me to torture him and kill him, I remembered this name, like a nightmare, Zhong Wusheng, the hunter, I remembered, as he longed, I hoped that I could resurrect my flesh and blood, and I could kill him! Even, in order to let me grow up quickly, he gave me endless resources, cultivation secrets, the best treasures in the eyes of cultivators, and he threw them at will, he said very seriously, if you want to kill me, you can't do it without hard work, you can't do it without hardship, you have to put all your life's energy on killing him, only in this way can there be hope. β
"That's a powerful person, from the inside out, a person who has achieved perfection, what you hope for, what you suffer, is related to him, you can't cut off the relationship with him, he is the shadow of your life. β
"I can't accept his handouts, no matter how valuable those things are, he's just a man I'll kill to the death, that's all! I'd rather suffer all the time than accept any of his handouts!"
Of course, Deva can understand that feeling, even if the other party forcibly involves you and him in a hateful relationship, you can no longer have any feelings of hatred towards him, yes, you can't even have feelings of hatred, the more you hate him, the more proud he will be, the more you want to kill him, the more he will have a sense of accomplishment, you can only be so strong that you ignore him, he can be helpless against you.
"It was at that time that I met my master, your mother, she is very powerful, without her, I can only live in the shadow of Zhong Wusheng all day long, and it will never be possible to get out. β
Di Fan sat up, and Xi Ming spoke of her mother, one of the closest people, to her, to him.
"Master, she and Zhong Wusheng have a huge hatred, in an extremely cold place called the North Underworld Snow Land, there is a sect of the dead, where the dead get exceeded, and the living also die there, that is the real place of death, the master she got a creation there, and Zhong Wusheng shamelessly took advantage of the master's serious injury, sneak attacked her, robbed the master of the opportunity, and your father, my master, took the master to find Zhong Wusheng's mountain gate to collect debts, they fought a big battle, and finally Zhong Wusheng was defeated by the joint power of the master and the master, and could only escape in a hurry, and it was at this time that I had the opportunity to meet the master and the masterγ β
When Xi Ming said this, her mood recovered, and she showed a warm smile again, smiling like a flower, her eyes were shining, as if she was recalling the best of the past: "The master also has the magic power to see through people's souls and encounters, she knew the story about me, came over to me and asked, if you want, I can be your master, don't force you, the real kind of master." β
"When the master asked me like this, can you imagine my resistance, I have become disbelieving, I don't believe that anyone really cares about me, I thought that your mother was another vicious practitioner who took pleasure in insulting me, I looked at the master indifferently, did not speak, the master she didn't have much, she took me to a prison, this prison, this prison is the prison where I killed the flesh with my own hands, when I came here, I thought of her, I thought to myself, what is this for, humiliating me, let me recall that most painful moment againοΌβ
I looked at the master hatefully, thinking that she was torturing me in a different way like Zhong Wusheng, but the master touched my head gently, telling me not to misunderstand her, and then she stretched out her hand and slid it in the space, and the things in the prison changed, the old things were becoming new, and the disappeared things were appearing, and my eyes widened, I often came here to visit the flesh, and I was very familiar with the things here, which was obviously ...... A little bit of something to get back to the old days is, to be exact, a step back in time. β
"I don't know why, I became a little expectant, time is going back a little bit, day by day, I saw me appear in the space, the heartbroken me, the one who just killed the flesh, my movements are slowly backtracking, and then, the dead flesh appeared, at this time, I saw that beads of sweat had appeared on the master's face, she gritted her teeth, and waved her arms in the space hard, she looked at me, laughed, and said, your flesh is back, and then I saw the picture before the flesh died, my brain was a little deprived of oxygen, I couldn't believe everything that appeared in front of meγ β
The master fished the meat out of the space, touched her, her injuries all over her body were restored, the master's hand waved again, and the space returned to its current state, and the meat really appeared in the master's hand, she handed the meat to me, I hurriedly took it, it was her, my meat, the meat, the hairy meat, the meat drilled into my arms, I felt that everything was so unreal, I looked at the master in disbelief, never like now, expecting a stranger to say something. β
The master wiped the beads of sweat from her forehead, and said a little tiredly, your flesh is back, and you have to come back too, back to that happy and happy appearance, understand?"
I nodded heavily, smiled at her for the first time, and I said, I want you to be my master, and she touched my head with her hands that saved the flesh, and nodded, and after that, I followed the master. I realized that the master had never accepted disciples before, maybe he saw what happened to me and felt compassion, right? I am very happy, to be able to be by the master's side, and to have flesh and meat to accompany me, is the happiest thing for me. β
"The master took me to the Jingxia Palace, the cyan and red glow filled the entire mountain, that is where she lived, oh yes Xiaofan, I forgot to tell you, at that time, the master and the master were not together, they just had that kind of thought, so I am a witness to their feelings. β
After Xi Ming told the story after the apprenticeship, she was obviously lively, and her tone was full of fresh breath.
"That ......" Di Fan was embarrassed and didn't know how to speak, he was very curious about his parents, about the story before he was born, of course he also wanted to know, but he didn't know why, the emotional story of his parents, as a child, was difficult to ask, Di Fan was still too shy.
"Huh, you're asking me to tell them about them, right?"
"Uh......" Di Fan scratched his head, the two of them were heart-to-heart, sure enough, there was no secret at all, what Di Fan wanted, the other party knew.
"It's okay for you to tell anything, I like to listen to it, sister, your story is not finished yet. "Difan Dao.
"I'll tell you everything, I know everything, I can't say anything!" Xi Ming squinted her glasses, smiled sweetly, took Difan's little hand, and swayed it casually, while telling about those precious past events.