Sonoda left on her own initiative, I didn't keep her, and I didn't stand to keep her. I know that if I show any wavering on my part at this time, it will give the other person a false hope.

And I don't want that desire to continue.

This is a good girl, but it is only because of my conceit, my rashness, and perhaps a momentary weakness that the situation has become irreversible.

Even if I still want to be a little weaker now, only at this time I don't have any other path.

It turns out that when people become weak and want to find a place to cling to but have nowhere to find it, can it become so painful?

I think I understand a little bit of the idea that it is natural to rely on people under the snow – it's just the most reassuring choice to make when you fail the most.

It's just that I can only use my last sanity to give up the last hotbed now.

At the same time, I knew that it wasn't going to end like this – so I wasn't surprised when Koharu Sugiura appeared in front of me.

"It's also very troublesome to be too responsible as a senior, so why do you need to do your best to this extent for a junior?"

Still playing the role of the villain, I looked at Koharu standing in front of me with a calm expression and made a mocking smile with all my might.

"You want to say that that child, in your heart, is at best to the extent of 'a junior'?"

"To correct me, 'a junior' is the word I use to describe the relationship between Sonoda and you, and my relationship with her is not appropriate to judge by 'the relationship between seniors and juniors'. ”

"So what kind of relationship is the best way to compare it? ex-couples who don't have an actual relationship, partners who stand together for a common goal, or is she just a burden to you that you can get rid of when you're done with it?"

Can't bear the worst self-blame, and the only thing to do in the end is to confess, whether the final purpose is to ask for forgiveness from the other party, or just to alleviate the guilt in your heart. And, looking at Koharu's appearance, she obviously forgave Sonoda - or rather, maybe we weren't able to fool her so well in the first place.

"Well, that's probably the last option, right?" Still, that doesn't change my decision to continue playing the role of the villain here.

"Do you think I'll believe it?"

"Believe it or not—and don't you think there's no point in acting as a messenger of justice trying to fight for your juniors? You're only a year older than Sonoda, and not much more mature than her, don't be bound by this so-called senior's responsibility. I wrapped my hands around the back of my head and turned my head away, seemingly unthinking.

It's really tiring to do that, so if you can realize it, let's stop there, okay?

However, for Koharu. This may not be enough.

"I heard that before, you rejected Xiao Mu Yu's predecessor for the sake of that child. ”

"That was probably one of the worst decisions I've ever made. In the current situation, this statement is not a lie - if you had chosen to betray at that time, the outcome might have been completely different.

"But, you still did that," Koharu raised her eyebrows and raised her voice, "You did that at that time, it means that you paid enough price, that means, that child still has enough weight in your heart." ”

"But, I'm going to reject Kogi Sao's predecessor for some inexplicable reason-since I'm already so bad, then it's okay to reject Sonoda for inexplicable reasons, right? What's more, because of inexplicable reasons, I didn't return-"

I still hadn't finished the last sentence, but, judging by Koharu's iron-blue face, she knew what I was going to say.

- I was so bad that I rejected you for some inexplicable reason, didn't I?

"Now, Kazuya—" However, after a few seconds of silence, she spoke.

I never felt like I was any worse at playing the role of the villain. Can you value your juniors to this extent?

"Now, Kazuya, don't you think that kid is a little like me?"

"You mean you brought out a good junior?"

"Don't pretend, I know you know what I mean," Koharu shook his head with a light smile, "It's very similar, isn't it? Like me, you were very annoying to you at the beginning, who was arrogant and didn't seem to have done anything good, and only embarrassed other people." Like me, they are very conceited, thinking that they can control you, and approach you. Like me, I think you're actually a good guy when he's serious. Like me, I am very dissatisfied with everything you have done. Like me, I feel complacent when I can help you at the end. Isn't the final ending the same?"

"Then I really want to congratulate you two on these commonalities—"

"—I said, how long are you going to last like this?" However, Sugiura Koharu interrupted me a little abruptly, "You should know, your current performance is really too clumsy. ”

"Why?"

"Because, I'm the one you've rejected the most, haven't I?"

Looking at the girl who said this indifferently, I didn't know how to respond. Perhaps, I never realized it, but maybe this is the person I hurt the most.

However, the girl just continued to say calmly: "However, if you want to continue performing, I can cooperate with you - as long as you don't feel tired yourself." ”

"Even if you say that—"

"—but before that, let me finish the rest, okay?"

Koharu had completely mastered the rhythm of the conversation, and I could only nod silently.

"And that's right, although I care about that child very much, although I like her very much, I also want to help her. However, I was not able to give to the extent that I was able to fully dedicate myself to helping her as much as I could, because she was like me, right?"

Because it's too similar, I can see her feelings from the beginning, so I want to add my failed feelings to her. At that time, on the night I saw the two of you together for the first time, I even had an illusion, if Hai Wei was with you, it would mean that she won Xiao Mu Shu's senior, does that mean that I won Xiao Mu Shu's senior?"

"-Actually, we won once, right? Even the time Kazuya rejected Kogi Sao's predecessor for her, no matter what reason Kazuya told me, I would assume that we had won. Isn't it normal to have that once, so expect more?"

"However, this is not right, my self-righteous support, my self-righteous help, is completely out of my selfish considerations, it should be said, it is purely because of my unwillingness. I'm really bad, I've already announced that I've given up Kazuya. Because they announced that they would give up, they didn't dare to compete honestly, so they could only use this way, and it was not right to do so. It wasn't until just now that I finally realized this. ”

"I didn't take into account that child's mind, I didn't take into account that everything that child did was originally for me, I didn't really understand the pain and contradiction in that child's heart, I just felt that that child could represent me and win this battle, it would be fine. I thought, even if I did win, I might be jealous of that kid after a brief victory, after all, I just used her as my double and my replica. At that time, the price I will pay may be even greater than it is now. ”

"So, even though I just performed badly, it's really nice to be able to let me know your determination, Kazuya!"

After a long monologue in one breath, Sugiura Koharu smiled a brightly enough to be a little excessive.

I nodded dumbly, understanding every word of Koharu and understanding all her feelings, but I didn't know how to respond.

However, Koharu gave me a chance to respond.

"So, now that you know what you think, and now that you know that you are still unwilling to give up at the beginning, if you can, Kazuya, can I ask you another question?"

I already know what she's going to do.

"Now, if it's now, if it's the present that has broken with Xiao Mu Yu's predecessors, can you choose me, Kazuya?"

Resolutely, the courageous gaze stabbed my face a little painfully.

This time, it's different from the last time, last time, it was her own goodbye, this time, I need to give her an answer.

"I'm sorry, I think it's at this time that I can't accept your feelings even more, and I want to find someone to rely on, which is different from love. ”

"Yes, I know, I understand, I know and will do what I will do—but when it comes to taking advantage of others, it's my last chance, and I've done my good enough, right?"

"Well, it made me hesitate, Koharu. ”

"But, if you just hesitate, there's no way to do it!" she closed her eyes and turned away, "Actually, there's one more thing—"

"Before I came to see you, Hai Wei asked me to bring you this. ”

I looked at the disc in my hand and was in a daze for a moment.

"It's a good song, if you can take it. ”

"Hmm. I clenched the disc in my hand.

"So, that's the end of it, I think, Kazuya, this time, it should be the last, right?"

Without waiting for my answer, she just turned away.

This time, it should all be over.

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That,The next chapter is Xiaochun and Haiye's girls side.,This time it should be the last time.,After that, I won't whip Xiaochun.,Xiaochun's party let me goQAQ;By the way, you can guess a little bit which song is the ed of these two.,Well,I'll rule out the answer for everyone first.