Kazuya Hihama's high school stage summary - No. 5

If there's anything in this world that's hard to deconstruct, or something that's hard to deconstruct, I think, it's feelings. Whether it is the affection between family members, or the love between men and women, it is something that cannot be deconstructed.

Because, deconstructing the generation of feelings, this is a terrible thing, after completing this sense of deconstruction, when a person wants to have feelings again, he will inevitably recognize the truth of emotions and feel disgusted with himself.

For example, if we have to deconstruct the affection between family members, then we can only understand family affection as everyone preparing for their future life in advance - the so-called "raising children to prevent old age" and the like. However, if you see through this, family affection is still incomprehensible, because "raising children to prevent old age" does not depend on your emotional indoctrination of your own children, the most effective way is the provisions of the law, violence is the real means to ensure your future life - if you realize this, understand that as long as there is a law, there will be no future crisis of your own, then family affection becomes a pure meaningless lie. And the vast majority of the great families of the world, carry out this lie. Even further, they regard this self-satisfied lie as a better value, and give up many of their more precious things because of this lie before they can gain their own long-term benefits. It's greatness, but it's also stupidity.

For example, the love between men and women, if the final deconstruction is to be carried out, the union between men and women is only for the purpose of reproduction, that is to say, to maintain the survival of the human race, that is to say, as long as the healthy birth and growth of the offspring can be guaranteed, other relationships between men and women are fragile, and love is just a momentary impulse in the pure sense. And because of our previous conclusion that the existence of kinship that sustains the existence of the family is also fragile, then we can conclude that it is terrible, because love will sooner or later disappear after reproduction, and family affection is only a kind of self-deception, so why is there any need for the existence of the family?

Therefore, deconstructing feelings to the end means the collapse of the ethical system that supports the entire human society - the ethical system, which is not a product of reason in itself. The supreme rationalist does not consider ethics, does not consider the so-called value judgment criteria, and the logic of rationalism is deduced to the extreme, which is anti-ethical.

Therefore, feelings are the most terrible thing for rationalists, and they are also the things that do not know how to deal with them. The feelings are deconstructed and the meaninglessness of feelings is discovered, but others worship the judgment of values based on feelings as the truth, and what is even more terrifying is that even the rationalists themselves cannot get rid of the troubles of feelings many times.

There are only two choices, one is to give up the deconstruction of feelings and carry out self-numbing, and the other is to let yourself believe in the meaninglessness of feelings, so as to reject feelings. That's right, accepting feelings is self-numbing, and rejecting feelings is facing reality. In the end, we will come to a conclusion that is inconsistent with our usual notions and their incompatibility.

If I call myself a rationalist, what should my attitude towards feelings be? I think I should struggle between self-numbness and rejection of feelings. Self-numbing is not a bad thing, and even if you deconstruct the true meaning of feelings, you can better self-numb yourself, for example, I can calmly accept the care of my family, accept the encouragement of my sister, help Sister Yui for no reason, and even, I can do better than those who have not deconstructed feelings - because, I never think about the question of whether it is worth it or not, if I want to say that it is not worth it, any help is not worth it, so as long as I start to help, then I have to do my best.

But what about the emotional relationship between men and women? The big framework of the family is something I can't choose, so I can be numb to choose to give, however, an emotional relationship depends entirely on when you accept it or not. If I could, I wouldn't want to be immersed in this false feeling, and that's the final answer.

This is the cruelest proposition that reason brings to man—cruelty in the sense of the word.

In fact, if absolute rationality can be achieved, then rejection will not bring any psychological fluctuations to people - but, after all, people are animals, after all, they cannot absolutely reject the existence of feelings.

Rejection of feelings is pain, and when it is painful, only by licking the wounds with another rational person can we persevere together.

This is unfortunate and lucky.

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That,Anyone who sees this should know how to face this kind of chapter.,When there's no update or anything today.,I'm just trying to solve the fifth volume before I go home.。。。