In the Hall of the Dragon Eagle, a group of cultivators surrounded Emperor Fan in the middle, and they did not dare to make any moves, so they could only quietly wait for the opportunity for the dragon to leave Emperor Fan.

And Difan, he really quieted down, there is only one voice in his world now, and this voice is not him, it is Xi Ming.

"I was naughty when I was a kid, but I was ...... Not many people were naughty with me. Everyone in the family has their own things to be busy with, even the children are very conscious of cultivating, even when those little friends want to relax, they also have their own small group, but I am the one who is isolated, because I don't put my mind on cultivation, I am not as good as them, I am ridiculed, alienated, I am very naughty, but most of the time, I play with myself......"

In Di Fan's mind, the image of Xi Ming appeared in it, she pouted slightly, but there was no sadness, on the contrary, when she said this, her mood was so relaxed, as if the emotions that had been suppressed for countless years were finally released at this moment.

"......" Di Fan thought about how boring it was to play games with himself, he could imagine, but what else could he do, you are a playful person, when no one plays with you, you can only.

"I'll do rock-paper-scissors with my left and right hands, it's very simple, just pretend it's two people playing, but it's okay, the fun is that you don't understand yourself, so you don't know if the left hand wins the right hand, or the right hand wins the left hand. ”

"I can't even figure out myself...... Can this also be called a kind of fun?" Di Fan thought so, but of course he didn't ask like this, how hurtful, Xi Ming didn't tell these things is not clear, now Xi Ming took the initiative to tell the lonely feeling of playing games with himself, Di Fan suddenly felt a little empathetic, how embarrassed to talk again, at this time, everything seemed to be mocking.

However, it is meaningless for Di Fan to say it or not, as long as he has this idea in his mind, Xi Ming can sense it.

"Through this game, I also realized for the first time that it is difficult to understand others, and it is even more difficult to understand yourself. ”

"It's hard to understand others, and it's even harder to understand yourself......" Difan thought about this sentence carefully, feeling that it was difficult to understand.

"In fact, although I am very lonely, I am still very happy, loneliness has the fun of loneliness in it, no one will laugh at the boring of your game, you will not make trouble with others, you don't have to quarrel with others, a person's world, a person is the feeling of a world, is the closest to understanding your own feeling, of course, there will be opportunities to play with other friends, but I will feel bored, the more people, the more lonely, because when you, you know what you are thinking, but when you are with others, you never know what other people's inner world is, you are eager to understand others, but you are afraid that other people's world is not so exciting, afraid that there is no you in other people's worlds, meaningless communication is simply more painful than death. ”

"Later, when I grew up, when I was a teenager, I ran to live alone by a river, where there were all kinds of flowers all over the ground, they were all alive, but you need to feel it with your heart, and there was a wild cat that also ran there, maybe it also felt lonely, I got along with it very well, it was very cute, we became neighbors, it was meaty, I called it meaty, it would wake up every day and climb on top of me, it would hold flowers in its mouth to please me, I would also cook all kinds of delicious meals for it, eat with it, and at night, it would sleep on my chest and touch my body, not honest at all, I will scold it for being a little rascal, in fact, it is a female cat haha!"

Devan also laughed, living with a cute kitten, it will pester you, it will be coquettish to you, it will pout at you when it is unhappy, it will hug you, it will regard you as the center of life, your life will have meaning at that moment, and you will never feel lonely again.

"Flesh is my pleasure, wherever I go, I will take it with me, hold it in my arms, it will meow very comfortably, will jump up and kiss my cheek, often at this time I will be very disgusted to wipe the place where it has kissed, pouting at it, it will also snort its little tiger teeth, grimace at me, a proud look. ”

"I will lose myself in other people's world, I just live in my own world, enjoy myself, but unfortunately this kind of life does not last long, a powerful cultivator rushed here, he saw me, at first let me be his disciple, ha, at that time I was not interested in cultivation or anything, those things were too boring, unattractive to me, so, I bluntly rejected him, I also wondered, he is such a powerful existence, why should I, a little girl who has no one to play games with, follow him to cultivate。 ”

When he heard what I said, he suddenly became furious, and the clouds in the sky retreated, and the storm came suddenly, and at that moment, the heavens and the earth became extremely dark, and he was showing his strength, and my body couldn't help but fly to his side, and I felt unprecedented pressure, as if I would be dismembered by that powerful force in an instant, I was so scared, I wanted to struggle and resist, but I couldn't even move, at that moment, I felt something called helplessness. ”

He glared at me, his face was hideous, as if he was going to eat me, that kind of face, it was a nightmare for me, I asked him tremblingly, why did you choose me to be his disciple, I have no talent for cultivation at all, he laughed wildly, looked at me with very contemptuous eyes, and said word by word, I let you be my disciple because I want you to be my disciple, no reason, no reason, it has nothing to do with your talent, even if you are a fool, if I take a fancy to you, you have to become my disciple。 ”

"I've never heard such unreasonable rhetoric, just because he thinks that he wants others to do what he wants, and I said to him, you have the right to choose disciples, and I also have the right to choose masters, but I don't want to find any masters now, I don't agree, you can't force me to be your disciple, I don't follow your ideas to learn the Tao, so what's the use of you wanting me as a disciple? You can't buy and sell your disciples like buying and selling slaves, right?"

Xi Ming told the story, and Di Fan could feel that Xi Ming was angry back then, but at this time, he told these past stories plainly.

He shook his head and said, you have a sentence that is not right, I can choose you to be my disciple, but you have no right to refuse, in my place, you have no capital to refuse, my mind is imposed on you, and you can't resist, if I want, I can buy and sell my disciple like a slave, in my opinion, my disciple is my slave, I will not let them have their own thoughts, my mind, is their mind。 ”

He said, "Those who resist me, don't say they want to live, they don't even have the qualifications to die. ”

Speaking of this, even Di Fan couldn't contain his anger, but Xi Ming smiled at this time and said to Di Fan: "Xiao Fan, do you know that at that moment, I was the most frightened when I was so big. ”

Di Fan was silent, and it was natural that Xi Ming should be afraid at that time, and in front of such a powerful cultivator, fear was the first reaction of every weak person.

Di Fan asked himself, if it were him, what kind of performance would he have when facing a powerful enemy that he could not defeat and could act arbitrarily? Is it fear? Is it bravery? Is it a desperate fight, is it obeying fate?

Deva shook his head, and he realized that no matter what he thought, there could be no real answer.

Things don't happen to you, and there will never be so-called empathy.

But Devan still tried to convince Xi Ming, even though his words seemed ...... Very cumbersome: "In the face of the oppression of life and the threat of death, most people will definitely feel fear, not to mention that sister, you were just a child at the time." ”

"Ha!" As soon as Di Fan finished speaking, Xi Ming couldn't help laughing, and his voice was very pleasant: "I heard your heart, no, it's not me who I'm afraid of, if it's just me, what I choose is not fear, but bravery, although I was young at that time, I wasn't afraid of death." ”

Xi Ming's words greatly surprised Di Fan's expectations.

"It's because of the flesh, the strong man saw my mind, I don't care about my life and death, but I care about this naughty kitten in my arms, he said, you are not afraid of death, I admire it, but you are afraid of your kitten death, right? ”

"He hit me in a word, like a sharp sword in my chest, yes, I was afraid, not because I was threatened, what I feared was that the flesh could no longer lie on my body after getting up every morning like before, scratching me and licking me in my arms, and at that moment, no matter how strong my heart was, I was also the weakest and helplessest person. ”

"This is the first time I realized that my life has unconsciously taken on meaning, I have what I miss, what I cherish, even though she is a kitten, but for me, there is nothing more important than her, without me, the flesh will be sad, if there is no flesh, I will be sad, this mutual emotion, for me, is very precious. ”

Xi Ming stopped laughing: "So, I said to that strong man, I can be your disciple, you can treat me like a slave, you can impose your will on me, you can let me do anything, as long as I don't hurt my kitten." ”

That is true......

Di Fan was silent for a long time, he couldn't find anything to comfort the other party, so he could only act as a listener at this moment.

"But," Xi Ming sneered again, with self-deprecation, "Do you know how that strong man replied to me?"

He said in the coldest language, since you have decided to be my disciple and obey me to do anything, then the first thing I will let you do is to kill this kitten. ”