In 1987, in the Xilin Gol League of Inner Mongolia, a team of scientific expedition teams was lost in the vast grassland, it was the middle of winter, the snowstorm had fallen for three days, and the scientific expedition team had frozen to death a team member, and the fear of death was still shrouded in this unfortunate scientific expedition team. Pen Fun Pavilion wWw. ｂiquge。 ｉｎfo

"Hell, isn't there anyone to save us?" the captain couldn't bear it at first, and didn't want to wait in the felt tent any longer. The firewood was burned out last night, and if it goes on like this, everyone will freeze to death. One, another team member left the felt tent to find a way out in order to survive, only one female team member could not leave, she had a high fever before the snowstorm began, and now she doesn't even have the strength to get out of the felt tent, looking at the roof of the felt tent, her consciousness gradually blurred, maybe the next one is her.

The strong wind swept open the tent door, and the snowflakes blew into the felt tent with a trace of heat, blowing Yu Xiao, who was lying inside, shivering, she crawled to the door with all her might, wanting to freeze to death a moment later, but was attracted by the scene at the door. Not far from the door, there was a particularly tall man, dressed in white, who had blended in with the surrounding environment in the snowstorm, the man walked over, looked at Yu Xiao, and said happily: "You are the first person I came to this time and space, do you want me to help you?"

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Suddenly woke up from a dream, this is the first time I have dreamed of the white man in a snowstorm, I have never seen his face clearly, only that he is so tall and tall. I've never been a well-behaved girl, the rebellion in my bones makes me often play different me in front of different people, on the eve of my third year of high school, I was hooked on a game called Crossfire in order to compete with my parents, and I was in front of the computer in an Internet café with a machine gun to vent my anger at a zombie, and I was slapped hard in the back of the head.

"Zhou Yujuan, look at your appearance!" "The person who beat me was my cousin Zhou Dianchen, who was seven years older than me, and my uncle's son. Glaring at him, I didn't pay attention to it at all, the owner of the Internet café Wang Hu is my brother's hair, after scolding me, my brother squirted at Wang Hu: "Wang Hu, are you human?

It was the first time my brother hit me, and he still remembers how much it hurt in the back of his head, and led me out of the Internet café, knowing that I hadn't eaten for a day, so he took me to a food stall for barbecue.

"Tell me, what do you think?"

"Didn't you give up on yourself before the college entrance examination, why do you care about me. Then let me ask you, what did you think about that before the college entrance examination?"

As soon as he opened his mouth, I choked back.

After eating for a long time, he finally broke the silence, and his calm words, every word tugged at my heart, "If it's because of Li Liangshu, I can only say that you are too naïve." ”

The person in Zhou Dianchen's mouth is my tablemate, we agreed to review together and be admitted to a university together, but his grades are not as good as mine, he only hopes to be admitted to the most ordinary one in the province, and I am the only student in the school who has the opportunity to impact Tsinghua University. We were at the same table for two years, and at the beginning of the third year of high school, he was hospitalized, and I heard about him from the teacher after two months of high school in the third year of high school...... He's dead.

He was the only friend I had in my boring high school life, because my mother didn't allow me to make any friends, didn't allow me to do anything unrelated to my studies, didn't allow me to take any rank other than the first, anything!

I don't have any friends, and I don't need friends, at least until I met him, the only friend is Song Xiaonan, whom I met in junior high school, but even then, I don't dare to let my family know, I have no dreams, no friends, no happiness, all I can have is academic performance and bottomless questions......

I cried, crying very badly, and shouted hysterically: "You know what a fart, do you know me, do you know my thoughts! Do I just do this to my family because of other people?!I am a human being, I also have my thoughts, I want to laugh, I want to be with my friends, I am not a machine, she has set a few points to do the questions, I am not allowed to make friends, I can't talk to my classmates, always say that she will come back to accompany me after the exam this time, but when did she achieve it?!" I made a lot of noise and caused the customers around me to look at me and my brother. He dragged me away and walked downstairs to my neighborhood, where I sat on the side of the road and refused to go back with him.

He didn't use violence, he sat next to me and waited for me to calm down, "Wanwan," he rubbed my short hair, "Go back, my uncle and aunt have been worried for days." ”

I shouted at him: "Why, my only friend, I was still lecturing to him two months ago, and I was discussing with him which school to apply for and what I would do in the future, and he promised me to work hard to get into Tsinghua University, and I would die! Liars, they are all liars! No one's words have ever been realized!"

He took me into his arms, let my tears soak his clothes, and touched my head while comforting, "But this is also a helpless thing, Wanwan, you can't give up on yourself because of a person." ”

I pushed him away, "I've told you so much, don't you understand, am I just because of him?!"

He also became serious: "Then what do you want to do, you tell me, what do you want to do!"

"I want to die!" I shouted with all my might......

My brother's slap was strong, he was a soldier, if he used all his strength to deafen my ears, but I was just beaten to the ground by him, he stood up, pointed at me and shouted: "Zhou Yuxuan, you bastard! Don't you just want to say that you hate your father and your mother, why they deprive you of your childhood, why they don't give you happiness, why you always don't go home for work, why can't you come back to accompany you!

Didn't speak, didn't refute, I lay on the ground and cried, "Get up!" He dragged me up from the ground, he pinched my shoulders and said angrily: "Zhou Yuwan, you are an adult, you are not a child anymore, can you not say such childish and irresponsible words!"

"If the person who made a dream with you suddenly disappears one day, will you be sad or sad, this is an emotion that normal people will have, you can't refute it! I just express my own feelings, why does she say that I am naïve, why does she say that Li Liangshu is an irrelevant person, she is a doctoral supervisor of the Chinese Academy of Sciences, the person in charge of the scientific research group, she is great, she sacrifices her family to work hard, I don't blame her. But why didn't she allow me to make friends, not allow me to watch TV, or even let me laugh! How ridiculous, not allowed me to laugh! She turned me into an abnormal person with her own hands!"

"No matter what she says or does, she is for your own good, and I hope you are well!" my brother was still pleasing to her.

"The way she treated me may not be the way I could accept it! I have no friends, no entertainment, no happiness, is that a good outcome?"

After a long silence, my brother hugged me and rubbed my hair, "I have also been rebellious, maybe I will be just as rebellious at home all these years, but I always know that their almost abnormal behavior will one day be understood and accepted." No matter how muddy it is, I have never said that I hate my parents, even if we don't accept it, don't let the people who love us feel cold, okay?"

For me, my brother, who is seven years older than me, takes care of me like a father, indulges me in willfulness and tolerates everything from me. I spent very little time with my parents, and I grew up with this older brother, who cooked for me, sent me to school, and spoke confidantly to me, but he was just as rebellious.

My eldest uncle is an internationally renowned violinist, since he was a child, he trained his brother as a musician, he passed the tenth level of piano and violin in elementary school, is a hot music prodigy, but the more he grows up, the more he hates music, missed the music test during the college entrance examination, skipped English, applied for aircraft design and manufacturing such a major that surprised his family, in order to confront my uncle, he directly enlisted from school after only one year in college, became a soldier of the Chinese People's Liberation Army Air Force, and the life that had been planned was completely shattered by himself。

Our Zhou family's rebellion is innate, my grandparents are rural people, in order to prove that rural people can also make a difference, my uncle took the only savings and my father came out of the countryside, my father studied, my uncle worked for the art troupe of the military factory, my uncle was a late bloomer, and finally set up a symphony orchestra as the chief violinist, he hoped to use his own conditions to give my brother a life that is not hard. My father joined the army after graduating from high school, became a pilot of the Chinese People's Liberation Army, and finally made many military merits all the way to the commander of the air force of the military region.

In fact, only my brother and I know what kind of pain it is to have parents like us, and I can't tell others that this is my father, and there is no happy time for father and son together, and they have worked hard to get what they are today, in exchange for the care of our parents.

You may say that there are gains and losses, and we have families that others can't hope for, so we have to bear this, but if you are really in our position, you will really understand what repression is, and how much you will want to be free.