Impulsiveness is always followed by fear, and that's what I am now. I walked aimlessly down the street, not knowing where I was going or where to go back.

The smell of food wafted from the restaurant on the street, and my stomach was rumbling in protest, I was hungry, but I had no money. Really, I never thought I'd be bothered to eat one day. I think of my parents, their rickety backs and wrinkles at the corners of their eyes, I think of the delicious meals at home, I think of the fat man's fleshy face, and I think of the sexy thighs of the headphones.

Wait,, how can I think of Earphone Ting's thighs? Damn, this is not scientific! But what are Earphone Ting doing now? Are you also worried about me? Hehe, don't be funny. I found out that I was so fucking cheap, I couldn't eat, and I was still thinking about these useless things.

I feel homeless right now, I feel lost, I want to cry, but I can't cry. I knew that if I continued like this, I would starve to death sooner or later, and that I would have to find a job!

But I don't have an ID card, and I'm too young to have a place to ask for me. However, I ended up working as a waitress in a small restaurant, which didn't pay much but allowed me to steal food often. Although he has been caught by the chef many times, the chef is very good, and he turned a blind eye when nothing major happened.

Time flies quickly, and in a blink of an eye, it is approaching the end of the year. A lot of people are looking for me this month, and I know that my parents must have asked someone to find me, and now the missing person notice is still posted on the telephone pole. But I didn't dare to go back, I was afraid that if I did, the police would take me away and shoot me immediately. I'm more afraid of getting into trouble with them, so I rarely go out during this time of work, just because I'm afraid someone will recognize me. But there is a way to miss relatives every festival, especially during the New Year. I was restless and couldn't sleep. I know, I'm homesick.

In the twenty-third year of the lunar month, every household is setting off firecrackers to welcome the festivities and remove bad luck. I couldn't help it, and I settled my salary with my boss for a few months and went home. I knew I might be arrested and shot as soon as I showed up. But I can't care so much, I have to see my parents when I die.

When I got home, only my mother was at home. She opened the door and saw me visibly flustered. Apparently a little unbelieving his eyes, he immediately hugged me and cried, and I cried too. I said Mom, I'm sorry, I'm worrying you, I'm really not a person, don't worry, I'll turn myself in tomorrow, and my son will honor you in the next life. My mother didn't speak, she just kept holding me and crying, and I let her hold me like this, and before I knew it, I fell asleep.

When I woke up in the evening, my father also came back, and when he saw that I was awake, he didn't say anything, just came over and patted me on the shoulder and sighed.

The winter vacation is slowly passing in this dull time. In a blink of an eye, the second semester of the third year of junior high school will begin. I was surprised why no police arrested me, and later I heard my mother say that my father went to Zhang Liang's house to kneel down to them and beg his parents not to sue me, so this matter did not make a big fuss, but my family lost a lot of medical expenses, and my mother did not say the specific amount, I asked her and she did not tell me, only said that I wanted to study hard.

When I came back to school, my mood was very different, and I felt that the pressure on my body was gone, and I was very relaxed. It's just that I don't know why, but the classmates on the road hurriedly avoided me when they saw me, as if they were afraid that I would eat them.

When I came to this familiar class again, I suddenly had a feeling of returning triumphantly, like a gangster brother who had just been released from prison, and it was amazing. In my own words, Lao Tzu is very inflated now. My classmates looked at me in horror, and when I passed by them, they all stayed away, not daring to touch me, and some of them didn't even dare to look up at me. Fuck, this feeling, it's fucking cool. Do you think I'm a bit of a villain!

Because I was seated at the back, I had to pass by a lot of classmates, and they all knew each other and hid to the side, but one of them jumped in front of me when I returned to my seat, which startled me. I don't need to look at it, I know it's Zhang Liang, I don't know why I'm so sure in my heart, probably because of the feeling of being beaten by him for many years. I looked up slightly, there was no way he was taller than me. I said what's the matter, you still have to do something, right, paralysis didn't give you defeat last time, right? But this forced didn't say anything, and suddenly raised his hand. I thought he was going to hit me again, so I jumped to the side and asked him what he was going to do. I saw him raise his hands and kneel down towards me, kowtow to me with his hands on the ground, and kowtow back while saying that he was wrong, and that he shouldn't have bullied me like that before, and begged me to spare him. He was so embarrassed that he didn't know what to do. I looked around, and the ghost looked at Earphone Ting, and found that she nodded.

I didn't know how to listen to her, and told Zhang Liang to forget it, let the past pass, and I won't pursue it.

Zhang Liang heard the amnesty, hurriedly thanked me, and said that he wanted to recognize me as a big brother and mix with me in the future. My face was expressionless, but my heart was happy, and I suddenly understood one thing - the feeling of pretending to be forced is so good.

I stole a look at Tin, who was doing a math problem. Alas, I really don't understand her!

Fuck, Lao Tzu is very awesome now, in this class, no, the beauties in this school are not up to Lao Tzu to choose. I have to change it every day to make others envy me.

After that, my life was the same as before, except that this time the roles of the monkey show were reversed, and I, the monkey who was laughed at, became a monkey tricker, and Zhang Liang became a monkey. I no longer have to sneak into the toilet or come to class in a panic. I change girlfriends every day. The most important thing is that I can now blatantly look at Earphone Ting's big beautiful legs, and I can look at it however I want. Finally, one day, the war broke out again.

It was Wednesday's lunch break, and I was lying on the table as usual looking at Tinting's beautiful legs. In the past, every time I looked at her, she glared at me a few times at most, but today she was so anxious that she picked up the book on the table and slapped me in the face, saying, "Have you seen enough?" I'll just say what's wrong with Lao Tzu looking at you, aren't you dressed like this for people to see? Earphone Ting listened to me say this, her face turned red as soon as she heard me, and tears came down at that time! When she came up, she slapped me and scolded me and said "you bastard" and ran out.

I covered my numb face and looked at the back of the headphones, at a loss.

In the afternoon, Earphone Ting came to class as usual. Maybe you're still angry with me, sitting in a chair angrily and not saying a word. During class, I secretly threw a note to Earphone Ting, and I asked her why she was angry? What's wrong? Of course, I didn't admit my mistake to her, because I can be regarded as a person with a head and a face now, and I admit my mistakes to others, especially a girl, and I lost face when it goes out! I waited for her answer, but I waited for an afternoon, and she didn't give me the note until it was time for school.

I thought of a thousand languages in which she would answer me, but I didn't expect her to speak to me about that. I opened the note and saw that it read: Yang Fan, what's wrong with you now, you have changed so much, you weren't like this before. Although you are cowardly and timid, you are kind and simple, and you will not be hypocritical or carried away. Look at you now, every day you either bully the weak with Zhang Liang and them, beat people, scold people, collect protection money, or go to pick up girls with them. What's the difference between you and Zhang Liang and them? Also, have you talked to the fat man since you came back? You only know how to hang out with Zhang Liang and them every day! Do you know what? When you disappeared, the fat man was so anxious that he looked for you for several days in a row! And what about you? What did you say to him when you came back? I know I'm not qualified to say anything about you, but I hope you'll be able to do what you want, Mei Ting