1. "I kissed Qiao Yue on the night of the dinner?" Although she is no longer a girl in her cardamom years, when it comes to kissing, she can't help but blush.

She didn't remember what happened that night, she just remembered that she was in a very bad mood and just wanted to go to the beach alone, just like how many times she watched the waves for so many times when she was in Japan.

"Well, I didn't even know that Qiao Yue was back, I saw that you were drunk and walked to the beach alone, afraid that something would happen to you, and I found that Qiao Yue was standing not far away, saw you, and greeted you with a smile. ”

Xiao Yuyang couldn't forget the shock at that moment, what kind of mood Qiao Yue was in when he left, he knew best, now, graduation was imminent, he came back on purpose, he didn't appear in front of everyone, it seemed that he just came back for Cheng Xingtao.

He saw Cheng Xingtao suddenly see Qiao Yue's footsteps hesitate for a moment, then greeted politely and rustically, and continued to move towards the seaside.

It's late, only the street lamps on the side of the road have a faint light, Cheng Xingtao walks on this road is a very remote road, there are no people walking on weekdays, so late, it is even more empty, only her lonely and thin figure is shadowed under the street lamp.

Qiao Yue watched Cheng Xingtao pass by him on the spot, and stopped talking, waiting to confirm that Cheng Xingtao was indeed ignoring him and leaving, under the night light, in the night that he thought no one knew, he showed a sad look.

After a while, Qiao Yue followed and asked, "Where are you going?"

Cheng Xingtao was a little drunk and his body was a little shaky, as if he didn't expect Qiao Yue to follow, he reacted stunned for a while, and then replied slowly: "Oh, I'll go to the beach to blow the wind." ”

"It's late, it's dangerous to be alone, and you're drunk. Qiao Yue said.

Cheng Xingtao took a breath, sniffed it, and did smell a strong smell of wine, and then admitted calmly: "It's a bit too much." ”

Then she said: "Qiao Yue, you go back, I just go to the beach to blow the wind, it will be fine." When I drink, I like to nag, and when the time comes, I will catch you and nag endlessly. ”

After speaking, Cheng Xingtao walked forward by himself.

Qiao Yue didn't listen to Cheng Xingtao's words, but still followed step by step, and said: "It's okay, it's not the first time I know that you like to nag when you drink, and besides, you must want to find someone to talk to now, no one talks, and it's definitely not happy to hold back your heart." ”

Cheng Xingtao has rarely spoken to his classmates since that incident, and after returning from Japan, he has been even more taciturn, almost living an invisible life.

This is the first person in so long to take the initiative to tell her to let her nag him.

Cheng Xingtao was drunk and very sad in her heart, she didn't want to care about anything anymore, since he was willing to listen, it didn't matter what his purpose was, whether it was ridicule or contempt, what did it matter, anyway, even if she covered her ears, covered her eyes, and didn't listen or look, those contemptuous and sarcastic voices and eyes still existed.

But in the eyes of the person in front of him, there was no look of disgust and disgust.

Ignoring him anymore, Cheng Xingtao began to walk while chattering: "Isn't it sad that you graduated? ”

Qiao Yue was silent for a while, and then hummed softly for a long time.

"Do you think I'm sad?" Cheng Xingtao suddenly asked with a smile, she turned around, her eyebrows and eyes curled to look at Qiao Yue, under the dim light, her eyes were so sad, anyone could see her sadness at the moment.

"Sad. Qiao Yue replied.

Cheng Xingtao was a little disappointed, lowered her eyes, turned around and continued to walk slowly.

"I'm so sorry, I thought I was so happy to ask you, you would definitely say that you are not sad. After a pause, she asked, "Then what do you think I'm sad about?"

"Parting, parting with love, parting with those close to you. Qiao Yue replied almost without thinking.

Unexpectedly, Cheng Xingtao looked at him in surprise, the corners of his mouth grinned involuntarily, and even laughed.

She laughed for a while, and even burst into tears, she touched the tears in the corners of her eyes, and said, "So you think parting is the saddest thing, right?"

"Isn't it?" Qiao Yue asked strangely.

Cheng Xingtao put away her smile, looked at Qiao Yue with clear eyes, and asked, "Have you seen Makoto Shinkai's "The Other Side of the Clouds, the Promised Place"?"

Qiao Yue shook his head, he watched very few animations, and even if he did, most of them were American 3D animations.

"I really like Makoto Shinkai," Cheng Xingtao said, "His works always give people a deep sense of loneliness and helplessness, unlike other works that always have villains, and there is external pressure to resist the protagonist, I feel that in Makoto Shinkai's works, the pain of the protagonists often comes from their hearts, from an invisible pressure and obstruction." ”

Cheng Xingtao said to himself as he walked.

"There is a line in "Beyond the Clouds, the Promised Place", which I always remember very clearly. Fujisawa said that in a city of 30 million people, if you think about it, there is no one who wants to meet or talk to. ”

As he spoke, Cheng Xingtao glanced at Qiao Yue on the side, his voice became low, and he sighed: "We live in a country with the largest population in the world, bustling every day, passing by countless people, but among these people, how many people can make us remember, and how many people remember us." When I think about it like this, I feel very pitiful. In the crowd, but still alone. ”

Cheng Xingtao knew that her nagging would definitely be annoying, but she didn't care, he listened if he wanted to, and left if he didn't want to listen, she didn't force it, for her, if someone listens to it and no one listens, what does it matter.

"So, what are you sad for?" Qiao Yue still asked persistently.

Cheng Xingtao stared at Qiao Yue and smiled, this person is really strange, she said so many things to him, but he still wondered why she was sad, as if the reason for her sadness was very important.

"I'm leaving, I'm leaving this place, and I probably won't set foot in this land again. She said.

"Hmm. Qiao Yue replied gently.

"I'm sad, but it's not because I'm reluctant to give up this city, I'm reluctant to be this group of people, the reason for my sadness is the opposite. Cheng Xingtao said, "I feel sad because I am leaving this place where I have lived for four years, but I have no nostalgia for this place at all, and there is no one worthy of my concern." For four years, it was as if I had never lived here seriously, as if I had never left a trace here. It's as if I've had a dream that I woke up and forgot in the past four years, leaving nothing behind. ”