Xie Bai's words vividly exposed Fu Jiayue's disguised heart in front of the two of them, Fu Jiayue's heart seemed to be dripping blood, she was silent for a long time before she replied, "Xie Bai, you are still the same as before, you can't lie at all, not even comforting people's lies." Pen | fun | pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 ｉｎｆｏ”

It's just that every word Fu Jiayue said didn't look at Xie Bai, as if she looked at Xie Bai more, she would continue to be hurt by his words.

Xie Bai still said, "There are many things in this world that are more difficult to accept, if even such a thing has to be solved by deception, then doesn't life still seem much sader?"

"I think my life is pretty sad right now. Fu Jiayue was finally discouraged, and she only heard her say as if she was not angry.

"You care about your people!" Xie Bai continued.

In Xie Bai's eyes, Fu Jiayue is actually happy, whether it is Fu Jiayue's past life or this life, she lives in a rich family, has relatives who love her, and has the ability to want everything.

It's just that people are animals that don't get easy satisfaction, but when you really get something or something, you will only treat it as a sparse and ordinary thing, instead of treating it as a reward from God, instead of treating it as a kind of luck.

That's when other troubles follow.

In this world, no one lives easily, and if there is, it is only a superficial phenomenon, and it is just an illusion that people show in order to deceive themselves and others in this complicated world.

After all, it's not everyone who likes to expose their weaknesses in front of those who are nearby.

Fu Jiayue shook her head with a wry smile and replied, "However, I don't have the person I want to see. ”

Xie Bai still said that it was not salty or light, "Not every aspect will be perfect." ”

At this moment, the only thing he can do is to let Fu Jiayue think it clearly, these things, no matter how clear he is, are useless, it is only useful for Fu Jiayue to think clearly by himself.

Only by letting her think clearly and let her dare to face her own heart will make her life less difficult.

Fu Jiayue shook her head with a smile, but she didn't continue on this topic.

After a moment, I heard her ask, "Don't you want to know more about Fanfan?" For example, don't you want to know the reason why I named him Fanfan?"

Xie Bai didn't have too many emotional waves when he knew from her mouth that Fan Fan was his biological son, although Fu Jiayue was still a little expected, but after seeing Xie Bai like this with his own eyes, he was still a little surprised.

Xie Bai didn't continue in the topic just now, and only answered Fu Jiayue's current question, "Ordinary, ordinary, it's also good in a certain way, at least, ordinary, it's not so energetic to think about too many things, to be troubled by too many things, at least ordinary, that is, because you have to run around for life and don't have too much leisure to be tied up by the mundane things in the world, it's also good." ”

In fact, if there is a choice, Xie Bai also hopes that he can be ordinary, so that he will not have to live so hard in this life, such a life, such a life full of disputes, Xie Bai actually does not want to live, such a life is too tiring, in fact, it has never been the ideal life in his mind.

If he could, he would not let Fan Fan come into contact with the disputes in this court in the future, this court is a place where people eat people and do not spit out bones, and everything is an unknown certainty.

In his opinion, the appearance of toiling for life is not bad.

In that case, in fact, it is not really mediocre, in the final analysis, it is just the difference in everyone's pursuits.

Sometimes, I want him to be ordinary, but sometimes, I think he should be a boy, not mediocre, he shouldn't be a mediocre person, he shouldn't be idle all his life, if I confine him in that small village just because of my selfishness, so that he can't get in touch with the chaotic world outside, so that he can't know what his 'ambition' is, then my selfishness may ruin his life. Fu Jiayue said very sincerely, this kind of thought had surfaced in Fu Jiayue's mind more than a hundred times, but this was the first time she said it.

"You are a good mother. Xie Bai's short sentence easily refuted a large part of what Fu Jiayue said.

"No, I'm not," Fu Jiayue shook her head with a miserable smile, and said helplessly, "That's because you didn't see how I treated Fan Fan in those years, and you chose to say that." ”

Xie Bai still denied it, "You are his mother, you won't do anything too crazy to him, just like when you see him sick now, you still watch him day and night for three days." ”

Xie Bai had always believed only what he saw in his own eyes.

Fu Jiayue thought that she had spoken the truest thoughts in her heart, "I'm just guilty of it." ”

"No, you are in love with him. Xie Bai seemed to be in anal contact with Fu Jiayue, Fu Jiayue didn't say a word to demean herself, he just said a sentence to refute her.

Fu Jiayue knew that it was difficult for Xie Bai to believe it easily with just a few pale words from her.

Fu Jiayue took a deep breath and said the thoughts that were sealed in the bottom of her heart, "When I was in the small village, there was a time when I didn't even want to see him, because, every time I saw his face, I couldn't help but think of you, Qiao Yushu, and everything that was messy when I was in the capital. So, I always avoided him, but, ironically, he loved to pester me, and he always found me. He would tell me every time he was done, and I knew that he was trying to get my attention, he was trying to get my attention. ”

In fact, Fu Jiayue doesn't want to touch these things, because, whenever she thinks of these things, Fu Jiayue has to admit her cruelty, she has to admit her selfishness, Fan Fan is just a child from beginning to end, just a child who doesn't understand anything.

Fu Jiayue paused, as if she was calming down her chaotic heart, Xie Bai didn't interrupt her, just waited for her to say everything she wanted to say.

For a moment, I only heard Fu Jiayue continue, "I also came from the childhood stage, how can I not understand his flowery little intestines? However, I can pretend not to understand, so I ignore him, I just ignore what he says to me, and over time, he doesn't like to pester me so much." ”

"It's just that I know that he actually wants to be close to me, and he actually wants to be close to me. He was a child, and he liked to be cared for, to be loved, and I knew this feeling best, but I pulled him back from his fantasy to reality. As she spoke, Fu Jiayue's voice was already a little more choked.

Fu Jiayue shook her head with a wry smile and said, "I know that he is secretly observing me, he thinks he is hiding very secretly, he just doesn't want to make me angry, and I know this." ”

"It's funny to say, not only did I not want to see him, but I also lost my temper with him because he pestered me to show me a picture he had drawn. ”

"It took him three days to draw it. To be honest, it was ugly, so I didn't want to look at it at all. Maybe it was because I was snubbed for too long, when he finally had red eyes, but not only did I not comfort him, but I became angry with him. I said, I hate kids who like to pester people. ”

"He didn't cry, but I saw the sparkle in his eyes clearly, and I knew he wanted to cry, but he didn't have a shoulder to snuggle on, but he didn't have someone to care about him. ”

"I didn't say anything about his painting until one day, when I saw him take it out of his pillow before he went to bed, and he muttered something about it, which I couldn't hear, but when he said it, he went to sleep. ”

"I thought that he had just lost the painting that day, but I didn't want to, because he had kept it all along. ”

……

Saying that, Fu Jiayue's heart swelled with countless pains, at that time, Fan Fan's lost appearance, she still remembered it clearly, at that time, she seemed to see the previous life she was waiting for her brother to come back in the mansion.

At that time, God knows how much she wanted to embrace Fan Fan in her arms and give him warmth, but she knew that she still couldn't cross the hurdle in her heart, and she still couldn't convince herself to love Xie Bai's child.

That would be a punishment for her heart, and it would not allow her to redeem herself.

Because, when she escaped from the capital, Fu Jiayue thought that she could escape from that pain, so she didn't want to, when she successfully put a lot of effort into Tao Liu's sling, she was entangled by other things, and she didn't have much spare heart.

Therefore, even when she watched Fan Fan's heartache again, she couldn't let herself give up the idea of not wanting to get close to Fan Fan.

"You don't feel good either. As he spoke, Xie Bai's eyes were also darkened.

Although Xie Bai did not blame Fu Jiayue for these practices, Fan Fan was only a child of a few years old, and he even couldn't imagine what kind of endurance this child's heart had when he suffered such an encounter at such a young age.

When he first saw Fan Fan, Xie Bai felt that he was a ruthless and cheerful child, and Fan Fan was a child with a sunny mentality in Xie Bai's mind.

If these things were said by someone else, instead of Fu Jiayue's mouth, Xie Bai would not believe it, because he couldn't believe that a child could still behave as cheerfully as an ordinary person after encountering this.

Although children should be carefree, they are still people who can think on their own.

Listening to Xie Bai's patient persuasion over and over again, Fu Jiayue's heart warmed, but the words in her mouth were the same, "No, to put it bluntly, I'm just a selfish guy, he's just a child, just a child who hasn't even experienced and seen the big world, I have selfishly imprisoned him in this small village, but I still want to hurt him, after all, he is still so young, he doesn't understand anything, and coming to this world has never been what he expected." ”

"Jia Yue-" Xie Bai didn't know what to say to comfort Fu Jia Yue for a while, so he could only call her by name.

Suddenly, Fu Jiayue asked, "Xie Bai, to be honest, do you think I'm selfish? Back then, because of my selfishness, I chose to leave the capital, because of my selfishness, I tried to keep Fan Fan by my side for the rest of my life, so that he would be by my side for the rest of my life." I felt like I was selfish, so selfish that I couldn't stand it. ”

Although, in fact, Fu Jiayue already had a positive answer to this point, but she just wanted to hear it from Xie Bai's mouth in person.

Xie Bai shook his head, still denying it, "You shouldn't say that about yourself, if you can say this, it means that you didn't mean to do it at the beginning, and when everyone can't get by, it's better to pass." ”

Fu Jiayue also shook her head, not admitting Xie Bai's statement, "No, I did it on purpose, I am such a person with a dark heart, I look down on myself." ”

If all this could be easily concluded with "intentional or unintentional", she wouldn't have to worry about it for so long.

Between the two, there was a deathly silence for a while, and the two looked at each other, obviously they both had something to say to each other, but when the words came to their mouths, they were difficult to say at the same time.

After a long time, I heard Xie Bai ask again, "After returning to the capital, how do you plan to face Lu Tiance?"

Hearing this, Fu Jiayue was shocked, and there was also a trace of worry and fear in her eyes.

Fu Jiayue didn't want to suffer that feeling of being in her heart anymore, this feeling was too disturbing, too much to disturb her heart, so that she couldn't let herself be redeemed.

Seeing that Fu Jiayue didn't answer, Xie Bai continued, "You have been able to escape for the past five years, but after you go back, you will not be able to escape no matter what. ”

The matter between the three of them can be solved either by escaping, no matter how long it takes, it is necessary to set aside time to solve it, otherwise, this matter will only become a shadow in the hearts of the three of them, interfering with the three of them every day for the next day, and making the three of them miserable.

"He, is he okay?

"Since you left, he hasn't stayed by Fu Jiu's side anymore. ”

"And where did he go?"

"He is still in Concubine Han's palace, but he no longer works for Fu Ji. ”

"That's fine. ”

"He didn't let you go. ”

"I haven't let you go either. ”

"Xie Bai, don't worry, I'm no longer the willful Fu Jiayue I used to be, I know what to do and what not to do, I understand everything, I know what to do, you don't have to worry that I have anything to do with Qiao Yushu anymore, I won't take the initiative to find him." ”